We’ve all seen the shirts and bumper stickers that read, “I don’t need your attitude, I have one of my own.” Such a simple saying, but nothing could more true about me personally. I really had to learn the difference between reacting and responding, because once upon a time I had a terrible temper. For instance, I had such bad road rage that I had three incidents that could have turned out terribly wrong.
One time, this mini van cut me off and almost hit me, so I cussed, yelled, honked my horn, and followed her home. Turned out to be my best friend’s mom. We ended up laughing about it and smoking a joint, but I know I got lucky.
Another time, this chick cut me off at the intersection to get in the turning lane that I was already in. Same thing, cussing, yelling, honking my horn…she turned and pulled into a gas station and I followed. We jumped out of our cars ready to fight, until we realized we knew each other. We had dated the same sorry ass loser the year before. Again, I got lucky, though to be fair, I honestly believe that one would have been nothing more than a fist fight.
The third time, I mentioned above was the worst. This man cut me off, I had to swerve into oncoming traffic to avoid getting hit. It was so scary and I was so pissed that again….cussing, yelling, honking the horn….and I followed him…all the way to the daycare where he was going to pick up his kid. Naturally, I just drove up to him said something menacing about how’s he lucky he pulled into a daycare. When he saw the metal pipe in my hand (yes, I fully intended to beat him or his car with it), he quickly apologized and explained that he was running late, he was in a custody battle, blah blah blah. I didn’t give a rat’s ass why he almost killed me, but that day my boyfriend at the time was in the car.
He went on to tell me that I scared him and he was seriously worried about my temper. It was a few years before I learned to walk away when I get that upset. I have to walk away and let myself process what’s happened. More often than not, its something I can just let go and ignore. Other times its something I have to address and you can bet that when I do, I come out guns blazing….only my guns are loaded with words.
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