Posted in DOUX, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Legacy, Lelutka

I got so numb

Unlucky for you
I’m queen of the bored
And I’m like Cleopatra
I get what I want
I lean in but then I check right out
I don’t flinch because it doesn’t hurt
And what is god if it’s no one there
And there’s no proof that you ever cared about me
About me
I fuck with the fates
Because it’s so much fun
And I don’t feel a thing
Cause I got so numb
I lean in but then I check right out
I don’t flinch because it doesn’t hurt
And what is god if no one’s there
And what is god if there’s no proof
There ain’t no proof
You got no proof
I lean in but then I check right out
I don’t flinch because it doesn’t hurt
And there’s no proof that you ever cared about me

hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: #3 — PUMEC – NADYA – JANUARY — LELUTKA x BOM @ Epiphany
tattoo: Apocalyptic Love & Passion @ Uber

(Yummy) The Dreamers Set @ Uber
(Yummy) Daisy Ring Collection @ C88
.miss chelsea. Ibis @ Uber
(shirt, bodysuit, jeans)

pose: FOXCITY. Lucid Bento Pose Set

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, vinyl

Time to Liberate

“Four walls like a prison
Feels like another victim
Something’s wrong
Something’s missing
You scream when it hurts but there’s nobody listenin’
Gettin’ sick of going psycho
Burnin’ quick, a downward spiral
Not a slave or an animal
Someone break me out this cage
It’s time to liberate
From everyone who loves to hate
From everything that’s makin’ you live the lie
Don’t you think it’s time to twist your fate
Liberate”
~ James Durbin – Liberate

ready to fight

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Carla @ Collabor88

[LF] Native Paint
SU!– Nosebleed
tattoo: .Identity. Body Shop – Free Yourself

no.match_ ~ NO_RING @ Salon 52
SU!– Safety Pin Earrings (group gift)
.::Nanika::. Leah Necklace
Meva Sora Gloves Box
VINYL – Smash Ripped Top
RKKN. Avalon LoosePants

K&S – // adventurous gal // Bento poses (includes bat)

location: Small Town Green

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life

We Have Our Ways

I use my blog to work things out on paper sometimes. I’ll write about stuff I’m going through or stuff that I’ve watched friends go through. Sometimes I talk about how much I dislike people, but the truth is….people fascinate me. They also scare the shit outta me, because in the past I’ve let people get too close too fast and it has rarely worked out. These days, my trust issues are the size of full blown subscriptions and prevent that from happening too often these days, but even the slow grown friends have been known to burn me on occasion.
Now, with all that said, I’d like to say that I do have an amazing group of good friends that will not burn me. Nor I them. I’ve had issues with three of them and like grown ass adults, we worked through it every time. We’re not perfect, but we have our ways of understanding what matters at the end of the day. Our love for one another is bigger than the petty shit we tend to get upset about. I am so blessed to be surrounded by beautiful, strong souls that love me as much as I love them. It shouldn’t surprise anyone to know that my best friends are cunts and motherfuckers….*laughs*….yes, that’s what we call each other and ourselves. We’re not families, we like cults, and there’s no getting out! *grins*

snapshot_054

wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant // Veep hair @ FaMESHed
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
.:I ProFect I:. Valea Mesh Eyes @ Unik
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

[Eternus] Spring Flutter Tiara @ Salon52
< IDEALIA > TINA Necklace @ Unik
alme. Mesh Stiletto Nails – Pinks Medium Glitter @ Belle
Vibing — Destiny Rings — Rose gold

TETRA – Freebird top @ C88
TETRA – Freebird skirt @ C88

pose: Lyrium. Neva Series Walking Poses @ Unik

background is at a friend’s house

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Mina Hair, Second Life, shopping

Lady Licorice

The moment I saw this corset, I knew it was a must have simply for the shape and details. Then I got the hud and was able to play with the details even more. As I played with the color options, I came up with this color combination and immediately thought of these Good & Plenty candies that I always wanted as a kid. Problem was, I only wanted them cuz they looked so pretty. You see, they were actually licorice and I hate licorice! So, I’d get them, put one in my mouth, then spit and spew like a little maniac. Don’t worry, Tracy, the candy didn’t go to waste. My father loved licorice. *laughs* Oddly enough, I kinda feel like that candy in Second Life. The occasional man will approach me, but when they find out that I’m not just going to spread my legs for them…they keep on truckin. Which is fine. I’m clearly an acquired taste, just like Lady Licorice here. *winks*

Lady Licorice

wearing:
hair: MINA – Kayla (*new* @ Sultry)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
ears: .:[PUMEC] :. – / Mesh Ears\ – Worm
SU!– Piercing Set 07 Septum & Nose Studs
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

(Yummy) Art Deco Rings (*new* @ C88)
Wicca’s Originals – Dita Corset (*new* @ FrouFrou)

pose: FOXCITY. Lolita Bento Pose Set**
****includes Hearty Spanker prop
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Blank Minds

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Second Life

Paint it Black

“I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a new born baby it just happens ev’ry day
I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door I must have it painted black
Maybe then I’ll fade away and not have to face the facts
It’s not easy facin’ up, when your whole world is black”

city nights

 

wearing:
hair: Wasabi // Pancake Mesh Hair (*new* @ Belle)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
ears: .:[PUMEC] :. – / Mesh Ears\ – Winter Flower
SU!– Piercing Set 07 Septum & Nose Studs
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

*AvaWay* NAUGHTY KITTEN Necklace
[ kunst ] – Diva Cigarette Holder
(Yummy) Art Deco Rings (*new* @ C88)

TETRA – Cara Fur Jacket (*new* @ C88)
TETRA – Cara Lace Skirt (*new* @ C88)

pose: FOXCITY. Lolita Bento Pose Set
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – City Life

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life, TMD

Fade Into You

“I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take the breath that’s true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth
You live your life, you go in shadows
You’ll come apart and you’ll go black
Some kind of night into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what’s not there
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it’s strange you never knew
A stranger’s light comes on slowly
A stranger’s heart without a home
You put your hands into your head
And then smiles cover your heart
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it’s strange you never knew”
~ Mazzy Star – Fade Into You

sweet home alabama

she is wearing:
hair: –FABIA– Mesh Hair < Silvia> (*new* @ Unik)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia (*new* @ Cupid Inc)
nails: alme. MS Gold Triangle Tip (*new* @ Belle)

(Yummy) Art Deco Rings (*new* @ C88)
[Aleutia] Betty Top & Panties (*new* @ ROMP)

pose: PURPLE POSES – Couple 692

**his hair: Dura-889 (*new* @ TMD)

for information regarding the background see previous post: Nothing Lasts

Posted in CandyDoll, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Second Life, shopping

No time to hate

“I got no time to hate people who hate me. I’m too busy loving the people who love me.” ~RuPaul

I have to admit that I’ve been binging on RuPaul’s DragRace All Stars and I swear those ladies are the fiercest of the fierce! They make me wish I could be a drag queen! Alas, I cannot, for I’m not only a woman, but I’ve got the grace of a crack head in a porcelain factory. Just another reason for me to love the outlet that Second Life provides me. Here I can dress up or dress down. I can be as sexy as I want to be and despite those that call this platform a game, those emotions…those feelings…they flow through me from this virtual world into the real world. I heard RuPaul say the quote above the other night and the very next day, someone special to me that I thought hated me came to me. We confronted the issues we’ve been having and we’ve decided to start clean. We need each other, because we both fight a lot of the same demons. I’m taking this gift (quote) from RuPaul and I’m going to apply it to my life. I will remember it and stop letting the negative energies of others enter my bubble.

jealous sea

wearing:
hair: #Besom~Josie
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
eyes: -SU!- Astrid Eyes
^^Swallow^^ Princess Ears
body: –Belleza– Freya
skin: [theSkinnery] Emmy (*new* @ C88)

(Yummy) Comfy Cozy Ring Set (*new* @ C88)
Ascendant – Midnight Call Nails (*new* @ Vanity)
_CandyDoll_ Zoey Bra
_CandyDoll_ Zoey Panties
_CandyDoll_ Zoey Socks

pose by BauHaus Movement
[Dollmart]Empress Chair

 

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Cynful, Events, Foxcity, Reign, Second Life, shoes, shopping

The Five Year Rule

Quite some time ago, I saw a Cher interview in which she said that he mother gave her some advice that she now calls the five year rule, “If its not going to matter in five years, then its doesn’t matter.”

Clearly, this is easier done than said, but when you really think about it, its good sensible advice. I’ve applied this as often as I can and it certainly helps with the little stuff. Oddly enough all that little stuff adds up and once you let go of the anger over all that little stuff, its like a giant weight off your shoulders. Like you got rid of a huge problem, but really you just let go of the little ones. It really can make a big difference in your daily life. So, the next time you find yourself getting upset over something, ask yourself if it will matter in five years.

princess

wearing:
hair: #Foxy – Latte Hair (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
eyes: –SU!- Astrid Eyes
body: –Belleza– Freya
skin: [theSkinnery] Emmy (*new* @ C88)

(Yummy) Comfy Cozy Ring Set (*new* @ C88)
[Cynful] Pajama Silk Set (*new* @ C88)
REIGN.- UNICORN SLIPPERS

pose: FOXCITY. Partition Bento Pose Set
[Merak] – Leather Loveseat (White)

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Cynful, Second Life, shopping

A Ski Mask and Some Rope

Tracy Redangel met my Challenge to Challenge post by suggesting a ski mask and a jump rope. I swear I think she chose those things just to get me worked up. She knows my mind is going straight to porn! However, as the holidays have been exceptionally hard on me this year, I can’t help but think of all the good uses for a ski mask and a rope…like hanging my ex from a tree…or his whore. Both bring a nice little smile to my face. Thank goodness its not illegal to fantasize about murder. I could never actually do it, of course, but these thoughts dance through my head often. Especially when you go to a party and see another ex there with the whore HE left you for, too. Yeah, I get it. I suck. Don’t date me…oh wait…that would imply someone was trying. *cracks up*
So goes life, I’ll just be over here with my murderous fantasies. *grins*All I Need Now

wearing:
hair: DOUX  – Zoe hairstyle
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: –Belleza– Freya
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

[BODY FACTORY] Shanks Mask
*FU*KME* COLLAR CHRISTMAS BLACK POM POMS
[Cynful] Aurora’s Classy Shawl (@ Collabor88 until Jan 6th)
[Cynful] Aurora’s Classy Dress (@ Collabor88 until Jan 6th)

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Exploration, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative

Roses in the Snow

Believe it or not, this post springs from the Challenge to Challenge. Lizzy Plantagenet gave me a rosebush and snow. For this challenge, I kinda cheated, but it IS my blog afterall…lol. Seriously though, this reminded me of a song that I hadn’t thought about in ages. It’s one of those haunting songs that stays with you long after you listen to it.

Nico – Roses in the Snow

He came your way and when he had to go
There were roses growing in the snow
Silently, you’ll go through the shadow of your soul
And you know that it was like this before we had to go

You will never see these lights
Glowing in your nights
Until you feel this way

With every moon
It is as though you’re getting closer to your soul
And then you go alone, and with no fear
Then you will know that it was like this before he had to go
And you will find that you were blind
Until you saw these lights
Glowing in your nights

He came your way and when he had to go
There were roses growing in the snow
Silently you’ll go through the shadow of your soul
But you know it was like this before he had to go

You will never see these lights
Glowing in your nights
If you don’t know
And there are roses growing in the snow

Roses in the snow

wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant // Hope hair (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

EarthStones Diamond Kitty Necklace (*new* @ TLC)
~LYBRA . Winter Jacket Black (*new* @ Imaginarium)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Not So Basic (*new* @ eBENTO)
location: The Four Villages