Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Gingerfish Poses, Glam Affair, Legacy, Second Life

another layer of armor

I don’t know when I got scared
Scared of my imagination
Used to see beautiful things
Now I got this sick fixation

I’m playing out every single fear I’ve ever had
Scrolling through the pictures, seeing all I don’t have
Believing every negative feeling is a fact
I don’t wanna get used to that

Why do I beat myself up and tear myself down?
I’m so good at being critical
I guess I’ll learn it’s hard to get hurt
When you’re good at being cynical

I’m jealous of when I was young
And everything was right there waiting
Wanted the sky, aimed so high
Instead of lowering my expectations

I don’t know how else to keep my feet on the ground
And stop the voices in my head from getting too loud
I think I’m realizing no one figures it out
And I gotta get used to that

Why do I beat myself up and tear myself down?
I’m so good at being critical
I guess I’ll learn it’s hard to get hurt
When you’re good at being cynical

If I hope and it doesn’t work, then
I know, it’s gonna hurt, so I’ll
Make a joke, act like nothing wrong
And put another layer of armor on

Why do I beat myself up and tear myself down?
~ Katelyn Tarver – Cynical

tableau idtty

hair: Tableau Vivant \\ BunB*tch [Add-on+HB]
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes: -SU!- [CATWA & OMEGA HUD] Astrid Eyes (Fatpack)
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mara Skin [ Lelutka ] @ C88

lashes: MICHAN – Lilith Lashes Fatpack [Lel EVO] @ TLC
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA DEJA VU COLLECTION #4 @ Black Fair
lipstick: IDTTY FACES –  LELUTKA DEJA VU COLLECTION #8 @ Black Fair

Apocalyptic – Awakening the eye black @ Belle
(Yummy) Cleopatra Nose Ring – Silver
Kibitz – Leove’s earrings
SU!– Almond Nails

pose: GingerFish Poses – Doll Face

backdrop: No Show – Black Vibes – The Bearded Guy

Posted in Animals, Home Decor, Prism Events, Salem, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Magic could whisper

“As a kid, she’d always loved Halloween. A magic night. A night when anything could happen. Monsters could be real. Magic could whisper in the air.”
― Cynthia Eden, A Bit of Bite

thor sayo rezz room

Bee Designs Halloween Plushies Gacha 7 @ Black Fair
Bee Designs Halloween Plushies Gacha 3 @ Black Fair

dust bunny . midnight apothecary set @ Anthem
dust bunny . midnight apothecary . bats tree . black
dust bunny . midnight apothecary . venus fly trap
dust bunny . midnight apothecary . graveyard terrarium

04. Lagom – Araneae Witch [ Spider Bubbles Pink ]
06. Lagom – Araneae Witch [ Banner Web ]
01. Lagom – Dimension Mirrors [ Getting out ] RARE
08. Lagom – Araneae Witch [ Mannequin ] RARE

SAYO – Goth Glam Wall Panel @ Salem

SAYO / Harvest Loft Gacha @ Arcade
SAYO – Harvest Loft Gacha – Tapestry – COMMON
SAYO – Harvest Loft Gacha – Sofa – COMMON
SAYO – Harvest Loft Gacha – Lanterns – COMMON
SAYO – Harvest Loft Gacha – Harvest Bed – RARE
SAYO – Harvest Loft Gacha – Rug – COMMON

..::THOR::.. Le Clairvoyant Set @ Anthem
..::THOR::.. Macabre Clay Skull
..::THOR::.. Petals & Leaves
..::THOR::.. Magic Wand
..::THOR::.. Moon Lore Book & Petals
..::THOR::.. Dark Velvet Chair
..::THOR::.. Clairvoyant Sphere – RARE
..::THOR::.. Fear Inoculum
..::THOR::.. Ouija Board Noir – ULTRA RARE
..::THOR::.. Dark Tarots
..::THOR::.. Poisoned Coffee
..::THOR::.. Sacred Geometry Table – RARE
..::THOR::.. Triple Moon Box
..::THOR::.. Herbalist Book
..::THOR::.. Brass Candle Holder
..::THOR::.. Altar Bowl
..::THOR::.. Altar Dagger
..::THOR::.. Wheel of The Year
..::THOR::.. Psychic Book
..::THOR::.. Sacred Geometry Book
..::THOR::.. Amethyst

[Glitzz] Salem Nigth – Floating Candles
[Glitzz] Salem Night – Sparkles Rotating

*HEXtraordinary* Hand of Glory

[Rezz Room] British Shorthair Set @ Arcade
[Rezz Room] British Shorthair Animesh (Companion) RARE
[Rezz Room] British Shorthair Vampire Yawning
[Rezz Room] British Shorthair Vampire Animesh (Companion) RARE
[Rezz Room] Coffin Cat Bed
[Rezz Room] Cauldron Bowl
[Rezz Room] British Shorthair Napping

Echo – Summon – Potion Bottles – 4
Echo – Summon – Potion Bottles – 5
Echo – Summon – Potion Bottles – 7

3.Cubura Haunted Candle Metal/Purple

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Glam Affair, Second Life

We all have a hunger

“Tell me what you need
Oh, you look so free
The way you use your body, baby
Come on and work it for me
Don’t let them get you down
You’re the best thing I’ve seen
We never found the answer
But we knew one thing”
~ Florence & the Machine – Hunger

CX tram

hair: tram I1002 hair @ Collabor88
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Baby Face
skin: [Glam Affair] Mary Applier [Genus ] 007 – 11 RARE @ Epiphany
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1

[CX] Vice Crew / Nose Bandage – Black @ Epiphany
SU!– Lynexia Collar
nipple piercings: //Naberius// The Manticore Set
Ascendant – Lady Danger Nails

[CX] Vice Crew / Hoodie – Black / Maitreya RARE @ Epiphany
[CX] Vice Crew / Harness – Black / Maitreya @ Epiphany
[CX] Vice Crew / Shorts – Black / Maitreya @ Epiphany
[CX] Vice Crew / Fishnet Stockings – Black / Maitreya @ Epiphany
**UTOPIA@Design** – “PENELOPE”

Ana Poses – Temptation
Las Torres – Moments Noirs – The Bearded Guy @ Black Fair

a few deets about what’s Derrek :
Modulus – Christian Hair
CATWA HEAD Daniel
^^Swallow^^ Darkness Ears
[Signature] Gianni Body
tattoo by Garden of Ku
Mossu – Logan.Pants

Posted in Bondi, Catwa, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Tres Chic

Ghost Stories

Is there anyone that isn’t haunted…by the ones we’ve loved and the ones we’ve lost? By the choices we’ve made…in a sense one could say that our entire lives are made up of one ghost story after another. Turning the page and letting go is one the hardest decisions that most of us will have to face, but we cannot let ourselves get stuck on the same page, reading the same paragraph over and over. We have to comprehend what is really happening and move forward.

Doux Addams

hair: DOUX – Santana @ TresChic
head: CATWA HEAD Catya v4.0
skin: [Glam Affair] Maria Applier [ Catwa ]
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.1)

BONDI . The Diva Choker @ Black Fair
Addams // Piper Button-Front Sweater
Addams // Piper Leather Pants
Addams // Piper Heeled Boots

pose in chair
location: Author’s Point

Posted in Events, Exploration, FaMESHed, Fashion, Gingerfish Poses, Glam Affair, Mina Hair, Prism Events, Salem, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

Day of the Dead

“The core belief of the [Day of the Dead] is so poetic and simple: as long as we remember those who have passed away, as long as we tell their stories, sing their songs, tell their jokes, cook their favorite meals, THEN they are with us, around us, and in our hearts. The moment we forget them, […] then they are truly gone.
(The Art of the Book of Life, Introduction)”
― Jorge R. Gutierrez

Mina GA gingerfish

hair: MINA – Martha @ Salem
head: LeLutka Bento Head-KORINA
skin: [Glam Affair] – Lelutka Makeup – Halloween @ BLACK FAIR
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.1)

FAKEICON / mary gems collar @ FaMESHed
Ascendant – Ouija Nails @ Anthem
DIRTY PRINCESS– Darkness Beauty Princess Dress @ Uber

pose: GingerFish Poses – Your Ghost @ TLC
location:  SLs Top Haunted Places Tour & Hunt

Posted in Animals, Blueberry, Bondi, Catwa, Fashion, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping, Uber SL

Spoiler Satire

Spoilers suck! However, sometimes I think those that are behind on the most popular shows are the ones that should walk around with alerts. They need a tee shirt or a pin that reads, “Don’t talk to me about TV!” or “Spoiler alert, I haven’t seen it!” Why should the rest of us be denied to ability to openly discuss a show that has been around for years? We’ve dedicated our time in a timely fashion to keep up with this program and now because some slacker hasn’t figured out how amazing the show is, we gotta stay quiet? NO MORE! I say you’ve got 3 days to get caught up. We will politely concede to a three day grace period, but after that? Fuck you! Go catch up or don’t listen!
I’m kidding, but the amount of people screaming about spoilers on social media has had me giggling.
Seriously, if you plan to watch and haven’t, you probably need to avoid social media until you get caught up. Odds are, if it was a huge episode, your friends aren’t going to be the only ones discussing it. There will be photos and articles and memes all lurking around every corner of the interwebs just waiting to jump out and stab you just like BLEEP did in that show last night when BLEEP grabbed BLEEP and BLEEPED BLEEP just as BLEEP BLEEPED BLEEP.

hello

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH  Surrender @ Uber
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

*[Black Bantam] Fluffy Kitty V1 Blue Eyes RARE @ Kustom9
[Aleutia] Ingrid Earrings
:::NOIR::: Ira Necklaces @ Shiny Shabby
BONDI . The Extrovert Sunglasses @ Black Fair
Blueberry – Alicia – Hooked Tank Tops @ Uber
Blueberry -Sunny – Unzipped Shorts

can’t tell you a pose cuz I was just sitting on my house holding the kitten

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping

Should I?

Recently, I was told that my blog is too long winded, that I write too much. I was told that no one wants to read all that. I was asked why do I write so damn much? My reply was  simply, “It’s therapeutic.” I went on to explain that I write for me and that I don’t expect anyone, especially everyone, to read it. People can always just scroll on down to the photo and credits if they’re not interested in what I have to write about on any particular day. Hell, I’m a blog manager, I can’t always read every blog. Though to be fair, most of my bloggers don’t write anything at all. It made me wonder if I’m wasting my time by writing when I blog. If my writing is therapeutic and mostly for me, should I just keep an online journel, then just post pictures and credits for my blog?

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wearing:
hair:  {Limerence} Dani hair @ Black Fair
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

(Yummy) OM Layered Necklace
LYBRA . MELY SET @ Kustom9

Posted in Dahlia, Events, Exploration, FaMESHed, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Phoenix, Second Life, shopping, {le fil casse}

Prayin

“Well, you almost had me fooled
Told me that I was nothing without you
Oh, but after everything you’ve done
I can thank you for how strong I have become
‘Cause you brought the flames and you put me through hell
I had to learn how to fight for myself
And we both know all the truth I could tell
I’ll just say this is “I wish you farewell”
I hope you’re somewhere prayin’, prayin’
I hope your soul is changin’, changin’
I hope you find your peace
Falling on your knees, prayin’
I’m proud of who I am
No more monsters, I can breathe again
And you said that I was done
Well, you were wrong and now the best is yet to come
‘Cause I can make it on my own, oh
And I don’t need you, I found a strength I’ve never known
I’ll bring thunder, I’ll bring rain, oh
When I’m finished, they won’t even know your name
You brought the flames and you put me through hell
I had to learn how to fight for myself
And we both know all the truth I could tell
I’ll just say this is “I wish you farewell”
I hope you’re somewhere prayin’, prayin’
I hope your soul is changin’, changin’
I hope you find your peace
Falling on your knees, prayin’
Ah sometimes, I pray for you at night, oh
Someday, maybe you’ll see the light
Whoa oh oh oh, some say, in life, you’re gonna get what you give
But some things only God can forgive
Yeah! (I hope you’re somewhere prayin’, prayin’)
I hope your soul is changin’, changin’
I hope you find your peace
Falling on your knees, prayin'”

Hoeville

hair:  :::Phoenix::: Fiora Hair @ Black Fair
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

[ Conviction ] Nameplate Choker – 07 Kitten /COMMON/ @ Epiphany
Dahlia – Babylon Eclectic – Hand Earrings @ Epiphany
**RE** Quinn Rings Set @ FaMESHed

.daydream. Hoeville by le fil casse & Cosmic Dust @ Epiphany
-.daydream. All Access Pass
-.daydream. Eye Corner Face Jewels
-.daydream. Eyelid Face Jewels
-.daydream. Under-Eye Face Jewels
-.daydream. Hoeville Bodysuit RARE
-.daydream.Hoeville Kimono Jacket Darks

pose: GingerFish Poses – Move Me @ Flourish
location: Royalty Backdrops

Posted in Bueno, Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Gingerfish Poses, Kustom9, Maitreya, Phedora, Pose Fair, Scandalize, Second Life, shopping

Look Good, Feel Good

It’s true what they say, “If you look good, you feel good.” I don’t know how many times I’ve been able to turn my day around just by doing my hair, makeup, and putting on a cute outfit. I so rarely leave my house, but when I get fixed up a bit…well, suddenly I want to walk the dog all over the neighborhood. I’m more apt to run errands and sing along to the radio in my car. So, the next time you’re feeling a little blah or just run down, try to muster up the energy to fix yourself up and get out into the real world for a bit. It really is amazing the way it will boost your confidence and your spirit.

nicer

wearing:
hair: #taketomiWEST – Avianna ***(Club Taketomi-see below for details)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy
Scandalize.JOLENE-TOP (*new* PocketGacha)
BUENO-Nin Shorts (*new* @ Kustom9)
Phedora ~ Kandyl harness (*new* @ Black Fair)
Phedora ~ Kandyl heels (*new* @ Black Fair)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Cultivate (*new* @ Pose Fair)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – #DressingRoom Mono (*new* @ Kustom9)
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Posted in Avenge, Catwa, Collabor88, Cosmopolitan, Death Row Designs, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Second Life

E2V-I’m No Expert, but…

So, there’s been a lot of posts on Facebook (and other social media, I’m sure) as well as notices being sent out in SL about the E2V system shutting down. I’m no expert, but let let me try to explain what’s happening. I’ve been watching designers scramble for solutions and suggestions to their customers. It truly breaks my heart. I’ve heard a lot of bitching from others about being forced to use or lose their credits. So, I wanted to take a minute and explain what I know about the situation, regarding both sides.
I’m going to start with the designers. I’m hoping that customers will read this and perhaps have a bit more empathy for the designers and their predicament. The way the system works is that they drop a script into their vendors and they have a server in which they drop the actual product. This system stores the purchase history of each customer, the products, maintains the credits, and re-deliveries. These designers were given a very short notice to come up with an alternative system and change over all of their vendors. Some of these stores have thousands of vendors. Think about each single color, plus fatpacks. They have to manually go through all of those vendors to set up said new system or go back to the old days when you simply bought the contents of the box, there were no credit systems or gifting options. This is going to be a tremendous amount of tedious work, regardless of which direction they go with their vendors. There are options out there, but each designer has to figure out what is best for them. I know that if I were a designer, I’d probably go back to the old way of doing things to prevent myself from ever being in this situation again.
From the customer’s perspective, some of them have been saving their credits so they can eventually afford a fatpack, or they’ve got so much credit they can’t possibly spend it all right away. As one of my friends stated, “I have everything I want from that store and there’s nothing new at the moment.” Fortunately, we all have until the end of May to use those gift cards and credits. Something else to remember, in the real world gift cards expire after one year and sometimes you get a gift card for a store that goes out of business before you ever get a chance to use it. I understand that it’s going to suck if you lose your store credits in this process, but its not the end of the world. I promise. I know that most stores are honestly trying to find an alternative for you all, but some stores are simply too big and their database is too massive to manually reach out to each and every customer while changing their vendors at the same time.
This is a lose lose for everyone. I’m asking that everyone remember that this does not affect just one or two people….one or two stores…this is a grid wide disaster. Please be kind to one another. Be patient, put yourself in the other person’s shoes. To customers, I beg you to please be kind to the designers. Do not yell at them, this is NOT their fault, no more than it is yours. Designers, I know you are all trying so hard and most of you have probably broken down into tears at some point. Try to remember that so many of your customers are simply confused and absolutely unaware of the details of this situation. I ask that everyone please refrain from attacking one another. I trust that designers will go out of their way to assist as many people as they can, but you will need to be patient as these designers have more on their plates at the moment than they’ve had in a very long time. Remember we’re all here to have fun…so please please please be kind to one another and try to understand…no one wanted this, but it is what it is.

starry night

wearing:
hair: #Besom~Gypsy Love (*new* @ EQUAL10)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy
(Yummy) Leave A Mark Set (*new* @ C88)
[Avenge] Libra necklace (*new* @ OMGacha)
LYBRA . HOLLY (*new* @ TLC)
[Avenge] Sparkling black pants (*new* @ Black Fair)
Scandalize. LeslyHEELS (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)

pose: FOXCITY. Spot On Bento Pose Set (*new* @ EQUAL10)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Cosmos (*new* @ EQUAL10)
DRD – Hodgepodge Corner – Chair – Faded Mono