Posted in Blueberry, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

Nightmare

Yes, I’m on a song kick right now. I can’t know how long it will last, but for now music is speaking volumes more than I’m capable. So, hopefully you’ll discover some new songs or lyrics.

Nyxx – Nightmare

I wanted every part of you
Just you and no one else
You wanted me alone
But never to yourself

You say I’m crazy and I might be
But if you only knew
That there’s something inside me
With it’s sights set on you
It’s kicking, it’s screaming
You’re begging and pleading,
And there’s no escape from me

I am the nightmare
Like you’ve never known
I am the shadow
That follows you home
And I cannot wait baby
To get you alone
The things I’m gonna do to you
The things I’m gonna do to you

You led me to the edge and told me we could fly
You watched me fall into your hands, now I’m alive
You said you wanted me more
I savored every word, now
I thought it was real
But I was wrong

You say I’m crazy and I might be
But if you only knew
That there’s something inside me
With it’s sights set on you
It’s kicking, it’s screaming

I am the nightmare
Like you’ve never known
I am the shadow
That follows you home
And I cannot wait baby
To get you alone
The things I’m gonna do to you
The things I’m gonna do to you

In the deepest darkness–
I’m coming for you
Like a quick, cold hand–
I’m reaching for you
You’ll fear me, feel me–
Just like a chill
I was your black sheep baby–
Now I’m dressed to kill

woven

wearing:
hair: tram G1204 hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Imani Applier ( Catwa ) America
tattoo: .Identity. Body Shop – Rise Again
[Atomic] Kitten Collar
::GB::Mini down jacket
.::Dead Dollz::. Basic Underwear (*new* @ TLC)
Blueberry – Tinker Set

FOXCITY. Loco Bento Pose Set (*new* @ K9)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Trapped (January Group Gift)

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Gos, pr!tty, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, {le fil casse}

Not a Gift

Every year at Christmas we are bombarded with ads for new cars. We see some weeping wife come out to a car with a giant bow on top. We might see a husband come outside all delighted to the same thing. Occasionally, its a teenager, but here’s the thing that kills me. These commercials rarely tell you the actual cost of the car, its all about the financing. Zero percent down, zero interest for this long, blah blah blah. I’m sorry to inform you, but if its not paid for then its not a gift. Its a loaner with a promise.
You see, many many years ago, I was in a relationship with a man that bought me the most beautiful living room suit for my birthday. I was over the moon. It was leopard print and had this gorgeous elephant coffee table. I went crazy decorating with all sorts of jungle themed touches. It was that same birthday that he took me to a party of some girl he worked with and we had a good time. A couple of weeks later I find out he’s been cheating on me with THAT girl. Needless to say that relationship came to an abrupt halt. A few weeks later, some men showed up with a moving truck to reclaim my living room suit, because it had been financed and wasn’t paid off! The one good thing I thought I had gotten from that relationship was being ripped out from under me and now I had no furniture at all. Why? Because I had given mine away when he surprised me with the new stuff.
So, dear car dealers, unless Mom, Dad, Wifey, Hubby, etc are coming in with the full cost of the car….that is NOT a gift!

a new car

wearing:
hair: pr!tty – Chae – :rigged: (*new* @ Gacha Gardens)
head: CATWA HEAD Uma
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
tattoo: [White~Widow] Chocolat – Black
**RE** Raven Collar – Lock
{le fil casse} Sheena Top (*new* @ Uber)
=Zenith=Leather Belt Gloves
Astralia – Compatible mesh nails system
GingerFish -Nail Applier-Astralia-Bloody Kisses
Blueberry – Poppy Leggings
[Gos] Boutique – Monza Belted Boots (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: Foxcity Souffle Set

scene:
taikou / late night tunnel backdrop (lights on)
! [MiChIGaN’s ShAcK!] Hard Driven – Premium Edition

Posted in Blueberry, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Hairology, Second Life, shoes, shopping, United Colors

Hurts Like Hell

Fleurie – Hurts Like Hell

How can I say this without breaking
How can I say this without taking over
How can I put it down into words
When it’s almost too much for my soul alone

I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
And it hurts like hell
Yeah it hurts like hell

I don’t want them to know the secrets
I don’t want them to know the way I loved you
I don’t think they’d understand it, no
I don’t think they would accept me, no

I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
And it hurts like hell
Yeah it hurts like hell

Dreams fight with machines
Inside my head like adversaries
Come wrestle me free
Clean from the war
Your heart fits like a key
Into the lock on the wall
I turn it over, I turn it over
But I can’t escape
I turn it over, I turn it over

I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
And it hurts like hell

Hurts Like Hell

wearing:
Izzie’s – Mesh Earmuffs
hair:  :::Phoenix::: Madeline Hair (*new* @ Hairology)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
UC_X_winter_top (*new* @ Winter Trend)
Blueberry – Poppy Leggings
N-core BIANCA (*new* @ Winter Trend)

pose: Foxcity Solitude Set
location: de*cid*u*ous

 

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Home Decor, Jian, Lybra, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Tannenbaum, Uber SL

Deva’s Question

I have to admit I was a bit nervous when I did the post, “Dangerous Proposition.” For one thing, I wasn’t sure if anyone would even read the post, much less comment with a suggestion. While there hasn’t been a great deal of responses, I did get enough to keep me writing a bit longer. Today, I’m going to attempt to answer Deva Westland. She said, “You know… one thing I would ask you, blog wise… is kind of that “What would you say to your younger self” thing. I know you gave excellent advice to new bloggers the other month, but is there anything you have learned about yourself, or SL/ your SL through blogging which has been interesting?”
Leave it to Deva to ask me such a loaded question. The problem with talking to myself in the past is that the younger me wouldn’t listen. She never did. I still don’t. I try to, I promise I do, but I’m a student of Hard Knocks. The most valuable lessons in my life have been learned the hardest way possible. I’ve learned a lot more about photography and a good bit about promoting my blog. I’ve learned to become a blog manager and that I actually love being a blog manager as if not more than blogging itself. I just love seeing how creative people can be and I’m blown away by some of the talent. It really does show when a blogger loves what they do vs a blogger that clearly does blogging for free stuff and attention. That’s about as clear of an answer as I can give, Devalicious. I’m not sure if I did your question justice, but I tried. ♥

blue xmas

wearing:
hair:  .Olive. the Merry Hair (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
LYBRA . Soft Coat Blue  (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
Blueberry – Cake Leggings
N-core ABBY (*new* @ District 20)
JIAN Portable Purritos 4. Grey (*new* @ Arcade)

pose: Foxcity Me Time Set

scene:
.gypsy heart. Festive Backdrops – Snowy Cliff (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
:CP: Vetur Twinkling Stars (*new* @ Uber)
Trompe Loeil – Hammered Silver Sleigh (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Fancy Decor: Wire Tree (silver)  (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
Fancy Decor: Tree Decorations 2 (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

Posted in Chic Moda, Events, Fashion, Klubwerk.poses, Second Life, shopping

The Devil’s Shadow

I wish I could blog everything I’ve gotten from the event For the Love of Devil, but I simply don’t have time. So, this is my final post dedicated to the event and Andrea. As it will end on the 11th, I urge you to visit ASAP. If you’ve ever had the honor of meeting Andrea, you will know what a wonderful person she is and the beautiful energy that she radiates. Even if you’ve only friended her on Facebook, you will have seen and felt her love. She is one of the most genuinely loving people I have ever known. So, why did I call this the Devil’s Shadow? Because ironically enough, standing in Andrea’s shadow is one of the brightest places one could be. ♥

devil's shadow

hair: #Foxy – Seventeen Hair (For the Love of the Devil)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
necklace: .::Supernatural::. Romance [Silver]  (For the Love of the Devil)
ChicModa // Bonnie //  Bonus Devil Heart Shirt (For the Love of the Devil)
Blueberry – Kimi Skirt

pose: KlubWerK.poses – Andrea – (For the Love of the Devil)
MINIMAL – VIBE Backdrop *3* -Black- (*new* @ Epiphany)

Posted in Blueberry, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Phedora, pr!tty, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes, shopping

Another Year Older

It’s my birthday and despite all the terrible things that have happened in my life in the month of October over the years, it remains my favorite month of the year and I still get excited about my birthday. I remember my mother when she was my age and how with each year she got more and more bitter until she hit 60 and quit caring. For me, its just about that one day of the year that’s just supposed to be a great day. From start to finish. I am the QUEEN for one day of the year and this is it! It doesn’t hurt that I absolutely love skulls, ravens, and crows. As it makes me easy to shop for and I’m super appreciative of thoughtful gifts. (Keyword there was thoughtful.)
I already know this is going to be a great day, despite the fact that I’m awake at 2am writing my blog. I’ve been blessed the past couple of weeks with some amazing surprises from Josh and Grace with the promise of another amazing gift coming my way from Rebel. And although, I’m not wearing them in this photo, I received the most incredible gift from Cynthia from Cynful…a pair of jeans named after me. It was just last year that she and I were introduced at my surprise birthday party. It was also that day that she agreed to take me on as a blogger for three months as a favor to my broface, Luis. Since then I’ve taken on more than a blogger role with Cynful and I now consider Cynthia a real friend, even if she is a mean ole German who won’t tell me stuff! *giggles* She’s actually amazing.
This past year has been filled with ups and downs, but mostly ups and I am confident that this next year will be no different. Things are going well for me these days and I’m happy in almost every area of my life. I can say that my Second Life has never been better. I have the most amazing friends and I don’t just mean my cunts (Kess, Tracy, and GraceFace). It goes much deeper than that. There are not enough pics in my profile to brag or touch on them all, nor is even one blog post enough to dedicate to each one of them. I am truly THAT blessed! My birthday wish this year is no secret and its not even for me, despite this being a Blueberry post….hint hint…*eyes Sofia and Blue*…my wish this year is for all of you. It is my wish that this next year is as full of love and laughter as mine has been and continues to be, for there’s no better gift than love and laughter as far as I’m concerned. (Although, my friends have sure given me some pretty fucking amazing presents!) So, happy Friday to you all and given that my birthday is on a Friday this year, that means NEXT Friday is a 13th! Another lucky day for me!!

pretty in pink

wearing:
hair:  pr!tty  – Purrs – [All Color Huds] ULTRARARE (*new* @ Gacha Guardians)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Dahlia – Abeille – Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Dahlia – Abeille – Ring (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Blueberry – Kimi Jacket
Blueberry – Kimi Skirt
Phedora ~ Anemoni heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY.  On Point Bento Pose Set
anxiety %2200 (*new* @ Industrie)

 

Posted in Animals, Events, Fashion, Jian, Narcisse, Prism Events, Salem, Second Life, shopping

Wicked Web

People are so often thoughtless when dealing with one another online. They forget that there is a real human being with emotions and feelings behind the screen. It’s not just in Second Life, its everywhere. The horrible things people say to celebrities on Twitter. Do people think that simply because they are famous they have no feelings? Would you walk up to them face to face and say those things? I have to wonder when someone suggests that anyone should be impaled or should kill themselves, simply because they disagree with what someone else did or said…how would that person feel if the tables were turned.
Imagine, you’re just living your life the best you can. You’re pursuing your dreams and pushing yourself to be more creative, to try new things, and suddenly you are bombarded with horrendous insults, death threats, and even suggestions of suicide? You’ve not hurt anyone. Seriously, your actions did absolutely no harm to a single soul. You merely made someone uncomfortable or made a change that temporarily inconvenienced someone’s plans. You upset the norm, but no physical, mental, or emotional harm was done AT ALL. Yet, you are buried under an onslaught of cruel and callous insults. How would that make you feel? I wish people would consider these things before tossing about comments and “feedback” filled with wretchedness and hate. Isn’t there enough of that in the world? Must we be so venomous to one another, simply because we’re somewhat anonymous behind a keyboard?
Its a wicked little web we weave when we carelessly seek to hurt people we don’t even know. Whether you believe in karma or not, no one is immune to a taste of their own medicine. Please, in the name of humanity, stop the toxicity, stop the hate.

the web

wearing:
hair:  .Atomic.. Hair // Witch Bitch  (*new* @ Salem)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Blueberry – Babe Top
Narcisse– Halloween Skater Skirt (*new* in Trick or Treat Box)

pose: FOXCITY. Good Morning Bento Set
scene:
*NW* Coffin Skybox (*new* @ Salem)
JIAN House Spider (*new* @ Salem)

Posted in Collabor88, Drunk Panda, E.A.Studio, Events, Fashion, Second Life

Hold My Hand

When I saw this pose by Drunk Panda, I knew exactly what I wanted to do and the perfect way to dedicate another post to Josh, because I’m not the best at showing him how much he means to me. He’s always posting these romantic and sexy memes to my page on FB. Sometimes I can’t fight my sarcastic nature and I crack jokes, because the truth is…I’m not used to being loved like this and I never want it to end. I’ve honestly never felt what I feel with him and while I know that nothing last forever…I want this for as long as it can possibly last. I love you, Josh. This song is for you.

Hold My Hand cover (originally by Jess Glynne)

Standing in a crowded room, and I can’t see your face
Put your arms around me, tell me everything’s OK
In my mind, I’m running round a cold and empty space
Just put your arms around me, tell me everything’s OK

Break my bones but you won’t see me fall, oh
The rising tide will rise against them all, oh

Darling, hold my hand
Oh, won’t you hold my hand?
Cause I don’t wanna walk on my own anymore
Won’t you understand? Cause I don’t wanna walk alone
I’m ready for this, there’s no denying
I’m ready for this, you stop me falling
I’m ready for this, I need you all in
I’m ready for this, so darling, hold my hand

Soul is like a melting pot when you’re not next to me
Tell me that you’ve got me and you’re never gonna leave
Tryna find a moment where I can find release
Please tell me that you’ve got me and you’re never gonna leave

Break my bones but you won’t see me fall, oh
The rising tide will rise against them all, oh

Darling, hold my hand
Oh, won’t you hold my hand?
Cause I don’t wanna walk on my own anymore
Won’t you understand? Cause I don’t wanna walk alone
I’m ready for this, there’s no denying
I’m ready for this, you stop me falling
I’m ready for this, I need you all in
I’m ready for this, so darling, hold my hand

Don’t wanna know
That feeling when I’m all alone
So please don’t make me wait, cause I don’t wanna break
No, I don’t wanna fall
When you’re next to me
Can tell I’m not afraid to be
That you don’t make me wait, and never let me break
You never let me fall

Darling, hold my hand
Oh, won’t you hold my hand?
Cause I don’t wanna walk on my own anymore
Won’t you understand? Cause I don’t wanna walk alone
I’m ready for this, there’s no denying
I’m ready for this, you stop me falling
I’m ready for this, I need you all in
I’m ready for this, so darling, hold my hand

forever

Josh is wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Hysteria
hairbase: [Hipster Style] Rhys Hairbase BROWN
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
ears: .:E.A.Studio:.  Ears Falling Star
beard: VYC – Neat Scruff Beard HD *GIFT*
body: Slink Physique Male Mesh Body
-VA-M-VISTA BENTO PROHAND SLINK MALE
piercing: 3.::GB:: Lip piercing (Catwa Daniel) Black (Studded)
BlankLine MountainPullover
::GB::Straight RollUp Jeans

Sady is wearing:
hair: TRUTH / Athena (September VIP gift)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
erratic / laura – sweater (*new* @C88)
Blueberry – DWL Jeans – Capri Jeans

pose: Drunk Panda-HoldMyHandForever (*new* @ Limit8)

Posted in Cosmopolitan, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Scandalize, Second Life, shoes, shopping

STRRRIIKE!!

She knew she couldn’t bowl. She’d never been good at sports. So, in the name of brats everywhere, she ran down the aisle with the ball, dropped to her knees and slid into the pins. She could hear the gasps behind her. She didn’t care, instead, she just turned around and yelled, “STRRRIIKE!!” Everyone laughed until management came over and asked them to leave.

STRRRIKE!

wearing:
hair:  :::Phoenix::: Carrie Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Scandalize.Ocean. Sweatshirt. Maitreya (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
Scandalize.Ocean. PANTIES. Maitreya (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
Blueberry – Tinker Set
–Blueberry – Tinker Set – Long Legwarmers
–Blueberry – Tinker Set – Sneakers

pose by Foxcity Play Ball Set
MINIMAL – Illusion III – *9*
T-3D Creations [ Bowling Ball ] Mesh – Full Perm –
T-3D Creations [ Bowling Pin ] Mesh – Full Perm –

Posted in Bueno, Events, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Home Decor, Jian, N21, Second Life, Seven Emporium, shopping

Obstacles

obstacles

I’ve heard many times that the state of one’s bedroom is a direct reflection of their state of mind. *looks around in RL* Well, I’m screwed! My room is not so big, but I’ve managed to squeeze quite a lot of furniture and stuff in here. Its like an obstacle course. Well, that proves kinda true, doesn’t it? My mind is definitely an obstacle course. Its not my fault! There are squirrels EVERYWHERE!!! Not to mention shinies and I must have them all!!!
Screw the decor, that crystal skull looks perfectly normal next to the porcelain grasshopper! Yes, my TrueBlood DVD set does look awesome next to my Kim Addonizio books! Yes, I have cleaning products tucked into the wicker basket on the bottom shelf, ignore the dust, please.
Whether they’re obstacles in our rooms, on the road, or in our heads, we all encounter them sooner or later. Sometimes the way we maneuver them can alter our course so much that it changes our destination. The point remains, we will all face obstacles in our life, but by giving up we become our biggest obstacles yet.

A lot of people give up just before they’re about to make it. You know you never know when that next obstacle is going to be the last one. Chuck Norris

Yes I did quote Chuck Norris. *laughs*

obstacles

wearing:
hair: #Foxy – Babygirl Hair (*new* @N21)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
CATWA Catya BubbleGum
Blueberry – Tinker Tops
–Blueberry – Tinker Set – Long Sleeve Top
–Blueberry – Tinker Set – Panties
Blueberry – Tinker Set
–Blueberry – Tinker Set – Short Legwarmers
–Blueberry – Tinker Set – Sneakers

Poses by Foxcity (shocking, I know)

scene:
BUENO-Bike -Pink
!gO! SteamTeddy +Giddy+
7 – Roller Rink Boot Sign
REIGN.- DERBY SKATES BAG- #13
Anachron – Derby Doll Rollerskates – Cherry Bomb
Silence. – Heart with Arrow
JIAN Hamster Habitat
JIAN Hamster Ball Wanderer
tres blah– Eclectic Collection – Hot Lips Phone (Pink)
:CP: Herman Planter White
tres blah– Pampered – Bouquet
dust bunny . bunny alarm clock . pink
BUENO– Laptop Blessed
+Half-Deer+ Fast Food Clutter – Soda Drink (Pink)
7 – David’s Dream
Fancy Decor: Capsule Lights (rose) (*new* @ Blush)
*katat0nik* (pink / RT) Old Boot
+Half-Deer+ Carefree Bikini Clutter – ALL – Floor Bra
*katat0nik* (pink / LT) Old Boot
BUENO-Big Sur Chair
+Half-Deer+ Carefree Bikini Clutter – ALL – Offside Thong
+Half-Deer+ Favorite Sweater Clutter – ALL – Draped Over
2PM. Bunny muff / pink