Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Exploration, FaMESHed, Fashion, Lamb, Maitreya, Scandalize, Second Life, Vanity Event

You Don’t Know

Katelyn Tarver – You Don’t Know

I know you’ve got the best intentions
Just trying to find the right words to say
Promise I’ve already learned my lesson
But right now, I wanna be not okay
I’m so tired, sitting here waiting
If I hear one more “Just be patient”
It’s always gonna stay the same
So let me just give up
So let me just let go
If this isn’t good for me
Well, I don’t wanna know
Let me just stop trying
Let me just stop fighting
I don’t want your good advice
Or reasons why I’m alright
You don’t know what it’s like
You don’t know what it’s like
Can’t stop these feet from sinking
And it’s starting to show on me
You’re staring while I’m blinking
But just don’t tell me what you see
I’m so over all this bad luck
Hearing one more “Keep your head up”
Is it ever gonna change?
So let me just give up
So let me just let go
If this isn’t good for me
Well, I don’t wanna know
Let me just stop trying
Let me just stop fighting
I don’t want your good advice
Or reasons why I’m alright
You don’t know what it’s like
You don’t know what it’s like
Don’t look at me like that
Just like you understand
Don’t try to pull me back
Let me just give up
Let me just let go
If this isn’t good for me
Well, I don’t wanna know
Let me just stop trying
Let me just stop fighting
I don’t want your good advice
Or reasons why I’m alright
You don’t know what it’s like
You don’t know what it’s like
You don’t know, you don’t know, you don’t know
You don’t know what it’s like
You don’t know what it’s like
You don’t know, you don’t know
You don’t know what it’s like
You don’t know what it’s like

scandalous

wearing:
hair:   Lamb. Halo (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [Glam Affair] Maze Applier [ Catwa ] 007 (*new* @ C88)
piercings: –SU!– Piercing Set 07 Septum & Nose Studs
CULT : His Princess Rings/Silver (*new* @ Kinky)
[ kunst ] – Cigarette & holder
Scandalize.Karole.BRA.   (*new* @ Vanity Event)
Scandalize.Karole.TOP  (*new* @ Vanity Event)
Scandalize.Karole.JEANS  (*new* @ Vanity Event)
pose: <K&S> ~Next to the wall set
location: Corruption
Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Scandalize, Second Life, shopping

Open Eyes

“I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead; I lift my eyes and all is born again.”
~Sylvia Plath

Open Eyes

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant // Demon huntress
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
SU!– Astrid Eyes
-SU!- Xanthe Lip Gloss
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Myra”
Scandalize.Ankola.TOP. (*new* @ Kinky)
pose by Del May

Posted in Bad Unicorn, Bueno, CandyDoll, Catwa, crate, Events, FaMESHed, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Home Decor, Maitreya, Pose Fair, Scandalize, Second Life, shopping, Tres Chic

Moving On Up

I could hardly do a post about moving and not get the Jefferson’s theme song stuck in my head. I don’t have a whole lot to say about moving except that I’m glad I don’t have to do it anymore. I imagine I’ll spend the rest of my life in this condo. It’s paid for…in full. I remember moving quite a bit as a kid and all through my 20s and my favorite part of moving was unpacking in the new place. That’s the one thing I’ll miss about moving, but otherwise, I’m glad to have a place that is genuinely my home and know that I don’t have to pack up and leave again.

moving day

wearing:
hair:  Beusy: Autumn Hairstyle
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Myra”

tattoo: [White~Widow] Soorma (*new* @ Dubai Event)

Scandalize.Niah.TOP. (*new* @ TresChic)
_CandyDoll_ Nynfa Jeans (*new* Go by FaMESHed)

pose: [..::CuCa Designs::..] & Illuzion – Moving Day set (*new* @ PoseFair)
scene:
[..::CuCa Designs::..] & Illuzion – New Beginnings Backdrop (*new* @ PoseFair)
[..::CuCa Designs::..] & Illuzion-Tender Moments Bed incl phone (*new* @ PoseFair)
[..::CuCa Designs::..] & Illuzion – Box Pile 1 (*new* @ PoseFair)
17 Fancy Decor: Yas Pillow
+Half-Deer+ Carefree Bikini Clutter – ALL – Floor Bra
+Half-Deer+ Carefree Bikini Clutter – ALL – Floor Thong
+Half-Deer+ Favorite Sweater Clutter – ALL – Edge
dust bunny . fiddle leaf tree
BUENO-Pizza Boxes
[Bad Unicorn x Birch] Mary Janes ‘Noel’s Cookies’
:::ChicChica::: TakeAway
09 Fancy Decor: Gold Dots Pillow
+Half-Deer+ Neatly Folded Blankets – Leaves
crate Filament Floorlamp Steel
Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Pose Fair, RunAway Hair, Scandalize, Second Life, shopping, unKindness

Feeling Froggy?

Having spent the majority of my life in the Southern U.S., “feeling froggy” is a common phrase. Now, its usually a rather redneck or ghetto term between two people arguing that are very close to a physical altercation. One threatens the other, so the other says, “Oh, if you feeling froggy then jump, muthafucka!” Imagine this in Samuel L. Jackson’s voice, its much more badass that way. However, what if instead of jumping, we took a step back and for just a minute took a deep breathe and centered ourselves? My yoga friend here taught me that not all frogs feel like jumping, sometimes they just wanna chill out and relax. To be fair, have you ever seen two frogs fight?

felling froggy

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Cherry Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Myra”
ScandalizeXNoir. Aile. (*new* @ C88)
pose: Poseology – Namaste Set (*new* @ PoseFair)
scene:
SEUL – Yoga Session – RARE
uK – Yoga Mat w/ Pillow [Color Change]
uK – Meditation Candle Yoga
Yoga Frog 12 ~ Tree Pose (no longer available)
Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Pose Fair, RunAway Hair, Scandalize, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL, Vanity Event

Zoning Out

I wrote about my fibromyalgia the other day and it took a lot for me to do that, but in writing about it, I found myself reading more about this affliction. As I said in that post, I’ve been having an especially hard time with it the last week and it hasn’t eased up quite yet. I’ve always kind of struggled with focus, unless I somehow slip into a zone with something, in which case I can’t unfocus….it’s like 0 or 100. However, here lately, I’ve found myself just zoning out. I can’t begin to tell you what I’m thinking, because when I snap out of it, its like I just woke up and can’t remember my dream. Perhaps I’m finally understanding what men are talking about when they say they are genuinely thinking about nothing. I’ve never understood how anyone could not be thinking something at all times, but I think I’m finally getting there. I know its not a good thing and I’m working towards making it stop, but in the meantime, I hope that my regular readers will understand if I slap music and lyrics with my photos more than usual.

balcony

wearing:
hair: [RA] Amber Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Willow – Jamaica (*new* @ Uber)

*OAL* Sea Glass Jewelry (*new* @ Vanity Event)
Scandalize. Lipa set. (*new* @ Vanity Event)
Scandalize. LipaFlats. (*new* @ Vanity Event)

pose: InPulse– Pose 05 set (*new* @ Pose Fair)

scene: MINIMAL – Bionic Building *8*
Ariskea[Amber]Set (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
-Ariskea[Amber] Porch Chair [Brown]
-Ariskea[Amber] Porch Chair [Blue]
-Ariskea[Amber] Giant Plant Philo [Healthy]
-Ariskea[Amber]Rug [Brown]

Posted in Catwa, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Lamb, Maitreya, Scandalize, Second Life, shopping

Walking Solo

I’ve been asked a few times why I often include the lyrics to the song, instead of just linking the song in my blog. The answer is quite simple. I adore poetry and most song lyrics read like poetry if you take away the music. I’ve explained many time that songs often say what I can and if you do add the melody, it can elevate the feeling behind the picture to an entirely new level.

Oh Wonder – Without You

Step out into the sun
Skies above they radiate me
Lift up, carry the love
Do you know?
That I’ve been out of my mind
This slow life I’m waiting for you
To swing me all of your line
Do you know?
Since I’ve been walking solo
Dreaming you were back home
I find getting down low
Hide until tomorrow
Come back into the good life
Lose these hazy love lies
I’ve been chasing my mind
Lonely in the cold nights
‘Cause I’m kicking up stones without you
Can’t pick up the phone without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
Step out into the dark
Where were you when I was trying
To lift up, carry the love
Do you know?
That I’ve been closing my eyes
Love me slow, hallucinating
Swinging me all of your light
Do you know?
Since I’ve been walking solo
Dreaming you were back home
I find getting down low
Hide until tomorrow
Come back into the good life
Lose these hazy love lies
I’ve been chasing my mind
Lonely in the cold nights
‘Cause I’m kicking up stones without you
Can’t pick up the phone without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
Hold me close when it’s over
Life goes slow loving sober
Feel my bones getting older
Sadness grows when you’re cold
‘Cause I am one step heavy and two steps high
Hold it steady with you by my side
One step heavy and two steps high
Two steps high
‘Cause I’m kicking up stones without you
Can’t pick up the phone without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
Without you
Without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you

bikini season

.wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Sunshower (*new* @ Summerfest)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily (*new* @ Kustom9)
(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings
Scandalize. Klossy. (*new* @ FrouFrou)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set
location: Baja Bay

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Maitreya, REWIND, Scandalize, Second Life, shopping, ULTRA

Fake Friends

“Don’t worry about what people say behind your back, they are the people who are finding faults in your life instead fixing the faults in their own life.” ~Author Unknown

This quote or something along those lines has been told to me so many times over the years. It’s important to my sanity that I remember this, especially when “friends” begin acting shady around you. I think most of us are intuitive enough to realize when one of so called friends suddenly seems fake as hell. I’ll admit it hurts to think that someone you care about suddenly thinks very little of you. Even worse knowing that the real reason they have suddenly begun to think less of you, is actually a reflection of their feelings towards themselves. Sadly, instead of looking in the mirror, they’d rather project their failures and misgivings upon someone else. At this point, the question is, do you attempt to prove that person wrong or do you just go the other way. I know that for me personally, I cannot tip toe about broken glass that I can’t even see. They’ll just have to clean that up themselves, because I have far too much on my plate to worry about what others think of me. If only that was my biggest problem, I’d be far more blessed than I deserve.

the sea

wearing:
hair:  [e] Staci (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily (*new* @ Kustom9)
tattoo: IDTTY Body Shop (*new* @ ULTRA)
DIRTY PRINCESS– Hippie Chic Princess Sunglasses (*new* @ REWIND)
MICHAN – Heather Necklace (*new* @ REWIND)
Scandalize. Kimberly.  (*new* @ Collabor88)

pose: FOXCITY. Beach Bunny Bento Set

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Jian, Maitreya, Scandalize, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Vanity Event

Amazing Little Things

I don’t like leaving my house. This is well known among my friends, but there are times that I have no choice. I have to go to the store or the doctor. I have to take the dog out. I suffer from extreme anxiety and each time I walk out the front door of my house I wish for the earth to swallow me whole. I can’t explain when it started or the cause of it. I wasn’t always like this. I used to love being outdoors. I was very active and enjoyed long walks in the woods. The only thing that seems to bring me any peace when I am out of the house is when I encounter a random butterfly or dragonfly. For as long as I can remember, those beautiful, majestic creatures have fascinated me and delivered a sense of peace. It is for this reason that no matter where I live in SL, be it a boring little linden home or the gorgeous homestead I have now, there will always be butterflies and dragonflies. These amazing little things that bring me the simplest of joys and comfort can be part of my daily virtual life if I so choose it.

amazing little things

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant // Charlize hair (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –  Rayna (*new* @ C88)

MG – Necklace – Venice Beach Boho – Short (FLF June 8)
(Yummy) Sea Treasures Ring Set (*new* @ C88)
JIAN Butterfly Collection (Companion)

Scandalize.Fox.DRESS. (*new* @ Vanity)
Scandalize. FoxHeeels. (*new* @ Vanity)

pose: :LW: BENTO Poses – High Hopes (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
location: The Bay

Posted in Catwa, Death Row Designs, Events, Fashion, Lamb, Maitreya, Scandalize, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Tres Chic

Not For Rent

Whether its an sl rumor, some fake ass hater written post on slsecrets, or a full on Facebook attack, we could all learn something from the celebrities in Hollywood. Stop feeding the trolls. These cyber bullies can only take up space in our heads if we let them and I don’t know about you, but there are no vacancies in mine. The space in my head is not for rent and I’m damn sure not going to let someone take up residence there for free. The only power these wretched people have over you is the power you give them. They feed off your fury, your misery, and your pain. Take that away from them and they will surely starve. They crave that reaction. They crave the attention. No more. Turn on that no vacancies sign and tell these people that space in your mind is not for rent. You’ll be amazed at how quickly they go away.

ready to go

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Cherry
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Ears Silence BLACK
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

Scandalize.Hanna.TOP (*new* @ TresChic)
Scandalize.Hanna.JEANS (*new* @ TresChic)
Scandalize.HannaHeels (*new* @ TresChic)

pose created using AnyPose

secne:
[MF] Beautiful suitcase closed
DRD – Boho Backyard – Hewett Chair – Two

Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Maitreya, RAMA, Scandalize, Second Life, shoes, shopping

I’m Hooked

Have you ever met someone that lures you in…as if they cast a spell on you? One taste of their lips makes you weak in the knees. That first time you make love is like a first hit of heroin. You would do just about anything to feel them inside you one more time….to hear those delicious words in your ear…to feel their hands roaming over you body. If you close your eyes, you can picture it like it was just last night. I have and I’m hooked.

when I think about you
Hurts me the most when I wake
I fumble and twist, ’til the truth starts to click
There’s so much space in this bed
These sheets go for miles: dreams of your smile

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Hayley Hair  (May FaMESHed Go)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings
Violetility – Ruffle Collar

Scandalize.Jennifer-TOP. (May Pocket Gacha)
Scandalize.Jennifer-SKIRT (May Pocket Gacha)
Scandalize.Jennifer-HEELS (May Pocket Gacha)

pose created using AnyPose
Stockholm&Lima:Better With You Platform Bed (*new* @ ROMP)