“A good dancer is not necessarily defined by great technique, skill, or ability to pick up choreography but by confidence. When you feel the music, it penetrates to your soul. Everybody’s a dancer. The greatest dancer is someone who is willing to dance, not afraid.” ~ Alyssa Edwards
If you don’t know who Alyssa Edwards is then let me spill some tea, just for you. Alyssa Edwards is the most fabulous Queen since RuPaul. She has been on RuPaul’s drag race shows several times. Before Alyssa Edwards was famous for being a fierce queen, the man behind the drag, Justin Johnson, owned and operated (still does, I think) an award winning dance studio called Beyond Belief in Mesquite, TX. Seriously, if you want to know more you can Google either name and by all means, do a quick search on YouTube.
I swear sometimes I put together a look and feel so damn cute I don’t want to take it off. That’s what happened when I put this look together. I just wanted to prance around and be cute. Alas, I had stuff to do and didn’t get to prance too much. However, one thing I absolutely adore about this dress is that it actually came with panties…well, a panties like cloth. I was not familiar with this brand, but I will definitely be on the watch for more. I really don’t have a whole lot to say today, I’m just busy busy. At least, I’m cute though, right?
“Ghost, I see you standing there
Don’t turn away, I want you to stay
Ghost, what’s your name?
Why so surprised? I’m interested
You’re just a soul that blends into the crowd
I hear you so loud no one else hears a sound
You reach out your hand no one else feels a thing
And I’m just a stranger who could be a friend”
~ Jacob Lee – Ghost
I grew up in a pretty strict church setting. Though my father never went to church, my mother would drag me every other Sunday (she worked the other Sundays) and the Nazarene church is no joke. Aside from the fact that they change their doctrine rules every few years about dress codes, they had a lot of rules…like we weren’t allowed to play cards (even Go Fish) because that was considered gambling. So, it should come as no surprise that the only time you mentioned God was during prayer, Sunday school, bible study, or church, but to say, “Oh my God” or “For Jesus Sake” was taking the Lord’s name in vain. Oh and you can’t set anything on top of the bible…*rolls her cartoon eyes like Dusty.*
Now, I left that church a very very long time ago, but I can’t help but wonder how they reacted to the whole, “OMG!” Did they adjust their doctrine again? Did they yell at the kids the way they used to? Hell, are there even any kids still going to that church after they hit 13? Hardly was when I was a kid. Meh, I don’t care enough about the answer to that question to go check it out, I’ll tell you that much. Cuz, like, OMG, they totally think I’m like the fucking devil, right?”
We say, “Oh what a small world” when we run into a friend of a friend, but I think its a great big world and a there’s a whole lot that I don’t know anything about…like anime. I think its cute. I can appreciate the artistic nature…a genre? I get the appeal, but it has never really kept my attention. That does not mean I can resist the appeal to play dress up! Just so happens, LootBox has quite a few items that are Asian themed this round. So, if you love the stuff, this round was made for you. If you’re like me and just like to play dress up, well….get your butt over there. Have fun!
I just decided to have a little fun of my own in a nifty little Asian market I discovered right outside of chill little club lost in a time warp. Of course, the slurl will be down in the credits.
Regardless of whether you’re a DIY or Salon girl, getting your nails done is like waiting for paint to dry. I’m clearly profiling, but in my neck of the woods the best nail shops are run by Asians, mostly Vietnamese or Korean. Y’all know me, I ask questions. I’d rather sound ignorant for asking a question than be ignorant while assuming I know something I don’t. You’d think a salon full of people wouldn’t make you zone out, but when they’re chattering away in their native language and it all just sounds like high pitched noises to you…well, its easy to zone out. Painting your nails at home, you try to get everything situated before you start, because its going to take a while before you can move about freely. You nail polish is unforgiving! This is when I tend to slip down inside myself and get lost in thoughts. If good things are happening in my life, I can revel in my blessings. I can be grateful and wish good things, send love & light to others. It’s like a fairy tale room in my mind. However, if things are messed up or I’m going through a rough time, that’s when my demons come out to play. Its like getting locked in the attic with a room full of creepy dolls, each one whispering a secret in a creepy little doll voice.
This blog is focused almost solely on Avenge. This store not only does amazingly sexy clothes, but skins and shapes, too! Now, I worked closely with a dear friend to get my shape to where it is and I’ve never been happier, but I always appreciate good skins. Not only does Avenge deliver this gorgeous Heather Skin at the Skin Fair, but if you head over to Whore Couture, you can find some of their sexy outfits that I mentioned. Like this sparkling glitter number I’m wearing below. You can’t see it, but this literally sparkles. Do not confuse that with bling, this is sparkling. I’ve seen a few designers perform this sparkling magic and my love for shinies makes it impossible for me to pass up.
Sometimes the world just doesn’t make sense. I think it’s pretty clear that I’m not the picture of perfect mental health. I’m not sure there even is such a thing to be honest. Hell, mental health has been called all sorts of names throughout history. Even the names of disorders change….what once was called manic depressive is not called bi-polar. Why? Why did they change the name? Manic depressive was spot on. I think everyone and anyone can catch that disorder on the right day or wrong day as the case might very well be.
Seriously, think about it for a minute. You are having a great day. You slept great, you woke up right before your alarm went off. The weather is your favorite kind of day. Everything is going well. Catching all the green lights in traffic. Errands go great, you even saved some money unexpectedly. You come home, dinner is great….you slip into your favorite PJs…you’re set. You’re happy as you can be….then it happens. You get a tragic phone call. Something awful has happened to someone you love and there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it. You’re alone with this awful news. That’s going to be a helluva a mood swing, don’t you think? Say the reverse happens. Whole day has been shit. Slept like shit, overslept, bad hair day, pouring down rain, you get stuck in traffic…you get home, burn dinner…then unexpectedly your best friend calls. She’s coming over and she’s bringing pizza. Your whole day just got better in an instant. Mood swing. *shrugs* Must be bi-polar.
Ever just felt so damn lazy, you just didn’t even want to get out of bed? Ever just want to stay in bed all weekend, veg out with the remote and some junk food? Ever just do it, cuz you want to? Well, you must be depressed, you can’t even drag your ass out of bed. I’m in no way minimizing any diagnosis. I’m more than fully aware that there are varying degrees of each legitimate disorder. I’m not even suggesting to know what is and isn’t legitimate….I’m not a psych-anything….well, maybe psycho, but that’s about where my expertise ends. I’m sure not yelling at Matt Lauder about how mental health is a hoax, while clearly proving that it is very real.
I’m just saying, that the world doesn’t always make sense. So, if you’re a little crazy…so what? Be crazy. Be you. Love drama? Do it up. Hate drama? Stay away from it. Wanna dance? Crank up the music and dance. Who cares? We all have to get through this thing called life one way or another…so if you’re not crazy….why not? C’mon, let’s all go crazy.
I borrowed this quote from a friend of mine’s profile. It is so profound in its simplicity and then when I realized who is credited for saying it, I was instantly humbled. When such a great artist can maintain his humility, I find it ironic when people boast of their greatness. I believe that if we ever stop learning, we stop living. I try to learn at least one new thing a day, even if its just some random useless piece of trivia. I want each day to present me with new information.