Posted in DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shoes, shopping, skin

I keep a record of the wreckage of my life

I’ve tasted blood and it is sweet
I’ve had the rug pulled beneath my feet
I’ve trusted lies and trusted men
Broke down and put myself back together again
Stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters
Collected the pieces and picked out a dagger
I’ve pinched my skin in between my two fingers
And wished I could cut some parts off with some scissors”
Come on, little lady, give us a smile”
No, I ain’t got nothin’ to smile about
I got no one to smile for, I waited a while for
A moment to say I don’t owe you a goddamn thing
I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize
I’m no sweet dream, but I’m a hell of a night
That I’m no sweet dream, but I’m a hell of a night
No, I won’t smile, but I’ll show you my teeth
And I’ma let you speak if you just let me breathe
I’ve been polite, but won’t be caught dead
Lettin’ a man tell me what I should do in my bed
Keep my exes in check in my basement
‘Cause kindness is weakness, or worse, you’re complacent
I could play nice or I could be a bully
I’m tired and angry, but somebody should be

I keep a record of the wreckage of my life

hair: DOUX – Martina hairstyle @ Level
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Lilly @ Kustom9

Seniha. Sinai Sweater @ FaMESHed
Seniha. Sinai Belt @ FaMESHed
Seniha. Sinai Skirt @ FaMESHed
Seniha. Nubia Boots&Socks

pose: Le Poppycock Rough Patches Downtrodden
MINIMAL – Dark Background

Posted in Bueno, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, shoes, shopping, skin, Uber SL

Sundays

I don’t do this a lot, but y’all know me. I do what I want! So, today I want to tell you a little bit about Serasim. SeraSim is where Seraphim lives inworld. Their offices are there. It’s where they pretend to do work. *grins* Now, the thing is that SeraSim is not just offices. Ohhh no….they wouldn’t dare stop there. Nope. They have shops there and events! Yes, shopping events, but other stuff, too. So, first and foremost, I encourage you to go check it out. It is really well done…think Havana and a fancy shopping center merged. There are places for parties, live singers, etc. There are actual shops and….AND…they have some pretty nifty shopping events there.
For instance, you see the vagrant top in this picture? It goes perfectly with my new Cheri Jeans from Bueno! I only paid L$70 for this top! Can you believe that? IKR?!?! They have this cool thing at SeraSim called 70L SERASIM SUNDAY! They have carts all around the sim with these amazing deals. I got a badass school room backdrop for only L$70, too! Plus a wonderful couple’s pose from Vanity Poses! Seriously, you will be amazed at the deals!
I’ll be telling you more later on, but for now….get ready for some super savings on Sundays (and maybe a few days after)!

Sundays

hair: tram J1213 hair @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Riona @ ACCESS

-[ vagrant ]- Ashley Hoody – Black
BUENO-Cheri Jeans @Kustom9
Ohemo – Chloe boots

pose: Ana Poses – Rome

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, shopping, skin

Even when

“Listen to the people who love you. Believe that they are worth living for even when you don’t believe it. Seek out the memories depression takes away and project them into the future. Be brave; be strong; take your pills. Exercise because it’s good for you even if every step weighs a thousand pounds. Eat when food itself disgusts you. Reason with yourself when you have lost your reason.”
― Andrew Solomon, The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression

Even when

hair: Magika – December
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: [theSkinnery] Avery @ Kustom9

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88

Cynful Nini’s Top + Armwarmers Set @ Equal10
Cynful Nini’s Skirt @ Equal10

pose: Lyrium. Cynthia Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10

(Milk Motion) Parisian Backyard

Posted in Collabor88, FaMESHed, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, {le fil casse}

What dirty dishes?

This is how you get out of trouble for not doing the dishes. *grins* You just stand real pretty in something distracting and offer some treats. Now, what significant other could possibly be upset about a few dishes in the sink when they can have hot cocoa, churros, and this? None with a pulse, I can tell you that! *giggles*

What dirty dishes?

hair: TRUTH Brazen
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88
^^Swallow^^ Princess Belly Piercing @ Kustom9

{le fil casse} Laverne Bralette
{le fil casse} Laverne Shorts

pose: Ana Poses – Her September

scene:
hive // modern farmhouse kitchen
DaD “Rustic Frames
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Morning Start
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Dirty Dishes
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . spice rack . black
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . paper towels
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . dish drying rack . white
Hangry – White Glazed Churros @ Kustom9
Hangry – Jolly Hot Cocoa – White @ Kustom9

Posted in Collabor88, Dubai, Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Prism Events, Second Life, shoes, shopping, skin, Uber SL, [BREATHE]

NOW, I’m ready!

Ok, I’ve stuffed myself with food the way you stuff a plushie at Build-a-Bear! Now, I’m ready for Christmas. No, I don’t mean the dinner, I mean the decorations. I think the delicious food makes me so complacent that I can embrace my belly and laugh right along with jolly ol’ Santa!!! In fact, I might just waddle around behind him and embrace feeling small in his shadow. *laughs* Seriously though, its always been a tradition at my house to decorate for Christmas the day after Thanksgiving.
I’ve never been one to decorate every room in the house. I keep the decor in the living room and dining room, maybe a little ceramic tree in the guest bathroom provided there’s room. Once upon a time, I did the whole yard and lights on the building, but I’m too old and lazy to be climbing on ladders nowadays. Okay, mostly scared and lazy, ok? I’m not the most graceful person on the planet.

NOW, I'm ready!

hair: Doe: Winterberry @ Tannenbaum
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA @ Kustom9

Just BECAUSE Sady Sweater @ Uber
KITJA – Mona Jeans NAVY @ Kustom9
[BREATHE]-Misaku Heels @ C88

pose: Lyrium. Coral Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Dubai

scene:
dust bunny . christmas tree RARE

BALACLAVA!! Christmas Village Decor @ Tannenbaum

MH Holly Pillows @ Tannenbaum

Atelier Burgundy . Greetings Card Clutter @ Tannenbaum

Pitaya – Natural Gift Boxes @ Tannenbaum

Foxwood – Winter Pugs @ Tannenbaum

+Half-Deer+ Vintage Deer Figurines @ Tannenbaum

Sese – Advent Calendar @ Tannenbaum

Posted in Animals, Blueberry, Events, Exploration, Jian, Lelutka, Maitreya, poses, Second Life, shoes, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

She’s Singing

It’s 5am and my 74yr old mother is dancing through the house singing Beyonce’s “Single Ladies.” I don’t even think she realizes what she’s singing, but she’s doing a well enough job that I recognize the song. I just pulled up the song on YouTube and she comes running in asking how did I know she had that song stuck in her head. *cracks up* Well, Mom, you tend to think out loud…so its not that hard to know what you’re thinking. God, I love this woman!

She's Singing

hair: Stealthic – Cordova
LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0
[theSkinnery] Karima @ Uber

Blueberry – HBIC – Top
Blueberry – HBIC – Shorts
Blueberry – HBIC – Shoes & Socks

JIAN Bichon Frise Companion

pose: :LW: Bento Poses – Courage @ The Liaison Collaborative
(includes stick & golder retriever)

location: Curiosity Lake

Posted in Events, Jian, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, skin, Uber SL

Politically Correct

“The wolf said, “You know, my dear, it isn’t safe for a little girl to walk through these woods alone.”

Red Riding Hood said, “I find your sexist remark offensive in the extreme, but I will ignore it because of your traditional status as an outcast from society, the stress of which has caused you to develop your own, entirely valid, worldview. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I must be on my way.”
― James Finn Garner, Politically Correct Bedtime Stories

Politically Correct

Tableau Vivant \ Grim[m]Tales – Red Riding Hood @ Uber
LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0
[theSkinnery] Karima @ Uber

(Yummy) Heirloom Ring Set
-SU!- Almond Nails

pose: Diversion – Cozy Fall @ La Vie en Pose

Serenity Style-Carson woodshed

KraftWork Bin Storage

JIAN Grey Wolf

Posted in Bueno, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, shoes, shopping, skin, Uber SL

Not my wish for them

People never want to address being on that secrets website. Understandably, they don’t want to give their hater(s) more power or attention. Yet, sometimes I kinda like being on there, because when I am, all the people that love me come remind me how much they love me. That’s a pretty special gift and I appreciate each of them for that.
I am so blessed to be surrounded by some of the truest hearts on this planet. The ones that truly love me are far more genuine about their love for me than those sad souls that hate me here and there. When they are so focused on their dislike of me, they are missing out on all the good things in their life. Not my wish for them…or anyone else for that matter, but that is the choice they make.
I also find it amusing that the things posted there are rarely secrets, at all. They are usually just opinions from uninformed people with little else to do than complain about those around them. I’d suggest a hobby, but I think their hate probably is as close to that as they come. As for the most recent post? Well, I can’t take that personally. I was rather shocked that I won the award, too! I’m not a hoe though. I mean, honestly, I suck at gardening! If they meant the other kind, well…I’m not that either and they really should learn to spell, along with some grammar. *laughs*

Not my wish for them

Credits:

tram J1016 hair @ Uber
LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
[LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
[Glam Affair] Lelutka Applier – Arlet @ Uber

^^Swallow^^ Urban Ears
BUENO-Bella Necklace-LEGACY-Gold

.miss chelsea. Cari Cardi @ Uber
.miss chelsea. Cari Jeans  @ Uber
[Gos] Zara Chained Mules

[Rezz Room] European Cat Baby Animesh

pose: Amitie Autumn Hanging Chair @ Uber

Posted in Bueno, DOUX, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, shoes, shopping, skin

Its been fun

I’ve cut way back on my blogging commitments lately and I have to say its been fun to play with different styles again. I think this photo would have looked better without the pup, but I couldn’t resist that he was sitting the same way as me. I don’t have a whole lot to say as I’ve been struggling with my health lately. I suppose I could have done a micro post for this photo, but I didn’t. *shrugs*

hair: DOUX – Ubert hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

TRIGGERED – Treasurer Glasses Gacha #RARE @ Kawaii Project
BUENO-Bella Necklace @ Kustom9
kunst ] – Kyle Cuffs @ Kustom9
MIWAS  / Rei Outfit @ Equal10
-MIWAS / Rei Jacket
-MIWAS / Rei Bra top
-MIWAS / Rei Denim shorts
-MIWAS / Rei Boots

pose: Bauhaus Movement – F*ck The Mainstream 12
The Tunnel – Sick Neon – The Bearded Guy

Kalospia – Luna’s Hanging Light @ C88

Mutresse-Sitting2-Chubby Puppies

MVT – Organic Acai take away

Posted in breathe, Collabor88, Cosmopolitan, crate, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, shoes, shopping, skin, Uber SL, unKindness

Invisible

I don’t wanna talk about it, there isn’t much to say
I don’t have an excuse to why I won’t come to your party
And I don’t want my picture taken, I’d hate it anyway
No, I don’t wanna spoil your night, just go have fun without meI’m pushing food around my plate
‘Cause my father said I’m overweight
Well, maybe he’d feel better
If I just disappeared altogether and I
Got so good at faking smiles
I can do it for a little while
Just don’t ask me if I’m okay
‘Cause I’m not okay, noIt’s hard to show you something invisible
No tears, no scars, no bruises, It’s not physical
It’s covered up and hidden tight
Beneath the skin, inside the mind
You wouldn’t even notice, you wouldn’t even know
Invisible, invisible, invisible
~ Grace Davies – Invisible

WEARING:
hair: MIWAS  – Hair #Maria
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

e.marie // Kandi Puff Earrings
dress: Blossom&Seeds Narda @ Cosmopolitan
shoes: [BREATHE]-Miyuwa Heels @ C88

[Rezz Room] Dachshund Adult Animesh @ Equal10
[Rezz Room] Dachshund Puppy Animesh @ Equal10

Lyrium. Yuna Idle Stands Breathing Poses @ Equal10

SCENE:
Campito – Good Times – The Bearded Guy

crate Patio Plant Cart Set @ Equal10
crate Patio Plant Cart – Beige Green
crate Patio Plant Cart – Box Plants
crate Patio Plant Cart – Hat & Throw
crate Patio Plant Cart – Pot & Cloth
crate Patio Plant Cart – Egg Head Pearl Plant
crate Patio Plant Cart – Bonsai Palm

crate Cabo Bar Set @ Anthem
crate Cabo Bar
crate Cabo Bar Citrus Basket
crate Cabo Bar Mint Plant
crate Cabo Bar Pom Pom Garland
crate Cabo Bar Citrus Sangria Dispenser

andika[End of summer sweets]A/dispenser @ Equal10

Ariskea [Sunrise] Succulent Ceramic hangers

Mithral * Mojito Syngonium @ Equal10
Mithral * Albo Syngonium @ Equal10

dust bunny . paradise plants . @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . fan palm
dust bunny . paradise plants . pineapple plant
dust bunny . paradise plants . monstera tree . with lights

uK – Infinity Fountain Ivory @ Uber

7 – Cat Burglar Painting