Posted in Bueno, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, [BREATHE]

I don’t take any regret

I take as much as I can get
I don’t take any regret
I close my eyes to conjure up something
But it’s just a faint taste in my mouth
I think I’m coming down
I think I’m coming down
By tomorrow I’ll be leaving
By tomorrow I’ll gone
If you want to tell me something
You had better make it strong

I don't take any regret

hair: DOUX – Martina hairstyle @ Level
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
eyes: [whi+eci+y] – ALBINO Eyes – LeL.EVO 70L SERASIM SUNDAY
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Lilly @ Kustom9

BUENO-Get it Done Gun @ Warehouse
-SU!- Almond Nails
BUENO-Gen Bag @ Anthem
BUENO-Gen Top @ Anthem
Eliavah ~ Lucia’s Panties
[BREATHE]-Toyomo Heels @ FaMESHed

Bdrop // BackDrop Neon Street – Blue 70L SERASIM SUNDAY

Posted in Bueno, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

Show me a sign

I gave you everything
And in return
You gave me nothing
Show me a sign
Please give me anything
I will not hide from what’s inside of me
My nemesis
I’m turning away from me
And all the things I’ve known
I don’t need your help no more
I can do this on my own
I’m taking all the blame
Resent what I’ve become
I regret everything and
There’s nowhere left to run
There is no yesterday
Tomorrow’s far away

Show me a sign

hair: Tableau Vivant // Garland hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Fran @ C88

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88

BUENO-Embrace Top @ Anthem

pose: Le Poppycock Rough Patches

Posted in accessories, Cynful, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Lelutka, Maitreya

Secretly Desire

“Beware of those who criticize you when you deserve some praise for an achievement, for it is they who secretly desire to be worshiped.”
― Suzy Kassem, Rise Up and Salute the Sun: The Writings of Suzy Kassem

Secretly Desire

DOUX – Ubert hairstyle
LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0
[theSkinnery] Karima @ Uber

Frayed – Boujee Mask #1 @ Anthem
EarthStones Belly Bugs – Dragonfly
Cynful Kiki’s Tracksuit – Hoodie @ Equal10
Cynful Kiki’s Tracksuit – Sweatpants @ Equal10

pose: FOXCITY. Soulfood Bento Pose Set
K&S – // SLC. Backdrop. materials. @ Anthem

Posted in Blueberry, breathe, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kustom9, Lelutka, Maitreya, [BREATHE]

Busy Days

The last few days have been busy busy busy, as are the first few days of every month. *laughs* This is nothing new. However, yesterday I had to leave the house and that’s always an anxiety attack. Luckily, I wasn’t in the voting line too long. My mother used to work the polls and she knew the best time for us to go. She picked the absolute best time, too. There wasn’t much of a line when we got there, but as we left there was a line going quite a ways down the sidewalk outside. It was really odd seeing so much security surrounding the premises, but I suppose it was good to err on the side of caution. I’ll admit that I was a bit nervous as I live in a very very red state and I am quite blue. And that’s the extent of what I will discuss about politics. I won’t unfriend those that disagree with me, as I feel we all have our reasons for feeling the way we do. I have family that is red and while I don’t agree with them, I can still love them….from a distance. *grins*

Busy Days

DOUX – Tegan hairstyle
LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0
[theSkinnery] Karima @ Uber

AsteroidBox. Lexi Shirt @ Kustom9
Blueberry – HBIC – Skirt
[BREATHE]-Rineko Heels @ FaMESHed

pose: space cadet – pack 11 @ Harajuku
K&S – // SLC. Backdrop. @ Anthem

Posted in Bueno, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kustom9, Lelutka, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, vinyl

Mostly Anxious

Today is going to be an exceptionally busy day for me. I have to go out into the cold world. Yes, I mean, literally cold. I need to vote and run some errands. Ugh, I so hate leaving my house. Meanwhile, at home…inworld…its that time again and I need to get TLC open and ready for our dedicated shoppers. I’m excited about this round and hope to do some pictures of some of the amazing designs our creators have exhibited this round. I don’t have a ton to talk about right now. I’m most feeling really anxious about going out today and facing the voting lines.

Mostly Anxious

DOUX – Miyeon hairstyle
LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0
[theSkinnery] Karima @ Uber

Hangry – Street Food Gacha – Soda – Blush {7} @ Kustom9
-Pixicat- Aria Sweater @ FaMESHed
VINYL – Blunt Skirt & Belt
BUENO-Sun Boots @ Anthem

[Rezz Room] Shiba Inu Adult White Animesh (Companion)

Sweet Art -Emma Bento Poses @ Kawaii Project
ninety – lets go [ Backdrop ]

Posted in Apple Fall, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka

I’m so, so done

‘Cause I’m so, so done
Guardin’ my tongue, holdin’ me back
I’m livin’ the way that I want
‘Cause I’m so, so done
Fighting myself, goin’ through Hell
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want

I lost control over all my energy
Done so much damage to my heart
I’ve given in, I’ve changed my identity
I didn’t mean to go so far, umm-mm

Oh my God (God)
I wish (Wish) I could be (Be) better than this
My God, wish (Wish) I could be (Oh-oh)
~ Alicia Keys – So Done

hair: [monso] Lena2 Hair @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

TRIGGERED – Chimera Glasses @ Unik
earrings: MG – Kaleidoscope – #18
CHAIN – Tina Necklace Set @ Anthem
AvaWay KITTEN_Bracelet
Burrow Custom To-Go Cup
RE Festive Rings Set

-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Set @ Kustom9
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Wristband R
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Top
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Shorts

[ VERSOV ] COPOV_GROUP GIFT Ankle Monitor
[Enchante’] – Jenny Sneakers

[Rezz Room] Dachshund Adult Animesh @ Equal10

pose: DM – Stairway
backdrop: Los Vecinos – Dharma – The Bearded Guy

scene extras:
Hangry – Croissant Ice Cream – Peach {rez} @ Kustom9

(Luc.) Ethel the Babushka Figurine @ Kustom9

Apple Fall Ceramic Milk Jar @ FaMESHed
Apple Fall Olive Jar – Olive Glaze @ FaMESHed

dust bunny . paradise plants . monstera tree @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . fan palm @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . pineapple plant @ FaMESHed

Posted in breathe, Bueno, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shoes, shopping, vinyl

Wild One

What sweet world is this? Honey on the vine
School kid dreams came true then passed in the night
I used to dream about people like you
Now I don’t know why?
I used to sing about people like you
Now I just get high
I get wild on you baby
I get wild and fucking crazy like you never knew
~ Lana Del Rey – Wild One

hair: barberyumyumL14 @ Anthem
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

BUENO-Bella Necklace @ Kustom9
RichB. Imo Earrings
RichB. Adham Bracelet

VINYL – Saucy Top @ Kustom9
SPIRIT – Milda skirt
[BREATHE]-Nozoka Heels @ FaMESHed

pose: Bauhaus Movement – The Way You Like It 35

scene:
KraftWork Outdoor Cinema
-KraftWork Outdoor Cinema . Futon Lounger
-KraftWork Outdoor Cinema . Screen
-KraftWork Outdoor Cinema . Extra Tree

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Legacy, Lelutka, vinyl

Just Empty

Sometimes, I just don’t care. I don’t know why. I suppose its a symptom of mental illness. I’m not sure which one. I guess I should ask my therapist. Maybe one day I will. Then again, I’ve been ill for a few days, so it could just be related to that. I just know that lately, I don’t feel sad or happy. I just feel nothingness. As if there’s a void in my soul. It’s not dark or light. It’s not black or white. It’s not blurry or clear. It’s gray and foggy, like creepy autumn morning. It’s just empty.

hair: [monso] Babi Hair @ FaMESHed
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)

RichB. Thalion Earrings
RichB. Mad NoseChain
[ rD ] – Thrall Necklace @ FaMESHed X
Pixicat– Hailey Top @ Anthem
VINYL – Sticky Bun Leggings @ FaMESHed

pose: Bauhaus Movement – The Way You Like It 14

backdrop is a combination of two:
I Dont Care – Bad Decisions – The Bearded Guy
Rustico – Good Times – The Bearded Guy

Posted in breathe, Collabor88, Cosmopolitan, crate, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, shoes, shopping, skin, Uber SL, unKindness

Invisible

I don’t wanna talk about it, there isn’t much to say
I don’t have an excuse to why I won’t come to your party
And I don’t want my picture taken, I’d hate it anyway
No, I don’t wanna spoil your night, just go have fun without meI’m pushing food around my plate
‘Cause my father said I’m overweight
Well, maybe he’d feel better
If I just disappeared altogether and I
Got so good at faking smiles
I can do it for a little while
Just don’t ask me if I’m okay
‘Cause I’m not okay, noIt’s hard to show you something invisible
No tears, no scars, no bruises, It’s not physical
It’s covered up and hidden tight
Beneath the skin, inside the mind
You wouldn’t even notice, you wouldn’t even know
Invisible, invisible, invisible
~ Grace Davies – Invisible

WEARING:
hair: MIWAS  – Hair #Maria
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

e.marie // Kandi Puff Earrings
dress: Blossom&Seeds Narda @ Cosmopolitan
shoes: [BREATHE]-Miyuwa Heels @ C88

[Rezz Room] Dachshund Adult Animesh @ Equal10
[Rezz Room] Dachshund Puppy Animesh @ Equal10

Lyrium. Yuna Idle Stands Breathing Poses @ Equal10

SCENE:
Campito – Good Times – The Bearded Guy

crate Patio Plant Cart Set @ Equal10
crate Patio Plant Cart – Beige Green
crate Patio Plant Cart – Box Plants
crate Patio Plant Cart – Hat & Throw
crate Patio Plant Cart – Pot & Cloth
crate Patio Plant Cart – Egg Head Pearl Plant
crate Patio Plant Cart – Bonsai Palm

crate Cabo Bar Set @ Anthem
crate Cabo Bar
crate Cabo Bar Citrus Basket
crate Cabo Bar Mint Plant
crate Cabo Bar Pom Pom Garland
crate Cabo Bar Citrus Sangria Dispenser

andika[End of summer sweets]A/dispenser @ Equal10

Ariskea [Sunrise] Succulent Ceramic hangers

Mithral * Mojito Syngonium @ Equal10
Mithral * Albo Syngonium @ Equal10

dust bunny . paradise plants . @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . fan palm
dust bunny . paradise plants . pineapple plant
dust bunny . paradise plants . monstera tree . with lights

uK – Infinity Fountain Ivory @ Uber

7 – Cat Burglar Painting

Posted in Cosmopolitan, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Home Decor, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

Dip my toe

I don’t have a lot to say, because I’m disappointed in people again. It never fails to surprise me how some people can be so low down and dirty. Every time I try to dip my toe into being social again, I remember why I keep to myself. So, rather than rant on about lies and pain and all the other garbage I’m feeling right now. I know this is just part of life and I’ll be okay. I’m just in the middle of a bunch of disappointment at the moment. So, for now, I’m going to keep this short and wish you all a great month. ♥

blossom rezz room

hair: DOUX – Angelica hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: DeeTaleZ *SKINS* for LELUTKA HEADS (EVO.) – Flora

 CHAIN – Tina Necklace Set @ Anthem
Blossom&Seeds Becca Bikini @ Cosmopolitan
.::Supernatural::. Naya II Anklet

pose: FOXCITY. Spot On Bento Pose Set

scene:
[Rezz Room] Little Punkie Animesh (Companion) @ Anthem

~BAZAR~ Ibiza Lounge set @ Anthem
~ Ibiza Lounger
~ Ibiza Slippers
~ Ibiza Towel 02
~ Ibiza Sunglasses
~ Ibiza Crates
~ Ibiza Beach bag 02