Posted in Collabor88, DOUX, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative

What’ll be will be

What’ll be will be
What you say it always goes and in the end
In the end you always get what you want
Baby I try too much
I’m living without your love again
But I’ll never stop trying
Well let me know
If you would ever love me I can show
The way your body should be, should be touched
Should be held, let me watch your body melt into mine
Down the line

What'll be will be

hair: DOUX – Karol hairstyle @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: A R T E – Sweet Brown Eyes @ TLC
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]
eyebrows: Glam Affair – Vip HD BROWS – Lelutka @ TLC
Glam Affair – EVOX Smoky Makeup 01 B for FLF April 16, 2021

Kibitz – Felicity’s necklace @ Equal10
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88
Seniha. Dulce Jacket @ Equal10
Seniha. Dulce Thong @ Equal10

pose: Lyrium. In Bloom Series @ Access

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, DOUX, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, The Liaison Collaborative

I’ll bet there’s somebody else out there

Baby (Baby)
You’ve been so distant from me lately (Lately)
And lately (And lately)
Don’t even want to call you baby (Baby)
Saw us getting older (Older)
Burning toast in the toaster
My ambitions were too high (High)
Waiting up for you upstairs (Upstairs)
Why you act like I’m not there?
Baby, right now it feels like
It feels like you don’t care
Oh, why don’t you recognize I’m so rare?
Always there
You don’t do the same for me
That’s not fairI don’t have it all
I’m not claiming to
But I know that I’m special (Special)
Yeah
And I’ll bet there’s somebody else out there
To tell me I’m rare
To make me feel rare

I’ll bet there’s somebody else out there

hair: DOUX – Mishi hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: AG. Elegance Eyes (Arctic) @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX] Honey
tattoo: [Addicted To Ink] Heather…

-SU!- Almond Nails
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88

Cynful Fashionista Bikini – Flf Special April 16, 2021

pose: Lyrium. Eve Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10

Serenity Style– Sady Moon Dream Scene @ TLC

Posted in Bueno, Collabor88, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka

I’ve made it this far

the more I get to know myself
the less I understand myself
I don’t know how to let go
of this all weight I put on me
of who I am or where I’ll be
once I learn to let go
always set my sights on
diamonds in the future
remember when you wanted what you got right now
when I close my eyes
and I’m all alone with my mind
I get scared I’m unprepared
and will be for the rest of my life
but I’ve made it this far
yeah I made it this far
half way to falling apart
but I’ve made it this far

I’ve made it this far

hair: DOUX – Karol hairstyle @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: AG. Elegance Eyes (Arctic) @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Liv Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ Kustom9
tattoo: [Addicted To Ink] Heather…

^^Swallow^^ Earrings H01 for lel Evo X Human Ears @ Kustom9
(Yummy) Bella Tennis Necklace Set @ Kustom9
(necklace & hoop earrings)
[ kunst ] – Nose Plaster
RE Sublime Nose Piercing N9
-SU!- Almond Nails
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88

BUENO-Hanging Phonecase-IDC @ C88
BUENO-Dranks-Strawberry @ Kustom9
[Eternus] Gianna Top
[Eternus] Gianna Dress

pose: Lyrium. Savi Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Access
[Bad Unicorn] Hail Monstera Backdrop @ Kustom9

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

Open up your fist and let me out

Everything I ever knew came from you
Everything I wanna be, that’s in me
That comes from me
Open up your fist and let me out
I was made to run around
And let me feel the air beneath my feet
Let me go
And I know not everybody gets a new life
And I know not everybody gets to start over again
But I do know what I’m doing with my new life
I’ll build it up, break it down, build it up
Build it up, break it down
Build it up, break it down
You can fly away too, that’s on you
But don’t tell me what I cannot do
I can tie on my shoes and put on my coat
I’m living a history, the one that I wrote

Open up your fist and let me out

hair: [monso] Kaine Hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0 @ Skin Fair
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ Skin Fair
Glam Affair – New Body Line
RE Sublime Nose Piercing N9

cheezu. square glasses @ Kustom9
(Yummy) Aaliyah Ring Collection
Seniha. Ivet Hoodie Dress @ Access

pose: Gravity Poses – Against The Wall 1-5 @ POSEvent
location: Burrow Co.

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative

a glimpse into my BPD brain

Ok, so this is a bit off and has absolutely nothing to do with the photo, but since I am prone to sharing my real life or lackthereof here, I figure I might as well share this, too. However, this could be a trigger for some. If you are easily triggered by suicide topics, please have someone else read it first to determine whether or not you should. I’m doing this for me. These are my reasons: 1. to hold myself accountable 2. cuz I think the convo is cute 3. cuz it shows how quickly my state of mind changes
So, what I’m going to do is just copy a conversation between myself and my wifey, Ghoulina Waffles, cuz it pretty much sums things up. Please don’t go nuts and call for welfare checks, I’m fine and I have an appt with my therapist in the morning.

9:24am
Ghoulie: Hope your stint at XXXXXX went okay
Sady: girl, I couldn’t sleep before my shift
I just laid in bed for hours contemplating suicide
then after my shift, I passed the fuck out
and had a nightmare about a failed suicide attempt
Ghoulie: Jesus wammen
Sady: was a rad attempt fail tho
rofl
Ghoulie: you are not allowed to think of suicide when your wifey is this pretty https://flic.kr/p/2kENqCT
oh?
how’s that?
Sady: oooh, I tried to race my car into a busy intersection, but ended up launching my car over it instead, but also flipping it mid way so I was over the intersection upside down screaming “fuck yeah” out the window before turning right side up and crashing into a building
but in my dream, my car was so sturdy it protected me, so I just had a concussion some scratches and bruises
and a bunch of teenagers decided I was a worthy cause and all came to visit me
and then it was kinda over and a giant storm came and mom was passed out on the couch so I sat and watched this amazing storm outside
when it was over we went to target to buy candy
lmao
Ghoulie: WTF, so, you had an action film for a suicide attempt
Sady: ooh and at the store there were all these candy bar flavored pop tart bites….they were new and I was mad that they didn’t have a grab bag with all the flavors
especially since I didn’t want a whole bag of milky way pop tarts
lmao
Ghoulie: I like you, but you’re crazy (said with a gif)
Sady: note to self, do not use car in suicide attempt, cuz if it fails, you only killed your car
Ghoulie: No suicide attempts, okay?
Sady: we’ll see
Ghoulie: your body is already like evil hands rubbing together “Teeheehee we got this”
Sady: RIGHT???
Ghoulie: it’s like surprise suicide, you just can’t plan it
Sady: pretty much…lol

….then we trailed off to discuss our new Linden Labs stilt homes and other things

Again, I repeat, I’m fine now. I was just talking to one of my closest friends. She gets me on a level that most don’t and she knows when to take me seriously, when to worry, etc. She’s not worried and you shouldn’t be either. This is not a cry for help, but just a glimpse into my BPD brain. As my friend, Tracy Redangel, once said, “Depression lies.” I know this and I would not act on a suicidal impulse. Trust that I know myself far better than most and I will be discussing my thoughts with my new therapist tomorrow morning. Meanwhile, I have too much work to do and too many people counting on me to just up and dip out! I PROMISE.

a glimpse into my BPD brain

hair: [monso] Mabel Hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

[ rD ] – Rayna Cuff & Earrings @ TLC
Rainbow Sundae Callie Bracelet @ TLC
MY BAGS by Mila Blauvelt My Naughty RED
hive // cold brew coffee to go .
Apl.Blossom Genesis @ TLC

pose: an lar [poses] The Sandra Series @ TLC

TROPIX // Time Music BackDrop 01 @ Access

Posted in Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative, {le fil casse}

Shatter me

If I break the glass, then I’ll have to fly
There’s no one to catch me if I take a dive
I’m scared of changing, the days stay the same
The world is spinning but only in gray
If I break the glass, then I’ll have to fly
There’s no one to catch me if I take a dive
I’m scared of changing, the days stay the same
The world is spinning but only in gray
Somebody shine a light
I’m frozen by the fear in me
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me
So cut me from the line
Dizzy, spinning endlessly
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me

Shatter Me

hair: Stealthic – Searching @ Access
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian
tattoo: Juna: Madeleine tattoo @ The Liaison Collaborative

{le fil casse} Nivea Fishnet Set

pose: :LW: Bento Poses – Spring Feelings @ TLC

CELESTE – Moon Gate – Portal @ TLC
CELESTE – Gentle Flowers – Standard – Blue @ TLC

Posted in DOUX, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping, skin, {le fil casse}

She was…

“She was perfect, pure maddening sex, and she knew it, and she played on it, dripped it, and allowed you to suffer for it.”
― Charles Bukowski, Factotum

Here’s a link to flickr for a better view, but its a moderate setting. So, you’ll need to have an account in oter to see it. 😉
https://www.flickr.com/photos/sadystikasabretooth/50968391828/in/photostream/

hair: DOUX – Venezia hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA NEXT PLEASE COLLECTION #3
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA NEXT PLEASE COLLECTION #6
{le fil casse} Sierra Mesh Set @ Kustom9

pose: Diversion – Serenity – Pose Set @ Shiny Shabby

backdrop: MINIMAL – Group Gift July 2019 v1

Posted in Animals, Apple Fall, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, fri.day, Home Decor, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

It’s not THAT many cats, Jason

I was hanging out with my amazing friends, Maria & Jason, when I got my hands on these gorgeous new sphynx cats from Rezz Room. I was squealing with delight, because…well…CATS! Jason started laughing and then predicted that I would be doing a post with a lot of cats. Started calling me the cat lady. So, in order to prove him wrong, I limited myself to only three. See? I have some self control, Jason! *laughs*

I am so very blessed to have these two amazing people in my life. So, I want to make sure they know how much I appreciate them both. ♥

It’s not THAT many cats, Jason

hair: Tableau Vivant // Vale hair @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

(Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88
Seniha. Jackie Set @ Access
Seniha. Jackie Sweater
Seniha. Jackie Top
Seniha. Jackie Pants

friday – Esme Sneakers @ C88

[Rezz Room] Box Sphynx Cat Animesh @ Man Cave

pose: GP Smoke 13

MINIMAL – Natural Nude Backdrop III Curtains @ Kustom9

Concept} 07.Bring. Sofa Adult. RARE @ Kustom9

Pitaya – Cushion Collection Part I WHITE @ TLC
Pitaya – Cushion Collection Part I MUSTARD @ TLC
Pitaya – Cushion Collection Part I GREEN @ TLC

Ariskea [Belle] Forever Roses [Peach] @ TLC

Soul2Soul. Moritz Bronze Sculpture @ TLC
Soul2Soul. Moritz Books @ TLC
Soul2Soul. Moritz Coffee Table -Fatpack @ TLC
Soul2Soul. Moritz Bronze Wall Art (Bonus) @ TLC

Apple Fall Chamise Occasional Table – Aged Oak
Apple Fall Pampas Grass
Apple Fall Bohemian Coffee Press (Group Gift)
Apple Fall Latte Decor (Group Gift)

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative

Makin’ bad decisions

I am so impulsive to a fault
I want the opposite of what I got
The second I get bored, I switch it up
Makin’ bad decisions, based on temporary thoughts
I know they say there’s greener grass
For me it’s never about that
The second I get bored, I switch it up
Makin’ bad decisions, based on temporary thoughts
My favorite hobby, self-sabotage
Can’t never seem to make my mind up
Change my opinion more than my socks
Let me tell you about the time I took my friend out the friend zone
‘Cause I felt so sad, sleepin’ alone
Then I put him right back, just like that
‘Cause I missed bein’ by myself

Makin' bad decisions

hair: Stealthic – Searching @ Access
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian *NEW*

Orsini Jewelry CAMILLE Set Jewely @ Access
(Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88
Cynful Amour Babydoll @ Equal10

pose: :LW: Bento Poses – Breakfast in Bed, mirror

KraftWork French Wall Panels @ The Liaison Collaborative
KraftWork Canopy Linen Bed
KraftWork Breakfast in Bed . Rustic
KraftWork Montmartre Dining Set . Candle Short

Atelier Burgundy + KraftWork Tate Set . Wide Square Rug

Fancy Decor: Fuck Throw Pillow

MudHoney Liza Adult Toy Box

[Rezz Room] Bengal Cat Sleep

floorplan hanging candle v1 / silver

dust bunny . potted rubber tree

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, fri.day, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka

There must be somethin’ wrong with me

All day starin’ at the ceilin’ makin’
Friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices tellin’ me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for somethin’
Hold on, feelin’ like I’m headed for a breakdown
And I don’t know why
But I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know, right now you can’t tell
But stay a while and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired
I know, right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me
And how I used to be, me
I’m talkin’ to myself in public, dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they’ve all been talkin’ about me
I can hear them whisper, and it makes me think
There must be somethin’ wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinkin’,
somehow I’ve lost my mind

There must be somethin' wrong with me

hair: Stealthic – Searching @ Access
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Zora @ C88

earrings: #MG – Kaleidoscope – #03
(Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88
Seniha. Loana Set @ Equal10
friday – Esme Sneakers @ C88

pose: Diversion – Wine O’Clock Poses

backdrop: .PALETO.Backdrop:.wild night @ Equal10

No59 F-class Coffee machine @ Equal10