Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Legacy, Lelutka, vinyl

Just Empty

Sometimes, I just don’t care. I don’t know why. I suppose its a symptom of mental illness. I’m not sure which one. I guess I should ask my therapist. Maybe one day I will. Then again, I’ve been ill for a few days, so it could just be related to that. I just know that lately, I don’t feel sad or happy. I just feel nothingness. As if there’s a void in my soul. It’s not dark or light. It’s not black or white. It’s not blurry or clear. It’s gray and foggy, like creepy autumn morning. It’s just empty.

hair: [monso] Babi Hair @ FaMESHed
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)

RichB. Thalion Earrings
RichB. Mad NoseChain
[ rD ] – Thrall Necklace @ FaMESHed X
Pixicat– Hailey Top @ Anthem
VINYL – Sticky Bun Leggings @ FaMESHed

pose: Bauhaus Movement – The Way You Like It 14

backdrop is a combination of two:
I Dont Care – Bad Decisions – The Bearded Guy
Rustico – Good Times – The Bearded Guy

Posted in breathe, Collabor88, Cosmopolitan, crate, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, shoes, shopping, skin, Uber SL, unKindness

Invisible

I don’t wanna talk about it, there isn’t much to say
I don’t have an excuse to why I won’t come to your party
And I don’t want my picture taken, I’d hate it anyway
No, I don’t wanna spoil your night, just go have fun without meI’m pushing food around my plate
‘Cause my father said I’m overweight
Well, maybe he’d feel better
If I just disappeared altogether and I
Got so good at faking smiles
I can do it for a little while
Just don’t ask me if I’m okay
‘Cause I’m not okay, noIt’s hard to show you something invisible
No tears, no scars, no bruises, It’s not physical
It’s covered up and hidden tight
Beneath the skin, inside the mind
You wouldn’t even notice, you wouldn’t even know
Invisible, invisible, invisible
~ Grace Davies – Invisible

WEARING:
hair: MIWAS  – Hair #Maria
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

e.marie // Kandi Puff Earrings
dress: Blossom&Seeds Narda @ Cosmopolitan
shoes: [BREATHE]-Miyuwa Heels @ C88

[Rezz Room] Dachshund Adult Animesh @ Equal10
[Rezz Room] Dachshund Puppy Animesh @ Equal10

Lyrium. Yuna Idle Stands Breathing Poses @ Equal10

SCENE:
Campito – Good Times – The Bearded Guy

crate Patio Plant Cart Set @ Equal10
crate Patio Plant Cart – Beige Green
crate Patio Plant Cart – Box Plants
crate Patio Plant Cart – Hat & Throw
crate Patio Plant Cart – Pot & Cloth
crate Patio Plant Cart – Egg Head Pearl Plant
crate Patio Plant Cart – Bonsai Palm

crate Cabo Bar Set @ Anthem
crate Cabo Bar
crate Cabo Bar Citrus Basket
crate Cabo Bar Mint Plant
crate Cabo Bar Pom Pom Garland
crate Cabo Bar Citrus Sangria Dispenser

andika[End of summer sweets]A/dispenser @ Equal10

Ariskea [Sunrise] Succulent Ceramic hangers

Mithral * Mojito Syngonium @ Equal10
Mithral * Albo Syngonium @ Equal10

dust bunny . paradise plants . @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . fan palm
dust bunny . paradise plants . pineapple plant
dust bunny . paradise plants . monstera tree . with lights

uK – Infinity Fountain Ivory @ Uber

7 – Cat Burglar Painting

Posted in Collabor88, Cosmetics, FaMESHed, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Mina Hair, Second Life, shopping, skin

Sparkle and Shine

People are like stained – glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within. ~ Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

hair: MINA – Lupine @ FaMESHed
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA ALL IN COLLECTION #3 @ Fetish Fair
lipsticks: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA ALL IN COLLECTION #8 @ Fetish Fair

AsteroidBox. Bailey Earrings @ Equal10
AsteroidBox. Bailey Collar @ Equal10

Go On – The Future – The Bearded Guy

Posted in Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative

GlitterBombed!

So, a week or two ago, my little sister, Sassy, got me a glitter bumper. For anyone that isn’t familiar with a bumper, its basically something that you wear and it reacts to your avatar being bumped. I have tons of these things. I have one that drops dildos that cracks me up. I used to have one that would make me flail my arms about and provided you had sounds on, you could hear all sorts of violent expletives. Well, I’ve been wearing the glitter bumper since I got it, cuz glitter…duh! I was standing at Burrow, had my pose all lined up, and just as I clicked to take the photo, Sassy tp’d to my head and I actually caught some of the glitter in my shot. I added some bokeh in my editing, but basically she photobombed me and glitter bombed me at the same time! However, I love how it turned out and I love that she was part of it.

Seniha

hair: MIWAS – Hair #Idol
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

.Safira. Tisha Outfit @ FaMESHed

pose: :LW: Bento Poses – Anaia @ TLC

location: Burrow Co.

Posted in Chic Moda, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

I don’t want to love no more

I learnt to grow old when I was younger
Scared of staying young
Afraid of the thoughts that I had conjured
That sat atop my tongue
Knowing I’d change the worlds opinion
If they would just, listen up
But they won’t, now
I feel worthless
Maybe I should open the drawer
Burn the pages
Write poems with the ash on the floor
Pour the ink, into the sink
And watch it drain from the shore
I don’t want love no more
Though it’s the one thing I’ve been searching for
Though it’s the one thing that I miss the most
Now, I’m afraid to be alone (I’m afraid to be alone)
To Be Alone
Looking in the mirror like
Maybe I will find myself tonight
I ask for a better mind
Then tap into the site through my third eye
I had never realized
I thought I had a chosen my design
I thought I was broken all this time
I don’t want love no more
Though it’s the one thing I’ve been searching for
Though it’s the one thing that I miss the most
Now, I’m afraid to be alone

idtty empress

hair: TRUTH Alias
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: DeeTaleZ *SKINS* for LELUTKA HEADS (EVO.) – Flora

*LODE* Head Accessory – Royalty Wreath [black horse]
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA THE EMPRESS COLLECTION #1 @ Kinky
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA THE EMPRESS COLLECTION #6 @ Kinky

.::Supernatural::. Dune Necklace
.::Supernatural::. Ebe Necklace

ChicModa // Carrie Dress @ FaMESHed

pose: – space cadet – modge podge set

The End Forest *RARE* – Sinister Night – The Bearded Guy

{anc} colorful rain (clearlysky) [wide] 1Li

Lyrium.Turning Pages – Flying Pages 2 Decor

KraftWork Once Upon a House . Scattered Papers

:::ChicChica::: Precious Rose Platinum REZZ

chicmoda sc

Posted in Apple Fall, breathe, Bueno, Collabor88, Dahlia, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Home Decor, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shoes, shopping, skin, Uber SL

Paw to the Jaw

I love my cat. I really do, but I’m starting to understand why people prefer dogs. I woke up this morning to a paw to the jaw. Yep, that’s right, he walked on my face. My reaction was a slinging arm which resulted in a cat flung across the bed, followed by a soft murr. This was not a wounded cat sound. Trust me, I’ve heard plenty of those noises. Step on a cat’s tail just once and  you’ll never forget it. No, just three little gentle murrs. I couldn’t go back to sleep at this point. I had to get up and find out if he was okay. I’m not a monster, ya know? He’s fine. Once he saw that I was awake, his attitude suddenly changed. I swear that he looked at me and in his little meow language said, “Oh, you’re up! Feed me?”
Needless to say, I fed the little bastard and now he’s lying comfortably on his perch, licking himself. I’m pretty sure he’s quite proud of himself this morning. *looks out the window* FFS, the sun isn’t even up yet. I suspect there’s a nap in my future.

bossom elm

hair: Magika – Sunrise
head:  LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Persia Ears @ Kustom9
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Anika Skin @ Uber

Kibitz – Tricia’s bracelet
Blossom&Seeds Shannon @ Uber
[BREATHE]-Mitsune Heels @ Uber

pose is in the mat

scene:
.peaches. Wanderlust – Books

Apple Fall Aspidistra in Wicker Planter

Ariskea [Sunrise] Succulent Ceramic hangers
Ariskea[Julia] Peonies Basket [Rose] @ FaMESHed

BUENO-Laptop Hustle

Dahlia – Himalayan Salt Lamp – Natural – Coral

Elm. Marley Standing Desk @ Collabor88
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Book Stack
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Bullet Journal
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Cacti Candle
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Cactus Candle #1
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Cactus Candle #2
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Diffuser
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Doughnut Snack
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Lamp
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Mesh Board [White]
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Speakers
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Stapler
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Stool [White Top]
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Succulent Pot
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Washi Tape
Elm. Marley Standing Desk [White Top]
Elm. Marley Standing Mat

Foxwood – Lilly – Puppy Basket – pink

Granola. Puff Puff Pretty Collection. @ Equal10
Granola. Puff Puff Pretty Ashtray.
Granola. Puff Puff Pretty Bud Vase.
Granola. Puff Puff Pretty Catch-All.
Granola. Puff Puff Pretty Edibles.
Granola. Puff Puff Pretty Herbal Tea.
Granola. Puff Puff Pretty Make-up Clutter.

LEMME…Natural Girl Collection @ Equal10
LEMME…Enlightened Sexuality + Dildo
LEMME…Natural Girl // RARE
LEMME…Something to hang // Memphis
LEMME…Yin Yang Inciense holder stick
LEMME..Natural Dildo // Rose Quartz

MudHoney Classic Photo Room 5

dust bunny . hanging plants . cheese plant
dust bunny . hanging plants . double planter
dust bunny . hanging plants . ivy planter
dust bunny . pink medinilla plant

Posted in Animals, Events, FaMESHed, Home Decor, Kustom9, Second Life

Overwhelmed

Well, the week is almost over. I just have to get through tomorrow and the day is jammed packs with commitments. All of them are things I’m excited about, but I’m just so overwhelmed from this week that I’m ready to crawl into my bed and stay there all weekend. Alas, I’m going to make myself adult and do what I said I’m going to do! I suspect that Sunday I will be hiding out pretty good though. I don’t have a whole lot more to talk about right now. I’m just ready to get tomorrow over with so I can finally take a day to myself and rest.

moss girl party

15. KraftWork Tuscany 1969 . Illuminated Ladder

Foxwood – Tiny Pup @ Kustom9

MINIMAL – Bella Backdrop -Orange @ Equal10

Mithral * Ring Hanger Philodendron (Lime) @ Kustom9
Mithral * Vertical Wall Pipe Hanger (Silver)

Sway’s [Door Mat] cats

dust bunny . hanging plants . double planter
dust bunny . hanging plants . ivy planter
Con & Dust Bunny . Coffee Station – Gold

{moss&mink} 3 Tier Planter (Lt Wood)
{moss&mink} Plant – Hostas (Cream)
{moss&mink} Tealight Globe Gift (Short)
{moss&mink} Tealight Globe Gift (Tall)

{moss&mink} Event Pack – Girl Party @ FaMESHed
{moss&mink} Branch Platter
{moss&mink} Cocktail Shrimp
{moss&mink} Fruit n Nut Platter
{moss&mink} Fruity Popsicles
{moss&mink} Tanika bistro chair
{moss&mink} Tanika bistro table
{moss&mink} Wine Bucket

Posted in Bondi, Chic Moda, Collabor88, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, GenusProject, Legacy, poses, Second Life, shopping, skin, tattoo

Not Anymore

I’m having quite a bit of anxiety this morning. My mother and I are supposed to go get our hair cut today, but I’m in a great deal of pain. Plus, I’m so scared of the lackadaisical attitude that so many people have about the virus. The numbers are soaring in our area right now. I honestly don’t feel that she or I would survive given our kidney disease and other health issues. Once upon a time, I would have rushed out into the world hoping to get it and die. Not anymore. I finally want to live and I’m damn sure not ready to die for a freaking hair cut. I don’t want to go and I don’t want her to go either. The only alternative is for me to cut her hair myself and…well, I can trim my own without messing it up too much. I’m just not ready for some stranger to be in my personal bubble. I don’t think I can do it.

doux chicmoda lyrium

hair:  DOUX – Dua hairstyle @ Equal10
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face W001 – Mocap
eyes: –SU!– [CATWA & OMEGA HUD] Astrid Eyes
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Isla (Genus) toffee @ C88

upper tattoo: Apocalyptic – Awakening the eye black @ Belle
lower tattoo: Apocalyptic – Butterfly creeper

BONDI . The Performer Sunglasses
.random.Matter. – Kitten Collar – ‘Kitten’
SU!– Almond Nails
RichB. Halo Cuffs
(Yummy) Bestie Ring Set

ChicModa // Sky Top @ FaMESHed
ChicModa // Haisley Skirt @ FaMESHed

pose: Lyrium. Leni Idle Stands Breathing Poses @ Equal10

.PALETO. Backdrop:. Duxbury @ Equal10

Posted in accessories, Collabor88, Cosmetics, Cosmopolitan, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, tattoo, The Liaison Collaborative

my blood couldn’t keep you

I’m sorry but your story isn’t adding up
Think your religion is a lie to keep my mouth shut
So I won’t testify the crimes you’re keeping score of
Why don’t you throw me to the wolves I thought you were one

You were standing there like an angry god
Counting out my sins just to cross them off
Saying that my tongue was too loud to trust
And that my blood couldn’t keep you

My dear, you’re not so innocent
You’re fooling Heaven’s gates
So you won’t have to change
You’re no saint, you’re no savior

Your revelations don’t look nothing like the pictures
You read between the lines and don’t stick to the scriptures
You only follow rules if others follow with you
That doesn’t sound so holy only playing victim
~ Echos – Saints

doux ga idtty rd

hair: DOUX – Alaska hairstyle @ LeVeL
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes:  .euphoric ~Kitty Eyes Applier ~[LeLutka] @ Cosmopolitan
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mara Skin [ Lelutka ] @ C88

lashes: MICHAN – Lilith Lashes Fatpack [Lel EVO] @ TLC
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA SWEET TEMPTATION COLLECTION #2 @ Kinky
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA SWEET TEMPTATION COLLECTION #7 @ Kinky

Apocalyptic – Awakening the eye black @ Belle
(Yummy) Cleopatra Nose Ring – Silver
[ rD ] – Antares Necklace @ FaMESHed

Posted in Blueberry, breathe, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Home Decor, Second Life, Uber SL, unKindness

like a shark

“I do not believe that all books will or should migrate onto screens: as Douglas Adams once pointed out to me, more than 20 years before the Kindle showed up, a physical book is like a shark. Sharks are old: there were sharks in the ocean before the dinosaurs. And the reason there are still sharks around is that sharks are better at being sharks than anything else is. Physical books are tough, hard to destroy, bath-resistant, solar-operated, feel good in your hand: they are good at being books, and there will always be a place for them.”
― Neil Gaiman

doux bb breathe sc rr

hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes:  [Heaux] Piper Eyes @ Anthem
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair]  LIllian Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Uber

Rebel Gal – Charm Necklace
Blueberry – Authentic – Tucked In Top
Blueberry – Authentic – Jeans
[BREATHE]-Tamika Heels @ FaMESHed

pose: – space cadet  – tea time

scene:
Scarlet Creative Tulum Resort @ FaMESHed

DRD Boho armoir

uK – Boho Summer Chairw/Blanket Color
uK – Boho Summer Table Color
uK – Boho Summer Pillow Crate Color

dust bunny . tropical delights . chicken wraps @ Anthem

[Rezz Room] British Shorthair Jumping

.:Bee Designs:. Summer Fun Gacha Swimming Shark