Posted in Cosmopolitan, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Lelutka, poses, Second Life

I Will Be Rising

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

I Will Be Rising

hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
skin: [theSkinnery] Teo (LelutkaEVO) @ Kustom9
tattoo: Apocalyptic + Becoming a dragon

=Zenith=Off Shoulder Faux Fur Coat
Apl.Blossom Toya @ Cosmopolitan

pose: K&S – // Freya. Bento poses @ Access
backdrop: K&S – // Everlasting story. Backdrop @ Access

Posted in Animals, Apple Fall, Collabor88, Events, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Home Decor, Kustom9, Lelutka, Second Life

Life is Messy

Life is messy. There’s no doubt about that. Anyone with pets or children will attest to stepping in something questionable in the middle of the night. Nothing will throw off your day faster than cleaning up a mess like that first thing in the morning. Clearly, life isn’t perfect, but rather than compare our lives to those we see on our lovely screens…I think its better to embrace it.
I know my life isn’t what I had hoped it would be and I changed my ideas about my life several times over the course of my life. Not once did I envision my life to be what it is now. I jokingly said I’d be a fat old woman who hates kids and has a bunch of cats. I don’t even have that! I mean, I don’t LOVE kids, but I surely don’t hate them. Ok, I am fat, so I got that goal down easy enough. Wait, was that a goal….oh god, I manifested that shit! Fuck me. Well, ok, so what. I’m fat, I got a grocery list of health problems and no insurance. I’m still here. I have rather decent roof over my head. *looks down at my fat body* Uhm, clearly, I have plenty to eat. *laughs* I have two running cars. I have one tiny feline terrorist and the most perfect smartest dog in all da world. And I still have my wonderful, albeit crazy, Mom. I am freaking blessed! Sure, I struggle financially, but it sure could be worse. My condo and my cars are paid in full. That’s a true blessing.
As Thanksgiving (yes, its a U.S. holiday) comes sliding around the corner, I have a lot to be thankful for and I’m thankful that I do. Whether you celebrate this holiday or not, I think its a nice reminder to take some honest inventory of the blessings in our lives. It’s easy to forget those blessings as we go about our mundane daily routines. If you’re blessed enough to be reading this, it means you’ve been blessed with a little bit of time and the luxury of internet. While, I’m not so sure you need to be grateful for reading my ramblings, I’m pretty sure you’ve got your own plethora of blessings to behold. Oh…and don’t think I forgot you. I am very very grateful that you have taken that little bit of time from your life to read my words. More grateful than I can properly express, but Thank You.♥

Life is Messy

hair: Stealthic – Vigil
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
skin: [theSkinnery] Teo (LelutkaEVO) @ Kustom9
tattoo: Apocalyptic + Becoming a dragon

Mug – Fiona Tank @ Kustom9
Mug – Fiona Thong @ Kustom9

[Rezz Room] Box Pug Adult Animesh (Holdable) @ Kustom9

scene:
hive // modern farmhouse kitchen

-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Refreshments
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Breakfast Clutter

Apple Fall Times Newspaper
Apple Fall ‘Elvira’ Plate w/ Egg, Avocado & Toast

+Half-Deer+ Cutie Clutter – Spilled Black Coffee

{vespertine} – woodland owly utensil jar.
{vespertine} – woodland cup hanger.

Second Spaces – Well-stocked Pantry – spices

Fancy Decor: Satie Coffee Machine
Fancy Decor: Satie Cream & Sugar
Fancy Decor: Satie Coffee Pods

Fancy Decor: Pour Over Coffee Maker @ C88
Fancy Decor: Kettle @ C88

dust bunny . kitchen clutter . dish drying rack . white
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . paper towels

Posted in Animals, Catwa, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, GenusProject, Landscaping, Lelutka, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

Just LION around

From the moment I saw these lions from Rezz Room, I knew exactly what type of photo I wanted to do. Lucky for me, I have some very patient friends that were more than willing to pose all pretty. What I was going for was one of those situations where models are doing an editorial spread and shoot on location. While they pose and look all aloof or bored, when deep down they are screaming inside because they are so close to the lions. The best part of this is that when Precious was posing, she didn’t even notice the lions until I showed her my raw shot. *dies laughing* I think she was too busy trying to look down my shirt! Meanwhile, we just dumped poor Damien in the back and told him to keep his hands to himself. *laughs* That’s probably why he’s shooting us the bird! *giggles* And Puss…well, she’s just my original toon that does as I tell her.

safari

Let’s start with the real stars of the photo:

[Rezz Room] Lion Male Adult Animesh (Companion) @ ManCave
[Rezz Room] Lioness Animesh (Companion) @ Uber
[Rezz Room] Lion Cub Animesh (Companion) @ Uber

left to right super quick credits:

Damien:
Modulus – Hugo Hair
LeLUTKA.Head.Skyler

Legal Insanity – Ronan ripped shirt
Legal Insanity – James ripped denims
EQUAL – Lee Sneakers

pose: Ana Poses – Bologna Men

Sady:
DOUX – Maddie Hairstyle @ Level
LeLUTKA Fleur Head
+Apocalyptic+ Snake seduction tattoo @ Dubai

.miss chelsea. Asha Top @ Anthem
amias – DAVIN pants gray @ Anthem
Mosquito’s Way – Olivia @ TLC

pose: FOXCITY. Spot On Bento Pose Set

Precious:
tram J0513b hair
CATWA HEAD Catya

Kibitz – Corinne’s leashed collar
Pixicat– Maire Top

pose: FOXCITY. Legs for Days Bento Pose Set

Puss: 
DOUX – Cordelia Hairstyle
GENUS Project – Classic Face

EVANI – (13) Hanna top
EVANI – (14) Hanna shorts

pose: FOXCITY. Spot On Bento Pose Set

scene created using:
(Milk Motion) road to nowhere – Desert Land
(Milk Motion) dry bushes

Skye Windswept Tree

[we’re CLOSED] grass field dry 03 – random

Serenity Style– Military 4×4 Camo RARE

Junk Food – Cooler (Black)

Posted in DOUX, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

Old Habits

I’m flyin’
I’m flyin’ high like a bird
But my fluttering wings can’t keep you from pullin’ me down
Your mama
Your mama says I’m a fool
And yeah, maybe that’s true ’cause I can’t stop thinkin’ ’bout you
I’m tryin’
I’m tryin’ not to forget my words
‘Cause when I’m around you, I tend not to changin’ my mind
I promised
I promised myself not to slip back into old habits
‘Cause heartbreak is savvy and love is a bitch

consent for belle

hair: DOUX – Jennie hairstyle @ Dubai
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Anika Skin [ Lelutka ] @ UBER
tattoo: + Apocalyptic + Becoming a dragon @ Belle

RichB. Skully Arm Bands
Kibitz – Tricia’s bracelet @ Kustom9
Secrets – Aurora Belly Chain

[ CONSENT ] Elvi Babydoll @ Belle

pose: .HG. Uranus

Stockholm&Lima: Always [Messy] Bed

.peaches. Bae’s Journal – Lover
.peaches. Be Mine – Condom Clutter
.peaches. Be Mine – Wine Bottle

Traveler-Night stand by Bazar

Loft & Aria – Juniper Lamp Blue

dust bunny . hanging plants . double planter
{vespertine} hanging succulents. – string of pearls.,

Posted in DOUX, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Reign, Second Life, shopping, skin

Learning new tricks!

So, its my 2nd post with the new Fleur head from Lelutka…I’m still messing with the shape a bit as I try on different skins, but over all I’m super happy with the new head. There are so many changes swirling around me at the moment, not just the new head, but letting go of almost all of my decor sponsors was a huge deal for me. For almost five years, I’ve balanced both and blogged for some of my absolute favorite stores. Now, its time for this old dog to learn some new tricks! I’m having a lot of fun playing with different photography styles and angles….lighting, all that good stuff. And I don’t have anything specific to talk about this morning, so I’m just rambling. I probably should have done a song, instead. Oh well….it is what it is and it ain’t what it ain’t..lol.

doux lunar rezz room

hair: DOUX – Bloodline hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Song (LeLutkaEVO) @ Kustom9
tattoo: + Apocalyptic + Becoming a dragon @ Belle

RichB. FlowerCross Earrings @ ebento
RichB. Skully Arm Bands
.random.Matter. – Kitten Collar – ‘Kitten’
Kibitz – Tricia’s choker @ Kustom9
Kibitz – Tricia’s bracelet @ Kustom9

Lunar – Yumi Top @ Equal10
Lunar – Miyu Pants & Panties @ Equal10
REIGN.- JORDYN PLATS

[Rezz Room] Box German Shepherd Puppy

pose: – space cadet – pack 10 @ SaNaRae

location: BKLYN

 

 

Posted in DOUX, Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Legal Insanity, Lelutka, N21, Second Life, skin, tattoo, Uber SL, vinyl

This is our world

See the tramp coming up the strip with the a hundred dollar smile
Sparks flying off her finger tips, driving a young cunt wild
Some nights, I’m wound so tight, like a storm about to break
Better stand in a doorway when everything starts to shake
You get restless, like a cat waking up at midnight
Hungry, never quite satisfied
This is our world, and these are our times
This is our world, and these are our times
Layer other like a street god, with a drop-dead attitude
Scenes looking like a shadow now, and I know I’m being fooled
Sometimes I’m wound so tight like a wave about crash
Hard times seem to multiply, but the joy runs out so fast
You get restless, like a kid crawling out of a bad dream
Hungry, never quite satisfied
This is our world, and these are our times
This is our world, and these are our times
This is our world, and these are our times
This is our world, and these are our times
Make way for the son of a rebel
He’s got two black eyes, and a bitter heart
And a bone hanging on a chain
These times, like dynamite
A head on history
Some fools gonna bed it all down
And don’t care about you and me
You get desperate, like a child in the eye of a nightmare
Hungry, never quite satisfied
This is our world, and these are our times
This is our world, and these are our times
This is our world, and these are our times
This is our world, and these are our times
Ooooover
Ouuur worrrld, ouuur tiiimes
Our world, our times
Our world, our times
Our world, our times
~ Alannah Myles – Our World, Our Times

JB vinyl west end dami doux

left:
hair:  DOUX – Bloodline hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Senja Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Kustom9
tattoo: + Apocalyptic + Becoming a dragon @ Belle

RichB. FlowerCross Earrings
*Just BECAUSE* Dannicka Sweater
VINYL – Peach Shorts

middle:
hair: Modulus – Hugo Hair
head: LeLUTKA.Head.Skyler.2.0
body: [BODY] Athletic Meshbody (Legacy)
skin: Clef de Peau – Erik
tattoo: Vegas – No Boundaries

[ kunst ] – Allegiant bracelet (L)
[ kunst ] – Harper bracelet #3 / Right (M)
RAWR! Damascus Bracelet
Legal Insanity – Adam bento rings

right:
hair:  DOUX – Cordelia hairstyle
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face W001 – Mocap
body:  Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
skin: L’Etre – Lana Skin

VINYL – Lemon Romper @ N21

pose: [ west end ] Bento Poses – Unbreakable Bond @ Uber

please check out Damien’s blog for his view: The Crow’s Nest

Posted in Dahlia, Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Glam Affair, Legacy, Second Life

How ’bout these notions

I hear the birds
When they’re singing
I hear the sirens
When they’re ringing
But I can’t take my mind off of you
A thousand words, pouring out
The distance of over there
Is moving on and out
You said it’d be alright
How ’bout these notions
Hmm, they’re deep as ocean
Calling out my name
Screaming out in vain
Singing hallelujah
Tell your mother, she don’t understand
Tell your mother, she’s not listening
Why don’t you tear my heart
The chain is made of string
I roll the dice
You seal the deal
That don’t matter
Cause pain will heal
I will follow you
Into the dark

Exile BnS Focus

hair:  Exile – Rosalie
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face W001 – Mocap
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin:  [Glam Affair] Josie Applier [ Genus ] @ Access

Apocalyptic Heart mandala tattoo
Lowen – Angel Sunglasses
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – GENUS ROYAL FLUSH COLLECTION #6
SU!– Almond Nails

Blossom&Seeds Bea @ Dubai

pose: Focus Poses – Life is Better on the Boat @ Access

Tentacio Fresh sweet. Notebook

hive // flor simple beach towel .

Dahlia – Malarkey – Margarita

[Commoner] THC Gummies / Beach Bliss

DEAD DOLL – Beach Tote

 

Posted in Cynful, DOUX, Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Glam Affair, Legacy, poses, Second Life, shopping, tattoo

Reflections in the waves

I’m sailing away, set an open course for the virgin sea
Cause I’ve got to be free, free to face the life that’s ahead of me
On board, I’m the captain, so climb aboard
We’ll search for tomorrow on every shore
And I’ll try, oh Lord, I’ll try to carry on

I look to the sea, reflections in the waves spark my memory
Some happy, some sad
I think of childhood friends and the dreams we had
We lived happily forever, so the story goes
But somehow we missed out on that pot of gold
But we’ll try best that we can to carry on

A gathering of angels appeared above my head
They sang to me this song of hope, and this is what they said
They said come sail away, come sail away
Come sail away with me now
Come sail away, come sail away
Come sail away with me
~ Styx – Come Sail Away

doux cynful focus

hair:  DOUX –  #1 DOUX – Summer Day Hairstyle [RARE]
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face W001 – Mocap
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin:  [Glam Affair] Josie Applier [ Genus ] @ Access

Apocalyptic Awakening the eye black tattoo
Apocalyptic Butterfly creeper tattoo black

Cynful Fashionista Bikini @ Equal10

pose: Focus. Welcome Aboard @ Access
Focus. Summer Boat @ Access

Posted in Bondi, Chic Moda, Collabor88, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, GenusProject, Legacy, poses, Second Life, shopping, skin, tattoo

Not Anymore

I’m having quite a bit of anxiety this morning. My mother and I are supposed to go get our hair cut today, but I’m in a great deal of pain. Plus, I’m so scared of the lackadaisical attitude that so many people have about the virus. The numbers are soaring in our area right now. I honestly don’t feel that she or I would survive given our kidney disease and other health issues. Once upon a time, I would have rushed out into the world hoping to get it and die. Not anymore. I finally want to live and I’m damn sure not ready to die for a freaking hair cut. I don’t want to go and I don’t want her to go either. The only alternative is for me to cut her hair myself and…well, I can trim my own without messing it up too much. I’m just not ready for some stranger to be in my personal bubble. I don’t think I can do it.

doux chicmoda lyrium

hair:  DOUX – Dua hairstyle @ Equal10
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face W001 – Mocap
eyes: –SU!– [CATWA & OMEGA HUD] Astrid Eyes
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Isla (Genus) toffee @ C88

upper tattoo: Apocalyptic – Awakening the eye black @ Belle
lower tattoo: Apocalyptic – Butterfly creeper

BONDI . The Performer Sunglasses
.random.Matter. – Kitten Collar – ‘Kitten’
SU!– Almond Nails
RichB. Halo Cuffs
(Yummy) Bestie Ring Set

ChicModa // Sky Top @ FaMESHed
ChicModa // Haisley Skirt @ FaMESHed

pose: Lyrium. Leni Idle Stands Breathing Poses @ Equal10

.PALETO. Backdrop:. Duxbury @ Equal10

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Gingerfish Poses, Glam Affair, Legacy, Second Life

another layer of armor

I don’t know when I got scared
Scared of my imagination
Used to see beautiful things
Now I got this sick fixation

I’m playing out every single fear I’ve ever had
Scrolling through the pictures, seeing all I don’t have
Believing every negative feeling is a fact
I don’t wanna get used to that

Why do I beat myself up and tear myself down?
I’m so good at being critical
I guess I’ll learn it’s hard to get hurt
When you’re good at being cynical

I’m jealous of when I was young
And everything was right there waiting
Wanted the sky, aimed so high
Instead of lowering my expectations

I don’t know how else to keep my feet on the ground
And stop the voices in my head from getting too loud
I think I’m realizing no one figures it out
And I gotta get used to that

Why do I beat myself up and tear myself down?
I’m so good at being critical
I guess I’ll learn it’s hard to get hurt
When you’re good at being cynical

If I hope and it doesn’t work, then
I know, it’s gonna hurt, so I’ll
Make a joke, act like nothing wrong
And put another layer of armor on

Why do I beat myself up and tear myself down?
~ Katelyn Tarver – Cynical

tableau idtty

hair: Tableau Vivant \\ BunB*tch [Add-on+HB]
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes: -SU!- [CATWA & OMEGA HUD] Astrid Eyes (Fatpack)
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mara Skin [ Lelutka ] @ C88

lashes: MICHAN – Lilith Lashes Fatpack [Lel EVO] @ TLC
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA DEJA VU COLLECTION #4 @ Black Fair
lipstick: IDTTY FACES –  LELUTKA DEJA VU COLLECTION #8 @ Black Fair

Apocalyptic – Awakening the eye black @ Belle
(Yummy) Cleopatra Nose Ring – Silver
Kibitz – Leove’s earrings
SU!– Almond Nails

pose: GingerFish Poses – Doll Face

backdrop: No Show – Black Vibes – The Bearded Guy