Posted in Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Maitreya, Second Life

IT Girl

So, this picture is super personal and it marks a huge triumph in my life. I’ve spent over half my life absolutely terrified of clowns. No, I don’t have coulrophobia. I was raped by a man in a clown suit. Ever since that night, clowns have been a huge trigger. Clowns just aren’t something you see every day. So, on the rare occasion that one would pop up, it would send me spiraling into a mental tailspin. The funny thing is that it was Hollywood that helped me face this fear and get to the point where I could do this photo.
First there was Zombieland. The main character kills a zombie clown and for some reason, I was able to pull that character into my nightmares about clowns. Over time, he has appeared in a number of ways, helping me destroy clowns in my dreams. I’m also a huge fan of the American Horror Story franchise and upon learning they would do the season, Freakshow, I knew I was going to need to get over being afraid of clowns in order to watch that season. Thus began my own immersion therapy. I forced myself to look at clowns every day for months. The nightmares were horrible, but I was sick of this monster having so much power over me.
By the time, Freakshow aired, I was ready. I did have a few nightmares, but for the most part I did really well. Then came the remake of IT. *sighs* I knew my husband wanted to see it at the theater and I had only seen the original once (against my will, I might add) many many years ago. Pennywise has always been the most scary of all the clowns to me. However, when I found out who was playing Pennywise, I started to relax. I had been a huge fan of his role in Hemlock Grove. To prepare for this movie, I wached lots of videos of him preparing for the role and behind the scenes footage. When the day came to see the movie at the theater, I was ready. I did have nightmares, but not rapey ones.
Now, I sit here today, fully able to dress myself up as a female clown. Not only was I able to dress up like this, but I was able to spend a lot of time working on the photo. Now I’m looking at it and it is quite possibly my new favorite. I have reclaimed my power.

IT Girl

hair: tram G0718 hair
head: LeLutka Bento Head-KORINA
skin: [Glam Affair] Morgana Applier [ Lelutka ] 002 – 03
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1

ANTINATURAL[+] Carnival Freaks / Clown Outfit / M / BEIGE @ Lootbox
Ascendant – Ouija Nails @ Anthem

Apt B // Carnival Chair

Posted in Animals, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping

Counterfeit Composure

“Don’t you dare surrender
Don’t leave me here without you
‘Cause I could never
Replace your perfect imperfection
The way you look us over
Your counterfeit composure
Pushing again and again and sinking lower and lower
The world is on our shoulders
Do you really know the weight of the words you say?
You want a little of it
You just can’t let go of it
You’ve got an ego to feed
Too late to rise above it
Don’t look now but the little girl’s got a grenade
I’m gonna lift you up into the light you deserve
I’m gonna take you down to the real world so you can watch it burn”

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Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Carla @ Collabor88
tattoo: DAPPA – Devour Tattoo.

Foxy – Steel Hair @ Kustom9
earrings: [CX] Bound Gear Black
ANTINATURAL[+] Lost Saints / Overshoulder Snake / BLACK
AsteroidBox. Idalia Skirt & Top @ Kustom9

pose: FOXCITY. Rider Bento Pose Set
location: Small Town Green

Posted in CandyDoll, Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Trouble

The last few days have been absolutely nuts and I’m ready to just chill out. I’m ready to have some fun. I don’t exactly have a plan, but I’m pretty damn sure I’m about to stir up some trouble somewhere. Not the bad kind that drama queens stir up, but you know, the bratty kind at which I excel. *grins* So, you’ve been warned, you can join in or run for your life.

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wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant \\ Esperanza hair
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

: CULT : Diamond & Bow Leather Collar
_CandyDoll_ Ayashe Blouse @ Uber
_CandyDoll_ Ayashe Shorts @ Uber
NANIKA – Lea Garter Black Maitreya
:AC: Fishnet Stockings[Style 3]
: CULT : Morane Boots

pose: FOXCITY. Cozy Bento Pose Set
ANTINATURAL[+] Post-Human / Meeting Point