Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Narcisse, RunAway Hair, Second Life, Vanity Event

Ocean Eyes

It’s a music post, but mostly just cuz I love the song and it goes perfectly with the photo. I don’t have a whole lot to say today. So, go shopping and have fun!♥

Billie Eilish – Ocean Eyes

I’ve been watching you
For some time
Can’t stop staring
At those oceans eyes
Burning cities
And napalm skies
Fifteen flares inside those ocean eyes
Your ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you gimme those ocean eyes
I’m scared
I’ve never fallen from quite this high
Falling into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you gimme those ocean eyes
I’m scared
I’ve never fallen from quite this high
Falling into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
I’ve been walking through
A world gone blind
Can’t stop thinking of your diamond mind
Careful creature
Made friends with time
He left her lonely with a diamond mind
And those ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you gimme those ocean eyes
I’m scared
I’ve never fallen from quite this high
Falling into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you gimme those ocean eyes
I’m scared
I’ve never fallen from quite this high
Falling into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you gimme those ocean eyes
I’m scared
I’ve never fallen from quite this high
Falling into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you gimme those ocean eyes
I’m scared
I’ve never fallen from quite this high
Falling into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes

Ocean Eyes

wearing:
hair: [RA] Aschera Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Kailee (*new* @ C88)
SU!– Piercing Set 07 (*new* @ Access)
Narcisse– Sylvie Apron Dress (*new* @ Vanity)

pose by Bauhaus Movement

Posted in Bad Unicorn, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Jian, Maitreya, Narcisse, RunAway Hair, Second Life, shopping

All Good Things

What I was thinking when I took this picture was that she had gone to revisit a favorite lake from her childhood and even took her dogs along, only to discover that it was overgrown and swampy now. The gelato stand had been abandoned. The snack shack was boarded up. She’d barely managed to get her dog out of the water before an alligator started heading their way. Alas, all good things must come to an end.

good things come to an end

 

wearing:
hair: [RA] Joy Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –  Rayna (*new* @ C88)

Rebel Gal :: California Sunglasses.
Cae :: Estrela :: Collection (*new* @ FaMESHed)
(Yummy) Sea Treasures Ring Set (*new* @ C88)
Narcisse– Ridley Bikini (*new* @ FaMESHed)
JIAN Splashy Spaniels 22. Brit Black Held (*new* @ Arcade)

pose: FOXCITY. Breather VOL2 Animated Pose Set

scene:
[Bad Unicorn] Galato Cart (Deco(c)rate)
JIAN Splashy Spaniels 2. Adult Companion RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
Modulus – Abandoned Kiosk

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Lamb, Maitreya, Narcisse, Second Life, shopping, {le fil casse}

Yes, I Am

I don’t know too many women that don’t relate to this song, at least parts of it. The only thing I’d change is the part about being a mother, unless you count my fur babies. I’m not a mother and I don’t want to be. I’ve already raised one woman’s son and that didn’t fair too well for me. I won’t do that again. I learned that lesson the hard way. Make no mistake, I’m very much a brat, so we can just replace mother with brat and this fits me to a tee. Youtube link is at the bottom of the page, but here are the lyrics.

Meredith Brooks ~ Bitch

I hate the world today
You’re so good to me
I know but I can’t change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I’m an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you’d be so confused
I don’t envy you
I’m a little bit of everything
All rolled into one
I’m a bitch, I’m a lover
I’m a child, I’m a mother
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell, I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way
So take me as I am
This may mean
You’ll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I’m going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won’t mean a thing
I’m a bitch, I’m a lover
I’m a child, I’m a mother
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell, I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way
Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season’s already changing
I think it’s cool, you do what you do
And don’t try to save me
I’m a bitch, I’m a lover
I’m a child, I’m a mother
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell, I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way
I’m a bitch, I’m a tease
I’m a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I’m your angel undercover
I’ve been numb, I’m revived
Can’t say I’m not alive
You know I wouldn’t want it any other way

yes I am

wearing:
hair:  Lamb.. Wait (*new* in mainstore)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Viktoria Applier

{le fil casse} Midnight Bodysuit (*new* @ The Fantasy Collective)
Narcisse– Taylor Skirt (FaMESHed Go)

pose by Bauhaus Movement (edited with AnyPose)

[Kres] Love Lights – Brat

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, Narcisse, pr!tty, Second Life, shopping

Let There Be An End

“I give the fight up: let there be an end, a privacy, an obscure nook for me. I want to be forgotten even by God.” ~ Paracelsus  Robert Browning

Granted I discovered this quote as I watched Anon on Netflix, but the quote struck a nerve on so many levels that I immediately had to find its origin. Upon finding the origin and reading around the quote, I discovered an entirely new meaning to it. I admit that my first thought was about celebrities and how they’ve no privacy whatsoever. Upon watching the film, it developed an entirely new meaning and I do recommend the film. Obviously, I’m no movie critic, but it is a psychological thriller set in the future. A future I hope never comes to be, for I found it to be absolutely dreadful. As if our privacy has not been invaded enough, the premise of this movie suggests that even our mere thoughts are opened to others. Not to mention our memories. You could have no more secrets…ever. Your eyes recording everything you see and do, only for that information to fall into the wrong hands. Trust me, I’ve given no spoilers about the movie. These are just things I thought about in conjunction with the film. About how life would be for the majority of us.
I think this quote relates to Second Life, as well. So many of us have made tragic mistakes or have been so hurt so brutally that we associate that pain with the avatar. How easily we can start anew. I’ve done that a few times in my earlier years in SL, but I’ve also grown from that and have become far too comfortable with my current avatar to ever consider starting again. I’ll own my mistakes and do my best to amend my behavior when I am wrong. I’ve grown to realize that some are too miserable within their own skin to forgive and forget. I let them go and forget them. They may hold onto their resentments and their toxicity for as long as they like, but they will have no hold over me. I cannot control what other do, feel, think, or believe, but for me, let there be an end to the controversy. I shall erase them from my lives and move forward, forgetting their very existence. If our paths shall pass in the future, they are no more than a stranger to me and will be treated as such.

Forgotten

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Julie Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

pr!tty – Floral Choker
(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings (*new* @ C88)

.:villena:. – Rose Bud Fur Jacket – Blush
Narcisse– Julia Tshirt Corset Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)

Posted in Bloom, Catwa, Essenz, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Narcisse, Second Life

The Spotlight

I wasn’t naked, I was completely covered by a blue spotlight. ~Gypsy Rose Lee

Spotlight

wearing:
hair:  [^.^Ayashi^.^] Miyoko hair (*new* @ Bloom)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy
Narcisse– Marika Harness (*new* @ RedLightDistrict)
Essenz – Havana (*new* @ FaMESHed until the April 25th)

pose: FOXCITY. Spot On Bento Pose Set (*new* @ EQUAL10)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Show Time: Darks (*new* @ Limit8)

Posted in Bueno, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Narcisse, pr!tty, Second Life, shoes, shopping

My Hands Are Tied

Being a blogger, myself, I know how devastating and frustrating it can be when a blog post gets rejected. I don’t always agree with the reason, but regardless I respect the decision of the creator and their blog manager. I immediately set out to correct my mistake. Perhaps that’s because I prefer to maintain a certain integrity with my work, but I also know that they have the final say in the matter. Arguing with my blog managers will get me absolutely nowhere.
As a blog manager for four stores, my hands are often tied when it comes to rejecting posts. If the item for that store is not being showcased properly, I simply can’t accept it. Trust me when I say I absolutely hate rejecting posts, because I know how hard we all work on our blog photos and sometimes we’re quite proud of how they turned out. However, if I do reject a post, there’s nothing worse than that blogger coming at me to tell me how to do my job or running to the designer to complain about me. I have never rejected a post for personal reasons…EVER. Nor is it ever my intent to hurt a blogger’s feelings. I’d say that most bloggers understand and are usually apologetic. Like me, they rush off to correct the issue straight away.
*sighs* Every once in a while though, I have bloggers get far too defensive and thus begins their attack. I’ve had bloggers threaten to quit if I’m not fired. That NEVER works, but it does amuse me….especially when none of them have ever quit like they threatened to. I recently had a blogger IM me inworld just to tell me that I was an idiot and there was absolutely nothing wrong with their post and they would NOT be doing it over. Sadly, that just means she’s going to lose her spot as a blogger in time. I know none of us are perfect and that’s why I try my hardest to be gentle when explaining why I have to reject a post.
Something for bloggers to remember when they argue with their blog managers or creators is that we often know other designers and blog managers. We talk. We share horror stories. So whenever a blogger makes a scene with a creator or a blog manager, word gets around and it becomes increasingly harder for that blogger to be taken on by other stores. So, to my fellow bloggers I say, “Don’t take it so personally.” We obviously liked you enough to bring you on as a blogger. The fact that one or two posts weren’t up to par, doesn’t mean we don’t like you. It doesn’t mean that we doubt your talents or abilities, it simply means that we need something that wasn’t done with that particular post. Please, don’t shoot the messenger, attack blog managers/designers, simply fix the issue and resubmit. Take responsibility for your mistake and learn from it.  If you honestly do not have time to fix the issue, then you’ve probably got too much on your plate and should cut back.

my hands are tied

wearing:
hair: pr!tty – Dawn – {Short} – [Special Pack] SUPER RARE (*new* @ TCF)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy
Narcisse– Insouciant Collar (*new* @ Black Fair)
Narcisse– Chanty 2in1 Ruffle Bodysuit (*new* @ FaMESHed)
BUENO-Athens Heels (*new* @ Shoetopia)

pose: FOXCITY. Spot On Bento Pose Set (*new* @ EQUAL10)
BUENO-Dreaming Bed- RARE

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Narcisse, Phedora, Phoenix, Pose Fair, Quasi, Second Life

Kindergarten Tired

I use the term kindergarten tired all the time, but most people don’t always know what I mean. Think back to when you were like 4 or 5 yrs old. As if we were trained at birth, we did not want to go to sleep. We wanted to say up as late as the grown ups! There’s a story my mother loves to tell about me when I was in kindergarten and that’s where I coined the term. My bedtime was at like 7pm. Around 5pm, I started asking if it was “sebin otock” yet. I asked the question so many times that they asked me if I was tired. Of course, I denied being tired. Bedtimes are for babies, afterall. By 6pm, my parents were done and decided to lie, “Yes, its seven o’clock, you better get to bed.” I was so tired I cried as my mom made me wait until I had pajamas on.

kinder tired

wearing:
hair: :::Phoenix::: Brittany Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
Narcisse– Dahlia Bra & Panties (*new* @ Blush)
Narcisse– Dahlia Pelerine & Garter (*new* @ Blush)
Phedora ~ Sisley boots (*new* @ Kinky)

pose: double take: down and out 4 set (*new* @ Pose Fair)

Quasi – Risque Bed
anxiety %generation skybox

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Narcisse, RAMA, Second Life, shopping

All I Ever Wanted Was Everything

Just this…

Bauhaus – All We Ever Wanted Was Everything

All we ever wanted was everything
All we ever got was cold
Get up, eat jelly, sandwich bars and barbed wire
And squash every week into a day
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
The sound of the drum is calling
The sound of the drum has called
Flash of youth shoot out of darkness
Factory town
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
Oh to be the cream
Oh to be the cream
Oh to be the cream

all I ever wanted

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Jacinda Hair (*new* @ Blush)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
Narcisse– Pixie Cami & Ruffle Panties

pose: FOXCITY. What Gives Bento Pose Set  (*new* @ Blush)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Insatiable Pink (*new* @ Blush)

Posted in Bad Unicorn, Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Narcisse, Pale Girl Productions, Second Life, shopping, Skin Fair, [ATI] Addicted to Ink

Let’s Go Crazy

Sometimes the world just doesn’t make sense. I think it’s pretty clear that I’m not the picture of perfect mental health. I’m not sure there even is such a thing to be honest. Hell, mental health has been called all sorts of names throughout history.  Even the names of disorders change….what once was called manic depressive is not called bi-polar. Why? Why did they change the name? Manic depressive was spot on. I think everyone and anyone can catch that disorder on the right day or wrong day as the case might very well be.
Seriously, think about it for a minute.  You are having a great day. You slept great, you woke up right before your alarm went off. The weather is your favorite kind of day. Everything is going well. Catching all the green lights in traffic. Errands go great, you even saved some money unexpectedly. You come home, dinner is great….you slip into your favorite PJs…you’re set. You’re happy as you can be….then it happens. You get a tragic phone call. Something awful has happened to someone you love and there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it. You’re alone with this awful news. That’s going to be a helluva a mood swing, don’t you think?  Say the reverse happens. Whole day has been shit. Slept like shit, overslept, bad hair day, pouring down rain, you get stuck in traffic…you get home, burn dinner…then unexpectedly your best friend calls. She’s coming over and she’s bringing pizza. Your whole day just got better in an instant. Mood swing. *shrugs* Must be bi-polar.
Ever just felt so damn lazy, you just didn’t even want to get out of bed? Ever just want to stay in bed all weekend, veg out with the remote and some junk food? Ever just do it, cuz you want to? Well, you must be depressed, you can’t even drag your ass out of bed. I’m in no way minimizing any diagnosis. I’m more than fully aware that there are varying degrees of each legitimate disorder. I’m not even suggesting to know what is and isn’t legitimate….I’m not a psych-anything….well, maybe psycho, but that’s about where my expertise ends. I’m sure not yelling at Matt Lauder about how mental health is a hoax, while clearly proving that it is very real.
I’m just saying, that the world doesn’t always make sense. So, if you’re a little crazy…so what? Be crazy. Be you. Love drama? Do it up. Hate drama? Stay away from it. Wanna dance? Crank up the music and dance. Who cares? We all have to get through this thing called life one way or another…so if you’re not crazy….why not? C’mon, let’s all go crazy.

melting
Are we gonna let the elevator
Bring us down, oh, no let’s go
Let’s go crazy, let’s get nuts
Look for the purple banana
‘Til they put us in the truck, let’s go
All excited but we don’t know why
Maybe it’s ’cause we’re all gonna die
And when we do, what’s it all for
Better live now before the grim reaper
Come knocking on your door

wearing:
hair: tram H0210 hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: LOTUS. Louise Skin Applier 04 (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
tattoo: [ATI] Simon.(*new* @ Elite)
EF: Springleaf Earrings (*new* @ FaMESHed)
EF: Springleaf Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Narcisse– Nelly Lace up Dress (*new* @ Kinky)

pose: [ Focus Poses ] Naughty Chair 2
[Bad Unicorn] 02 Hype-Beast Backdrop

LOTUS. Louise Skin (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
:::insanya::: JennaShorts – Solid (*new* @ Whore Couture)
pose by an lar
Lotus

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Narcisse, RunAway Hair, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping

3 A.M.

It’s 3AM and I’m sitting in front of my computer taking pictures of an avatar in a virtual world. Thoughts racing through the matrix of my mind, as quickly as the light travels from my screen to my eyes. Ideas…memories…chores…emotions…zooming past me faster than I can type or even catch. When I do catch a thought long enough to look at it…there goes another one and over there is a squirrel…or wait, that just another blur of light.

just a girl
All I need is to be struck
By your electric love
Baby, you’re electric love
Electric love

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Grace Hair (*new* @ ShinyShabby)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier
^^Swallow^^ Cuff Bracelet
Narcisse– Caged Valentine Dress (*new* @ Fetish Fair)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Limit8)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – No Doubt (Limit8)