Posted in accessories, Animals, Bueno, Collabor88, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka

I’m living and I’m dreaming

Today went really well
I didn’t wake up in a panic spell
It was fine, even though I fell
Deeper and deeper in a manic hell
Whoa, I’m living and I’m dreaming
Trying to stay even, oh
Whoa, I’m training for no reason
Apologize, no feelings, oh
No, I don’t need your help
To make me sick, to make me ill
I don’t need anybody else
‘Cause I can break my heart myself
I don’t need your help
Getting off of this carousel
I don’t need anybody else
‘Cause I can break my heart myself

I'm living and I'm dreaming

hair: DOUX – Miyeon hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88

Tentacio Fuck reality headpiece pink @ Kustom9
Tentacio Fuck reality tape pink @ Kustom9

(Yummy) Layered Rose Necklace @ Kustom9
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
EQUAL – Rose Nails French @ Access
MVT – Rich bitch wallet – Rose @ Equal10
purse: [DDL] Fearless @ Access
Just BECAUSE Kyrene Dress – TSS May 8, 2021

[Rezz Room] Siberian Husky Adult Animesh

pose: Lyrium. Elena Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Access

MINIMAL – La Venelle Scene

Serenity Style– Elisabeth spring bicycle [decor]
BUENO– Shining Scooter-Cream
[777] Motors MIA

Posted in Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Lybra

But it wasn’t the cure

Drive through the street with your eyes closed
Trip on the stick where the wind blows
So out of reach but it looks close
Don’t assume what you don’t
Know
You act real hot but you’re still cold
You wanna be rich with a Lambo
So out of reach but it looks so close
Red light but you still go
You can walk around the entire world
But you still end up with what you started with first
Spit out money and you offer out lures
Get the girl but it wasn’t the cure

But it wasn’t the cure

hairbase: Tableau Vivant – leLutka EvoX Hairbase 09 @ C88
hair: Tableau Vivant – Blush Add-on @ Kinky
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88

NaaNaa’s Sama Necklace @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
LOTUS. Chrome Nails 01 @ Access
Apl.Blossom Sarah @ Cake Day
boots: TANIA SOLID COLLECTION :: LYBRA :: @ C88

MOVEMENT – Toiletry bag for Her – 2
MVT – That’s my bag – Black

pose: FOXCITY. Lux Travel (Classic)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – ClubBLACK

Posted in Collabor88, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka

Doing my best

I have been sick af the last couple of days. A lot of my symptoms could easily be stress related…like IBD & Fibromyalgia. Both have been flaring up, which in turns affects other issues, like back pain and headaches. However, I’ve spent a good amount of time in bed, mostly because I have no choice, and I’m trying very hard to reduce my stress. Honestly, I don’t feel that stressed. I know I have a lot on my plate, but I don’t feel stressed. I feel like I have things under control. So, I’m not sure what’s going on. Perhaps it’s something else entirely. Perhaps it’s some sense of impending doom lingering in the back of my mind somewhere, because I still struggle with the concept of being content, happy, and actually loving myself. Thanks to not having insurance and living in the great U.S. of A…I’m just going to need to suffer through whatever it is. In the meantime, I’ll be doing my best to carry on.

Doing my best

hair: DOUX – Chi hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88

NaaNaa’s Sama Necklace @ FaMESHed
e.marie // Erika Bracelet
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
LOTUS. Chrome Nails 01 @ Access
Seniha. Kim Top @ FaMESHed
Seniha. Kim Joggers @ FaMESHed

[Rezz Room] Cat Bengal Adult Animesh @ Equal10

pose: FOXCITY. Hanging Lounger

Posted in Collabor88, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, poses

True love finally happens when you by yourself

‘Cause I’m my own soulmate (Yeah, yeah)
I know how to love me (Love me)
I know that I’m always gonna hold me down
Yeah, I’m my own soulmate (Yeah, yeah)
No, I’m never lonely (Lonely)
I know I’m a queen but I don’t need no crown
Look up in the mirror like damn she the one
One, one, one, one, one, one (The one)
Like damn she the one
One, one, one (The one)
That bitch in the mirror like yeah, I’m in love
Love, love, love, love, love, love (In love)
Like yeah, I’m in love
Love, love, love (In love)
Look up in the mirror like damn she the one
And she never tell me to exercise
We always get extra fries
And you know the sex is fire
And I gotta testify
I get flowers every Sunday
I’mma marry me one day
True love ain’t something you can buy yourself
True love finally happens when you by yourself
So if you by yourself, then go and buy yourself
Another round from the bottle on the higher shelf

**special thanks to my wifey, Ghoulie Waffles, for introducing me to this song**

https://www.flickr.com/photos/sadystikasabretooth/51173877361/in/dateposted/

hair: DOUX – Dana hairstyle @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88
tattoo: Ladybird. // Tavi @ Equal10

NaaNaa’s Sama Necklace @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
LOTUS. Wings Nails 11 (Legacy) RARE @ Equal10
:::ChicChica::: Wine glass @ C88
Lunar – Nite @ Equal10
** Bralette, garters, panties, & robe**

pose: Lyrium. Get Glam – Make-Up Set @ Equal10

Decor: ..::THOR::.. Lazy Days Gacha Set @ Anthem

Posted in Bueno, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka

even if our dreams never came true

Writing when I’m content or happy has always been a struggle for me. I used to write poetry daily. It’s as if the concept of being content or happy is so foreign to me that I can’t properly describe it. I think that’s a common thread amongst artists. The songs that move us the most are the sad songs. The art that moves us the most, tend to be that that makes us uncomfortable or stirs a strong emotion from within. What is stronger than pain? So, here I am trying to find the words to express that I’m in a pretty good place at the moment. Perhaps the biggest part of that is my perception, but whatever it is…I don’t want to only write about the bad times and bad feels anymore. The world doesn’t need more pain or misery, we all need to know there is goodness out there and how to achieve it, even if our dreams never came true.

even if our dreams never came true

hair: tram K0425 hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88
tattoo: Ladybird. // Tavi @ Equal10

NaaNaa’s Sama Necklace @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
LOTUS. Wings Nails 11 (Legacy) RARE @ Equal10
Tentacio Funny life Planning life pink
Tentacio Funny life Mom call me
BUENO-Geena Tops @ C88

Decor: KraftWork + Pitaya .Blume. Gacha @ Epiphany

Posted in Cynful, Dahlia, Eudora3D, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Legacy, Second Life

The walls are closing in

Why do I sabotage everything I love?
It’s always beautiful until I fuck it up
Tell myself I’m safe and lonely
With nobody else to break my heart
Even though I know you’d never
I’m my own worst enemy and think you are
Matches in my back pocket
I’m the queen of burning bridges
I will only let you down
Why do I sabotage everything I love?
It’s always beautiful until I fuck it up
Why do I sabotage everything I love?
The walls are closing in because I built them up
Why can’t I let myself be happy? (Ooh)
Why do I gotta get in my own way? (Ooh)
My shoes are worn out, always runnin’
From the reasons that I really wanna stay

The walls are closing in

hairbase: Tableau Vivant \ leLutka EvoX Hairbase 03
hair: Tableau Vivant – Wrap-up ponytail Add-on
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)

Cynful Fishnet Set @ Inithium
Eudora3D Stormy Heels & stockings @ FaMESHed X

pose: Diversion – Come Back – Pose Set

FOXCITY. Photo Booth – City Life

[IK] Wicker World @ TLC
-[IK] Wicker World – Screen
-[IK] Wicker World – Armchair
-[IK] Wicker World – Table
-[IK] Wicker World – Tea Set

hive // hanging bougainvillea plant . pink @ Anthem

Dahlia – Liona – Cat Planter @ Kustom9
Dahlia – Liona – Llama Planter – Right – Green leaves @ Kustom9

Posted in Bueno, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

I’d rather be hard to love

‘Course you love me, you don’t know me
But I got news for you, I came broken
Ego issues, my head is swollen
I got a million chips on my shoulder
But if you stay despite all I showed you
Then maybe you don’t need freedom, freedom
I guess I take it, heartbreaker
A title, I can’t shake it, can’t fake it
I guess I take it, heartbreaker
A title, I can’t shake it, can’t fake it (yeah-yeah-yeah)
Baby, I’d rather be hard to love
Than easy to leave, you should believe me
I’ll make you need me (whoo)
I’d rather be hard to love
Than easy to leave, you should believe me
I’ll make you need me
Go deep, baby, go deep
I love it when your roots go deep so I know you won’t leave
Go deep, baby, go deep
I love it when your roots go deep so I know you won’t leave
Go deep, baby
I like being ugly, that way if they love me
I know that they love me for real (whoo)
I like being ugly, that way if they love me
I know that they love me for real (Listen)
I like being ugly, that way if they love me
I know that they love me for real (woah-woah)
I like being ugly, that way if they love me
I know that they love me for real

I’d rather be hard to love

hairbase: Tableau Vivant – leLutka EvoX Hairbase 06 @ Kustom9
hair: Tableau Vivant – Windy ponytail Add-on @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: AG. Elegance Eyes (Arctic) @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]
tattoo: [Addicted To Ink] Heather…

-SU!- Almond Nails
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88
BUENO-Buenitos Dranks @ Kustom9

Lunar – Miki Top updated w/new colors
Lunar – Miki Track Pants updated w/new colors

pose: Ana Poses – Sit AO 1

[NikotiN] Lumberjack Ashtray (V.5)
..::THOR::.. Retro Radio Coral

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, DOUX, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, The Liaison Collaborative

I’ll bet there’s somebody else out there

Baby (Baby)
You’ve been so distant from me lately (Lately)
And lately (And lately)
Don’t even want to call you baby (Baby)
Saw us getting older (Older)
Burning toast in the toaster
My ambitions were too high (High)
Waiting up for you upstairs (Upstairs)
Why you act like I’m not there?
Baby, right now it feels like
It feels like you don’t care
Oh, why don’t you recognize I’m so rare?
Always there
You don’t do the same for me
That’s not fairI don’t have it all
I’m not claiming to
But I know that I’m special (Special)
Yeah
And I’ll bet there’s somebody else out there
To tell me I’m rare
To make me feel rare

I’ll bet there’s somebody else out there

hair: DOUX – Mishi hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: AG. Elegance Eyes (Arctic) @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX] Honey
tattoo: [Addicted To Ink] Heather…

-SU!- Almond Nails
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88

Cynful Fashionista Bikini – Flf Special April 16, 2021

pose: Lyrium. Eve Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10

Serenity Style– Sady Moon Dream Scene @ TLC

Posted in Bueno, Collabor88, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka

I’ve made it this far

the more I get to know myself
the less I understand myself
I don’t know how to let go
of this all weight I put on me
of who I am or where I’ll be
once I learn to let go
always set my sights on
diamonds in the future
remember when you wanted what you got right now
when I close my eyes
and I’m all alone with my mind
I get scared I’m unprepared
and will be for the rest of my life
but I’ve made it this far
yeah I made it this far
half way to falling apart
but I’ve made it this far

I’ve made it this far

hair: DOUX – Karol hairstyle @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: AG. Elegance Eyes (Arctic) @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Liv Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ Kustom9
tattoo: [Addicted To Ink] Heather…

^^Swallow^^ Earrings H01 for lel Evo X Human Ears @ Kustom9
(Yummy) Bella Tennis Necklace Set @ Kustom9
(necklace & hoop earrings)
[ kunst ] – Nose Plaster
RE Sublime Nose Piercing N9
-SU!- Almond Nails
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88

BUENO-Hanging Phonecase-IDC @ C88
BUENO-Dranks-Strawberry @ Kustom9
[Eternus] Gianna Top
[Eternus] Gianna Dress

pose: Lyrium. Savi Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Access
[Bad Unicorn] Hail Monstera Backdrop @ Kustom9

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, [BREATHE]

Don’t say anything just go away

I try to make it through my life, in my way, there’s you
I try to make it through these lies, and that’s all I do
Just don’t deny it
Don’t try to fight this, and deal with it
And that’s just part of it
If you were dead or still alive
I don’t care, I don’t care
Just go and leave this all behind
‘Cause I swear (I swear) I don’t care
I try to make you see my side
I always try to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That’s all they do
I’m getting buried in this place
I got no room, you’re in my face
Don’t say anything just go away

Don’t say anything just go away

hair: tram K0328 hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]

AsteroidBox. Cara Dress @ Equal10
ROULY :: Hung Up Tights
[BREATHE]-Miiya Heels @ FaMESHed X

pose: Amitie Room Cola Woman Co. @ Equal10
Junk Food – Snack Vending Machine