Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, DOUX, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, The Liaison Collaborative

I’ll bet there’s somebody else out there

Baby (Baby)
You’ve been so distant from me lately (Lately)
And lately (And lately)
Don’t even want to call you baby (Baby)
Saw us getting older (Older)
Burning toast in the toaster
My ambitions were too high (High)
Waiting up for you upstairs (Upstairs)
Why you act like I’m not there?
Baby, right now it feels like
It feels like you don’t care
Oh, why don’t you recognize I’m so rare?
Always there
You don’t do the same for me
That’s not fairI don’t have it all
I’m not claiming to
But I know that I’m special (Special)
Yeah
And I’ll bet there’s somebody else out there
To tell me I’m rare
To make me feel rare

I’ll bet there’s somebody else out there

hair: DOUX – Mishi hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: AG. Elegance Eyes (Arctic) @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX] Honey
tattoo: [Addicted To Ink] Heather…

-SU!- Almond Nails
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88

Cynful Fashionista Bikini – Flf Special April 16, 2021

pose: Lyrium. Eve Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10

Serenity Style– Sady Moon Dream Scene @ TLC

Posted in Bueno, Collabor88, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka

I’ve made it this far

the more I get to know myself
the less I understand myself
I don’t know how to let go
of this all weight I put on me
of who I am or where I’ll be
once I learn to let go
always set my sights on
diamonds in the future
remember when you wanted what you got right now
when I close my eyes
and I’m all alone with my mind
I get scared I’m unprepared
and will be for the rest of my life
but I’ve made it this far
yeah I made it this far
half way to falling apart
but I’ve made it this far

I’ve made it this far

hair: DOUX – Karol hairstyle @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: AG. Elegance Eyes (Arctic) @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Liv Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ Kustom9
tattoo: [Addicted To Ink] Heather…

^^Swallow^^ Earrings H01 for lel Evo X Human Ears @ Kustom9
(Yummy) Bella Tennis Necklace Set @ Kustom9
(necklace & hoop earrings)
[ kunst ] – Nose Plaster
RE Sublime Nose Piercing N9
-SU!- Almond Nails
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88

BUENO-Hanging Phonecase-IDC @ C88
BUENO-Dranks-Strawberry @ Kustom9
[Eternus] Gianna Top
[Eternus] Gianna Dress

pose: Lyrium. Savi Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Access
[Bad Unicorn] Hail Monstera Backdrop @ Kustom9

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative

a glimpse into my BPD brain

Ok, so this is a bit off and has absolutely nothing to do with the photo, but since I am prone to sharing my real life or lackthereof here, I figure I might as well share this, too. However, this could be a trigger for some. If you are easily triggered by suicide topics, please have someone else read it first to determine whether or not you should. I’m doing this for me. These are my reasons: 1. to hold myself accountable 2. cuz I think the convo is cute 3. cuz it shows how quickly my state of mind changes
So, what I’m going to do is just copy a conversation between myself and my wifey, Ghoulina Waffles, cuz it pretty much sums things up. Please don’t go nuts and call for welfare checks, I’m fine and I have an appt with my therapist in the morning.

9:24am
Ghoulie: Hope your stint at XXXXXX went okay
Sady: girl, I couldn’t sleep before my shift
I just laid in bed for hours contemplating suicide
then after my shift, I passed the fuck out
and had a nightmare about a failed suicide attempt
Ghoulie: Jesus wammen
Sady: was a rad attempt fail tho
rofl
Ghoulie: you are not allowed to think of suicide when your wifey is this pretty https://flic.kr/p/2kENqCT
oh?
how’s that?
Sady: oooh, I tried to race my car into a busy intersection, but ended up launching my car over it instead, but also flipping it mid way so I was over the intersection upside down screaming “fuck yeah” out the window before turning right side up and crashing into a building
but in my dream, my car was so sturdy it protected me, so I just had a concussion some scratches and bruises
and a bunch of teenagers decided I was a worthy cause and all came to visit me
and then it was kinda over and a giant storm came and mom was passed out on the couch so I sat and watched this amazing storm outside
when it was over we went to target to buy candy
lmao
Ghoulie: WTF, so, you had an action film for a suicide attempt
Sady: ooh and at the store there were all these candy bar flavored pop tart bites….they were new and I was mad that they didn’t have a grab bag with all the flavors
especially since I didn’t want a whole bag of milky way pop tarts
lmao
Ghoulie: I like you, but you’re crazy (said with a gif)
Sady: note to self, do not use car in suicide attempt, cuz if it fails, you only killed your car
Ghoulie: No suicide attempts, okay?
Sady: we’ll see
Ghoulie: your body is already like evil hands rubbing together “Teeheehee we got this”
Sady: RIGHT???
Ghoulie: it’s like surprise suicide, you just can’t plan it
Sady: pretty much…lol

….then we trailed off to discuss our new Linden Labs stilt homes and other things

Again, I repeat, I’m fine now. I was just talking to one of my closest friends. She gets me on a level that most don’t and she knows when to take me seriously, when to worry, etc. She’s not worried and you shouldn’t be either. This is not a cry for help, but just a glimpse into my BPD brain. As my friend, Tracy Redangel, once said, “Depression lies.” I know this and I would not act on a suicidal impulse. Trust that I know myself far better than most and I will be discussing my thoughts with my new therapist tomorrow morning. Meanwhile, I have too much work to do and too many people counting on me to just up and dip out! I PROMISE.

a glimpse into my BPD brain

hair: [monso] Mabel Hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

[ rD ] – Rayna Cuff & Earrings @ TLC
Rainbow Sundae Callie Bracelet @ TLC
MY BAGS by Mila Blauvelt My Naughty RED
hive // cold brew coffee to go .
Apl.Blossom Genesis @ TLC

pose: an lar [poses] The Sandra Series @ TLC

TROPIX // Time Music BackDrop 01 @ Access

Posted in DOUX, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping, skin, {le fil casse}

She was…

“She was perfect, pure maddening sex, and she knew it, and she played on it, dripped it, and allowed you to suffer for it.”
― Charles Bukowski, Factotum

Here’s a link to flickr for a better view, but its a moderate setting. So, you’ll need to have an account in oter to see it. 😉
https://www.flickr.com/photos/sadystikasabretooth/50968391828/in/photostream/

hair: DOUX – Venezia hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA NEXT PLEASE COLLECTION #3
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA NEXT PLEASE COLLECTION #6
{le fil casse} Sierra Mesh Set @ Kustom9

pose: Diversion – Serenity – Pose Set @ Shiny Shabby

backdrop: MINIMAL – Group Gift July 2019 v1

Posted in Chic Moda, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Maitreya, poses, Second Life, shopping, skin, vinyl

Get right to it

If you want it, we can get right to it
Mix some vodka with some OJ
Skip the mornin’ and let’s get right to it
Put your hands on my body
Me and my friends poppin’
No we don’t need no man to be gettin’ on down
Know how I like it
Like it
Don’t need no excuse to be going this ham
We’re bumping KC and the Sunshine Band
That’s the way I like it
Like it
Sippin’ so much Goose that you could call it geese
Sippin’ so much Goose that you could call it geese
Feel like I can fly when you are next to me
Feel like I can fly when you are next to me

Get right to it

left:
hair: DOUX – Tegan hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Ryn Head 2.0
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.3
skin: [Glam Affair] Yuki

VINYL – Love is Blind Top Pak TSS Leather Red

right:
hair: tram K0202 hair @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

ChicModa // Amanda Crop Cami & Bloomers

Ladybird. // Splatter worn by both

poses: – space cadet – paintin’ 1 set
**includes paint brushes, palette, & easel

backdrop: MINIMAL – September Group Gift 2020

Atelier Burgundy . Wall Art Clutter @ Equal10
Atelier Burgundy . Wall Art Clutter I . Steel
Atelier Burgundy . Wall Art Clutter IIb . Steel
Atelier Burgundy . Wall Art Clutter IIa . Steel
Atelier Burgundy . Wall Art Clutter III . Steel

Posted in Animals, Apple Fall, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, fri.day, Home Decor, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

It’s not THAT many cats, Jason

I was hanging out with my amazing friends, Maria & Jason, when I got my hands on these gorgeous new sphynx cats from Rezz Room. I was squealing with delight, because…well…CATS! Jason started laughing and then predicted that I would be doing a post with a lot of cats. Started calling me the cat lady. So, in order to prove him wrong, I limited myself to only three. See? I have some self control, Jason! *laughs*

I am so very blessed to have these two amazing people in my life. So, I want to make sure they know how much I appreciate them both. ♥

It’s not THAT many cats, Jason

hair: Tableau Vivant // Vale hair @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

(Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88
Seniha. Jackie Set @ Access
Seniha. Jackie Sweater
Seniha. Jackie Top
Seniha. Jackie Pants

friday – Esme Sneakers @ C88

[Rezz Room] Box Sphynx Cat Animesh @ Man Cave

pose: GP Smoke 13

MINIMAL – Natural Nude Backdrop III Curtains @ Kustom9

Concept} 07.Bring. Sofa Adult. RARE @ Kustom9

Pitaya – Cushion Collection Part I WHITE @ TLC
Pitaya – Cushion Collection Part I MUSTARD @ TLC
Pitaya – Cushion Collection Part I GREEN @ TLC

Ariskea [Belle] Forever Roses [Peach] @ TLC

Soul2Soul. Moritz Bronze Sculpture @ TLC
Soul2Soul. Moritz Books @ TLC
Soul2Soul. Moritz Coffee Table -Fatpack @ TLC
Soul2Soul. Moritz Bronze Wall Art (Bonus) @ TLC

Apple Fall Chamise Occasional Table – Aged Oak
Apple Fall Pampas Grass
Apple Fall Bohemian Coffee Press (Group Gift)
Apple Fall Latte Decor (Group Gift)

Posted in DOUX, Events, Exploration, FaMESHed, Fashion, GenusProject, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Tres Chic, vinyl

Slow Down

As I was driving home from therapy, I got behind a navy and silver SUV. I was thinking how great the colors looked together and why there aren’t more two tones cars. Eventually, I realized that it was a State Trooper. So glad I wasn’t tailgating. HA! So, as we’re traveling along the same road, I come upon my exit, or rather on ramp, and the trooper wants over. I motion for her/him to come on over and s/he does. We circle around the ramp and approach the interstate. Just as we get to the spot where its time for us to merge into the other lanes, this little silver sedan goes flying by at top speed. I thought to myself immediately, “Bad timing, Dude.” The trooper and I both merge rather effortlessly. I hold back from my usual shot forward, because I ain’t trying to catch a ticket. Low and behold, the trooper shot forward. At first, I thought s/he was just bolting forward because s/he can. Then I saw it. The lights started flashing and as I got closer, s/he had indeed chased down the silver sedan and was pulling it over.
In that moment, I couldn’t help but think how much a single minute in our lives can make a difference. If the silver sedan had been one minute behind us, maybe…. If the trooper had been one minute faster…if I had been one minute faster or slower, would I have been the one getting the ticket? Naturally that made me think of how fast things move in Second Life. I don’t move as quickly as most and I suppose that’s why I have remained single all this time. I know what I like. I know what I don’t like. I know myself well enough to know whether or not I’m going to be romantically compatible with people fairly quickly. I think I tend to move a bit quickly with friendships and trust friends more than I should, but I’m not ready to change either of those things about myself. Not just yet, but I think we could all benefit by take a moment to slow down. The internet isn’t going anywhere. Second Life isn’t a race and collecting partners is not the goal. I think its more important to share love and laughter as often as possible…and THAT is what I’m all about.

lybra vinyl belle

wearing:
hair: DOUX – Melanie hairstyle @ TresChic
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face
AG. Lustrous Eyes – Cornflower
skin: DeeTaleZ Skin *Kacee* for GENUS HEADS
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Tattoo “Rise of Quetzalcoatl”_by GoK

*LODE* Head Accessory – Fuchsia [white]
KUNGLERS – Tainara necklace @ Belle
[ rD ] – Kalista Belly Chain Piercing @ Belle
Ascendant – Pretty Holographic Nails @ Belle
LYBRA . STELLA FATPACK @ FaMESHed
VINYL – Myself Boho Skirt @ Access

pose: :LW: Bento Poses – One More Try @ The Liaison Collaborative

location: Scarlett Isle

Posted in Bueno, Collabor88, Events, GenusProject, Maitreya, pr!tty, Second Life

Surround Me

Baby take me outside
Kiss me in the moonlight
I just want you to touch me
I don’t wanna waste no time
You don’t even know me
But I want you to show me
What it feels like to be alive

The lights go down
I want you around me
Whoa

Don’t overthink it
Just finish up your drink
And surround me, surround me
The night ain’t over
We’re far from being sober
Surround me, surround me
‘Cause I like you, I like you, I like you a lot
How to see through the smoke
I don’t know how you found me, you found me
The night ain’t over
We’re far from being sober
Surround me, surround me
~ Leon – Surround Me

bueno

hair: pr!tty – Aliya
head: Genus Head – Classic Face
AG. Aurora Eyes Mint
skin: L’Etre – Lana Skin
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1

Ascendant – Skyfall Nails
*COCO*_CropDenimJacket
BUENO-Olivia Dress @ Collabor88

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Maitreya, Second Life

The first snow

The first snow
The first winter of my life
I was told it was the height of me
The first dance
Well, the first one that counted
Felt like my blood was built from crackling lights
~ Snow Patrol – Life on Earth

tableau cynful

hair: Tableau Vivant // Donna hair
head: Genus Head – Classic Face
AG. Aurora Eyes Mint
skin: [theSkinnery] Macie (Genus)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – GENUS BOOTY CALL 4
Tattoo “Rise of Quetzalcoatl”_by GoK
Cynful Odette Corset Dress @ Collabor88

Fashiowl – Let it Snow – Poses

information regarding the background can be found here

Posted in Blueberry, Collabor88, E.A.Studio, Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Nothing Left to Say

If you could only save me
I’m drowning in the waters of my soul…
~ Imagine Dragons – Nothing Left to Say/Rocks

truth bauhaus movement blueberry diversion

hair: TRUTH Kitten
head: Genus Head – Classic Face
AG. Aurora Eyes Mint
skin: [theSkinnery] Macie (Genus)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1

.:E.A.Studio:.  INSANITY PATCH EYE
Ascendant – Brighten Stars
Bauhaus – Kim Jewels @ Collabor88
Bauhaus – Kim Top @ Collabor88
Blueberry – Dynamite – Leggings On Steroids

Diversion – Main Girl Poses @ La Vie en Pose