Posted in DOUX, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, shoes, shopping, skin, Skin Fair, The Liaison Collaborative, Tres Chic, Uber SL

It has been so crazy

Wow! It has been quite a week. It has been so crazy! So, I inherited TLC! If you don’t know what that is…uhm, shame on you, but its one of the oldest shopping events on the grid. Anyway, I finally got it open and its an amazing round…of course, only a few things are featured in this post, cuz I took this picture days ago. Anyway, I’m hoping to get lots more pictures and posts done now. I’ll be featuring lots of goodies from TLC and Bloom in the next few days, so keep an eye out. In the meantime, y’all know I love me some Seniha…and this is her offering for Equal10, one of my favorite events!

It has been so crazy

hair: DOUX – Indigo hairstyle @ TresChic
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0 @ Skin Fair
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ Skin Fair
Glam Affair – New Body Line

Rainbow Sundae Morgan Earrings @ TLC
Mui. Arrival of Spring – Mouth @ TLC
(Yummy) Aaliyah Ring Collection @ Uber
Seniha. Martina Set @ Equal10
(shirt, shorts, & boots)

pose: FOXCITY. Rituals
backdrop: FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Cozy Balcony

Ariskea [Elley] Woodly Hammock

Posted in Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

It’s tied to all I’m worth

Freedom is a curse
That I don’t wanna break
I’m trapped inside a room
Where everything’s fading

It’s tied to all I’m worth
Like every conversation
And love is for the birds
When things are complicated

Somber as a ghost
I just want a home
Everyone is so far gone
We are all alone

It's tied to all I'm worth

hair: Tableau Vivant \ Siria hair @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC — SARAH @ Kustom9

Seniha. Suzzane Set @ Uber

pose: Diversion – Spring Glow Poses @ TLC

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative

a glimpse into my BPD brain

Ok, so this is a bit off and has absolutely nothing to do with the photo, but since I am prone to sharing my real life or lackthereof here, I figure I might as well share this, too. However, this could be a trigger for some. If you are easily triggered by suicide topics, please have someone else read it first to determine whether or not you should. I’m doing this for me. These are my reasons: 1. to hold myself accountable 2. cuz I think the convo is cute 3. cuz it shows how quickly my state of mind changes
So, what I’m going to do is just copy a conversation between myself and my wifey, Ghoulina Waffles, cuz it pretty much sums things up. Please don’t go nuts and call for welfare checks, I’m fine and I have an appt with my therapist in the morning.

9:24am
Ghoulie: Hope your stint at XXXXXX went okay
Sady: girl, I couldn’t sleep before my shift
I just laid in bed for hours contemplating suicide
then after my shift, I passed the fuck out
and had a nightmare about a failed suicide attempt
Ghoulie: Jesus wammen
Sady: was a rad attempt fail tho
rofl
Ghoulie: you are not allowed to think of suicide when your wifey is this pretty https://flic.kr/p/2kENqCT
oh?
how’s that?
Sady: oooh, I tried to race my car into a busy intersection, but ended up launching my car over it instead, but also flipping it mid way so I was over the intersection upside down screaming “fuck yeah” out the window before turning right side up and crashing into a building
but in my dream, my car was so sturdy it protected me, so I just had a concussion some scratches and bruises
and a bunch of teenagers decided I was a worthy cause and all came to visit me
and then it was kinda over and a giant storm came and mom was passed out on the couch so I sat and watched this amazing storm outside
when it was over we went to target to buy candy
lmao
Ghoulie: WTF, so, you had an action film for a suicide attempt
Sady: ooh and at the store there were all these candy bar flavored pop tart bites….they were new and I was mad that they didn’t have a grab bag with all the flavors
especially since I didn’t want a whole bag of milky way pop tarts
lmao
Ghoulie: I like you, but you’re crazy (said with a gif)
Sady: note to self, do not use car in suicide attempt, cuz if it fails, you only killed your car
Ghoulie: No suicide attempts, okay?
Sady: we’ll see
Ghoulie: your body is already like evil hands rubbing together “Teeheehee we got this”
Sady: RIGHT???
Ghoulie: it’s like surprise suicide, you just can’t plan it
Sady: pretty much…lol

….then we trailed off to discuss our new Linden Labs stilt homes and other things

Again, I repeat, I’m fine now. I was just talking to one of my closest friends. She gets me on a level that most don’t and she knows when to take me seriously, when to worry, etc. She’s not worried and you shouldn’t be either. This is not a cry for help, but just a glimpse into my BPD brain. As my friend, Tracy Redangel, once said, “Depression lies.” I know this and I would not act on a suicidal impulse. Trust that I know myself far better than most and I will be discussing my thoughts with my new therapist tomorrow morning. Meanwhile, I have too much work to do and too many people counting on me to just up and dip out! I PROMISE.

a glimpse into my BPD brain

hair: [monso] Mabel Hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

[ rD ] – Rayna Cuff & Earrings @ TLC
Rainbow Sundae Callie Bracelet @ TLC
MY BAGS by Mila Blauvelt My Naughty RED
hive // cold brew coffee to go .
Apl.Blossom Genesis @ TLC

pose: an lar [poses] The Sandra Series @ TLC

TROPIX // Time Music BackDrop 01 @ Access

Posted in Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative, {le fil casse}

Shatter me

If I break the glass, then I’ll have to fly
There’s no one to catch me if I take a dive
I’m scared of changing, the days stay the same
The world is spinning but only in gray
If I break the glass, then I’ll have to fly
There’s no one to catch me if I take a dive
I’m scared of changing, the days stay the same
The world is spinning but only in gray
Somebody shine a light
I’m frozen by the fear in me
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me
So cut me from the line
Dizzy, spinning endlessly
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me

Shatter Me

hair: Stealthic – Searching @ Access
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian
tattoo: Juna: Madeleine tattoo @ The Liaison Collaborative

{le fil casse} Nivea Fishnet Set

pose: :LW: Bento Poses – Spring Feelings @ TLC

CELESTE – Moon Gate – Portal @ TLC
CELESTE – Gentle Flowers – Standard – Blue @ TLC

Posted in Animals, Cosmopolitan, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, The Liaison Collaborative

The morning after

I couldn’t sleep last night
You were chasing the birds ’till the beast caught your eye
I couldn’t sleep last night
How you look like an angel
It’s burnt in my mind
I can’t feel anything the morning after you
I can’t tell anyone the morning after you
And I hope you sleep with a merry gold
I hope you win it this time
And I pray you don’t fear the animals
I’ll save you, I promise this time

The morning after

hair: TRUTH Calamity
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

Badwolf – Aeternitas Bracelets @ The Liaison Collaborative
Seniha. Sienna Dress @ Cosmopolitan
(AMD) LoungeWear Socks

pose: Diversion – Wine O’Clock Poses

backdrop: Party Was Here RARE – Damn Night – The Bearded Guy @ ManCave

[Rezz Room] Sphynx Animesh @ ManCave

..::THOR::.. Breakfast Tray ULTRARARE @ Kustom9
..::THOR::.. Morning News @ Kustom9

Posted in Animals, Apple Fall, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, fri.day, Home Decor, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

It’s not THAT many cats, Jason

I was hanging out with my amazing friends, Maria & Jason, when I got my hands on these gorgeous new sphynx cats from Rezz Room. I was squealing with delight, because…well…CATS! Jason started laughing and then predicted that I would be doing a post with a lot of cats. Started calling me the cat lady. So, in order to prove him wrong, I limited myself to only three. See? I have some self control, Jason! *laughs*

I am so very blessed to have these two amazing people in my life. So, I want to make sure they know how much I appreciate them both. ♥

It’s not THAT many cats, Jason

hair: Tableau Vivant // Vale hair @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

(Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88
Seniha. Jackie Set @ Access
Seniha. Jackie Sweater
Seniha. Jackie Top
Seniha. Jackie Pants

friday – Esme Sneakers @ C88

[Rezz Room] Box Sphynx Cat Animesh @ Man Cave

pose: GP Smoke 13

MINIMAL – Natural Nude Backdrop III Curtains @ Kustom9

Concept} 07.Bring. Sofa Adult. RARE @ Kustom9

Pitaya – Cushion Collection Part I WHITE @ TLC
Pitaya – Cushion Collection Part I MUSTARD @ TLC
Pitaya – Cushion Collection Part I GREEN @ TLC

Ariskea [Belle] Forever Roses [Peach] @ TLC

Soul2Soul. Moritz Bronze Sculpture @ TLC
Soul2Soul. Moritz Books @ TLC
Soul2Soul. Moritz Coffee Table -Fatpack @ TLC
Soul2Soul. Moritz Bronze Wall Art (Bonus) @ TLC

Apple Fall Chamise Occasional Table – Aged Oak
Apple Fall Pampas Grass
Apple Fall Bohemian Coffee Press (Group Gift)
Apple Fall Latte Decor (Group Gift)

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative

Makin’ bad decisions

I am so impulsive to a fault
I want the opposite of what I got
The second I get bored, I switch it up
Makin’ bad decisions, based on temporary thoughts
I know they say there’s greener grass
For me it’s never about that
The second I get bored, I switch it up
Makin’ bad decisions, based on temporary thoughts
My favorite hobby, self-sabotage
Can’t never seem to make my mind up
Change my opinion more than my socks
Let me tell you about the time I took my friend out the friend zone
‘Cause I felt so sad, sleepin’ alone
Then I put him right back, just like that
‘Cause I missed bein’ by myself

Makin' bad decisions

hair: Stealthic – Searching @ Access
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian *NEW*

Orsini Jewelry CAMILLE Set Jewely @ Access
(Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88
Cynful Amour Babydoll @ Equal10

pose: :LW: Bento Poses – Breakfast in Bed, mirror

KraftWork French Wall Panels @ The Liaison Collaborative
KraftWork Canopy Linen Bed
KraftWork Breakfast in Bed . Rustic
KraftWork Montmartre Dining Set . Candle Short

Atelier Burgundy + KraftWork Tate Set . Wide Square Rug

Fancy Decor: Fuck Throw Pillow

MudHoney Liza Adult Toy Box

[Rezz Room] Bengal Cat Sleep

floorplan hanging candle v1 / silver

dust bunny . potted rubber tree

Posted in DOUX, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, The Liaison Collaborative

They got me going blind

These brick walls are tumbling down
Hitting me on the head
My whole world is crumbling down
I don’t know how to act
I rode the wave ’till it crashed down
Maybe I should leave this sad town
I rode the wave ’till it crashed down
Nothing is holding me back now
And all these bright lights
They got me going blind
And all these bright lights
They got me losing my mind

They got me going blind

DOUX – Aluna hairstyle @ TresChic
LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5
[LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
— PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM

Izzie’s – Closed Eyes (LeLutka Evolution) @ TLC

(Yummy) Daisy Ring Collection @ C88
Apl,Blossom Monica @ TLC
Just BECAUSE Liz Skirt

pose: an lar [poses] The Kimberly Series @ TLC
MINIMAL – Light Room Backdrop -2- @ Kustom9

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Home Decor, Legacy, Lelutka, The Liaison Collaborative, {le fil casse}

Sex and Candy

I smell sex and candy here
Who’s that lounging in my chair
Who’s that casting devious stares
In my direction

Sex and Candy

DOUX – Martina hairstyle @ Level
LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5
[LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Zasha @ C88

(Yummy) Daisy Ring Collection @ C88
Cynful Fluffy Desire Set
{le fil casse} Maisie Socks

pose: Lyrium. Lollies Pose & Animation Set @ Equal10

Serenity Style- Giselle Winter Armchair

Serenity Style– Blue Winter Entry Set @ TLC
Serenity Style- Blue Winter Table
Serenity Style- Blue Winter Picture
Serenity Style- Blue Winter Roses Vases
Serenity Style- Blue Winter Books
Serenity Style- Blue Winter Cushions

KraftWork Clarrington Set . Table Lamp @ Kustom9
KraftWork Clarrington Set . Rubber Plant @ Kustom9
KraftWork Clarrington Set . Basket 2 @ Kustom9

LEMME..Natural Dildo // Malachite
LEMME…Stimulate me!Dildo_ Mint

dust bunny . hanging plants . ivy planter

Posted in Blueberry, Collabor88, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL, [BREATHE]

Road Trip to Nowhere

Have you ever just wanted to get in you car and drive with no destination in mind? I have and I’ve done it more than once. Of course, the problem with that is….eventually you have to stop for gas and by that time, you’re God knows where. Fortunately, there’s GPS on most phones these days. If you’re lucky you’ve got cell service wherever you’ve landed and can find your way home.
Most of us have responsibilities and loved ones that simply don’t allow us to do such a thing without hurting someone. Annnd, let’s be fair, the whole idea loses it’s appeal if you have to call and explain to someone that you’re trying to run away, but not forever…you’ll be back…eventually…
Yeah, that goes over like a ton of bricks. Trust me, I tried that way. You have to explain to someone why you feel the need to do this and by the time you’re done explaining it. Yeah, the whole idea is just ruined. Don’t even get me started on the fact that when this idea strikes, you’re never prepared and packing a bag takes so much away from the spontaneity.
I guess as we grow older and…*grumbles*…more mature. Ugh. We tend to realize what a mess can be made from a random road trip to nowhere. When I was younger and didn’t depend quite so much on medications, this was something I’d do. There were no cell phones (yes, I’m that old, fuck off) and by the time you stopped to get gas, you could justify not calling on the lack of working payphones.

Road Trip to Nowhere

hair: DOUX – Sixty Nine hairstyle @ Level
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Emilia @ UBER

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88

Blueberry – 2020 Holidays – Dress
[BREATHE]-Miumi Heels @ Fameshed X

pose: Secret Poses – Winter Road Trip @ TLC
**comes with jeep (and a dog I didn’t use)

Second Spaces – Holiday Prep – bag of gifts @ Arcade

(Milk Motion) The Belvedere Hotel @ C88