Posted in DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shoes, shopping, skin

I keep a record of the wreckage of my life

I’ve tasted blood and it is sweet
I’ve had the rug pulled beneath my feet
I’ve trusted lies and trusted men
Broke down and put myself back together again
Stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters
Collected the pieces and picked out a dagger
I’ve pinched my skin in between my two fingers
And wished I could cut some parts off with some scissors”
Come on, little lady, give us a smile”
No, I ain’t got nothin’ to smile about
I got no one to smile for, I waited a while for
A moment to say I don’t owe you a goddamn thing
I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize
I’m no sweet dream, but I’m a hell of a night
That I’m no sweet dream, but I’m a hell of a night
No, I won’t smile, but I’ll show you my teeth
And I’ma let you speak if you just let me breathe
I’ve been polite, but won’t be caught dead
Lettin’ a man tell me what I should do in my bed
Keep my exes in check in my basement
‘Cause kindness is weakness, or worse, you’re complacent
I could play nice or I could be a bully
I’m tired and angry, but somebody should be

I keep a record of the wreckage of my life

hair: DOUX – Martina hairstyle @ Level
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Lilly @ Kustom9

Seniha. Sinai Sweater @ FaMESHed
Seniha. Sinai Belt @ FaMESHed
Seniha. Sinai Skirt @ FaMESHed
Seniha. Nubia Boots&Socks

pose: Le Poppycock Rough Patches Downtrodden
MINIMAL – Dark Background

Posted in Bueno, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, shoes, shopping, skin, Uber SL

Sundays

I don’t do this a lot, but y’all know me. I do what I want! So, today I want to tell you a little bit about Serasim. SeraSim is where Seraphim lives inworld. Their offices are there. It’s where they pretend to do work. *grins* Now, the thing is that SeraSim is not just offices. Ohhh no….they wouldn’t dare stop there. Nope. They have shops there and events! Yes, shopping events, but other stuff, too. So, first and foremost, I encourage you to go check it out. It is really well done…think Havana and a fancy shopping center merged. There are places for parties, live singers, etc. There are actual shops and….AND…they have some pretty nifty shopping events there.
For instance, you see the vagrant top in this picture? It goes perfectly with my new Cheri Jeans from Bueno! I only paid L$70 for this top! Can you believe that? IKR?!?! They have this cool thing at SeraSim called 70L SERASIM SUNDAY! They have carts all around the sim with these amazing deals. I got a badass school room backdrop for only L$70, too! Plus a wonderful couple’s pose from Vanity Poses! Seriously, you will be amazed at the deals!
I’ll be telling you more later on, but for now….get ready for some super savings on Sundays (and maybe a few days after)!

Sundays

hair: tram J1213 hair @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Riona @ ACCESS

-[ vagrant ]- Ashley Hoody – Black
BUENO-Cheri Jeans @Kustom9
Ohemo – Chloe boots

pose: Ana Poses – Rome

Posted in DOUX, Dubai, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Shiny Shabby, shoes, shopping

Let me love you like a woman

We could get lost in the purple rain
Talk about the good old days
We could get high on some pink champagne
Baby, let me count the waves
Let me love you like a woman
Let me hold you like a baby
Let me shine like a diamond
Let me be who I’m meant to be
Talk to me in songs and poems
Don’t make me be bittersweet
Let me love you like a woman

Let me love you like a woman

hair: DOUX – Valentine hairstyle @ Dubai
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: [theSkinnery] Avery @ Kustom9

Seniha. Prudence Set @ FaMESHed X
**UTOPIA@Design** – “NATALIA”

pose: Diversion – Mirage Vol. 2 Poses @ Shiny Shabby
Diversion – Mirage Backdrop @ Shiny Shabby

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, shopping, skin

Even when

“Listen to the people who love you. Believe that they are worth living for even when you don’t believe it. Seek out the memories depression takes away and project them into the future. Be brave; be strong; take your pills. Exercise because it’s good for you even if every step weighs a thousand pounds. Eat when food itself disgusts you. Reason with yourself when you have lost your reason.”
― Andrew Solomon, The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression

Even when

hair: Magika – December
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: [theSkinnery] Avery @ Kustom9

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88

Cynful Nini’s Top + Armwarmers Set @ Equal10
Cynful Nini’s Skirt @ Equal10

pose: Lyrium. Cynthia Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10

(Milk Motion) Parisian Backyard

Posted in Blueberry, Collabor88, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL, [BREATHE]

Road Trip to Nowhere

Have you ever just wanted to get in you car and drive with no destination in mind? I have and I’ve done it more than once. Of course, the problem with that is….eventually you have to stop for gas and by that time, you’re God knows where. Fortunately, there’s GPS on most phones these days. If you’re lucky you’ve got cell service wherever you’ve landed and can find your way home.
Most of us have responsibilities and loved ones that simply don’t allow us to do such a thing without hurting someone. Annnd, let’s be fair, the whole idea loses it’s appeal if you have to call and explain to someone that you’re trying to run away, but not forever…you’ll be back…eventually…
Yeah, that goes over like a ton of bricks. Trust me, I tried that way. You have to explain to someone why you feel the need to do this and by the time you’re done explaining it. Yeah, the whole idea is just ruined. Don’t even get me started on the fact that when this idea strikes, you’re never prepared and packing a bag takes so much away from the spontaneity.
I guess as we grow older and…*grumbles*…more mature. Ugh. We tend to realize what a mess can be made from a random road trip to nowhere. When I was younger and didn’t depend quite so much on medications, this was something I’d do. There were no cell phones (yes, I’m that old, fuck off) and by the time you stopped to get gas, you could justify not calling on the lack of working payphones.

Road Trip to Nowhere

hair: DOUX – Sixty Nine hairstyle @ Level
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Emilia @ UBER

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88

Blueberry – 2020 Holidays – Dress
[BREATHE]-Miumi Heels @ Fameshed X

pose: Secret Poses – Winter Road Trip @ TLC
**comes with jeep (and a dog I didn’t use)

Second Spaces – Holiday Prep – bag of gifts @ Arcade

(Milk Motion) The Belvedere Hotel @ C88

Posted in Collabor88, FaMESHed, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, {le fil casse}

What dirty dishes?

This is how you get out of trouble for not doing the dishes. *grins* You just stand real pretty in something distracting and offer some treats. Now, what significant other could possibly be upset about a few dishes in the sink when they can have hot cocoa, churros, and this? None with a pulse, I can tell you that! *giggles*

What dirty dishes?

hair: TRUTH Brazen
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88
^^Swallow^^ Princess Belly Piercing @ Kustom9

{le fil casse} Laverne Bralette
{le fil casse} Laverne Shorts

pose: Ana Poses – Her September

scene:
hive // modern farmhouse kitchen
DaD “Rustic Frames
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Morning Start
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Dirty Dishes
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . spice rack . black
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . paper towels
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . dish drying rack . white
Hangry – White Glazed Churros @ Kustom9
Hangry – Jolly Hot Cocoa – White @ Kustom9

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, [BREATHE]

I can and I will

Well, this year isn’t over yet and its just gonna keep dumping on some of us right until the bitter end. I just want to crawl into a hole and hide sometimes. Not just from this year, but from the world in general. There’s just so much happening around me and its a bit overwhelming. The diabetes thing is sooooo hard this late in life. I’m a creature of habit. Granted most of my habits are not good ones. Don’t you judge me! *winks* I guess for once in my life I am making resolutions, but not because I really want to. I have to! Time to work on that vision board, I reckon. *laughs* Y’all forget that I really am a Southern girl at heart. I’m doing my best to not get too stressed over all of this. Lots and lots of people live with diabetes and I will, too! I can do this. I will do this!

I can and I will

hair: Stealthic – Always
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM

Kibitz – Rainne’s necklace @ Equal10

Apl.Blossom Viviana @ TLC
[BREATHE]-Tamari Heels @ C88

pose: Diversion – Santa Baby Poses @ Access

location: Burrow Co.

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping

Exhausting

This has not been a merry holiday season for me. It has been more of a medical season. First I was diagnosed with a genetic heart disease that puts me at risk for sudden death and now diabetes. I don’t know the details on the diabetes yet, I’ll find out more about that next week. Yay. -_- I am exhausted and we’re not even half way into the month yet.
When I took this picture I was thinking about how exhausting the holidays can be in general. I was inspired by the Christmas Fails Gacha colleciton at Tannenbaum, cuz that’s my kinda luck. However, after my appointment this morning, the only thing that’s really on my mind is my health. *sighs* I guess 2021 is literally going to be a new life for me. I have to change so many things about my life going forward.
As my sister has pointed out, I’m not going to war. So, there’s a silver lining. *laughs*

Exhausting

hair: tram J1201 hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM

(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88
Tulssy – Abstract Fatpack Coffin

Cynful Hilly’s Cardigan Set @ C88
AsteroidBox. Elena Lingerie – Legacy Panties

pose: Diversion – Light Me Up Poses @ Shiny Shabby

scene:
KraftWork Canopy Linen Bed . Basics

Atelier Burgundy . Privacy Panel . horizontal cedar

LEIJIN // OgHaus — Tafts Hanging Ivy

22769 – Christmas Fails @ Tannenbaum
22769 – Jolly Neon Sign – COMMON
22769 – Box of Ornaments – COMMON
22769 – Broken Ornament – COMMON
22769 – Unwrapped Present – COMMON
22769 – Tangeld Fairy Lights – COMMON


Posted in Bad Unicorn, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Prism Events, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

You Can’t Tell

You can’t tell what someone has been through in real life just by looking at them. You sure as hell can’t do that in Second Life. Yet, for some reason, people in SL tend to judge one another so much more harshly than they judge others in real life. We scream about body shame, micro aggressions, and other issues in SL. We gather our friends and point fingers, we blast them on social media, but how often do we do that in real life? Do we gather our neighbors to ostracize someone else in the neighborhood? Do we chase down cars leaving stores that have offended us? No, you don’t, I don’t…no one really does. I just don’t understand why being behind a keyboard makes some people so rude. Yes, I understand that there’s a certain degree of anonymity, but to me that’s even more reason to be kind. We have no idea who we are dealing with on the other side. Not really. Even with profiles full of information and clues, we can not tell what someone else is dealing with or what their life has been like or why they choose this virtual existence. I think it is pretty fair to say that everyone has been through a lot this past year. So, let’s go into this next year with more kindness and compassion. Please.

You Can't Tell

hair: DOUX – Ines hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM

ears: — PUMEC – / Mesh Ears\ – Dance of evil genius
nails: Tulssy – Abstract Fatpack Coffin

[ILAYA] Ylva Dress and Svea Scarf @ Uber

Serenity Style– Magical Christmas- Cute Fawn RARE @ Tannenbaum

pose: space cadet – fireflies

[Bad Unicorn] Cold World Backdrop – Falling Snow @ FaMESHed

Posted in Apple Fall, Blueberry, crate, DOUX, Fashion, Home Decor, Jian, Legacy, Lelutka, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL, [BREATHE]

Sady Stuff!

The moment I saw this sweater, I had to message Annie, “I’m just going to pretend this sweater is named after me!” Annie quickly assured me that it was indeed named after me. I’m honored to have such a beautiful piece named after me. I love how the lines kinda shift around the boobs, like its stretching. It is perfect….the shading, the wrinkles….how the sleeves come down over the wrists as if I’ve been pulling at them and no pokes on the shoulders from being on a hanger in my closet instead of folded on a shelf. *laughs* Seriously, this is one of the most realistic sweaters I’ve seen in SL, like this sweater has been worn….I pushed up the sleeves to do dishes, then I tugged them down over my hands when I took the dog out. For me, this sweater tells a story,
To top off the sweater, Katya named a pose set after me! It’s a perfect set of poses for blogging, too. So, I’ll be using them all eventually. For now, I’m just using one of them to pose pretty in front of this scene composed mostly from two of THOR’s lastest gacha sets.
I’m not going to pretend that I’m not excited over having such awesome creations named after me. It’s an honor anytime a designer names something after you and I am genuinely chuffed. (Can’t tell I have British friends, can you?)

Sady Stuff!

hair: DOUX – Sixty Nine hairstyle @ Level
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM

Just BECAUSE Sady Sweater @ Uber
Blueberry – Power Play – Jeans
[BREATHE]-Tamito Wedges @ Arcade

pose: an lar [poses] The Sady Series @ The Liaison Collaborative

scene:
..::THOR::.. Homemade Gacha Set – Arcade
..::THOR::.. Spices Grinder LI:1
..::THOR::.. Pot of Mulled Wine LI:3
..::THOR::.. Fryng Pans LI:1
..::THOR::.. Decorative Chair LI:4
..::THOR::.. Homemade Mulled Wine RARE LI:8
..::THOR::.. Old Cooking Stove LI:3
..::THOR::.. Old Kitchen Cabinet lower LI:2
..::THOR::.. Stacked Copper Casseroles LI:1

..::THOR::.. Countryside Gacha Set
..::THOR::.. Box of Cutting Boards LI:2
..::THOR::.. Ceramic Milk Jar – Terracotta LI:1
..::THOR::.. Countryside Centerpiece LI:7
..::THOR::.. Countryside Shelf – Rare LI:7
..::THOR::.. Countryside Sink – RARE 1 LI:4
..::THOR::.. Folk Pot – Orange LI:1
..::THOR::.. Folk Pot – White LI:1
..::THOR::.. Forgotten Clutters LI:3
..::THOR::.. Small Plant – Nut LI:1
..::THOR::.. Small Plant – Vanilla LI:1
..::THOR::.. Vintage Breadbox LI:1
..::THOR::.. Vintage Kitchen Scale – Yellow LI:2
..::THOR::.. Vintage Pitcher – Copper LI:1
..::THOR::.. Vintage Pitcher – Enamel LI:1
.::THOR::.. Ceramic Milk Jar – Vanilla LI:1

Apple Fall Hetton Barn Conversion LI:76

JIAN Countryside Collies :: Companion Pup Tri LI:7
JIAN Countryside Collies :: Family Rug LI:1

Nutmeg. Garden Junk Broom LI:5

Soy. Wooden Beaded Curtain [Long-TypeA] LI:3

[Commoner] Pallet Wall Art / “Perfect for One Another” LI:1

crate Green Gardener Mop Bucket Tree LI:4

dust bunny . hanging plants . ivy planter LI:3
dust bunny . homemade soup . bag of groceries . pattern a LI:4
dust bunny . homemade soup . prep board LI:2
dust bunny . pasta love . grocery basket LI:1

hive // hanging devil’s ivy plant . light LI:3
hive // macrame hanging plant . white LI:2

tarte. hanging marble pothos plant LI:3
tarte. hanging trailing jade plant LI:3

{vespertine} hanging succulents. – string of pearls., LI:5