Seven years strong with my therapy Making mosaics of my memories Puzzled with doubt, I’m my closest enemy It’s like this girl is squatting in my identity She’s a raver, a likkle libertine (ayy) And a bouncer to my dopamine Tried so hard to become a referee To even out the game that’s between my mind and meLove me or leave me and let me be lonely Inside my head, there’s a voice that controls me I’d rather be somewhere else with anyone but me Ooh, love me or leave me and let me be lonely Been down so long now that happy is holy I’d rather be somewhere else with anyone but me Anyone but me (mmm), anyone but me (uh)She’s dependent, she’s my man and wife Peckham preacher, give ’em bad advice She just does the spendin’ and then I pay the price Tryna be Calise but she always trip me twice But, I know I could do better (I could do better) Baby, we’re no good together (together, together) You are you, I am I Now you gotta go bye ~ Joy Crookes – Anyone But Me
I’ve been actively blogging for almost five years and while I very much enjoy taking photos, I’ve grown quite weary of my actual blog site. I know that a few of you actually read what I write, but for the most part I have found that most of my followers tend to look at the photos. If they want something in the photo they see on flickr, they will click the link to my blog and scroll straight to the credits. I’m also running out of space for my blog photos on this site. With that said, if I want to continue using this site, I will not only need to renew my subscription, but upgrade it, as well. The upgrade will more than double the yearly amount that I’m paying now. While, I’d have more than enough room for photos after the upgrade, I can’t really justify the expense. This is something that has been on my mind for several months now. I’ve wrestled with the idea of retiring completely from blogging, but let’s face it, I’m always going to take photos. I might as well list the items I’m wearing and that is easily done on Flickr. I can even hyperlink on flickr to provide slurls. Essentially, I can do everything on flickr that I do hear, aside from writing long drawn out posts. After sitting down and going over my pros&cons list, I have decided that I will be migrating my blog…or downsizing it so that I’m working more from flickr and less on wordpress. Eventually, this page will disappear, because I won’t be paying to keep the site up if I’m no longer using it. I’ll have to reach out to my sponsors, of course, as they took me on with an actual blog page in place. They may not want to continue on with me if I’m micro blogging and that’s okay. I completely understand that. So, watch my flickr for micro blogs…I’ll still post here from time to time, as its paid for through January, but the time is near and I’m definitely going to make that move.
I’ve cut way back on my blogging commitments lately and I have to say its been fun to play with different styles again. I think this photo would have looked better without the pup, but I couldn’t resist that he was sitting the same way as me. I don’t have a whole lot to say as I’ve been struggling with my health lately. I suppose I could have done a micro post for this photo, but I didn’t. *shrugs*
Some customers in Second Life make the most unrealistic and rude demands I have ever seen. From demanding attached panties, to suggesting that a successful designer is going to be crippled by the lack of a purchase by someone that has NEVER previously shopped their store before. Meanwhile, the CSRs, managers, and designers bite their proverbial tongues, put on a smile, and find the nicest ways possible to dismiss these incredulous demands. Once again, we are all witness to an elite group of people that genuinely think its okay to act like complete assholes from the safety of their keyboards and I will never understand it. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy the option of built in modesty panties as much as the next girl, but I have and never will message a creator and insult them, demand, or even suggest that they cater to MY desires. I have personally witnessed people have a complete meltdown simply because a dress doesn’t come with attached panties. Seriously? Do these people address Calvin Klein because he didn’t sew panties into a dress? Of course not. These items are sold separately, as they should be. I’ve had customers absolutely raging because a black silk textured top didn’t match some black sweatpants. First of all, I want to know why they’re wearing silk tops with sweatpants, cuz that makes no sense. Oh wait, you wanted to dress up your sweats with heels? Oh okay, cuz THAT makes much more sense. *rolls her eyes* While some designers do keep to a mix and match color palette, not all do. Some creators choose to apply textures that are true to real life textiles. I appreciate both styles. Once again, I feel like we’re beating a dead horse by suggesting that people try on demos first. If you don’t try a demo first, you really should not complain about the shade of a color or the fact that you can wear the shoes you wanted to wear with those pants. Honestly, the world does not revolve around the desires of one virtual shopper. I have to believe that these types of people have absolutely no clue as to the amount of time spent on one article of clothing. For instance, one shirt…it takes time to come up with a style, then create that style digitally….THEN there’s the rigging…seriously? Are you going to bitch, because YOU choose to wear one of the less popular bodies? I’m not going to call out any particular body, but surveys done by at least five designers that I’ve seen have shown that Maitreya and Legacy are the most popular bodies being used. So, considering the amount of time it takes to rig for just ONE body, much less the seemingly endless list of bodies out there, I cannot expect or even imagine that ANY designer would create for every single body. It’s simply not cost effective or efficient. It’s just like real life, I don’t expect to every thing out there to fit my fat ass and we all know that one size does NOT fit all! I realize you want what you want, but guess what? No one gets everything they want all the time. So, suck it up, buttercup…decide what’s more important to you. You wanna wear that obscure body? GREAT! Please don’t expect EVERYONE to create for it. Better yet, join the group for your body and ask the other people in that group where they shop. You’d be surprised how many people will offer to help you. Here’s the thing, no one is forcing anyone to be in SL, much less is anyone holding a gun to anyone’s head to shop at any one store specifically. With all the crazy shit that’s going on in this world, especially this year, why would you ever begin to allow yourself to get so enraged over not being able to wear a certain item of VIRTUAL clothing??? Either calm down or log out. The way I see it…if you’re getting that bent out of shape over virtual clothing, you probably have some deep seeded issues in your real life that need to be addressed. Thus you really should stop wasting your precious time and energy on such trivial matters in a virtual world. Instead, grab a book or even a website to help you resolve your REAL problems. I assure you, no one signed into Second Life to be your personal punching bag….and one more thing, before messaging the creator, take a moment to read the included notecard and the designer’s profile. Seven times out of ten, you’ll find your answer and save everyone some time. *winks* ….most likely I will touch on this topic again, soon…lol
hair: TRUTH Delicate head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2) skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88
‘Cause I’m so, so done Guardin’ my tongue, holdin’ me back I’m livin’ the way that I want ‘Cause I’m so, so done Fighting myself, goin’ through Hell I’m livin’ the way that I want I’m livin’ the way that I want I’m livin’ the way that I want I’m livin’ the way that I want I’m livin’ the way that I want
I lost control over all my energy Done so much damage to my heart I’ve given in, I’ve changed my identity I didn’t mean to go so far, umm-mm
Oh my God (God) I wish (Wish) I could be (Be) better than this My God, wish (Wish) I could be (Oh-oh) ~ Alicia Keys – So Done
Only give me love when I’m giving it back But you say you’ll never be my friend Always on the train, never on the track So I’m jumping before the crash And I know you’re just trying to scare me But you lost all of your effect You can bark like a dog, baring your teeth But I’m never going back again No, I’m never going back again Babe, it’s true I’m in love with what we were But not with you What’s left to prove? Tried so many damn times to cut you loose Now I’m way too far away to be hurt by you ~ Donna Missal – Hurt By You
There’s actually a story behind this scene. LOL. So, Damien, Precious and I went to the huge Nutmeg/RKKN sale this weekend. Afterwards, we went back to my platform to open packages, then I went afk. I used a ground sit in my AO, cuz I know these fuckers would shove me off if I didn’t. *grins* When I came back, Damien had started building a scene around me. I asked what he was doing and he said he was building me a scene! I quickly changed clothes to match the beautiful lemons and here I am telling you how this picture happened organically. Thus the organic post was born! Thanks, DamiWami! LOL…ok, its late, I’ve been sick, and I’m a little loopy, ok? Just pretend to be amused!
hair: TRUTH Solstice
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: DeeTaleZ *SKINS* for LELUTKA HEADS (EVO.) – Flora
This is my thought process brought to life…okay, pixels! GAW! Ok, so sometimes I take a picture with nothing in mind to write about and lately….as I’m sure you know…I’ve been struggling with topics to write about, because my life is uneventful, okay? So, I rack my brain sometimes trying to think of something to say. When I was looking for poses to take this picture and saw this one, I giggled. I thought, that’s me when I’ve got writer’s block! So, there you have it…its short and sweet…but here’s my dramatic take on my own writer’s block hell. *grins*
She was too young to be the Hollywood type
Too pure to understand the lows and the highs
She didn’t know if she was gonna survive
It all got so much better with time
All of the evil eyes
Tequila before sunrise
I’d tell her to watch her back
That she’s worth more than that
‘Cause she was a girl with good intentions
Yeah, she made some bad decisions
And she learned a couple lessons
Wish I could tell her
She was a girl with good intentions
Didn’t need the second guessing
Didn’t need to ever question
Wish I could tell her
She didn’t know all of the hurt she could take
Her world was crumbling and so was her faith
Wish I could talk to her, ’cause what I would say
“Oh baby, you’re enough to get you out of this place”
~ Selena Gome – She
Let’s make a quick getaway
This party’s shit anyway
Or we could go M.I.A
Tell me, tell me what you say
‘Cause I, I’ve been bored out of my mind
Sitting here all night
And you know I got my eye on you
No lie, no lie
I’ve been vibin’ to you all of this time
Don’t say goodbye
We out here, so you know
You and I could be somewhere catching waves
I say, “Hi”, now let’s go M.I.A
~ Cher Lloyd – M.I.A.
