You don’t know what you have till it’s gone Best I ever had to the worst, still makes me mad From moving way too fast to moving on Whispers of the past, like scars that ever last
And then you send me that shit Why’d you send me that message? Won’t you show some respect To that chick you tryna mess with Baby, don’t you remember Only took you ’bout a minute To go make a bad decision
hair: DOUX – Amaya hairstyle @ Equal10 head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed (Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88
Well, this year isn’t over yet and its just gonna keep dumping on some of us right until the bitter end. I just want to crawl into a hole and hide sometimes. Not just from this year, but from the world in general. There’s just so much happening around me and its a bit overwhelming. The diabetes thing is sooooo hard this late in life. I’m a creature of habit. Granted most of my habits are not good ones. Don’t you judge me! *winks* I guess for once in my life I am making resolutions, but not because I really want to. I have to! Time to work on that vision board, I reckon. *laughs* Y’all forget that I really am a Southern girl at heart. I’m doing my best to not get too stressed over all of this. Lots and lots of people live with diabetes and I will, too! I can do this. I will do this!
hair: Stealthic – Always head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
This has not been a merry holiday season for me. It has been more of a medical season. First I was diagnosed with a genetic heart disease that puts me at risk for sudden death and now diabetes. I don’t know the details on the diabetes yet, I’ll find out more about that next week. Yay. -_- I am exhausted and we’re not even half way into the month yet. When I took this picture I was thinking about how exhausting the holidays can be in general. I was inspired by the Christmas Fails Gacha colleciton at Tannenbaum, cuz that’s my kinda luck. However, after my appointment this morning, the only thing that’s really on my mind is my health. *sighs* I guess 2021 is literally going to be a new life for me. I have to change so many things about my life going forward. As my sister has pointed out, I’m not going to war. So, there’s a silver lining. *laughs*
hair: tram J1201 hair @ C88 head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88 Tulssy – Abstract Fatpack Coffin
It never snows in LA You’d never know it was a holiday I don’t believe that Jesus Christ was born to save me That’s an awful lot of pressure for a baby But here we are again, with family or friends Some extra time to spend and I’m not mad about it Don’t waste a dime on me, just want your company Beside a Christmas tree, if the dog allows it –Finneas – Another Year
hair: [monso] Yaska Hair @ C88 head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM ears: — PUMEC – / Mesh Ears\ – Dance of evil genius
cat ears, eyes, eyeshadow, & lipstick: — PUMEC – MURKA – BEAUTY SET (LELUTKA) @ Santa Inc Tulssy – Abstract Fatpack Coffin (Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88
AvaWay LETTER Necklaces @ FaMESHed ChicModa // Fiona Top & Pants
You can’t tell what someone has been through in real life just by looking at them. You sure as hell can’t do that in Second Life. Yet, for some reason, people in SL tend to judge one another so much more harshly than they judge others in real life. We scream about body shame, micro aggressions, and other issues in SL. We gather our friends and point fingers, we blast them on social media, but how often do we do that in real life? Do we gather our neighbors to ostracize someone else in the neighborhood? Do we chase down cars leaving stores that have offended us? No, you don’t, I don’t…no one really does. I just don’t understand why being behind a keyboard makes some people so rude. Yes, I understand that there’s a certain degree of anonymity, but to me that’s even more reason to be kind. We have no idea who we are dealing with on the other side. Not really. Even with profiles full of information and clues, we can not tell what someone else is dealing with or what their life has been like or why they choose this virtual existence. I think it is pretty fair to say that everyone has been through a lot this past year. So, let’s go into this next year with more kindness and compassion. Please.
hair: DOUX – Ines hairstyle head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
This past year is definitely one for the history books. I could easily tear it all down and rant about all the wretched events that have occurred. I’d rather count the blessings and rejoice in the lessons. We all know what we’ve lost and there’s nothing to gain by focusing on our losses. We need to regroup and gather all that hope we had at the beginning of this year. We need to take that hope and truly visualize a better year for all of us. We have to let go of the hate, the sorrow, and the misery and move forwards with love, joy, and faith. It’s time for us to appreciate the people that uplift us. It’s time to reach out to those less fortunate. It’s time for us to embrace the lives we still get to live. It would be so easy for me to focus on my limitations and the restrictions in my life. Instead, I choose to embrace the freedoms and abilities that I often take for granted. Ok, I can’t be on my feet for more than ten minutes without experiencing some pretty intense pain, but I CAN be on my feet for ten minutes! I can walk from one room to the next. I can walk to my car. I have rooms. I have a car. Those are blessings. I appreciate them so much. I have haters that want to post lies about me. I also, have some of the most wonderful friends I could have ever hoped for in my life. So, that’s it. In looking at the yuck this year has delivered….if I dig deep enough, I also find some pretty awesome advantages. If you take a good look at your own life, I bet you’ll find some remarkable things worthy of gratitude, too.
hair: Stealthic – Fixated head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
Sese – Christmas Tree Farm @ Arcade -22.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Tree Wrapper -5.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Fence Tree -23.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Tree+Ornaments -14.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Snow Tree Lights -2.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Fence Cage -10.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Tree Grove
The moment I saw this sweater, I had to message Annie, “I’m just going to pretend this sweater is named after me!” Annie quickly assured me that it was indeed named after me. I’m honored to have such a beautiful piece named after me. I love how the lines kinda shift around the boobs, like its stretching. It is perfect….the shading, the wrinkles….how the sleeves come down over the wrists as if I’ve been pulling at them and no pokes on the shoulders from being on a hanger in my closet instead of folded on a shelf. *laughs* Seriously, this is one of the most realistic sweaters I’ve seen in SL, like this sweater has been worn….I pushed up the sleeves to do dishes, then I tugged them down over my hands when I took the dog out. For me, this sweater tells a story, To top off the sweater, Katya named a pose set after me! It’s a perfect set of poses for blogging, too. So, I’ll be using them all eventually. For now, I’m just using one of them to pose pretty in front of this scene composed mostly from two of THOR’s lastest gacha sets. I’m not going to pretend that I’m not excited over having such awesome creations named after me. It’s an honor anytime a designer names something after you and I am genuinely chuffed. (Can’t tell I have British friends, can you?)
hair: DOUX – Sixty Nine hairstyle @ Level head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
We are told over and over again as adults to not settle. As a result we create these lists of things we want from our jobs, our lovers, our homes, our children, and so on. We stay so steadfast on the track of not settling that we rarely open our eyes to possibilities along the way, because sometimes our list, our visual picture of what we want is so specific that we develop tunnel vision. It’s easy to forget that what we wanted when we made that list may have changed over time. Just think how many times you got what you thought you wanted and it was a major disappointment. Sometimes the things we want aren’t actually good for us and what we really need is sitting right in front of us the entire time. I just think it’s important that we don’t lock ourselves down to ideas we created long ago that really might not even work with our current lives. Just something to think about as we approach a new year.
hair: DOUX – Sixty Nine hairstyle @ Level head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM @ Kustom9