Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, [BREATHE]

Dealt with it myself

Will they understand?
It’s the question of our lifetime
Trying to find the right words
But what if they don’t care?
Never mind
Dealt with it myself
Hiding in the bathroom, wearing long sleeve shirts
Scared of what I might do
Never mind
No one seems to hear you till you’re loud
Then they call you crazy
Then they call you crazy
Quietly I battle with myself
Days are getting hazy
Days are getting hazy
No one seems to notice when you’re down
Unless you are bleeding
Unless you are bleeding
But sometimes the worst wounds
Are the ones you can’t see
Are the ones you can’t see
Never mind
Do they understand?
I’m begging for an ally
Think I’m just confused
Blow it off, it’s nothing new
Never mind
Little do they know
The murder of my right brain
It still has me grieving, take these pills for sleeping
My world is turning black and white

Dealt with it myself

hair: tram K0328 hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88

(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
Addams // Mackenzi Crop Top
amias – DAVIN pants
[BREATHE]-Tamako Heels @ Kinky

taikou / plastic bag (drinks)

pose: Le Poppycock-Adventure calls

FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Lost City

Posted in Animals, Catwa, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, GenusProject, Landscaping, Lelutka, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

Just LION around

From the moment I saw these lions from Rezz Room, I knew exactly what type of photo I wanted to do. Lucky for me, I have some very patient friends that were more than willing to pose all pretty. What I was going for was one of those situations where models are doing an editorial spread and shoot on location. While they pose and look all aloof or bored, when deep down they are screaming inside because they are so close to the lions. The best part of this is that when Precious was posing, she didn’t even notice the lions until I showed her my raw shot. *dies laughing* I think she was too busy trying to look down my shirt! Meanwhile, we just dumped poor Damien in the back and told him to keep his hands to himself. *laughs* That’s probably why he’s shooting us the bird! *giggles* And Puss…well, she’s just my original toon that does as I tell her.

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Let’s start with the real stars of the photo:

[Rezz Room] Lion Male Adult Animesh (Companion) @ ManCave
[Rezz Room] Lioness Animesh (Companion) @ Uber
[Rezz Room] Lion Cub Animesh (Companion) @ Uber

left to right super quick credits:

Damien:
Modulus – Hugo Hair
LeLUTKA.Head.Skyler

Legal Insanity – Ronan ripped shirt
Legal Insanity – James ripped denims
EQUAL – Lee Sneakers

pose: Ana Poses – Bologna Men

Sady:
DOUX – Maddie Hairstyle @ Level
LeLUTKA Fleur Head
+Apocalyptic+ Snake seduction tattoo @ Dubai

.miss chelsea. Asha Top @ Anthem
amias – DAVIN pants gray @ Anthem
Mosquito’s Way – Olivia @ TLC

pose: FOXCITY. Spot On Bento Pose Set

Precious:
tram J0513b hair
CATWA HEAD Catya

Kibitz – Corinne’s leashed collar
Pixicat– Maire Top

pose: FOXCITY. Legs for Days Bento Pose Set

Puss: 
DOUX – Cordelia Hairstyle
GENUS Project – Classic Face

EVANI – (13) Hanna top
EVANI – (14) Hanna shorts

pose: FOXCITY. Spot On Bento Pose Set

scene created using:
(Milk Motion) road to nowhere – Desert Land
(Milk Motion) dry bushes

Skye Windswept Tree

[we’re CLOSED] grass field dry 03 – random

Serenity Style– Military 4×4 Camo RARE

Junk Food – Cooler (Black)

Posted in Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

You Should Be Sad

Let me start this off by saying
I really meant well from the start
Take a broken man right in my hands
And then put back all his parts

But you’re not half the man you think that you are
And you can’t fill the hole inside of you with money, girls and cars
I’m so glad I never ever had a baby with you
‘Cause you can’t love nothing unless there’s something in it for you

Oh, I feel so sorry
I feel so sad
I tried to help you
It just made you mad
And I had no warning
About who you are
Just glad I made it out without breaking down
~ Halsey – You Should Be Sad

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Chickadee Tremor helped me with editing

Sady is wearing:
hair:  Stealthic – Devotion (can’t really see it, but it fits well under the hat FYI)
hat: **Guarded Cross** Cowboy Hat COBRA
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Ginny (LeLutka&Bom) @ Uber
Ascendant – Defiant Nails @ Kinky
top: amias – RAVA
shorts: AsteroidBox. Iris Shorts

pose: T E M P L A R//MUSTANG @ Belle

Nude Show – More Pleasure – The Bearded Guy @ Kinky

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Maitreya, Second Life

The greatest punishment

“To burn with desire and keep quiet about it is the greatest punishment we can bring on ourselves.”
― Federico García Lorca, Blood Wedding and Yerma

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hair:  Tableau Vivant // Kematian hair @ Collabor88
head: CATWA HEAD Catya v4.0
skin: [Glam Affair]  Mizumi Catwa @ ACCESS
body:  Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1

[ kunst ] – Slim Cigarette
SU!– Piercing Set 04
amias – NADIA gloves 2
(Yummy) Dark Magic Ring Set
Ascendant – Brighten Stars nails

[The Forge] Hecate Horns  RARE  @ Epiphany
[The Forge] Hecate Bodice  RARE @ Epiphany
[The Forge] Hecate Boots @ Epiphany

FOXCITY. Beach Bunny Bento Set
Punished – After Sex Backdrops – The Bearded Guy

Posted in Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Glam Affair, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

It really is that simple

I will never understand how people can be so careless with the people they supposedly love. Or how callous they can be with other people’s emotions. Why would you allow someone to fall in love with you just so you can turn around and walk away? Would they let someone step off the ledge of a 100 ft drop? I mean, if you would, then you should avoid all human contact, because you are a monster. Yet, if you allow someone to fall in love with you knowing you don’t feel the same way, you might as well push them off the roof. The feeling is the same. Oh sure it sounds dramatic, but if you’ve ever truly had your heart broken, you know that there is nothing that will EVER heal those wounds. Those are permanent scars. They will never go away. Here’s something people don’t seem to understand about scar tissue. Scar tissue is numb on the surface. It no longer feels. You have to dig beneath that immediate surface to get to the nerves that will sense pain/pleasure. So, the most scarred a heart becomes, the more difficult it becomes to feel anything…ANYTHING.
It has taken me years to get to a place where I’ve allowed someone else into my heart and he’s all too aware of the walls he has yet to conquer. Honestly, I doubt he ever will conquer them. I’m not sure anyone can. I’m not sure there’s anything beyond those walls worth finding anyway.  Which is probably why things are working out with Derrek, to be fair. It’s not something either of us take lightly, but we are honest with each other about our feelings. We’ve known each other for years and I have accepted one another’s scars, guarded walls and all. This is the best I can hope for and I am so very blessed that he’s willing to love me despite the restrictions. Fortunately, he has a real life that will hopefully balance things out for him.
As for the rest of you out there, dating…falling in and out of love…be careful, please. Don’t be careless with one another, because you cannot begin to know how truly fragile another person can be. Just treat each other the way you’d want to be treated, it really is just THAT simple.

asteroid box addams

Wasabi // River Mesh Hair
GENUS Project – Genus Head – Baby Face
[Glam Affair] Lucy Applier [ Genus ] @ UBER
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
**Dirty Princess** Cool Girl Princess Choker
amias – NADIA gloves 3
AsteroidBox. Hera Top @ Anthem
Addams // Melody Jeans

pose created with AnyPose

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Maitreya, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, Uber SL

Guaranteed Laugh

If you want a guaranteed laugh, find a group of the most random people you know and get them all on a call on discord. Just let the madness ensue. You’ll hear random shit like, “I’m gonna need gogurt for this!” It has nothing to do with anything that’s being said, but someone is bound to say something insane. The hardest part about this hilarity is gathering said randos on the call and keeping them there. However, if you get enough, they can come and go as they please…AND you can always add more! *grins* This is how I spent my Saturday night and I had the absolute best time.

Miu at Uber

DOUX – Selena hairstyle
CATWA HEAD Catya v3.2
[Glam Affair] Alexa Applier [ Catwa ] @ UBER
^^Swallow^^ Princess Ears
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
(AMD) Creature Armbands – Silver Paws
#17 Sintiklia – Sweet berry – Choker white
amias – EVY gloves C2 white @ ShinyShabby
Miu – Halle bodysuits @ Uber
Miu – Halle belt @ Uber

pose by DelMay
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Lost City

Posted in Chic Moda, Collabor88, Events, Exploration, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Glam Affair, Second Life

My Shirt

I’ve been after Sassy to make me a shirt like this for ages. She finally did it! My very own short tee complete with under boob! She went all out, too. There are seven textures to choose from, three of them are patterns,  and six graphics, including plain. Your graphic choices are kitten (as seen below), Fierce, #blessed, babygirl, virgin, and overdressed. You can grab this awesome shirt over at Belle. I personally recommend the fatpack, I mean, with all these choices how can you possibly resist?

kitten
They called her kitten, though she was as fierce as a leopard.

head: GENUS Project – Baby Face
SU!– Piercing Set 01
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Kleo @ Access
Tattoo “Kali Durga”_by GoK

hair: DOUX – Boyfriend @ Collabor88
[CX] Summer Hater (Group Gift)
amias – NADIA gloves RARE
ChicModa // Sadystika Crop Top @ Belle
Addams // Elizabeth Panties // Black // M // RARE
: CULT : Utilise Garter
=Zenith=Garters socks

GingerFish Poses – Ultraviolence @ Flourish
location: Drune IV:: Aftermath.

Posted in Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Paralyzed

The following is a poem I wrote the other day. I understand that poetry is not for everyone, but its something I love to do and sometimes its an easier way for me to express my feelings.
Paralyzed
Darkness fills the void you left
My heart is haunted by the desolation
Our history just a meaningless core

From the secret to the obvious

The fortunate ones, bask in the waters of hope
While the rest of us are gasping for air
Cutting our flesh to watch the blood appear
Wishing love had been more dependable
We reminisce about the times we had
The loves we lost
The once upon a times
And the happily never afters
Dreaming of possibilities
And fairy tale endings
Sometimes wishing our truth was a lie
Wishing we were still believers
Thumbing through old photos
My life unfolding like a story
A tale so foreign
It hardly seems like mine
Gripping the open wound
Knowing it will scar
No longer recognizing my reflection
Trying to forget your face
My head is pounding
My heart is bleeding
I finger paint on the floor
Pretending this is normal
Never getting over you
Unable to heal
I can’t move forward
I am paralyzed
~Sadystika Sabretooth
paralyzed

head: GENUS Project – Baby Face
SU!– Piercing Set 01
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Rose   @ Uber
Tattoo “Blinded Justice”_by GoK

#2 DOUX – Summer Night Hairstyle RARE
amias – NADIA gloves
amias – NARI top @ Kinky
Mossu – Chained (15) – Panties
NANIKA -Gill Belt/Garter @ Uber
Mosquito’s Way – Sharon

pose & background: STILLGESTANDEN – Lightbox

Posted in Catwa, Dahlia, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Maitreya, N21, Second Life, shopping

When all is said and done

When all is said and done
Tell me how to write this
Tell me how to fight this war
I’ll keep marching on
Like a broken robot
Money back guarantee
I’m in your custody
But I’m not a criminal, I can be your next big thing
Look at what I’ve become
Silly little monster
Should’ve just held my tongue
I hate the feeling of this weight upon my shoulders
Pushing the pressure down on me
You think you want the best for me but nothing really matters
If you force it won’t come, I guess I’m feeling numb
I guess I’m feeling numb

dahlia collar

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
^^Swallow^^ Crusties Ears
SU!– Piercing Set 07
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Maria @ Kustom9
.::Nanika::.Scarlet tattoo White

tram I0618 hair
CURELESS [+] Sterile Face Bandages
amias – NADIA gloves 2
Dahlia – Camilla – Collar @ FaMESHed X
Miu – Lulu sheer dress @ N21

pose: FOXCITY. Show Time Bento Pose Set

Posted in Bondi, Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping

This is Real

Here’s a snippet of one of the best songs ever, performed by some of the greatest rock musicians of my time. It’s amazing talent like this that for a few minutes, even on the worst day, can make me glad to be alive. I love to listen to this on full volume and sing as loud as I want and dare anyone to try and stop me. If you’re not familiar, then check it out, the youtube link is below….this is real fucking music!!!

“Under the water,
It’s cold and it’s grey.
My torrid autumn,
Another season decays.
Open up the Hollow,
And my walls come down.
I tell you it’s a problem,
Just when no one’s around.
But then,

I know what’s wrong,
God, you complicated everything.
I know you’re gone, gone, gone,
This is where I will draw a line.

I will draw my line.

Burning my cathedrals’,
Cause I don’t pray anymore.
Look at all of these people, Tragic little people,
They smile and then they don’t know what for.
But then,

I know what’s wrong,
God, you complicated everything.
I know you’re gone, gone, gone,
This is where I will blur my line.”
~ From Can To Can’t
(Corey Taylor with Dave Grohl, Rick Nielsen, Scott Reeder)
(from “Sound City” soundtrack)

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wearing:
hair: .:EMO-tions.. *CHRISTINE* @ Salon52
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
Schadenfreude Tear Dermal Piercing
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

BONDI . The Rockstar Headphones . @ FaMESHed
Swan Nara Choker – gold – heart – black ribbon @ Belle
**RE** Quinn Rings Set
Ascendant – Smoothie Nails @ Shiny Shabby

amias – KAMALA top @ Belle
[HU] Cassy Dungarees @ Belle

pose: Ebano Poses Hat set @ Unik
[ VERSOV ]_SEVILLA ANDALUCIA_FULLSCENE @ FaMESHed