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Don’t fall away

Memories are just where you laid them
Drag the waters ’til the depths give up their dead
What did you expect to find?
Was there something you left behind?
Don’t you remember anything I said when I said
Don’t fall away and leave me to myself
Don’t fall away
And leave love bleedin’ in my hands, in my hands again
Leave love bleedin’ in my hands, in my hands
Love lies bleedin’
Oh, hold me now,
I feel contagious
Am I the only place that you’ve left to go?
She cries her life is like
Some movie black and white
Dead actors fakin’ lines
Over and over and over again she cries

Don't fall away

hair: DOUX – Angeni hairstyle @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]

Kibitz – Felicity’s necklace @ Equal10
Apl.Blossom Shaquana @ Level

pose: Lyrium. Ninna Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10
White Tunnel – Damn Night – The Bearded Guy

Posted in DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, shoes, shopping, skin, Uber SL

I’m gonna hit the ground running

Hit the ground
Hit the ground running
It’s a one way street
With an open end
And you never know
What lies ahead
But I always knew
That this was it
The signs were lit
Oh I always knew
I’m gonna hit the ground running
Hit the ground running
Only waiting for the marching drums
I’ll be ready when the morning comes
I’m gonna hit the ground running
Hit the ground running
Only waiting for the marching drums
I’ll be ready when the morning comes
I’m an overdrive
Go to play offense
And I won’t look back
There be no regrets

I’m gonna hit the ground running

hair: DOUX – Chill hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]

TRIGGERED – GOD Complex Glasses @ Level
MOVEMENT- Magazine and Tea @ Level
(Yummy) Aaliyah Ring Collection
Apl.Blossom Emma @ Uber
LF. – Furious Platform @ Level

pose: Lyrium. Hills Static & Breathing + Fingers Series

backdrop: Pitaya – Underground Stairs

Posted in Events, Exploration, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, shoes, shopping, skin, Uber SL

My dog day afternoon

So, this picture took me on a wild ride. I knew as soon as I saw this big beautiful beast what kind of photo I wanted to take. I knew exactly where. What I didn’t know was what song I’d put with it or what I would write about. I could write about how beautiful the sim is at Burrow Co. I could write about how awesome the pets at Rezz Room are, but I feel like I’ve done both of those things in the past. After taking the picture, I was thinking, “Isn’t there a song about a dog day afternoon?” So, off to YouTube, I went. What I discovered is that no, its not a song, its a movie! It’s an Al Pacino movie! AND I’ve never seen it! Then I realized how old the movie was and took a moment to mourn my youth. That movie is almost 50yrs old. *sighs* Turns out, its based on a true story, too. My afternoon was quickly filled with Al Pacino and learning about the true story. The movie was really good, of course. However, that movie has absolutely nothing to do with my photo. So, here we have it…another post with no song. *gasps* I know, y’all gonna have to start reading again if this continues! *laughs*
p.s. I added a trailer link for you, in case you wanted to know about the movie.

My dog day afternoon

hair: Foxy – Sahara Hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0 @ Skin Fair
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Nina Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ UBER
Glam Affair – New Body Line
RE Sublime Nose Piercing N9

TRIGGERED – Moon Craft Earrings
Demon Doll – Razor Baby Necklace
(Yummy) Aaliyah Ring Collection
hive // pink drink on the go . kitty @ Kustom9
Apl.Blossom Nicole @ N21
[Enchante’] – Ressie Boots

pose: Le Poppycock Live Free B
location: Burrow Co.

[Rezz Room] Box Saint Bernard Animesh @ Uber

Posted in DOUX, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

I would give everything I own

Is there someone you know
You’re loving them so
But taking them all for granted?
You may lose them one day
Someone takes them away
And they don’t hear the words you long to say

I would give anything I own
I’d give up my life, my heart, my home
I would give everything I own
Just to have you back again

I would give everything I own

hair: DOUX – Indigo hairstyle @ TresChic
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0 @ Skin Fair
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ Skin Fair
Glam Affair – New Body Line
RE Sublime Nose Piercing N9

LODE Head Accessory – Pansy on the Side [white]
(Yummy) Katerina Necklace Set @ C88
(Yummy) Aaliyah Ring Collection @ Uber
Apl.Blossom Susseth @ TLC

pose: :LW: Bento Poses – Lazy Afternoon @ TLC
location: Luane’s World

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative

a glimpse into my BPD brain

Ok, so this is a bit off and has absolutely nothing to do with the photo, but since I am prone to sharing my real life or lackthereof here, I figure I might as well share this, too. However, this could be a trigger for some. If you are easily triggered by suicide topics, please have someone else read it first to determine whether or not you should. I’m doing this for me. These are my reasons: 1. to hold myself accountable 2. cuz I think the convo is cute 3. cuz it shows how quickly my state of mind changes
So, what I’m going to do is just copy a conversation between myself and my wifey, Ghoulina Waffles, cuz it pretty much sums things up. Please don’t go nuts and call for welfare checks, I’m fine and I have an appt with my therapist in the morning.

9:24am
Ghoulie: Hope your stint at XXXXXX went okay
Sady: girl, I couldn’t sleep before my shift
I just laid in bed for hours contemplating suicide
then after my shift, I passed the fuck out
and had a nightmare about a failed suicide attempt
Ghoulie: Jesus wammen
Sady: was a rad attempt fail tho
rofl
Ghoulie: you are not allowed to think of suicide when your wifey is this pretty https://flic.kr/p/2kENqCT
oh?
how’s that?
Sady: oooh, I tried to race my car into a busy intersection, but ended up launching my car over it instead, but also flipping it mid way so I was over the intersection upside down screaming “fuck yeah” out the window before turning right side up and crashing into a building
but in my dream, my car was so sturdy it protected me, so I just had a concussion some scratches and bruises
and a bunch of teenagers decided I was a worthy cause and all came to visit me
and then it was kinda over and a giant storm came and mom was passed out on the couch so I sat and watched this amazing storm outside
when it was over we went to target to buy candy
lmao
Ghoulie: WTF, so, you had an action film for a suicide attempt
Sady: ooh and at the store there were all these candy bar flavored pop tart bites….they were new and I was mad that they didn’t have a grab bag with all the flavors
especially since I didn’t want a whole bag of milky way pop tarts
lmao
Ghoulie: I like you, but you’re crazy (said with a gif)
Sady: note to self, do not use car in suicide attempt, cuz if it fails, you only killed your car
Ghoulie: No suicide attempts, okay?
Sady: we’ll see
Ghoulie: your body is already like evil hands rubbing together “Teeheehee we got this”
Sady: RIGHT???
Ghoulie: it’s like surprise suicide, you just can’t plan it
Sady: pretty much…lol

….then we trailed off to discuss our new Linden Labs stilt homes and other things

Again, I repeat, I’m fine now. I was just talking to one of my closest friends. She gets me on a level that most don’t and she knows when to take me seriously, when to worry, etc. She’s not worried and you shouldn’t be either. This is not a cry for help, but just a glimpse into my BPD brain. As my friend, Tracy Redangel, once said, “Depression lies.” I know this and I would not act on a suicidal impulse. Trust that I know myself far better than most and I will be discussing my thoughts with my new therapist tomorrow morning. Meanwhile, I have too much work to do and too many people counting on me to just up and dip out! I PROMISE.

a glimpse into my BPD brain

hair: [monso] Mabel Hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

[ rD ] – Rayna Cuff & Earrings @ TLC
Rainbow Sundae Callie Bracelet @ TLC
MY BAGS by Mila Blauvelt My Naughty RED
hive // cold brew coffee to go .
Apl.Blossom Genesis @ TLC

pose: an lar [poses] The Sandra Series @ TLC

TROPIX // Time Music BackDrop 01 @ Access

Posted in DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

the thing about forever

This whole thing started so that fathers could sell daughters like property
But I never had a father, and I couldn’t be his daughter, so lucky me
The only thing I’m sellin’ are songs
But nobody buys those no more
Marriage is a contract ’cause they know that it’s another liability
You cut through my legs, through my heart just to get another piece of me (piece of me)
The only thing I’m servin’ are facts
But nobody wants those no moreHey
See, the thing about forever
Is that it’s a fucking lie
But I’ll love you for tonight
Say with time that it gets better
And that’s such a fucking lie
But I’ll love you for tonight, oh

the thing about forever

left:
TRUTH Unravel
LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5
[LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
#3 — PUMEC – NADYA – JANUARY — LELUTKA x BOM @ Epiphany

(Yummy) Daisy Ring Collection @ C88
(Yummy) The Dreamers Set @ Uber
Seniha. Elnora Set @ Uber
Seniha. Elnora Top
Seniha. Elnora Belt
Seniha. Elnora Jeans

right:
DOUX – Olga hairstyle
LeLUTKA Ryn Head 2.0
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.3
Glam Affair – Lelutka Applier – Yuki

[Rezz Room] Leash American Bully

Apl.Blossom Mandy @ Uber
Apl.Blossom Mandy A
Apl.Blossom Mandy Skirt

poses: FOXCITY. Secure The Bag (Fatpack) Bento Pose Set @ Uber

MINIMAL – Kunstmuseen Green Leaves Corner
**part if the Berlin Corners Set**

animals:
[Rezz Room] Pug Adult Animesh
[Rezz Room] American Bully Adult Animesh
[Rezz Room] Chihuahua Animesh

KraftWork Carmel Porch Set @ FaMESHed Feb 1st
KraftWork Carmel Porch Set . Armchair
KraftWork Carmel Porch Set . Coffee Table
KraftWork Carmel Porch Set . Decor Clutter Tray
KraftWork Carmel Porch Set . Love Seat with Blanket
KraftWork Carmel Porch Set . Love Wood Frame
KraftWork Carmel Porch Set . Small Runner Rug Beige

plants:
dust bunny . hanging plants . spider planter
dust bunny . areca palm plant
dust bunny . potted bromeliad
dust bunny . potted sago palm
dust bunny . hanging plants . cheese plant

Posted in DOUX, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Maitreya

when the day gets long

So here’s to you and here’s to when the day gets long
Go ahead, I understand if you wanna take a load off
I don’t drink
But sometimes I need a stiff drink
Sipping from a highball glass
Let the world fade away
Yeah, and I don’t smoke
But sometimes I need a long drag
Yeah, I know it might sound bad
But sometimes I need a, sometimes I need a
When the day gets long
When the work’s all done
When the sun sets
When you need to forget
Grab that cup, mmm
Fill it up
Sip it slow
And let it all go
Ooh

when the day gets long

left:
TRUTH Unravel
LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5
[LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
— PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM

(Yummy) Daisy Ring Collection @ C88
EarthStones Love Me Knot Set
Seniha. Mareli Sweater @ Equal10
-Pixicat- Oakley Tights @ Anthem

right:
DOUX – Tegan hairstyle
LeLUTKA Ryn Head 2.0
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.3
Glam Affair – Lelutka Applier – Yuki

Apl.Blossom Magdalena @ Access

poses: FOXCITY. Indulge Bento Pose Set

Posted in DOUX, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, The Liaison Collaborative

They got me going blind

These brick walls are tumbling down
Hitting me on the head
My whole world is crumbling down
I don’t know how to act
I rode the wave ’till it crashed down
Maybe I should leave this sad town
I rode the wave ’till it crashed down
Nothing is holding me back now
And all these bright lights
They got me going blind
And all these bright lights
They got me losing my mind

They got me going blind

DOUX – Aluna hairstyle @ TresChic
LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5
[LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
— PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM

Izzie’s – Closed Eyes (LeLutka Evolution) @ TLC

(Yummy) Daisy Ring Collection @ C88
Apl,Blossom Monica @ TLC
Just BECAUSE Liz Skirt

pose: an lar [poses] The Kimberly Series @ TLC
MINIMAL – Light Room Backdrop -2- @ Kustom9

Posted in Cosmopolitan, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Home Decor, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Reign, Second Life

Let’s root for each other and watch each other grow.

I have yet to understand why so many people want to tear each other down. Life is not a competition, no one gets out alive and nothing we acquire in this life is going with us when we leave. So, why would anyone make it their mission to seek and destroy others? What is there to gain in doing that? I mean, I know misery loves company, but why would anyone want to embrace that misery by sharing it with others or causing it? There’s nothing good to gain from that…absolutely nothing. The only thing I can imagine that allows people to behave like this is that they lack that part of the human psyche that most of us possess…that part that seeks happiness for ourselves, as well as other people. When someone lacks that empathy and compassion, they are left with a giant hole. That hole is what religious people like to call evil, but I don’t believe in evil. I believe that people are innately good….unless they are missing that inner light. They are lacking goodness. They might fake it….cuz that’s what sociopaths often do, but deep down…they just don’t have it in them be truly good. I cannot truly imagine what that must be like, but it sounds absolutely horrible. Sadly, its the only thing that makes sense to me as to why people truly want to tear one another down. I would much rather see us all root for each other and watch each other grow.

Let's root for each other and watch each other grow.

hair: DOUX – Kiara hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Zasha @ C88

Cae :: Sylvie :: Earrings
.random.Matter. – Caithe Collar @ Kustom9
REIGN.- HEART COIN PURSE
Apl.Blossom Bel @ Cosmopolitan
MIWAS / High waist Fishnet tights

pose: Lyrium. Ariel Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10

MINIMAL – Ancien Elevator Backdrop

dust bunny . potted palm
dust bunny . pilea peper plant
dust bunny . hanging plants . ivy planter

MADRAS Divya Hanging Candle Size

Second Spaces checkout at 11 trolley

Artisan Fantasy Glamping 7 – Stacked Suitcases

Serenity Style– French Bulldog Suitcase (Rez) RARE

[Rezz Room] French Bulldog Animesh (Companion) v1.0.0 @ Equal10

Posted in DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka

Be happy that you have a lot to lose.

You never really know where tidbits of inspiration will come from….or wisdom, for that matter. Year ago, I was complaining about days and days of rain. My friend smiled and said, “Rain makes things grow.” I have never forgotten those words or that moment. This morning, I was watching a sitcom and this lady was freaking out because she was worried about this and worried about that. She was taking an inventory of all the things she had lost over the years. Of course, someone told her to look at everything she has to be grateful for. Someone else came along and told her, “Be happy that you have a lot to lose.”
This got to me, cuz I took a look around at all that I have and easily it could be lost. I decided to give my gratitude list a make over to include all the things I’d hate to lose and be happy that I have so very much to lose. I think it would do a lot of people some good to look at things this way. So, instead of focusing on the shit that’s gone wrong or the things you’ve already lost…let’s be happy that you have more to lose and work on being grateful for what we still have. ♥

Be happy that you have a lot to lose.

hair: DOUX – Kiara hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Lilly

Cae :: Sylvie :: Earrings
-SU!- Poison Sunglasses V.2
AvaWay LETTER Necklaces
Apl.Blossom Doll Sweater @ FaMESHed
MILOTA: Eurydica shorts
MILOTA: Eurydica trinket

pose: RUSSKAYA – HALLUCINATE

Killing Me Softly RARE – Behold Day – The Bearded Guy