Drive through the street with your eyes closed Trip on the stick where the wind blows So out of reach but it looks close Don’t assume what you don’t Know You act real hot but you’re still cold You wanna be rich with a Lambo So out of reach but it looks so close Red light but you still go You can walk around the entire world But you still end up with what you started with first Spit out money and you offer out lures Get the girl but it wasn’t the cure
I have been sick af the last couple of days. A lot of my symptoms could easily be stress related…like IBD & Fibromyalgia. Both have been flaring up, which in turns affects other issues, like back pain and headaches. However, I’ve spent a good amount of time in bed, mostly because I have no choice, and I’m trying very hard to reduce my stress. Honestly, I don’t feel that stressed. I know I have a lot on my plate, but I don’t feel stressed. I feel like I have things under control. So, I’m not sure what’s going on. Perhaps it’s something else entirely. Perhaps it’s some sense of impending doom lingering in the back of my mind somewhere, because I still struggle with the concept of being content, happy, and actually loving myself. Thanks to not having insurance and living in the great U.S. of A…I’m just going to need to suffer through whatever it is. In the meantime, I’ll be doing my best to carry on.
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‘Cause I’m my own soulmate (Yeah, yeah) I know how to love me (Love me) I know that I’m always gonna hold me down Yeah, I’m my own soulmate (Yeah, yeah) No, I’m never lonely (Lonely) I know I’m a queen but I don’t need no crown Look up in the mirror like damn she the one One, one, one, one, one, one (The one) Like damn she the one One, one, one (The one) That bitch in the mirror like yeah, I’m in love Love, love, love, love, love, love (In love) Like yeah, I’m in love Love, love, love (In love) Look up in the mirror like damn she the one And she never tell me to exercise We always get extra fries And you know the sex is fire And I gotta testify I get flowers every Sunday I’mma marry me one day True love ain’t something you can buy yourself True love finally happens when you by yourself So if you by yourself, then go and buy yourself Another round from the bottle on the higher shelf
**special thanks to my wifey, Ghoulie Waffles, for introducing me to this song**
Writing when I’m content or happy has always been a struggle for me. I used to write poetry daily. It’s as if the concept of being content or happy is so foreign to me that I can’t properly describe it. I think that’s a common thread amongst artists. The songs that move us the most are the sad songs. The art that moves us the most, tend to be that that makes us uncomfortable or stirs a strong emotion from within. What is stronger than pain? So, here I am trying to find the words to express that I’m in a pretty good place at the moment. Perhaps the biggest part of that is my perception, but whatever it is…I don’t want to only write about the bad times and bad feels anymore. The world doesn’t need more pain or misery, we all need to know there is goodness out there and how to achieve it, even if our dreams never came true.
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Neon lights glisten off the streets The moonlight swallowed up by breathing electricity Salvation hovers in the sky Dream of a life inside while we escape just to survive Let go, take flight Dreams begin to reignite So clear, so bright We’re glowing in the dead of night Plug in, online The data stream linking our minds Circuits entwined We’ll dream of Neo-Tokyo tonight We’re made of flesh, circuit and bone The only world we’ve known, these empty streets we walk alone Salvation blocking out the Sun Beneath its shadow cast I dream with my Aphelion
And how far is halfway there? I didn’t see you on the trail Did almost become good enough? Should a good life be so hard won? Is that what our dreams have become? Sometimes when you’re shooting an arrow It can fly across the sky so proud I would go all the way to the sun If I didn’t have to come back down
I’ve been havin’ dreams Jumpin’ on a trampoline Flippin’ in the air I never land, just float there As I’m looking up Suddenly the sky erupts Flames alight the trees Spread to fallin’ leaves Now they’re right upon me Wait if I’m on fire How am I so deep in love? When I dream of dying I never feel so loved I’ve been having dreams Splashin’ in a summer stream Trip and I fall in I wanted it to happen My body turns to ice Crushin’ weight of paradise Solid block of gold Lying in the cold I feel right at home
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I will never know if you love me Or my company, but I don’t mind ‘Cause I ain’t tryna be the one Been through this a thousand times I don’t need to take your heart You keep yours, I’ll keep mine All I really know is when I’m lonely I hate that I’m lonely And that’s why I let you in And maybe in another life We fight all day, kiss all night But I don’t wanna break your heart You keep yours, I’ll keep mine I know We know better, so we’d both better go I don’t need a reason To keep on dreamin’ That we don’t lose, yeah, what’s the use? I don’t need a reason To keep on dreamin’, oh That we can win at anything at all
“And so with the sunshine and the great bursts of leaves growing on the trees, just as things grow in fast movies, I had that familiar conviction that life was beginning over again with the summer.” ― F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby
I was hanging out with some of my favorite people last night and one of them made a comment about “lazy homeless” people. I quickly jumped on the defensive. As I have been homeless on a number of occasions in my 20s and there was nothing lazy about my situation. Of course, I encountered loads of other homeless people during those times. I had to explain that while there are some people that simply don’t want to be responsible members of society. However, the bulk of the homeless people I encountered were anything but lazy. As being homeless is not an easy way to live. People that live in shelters must abide by an excess of rules put in place to keep things as orderly as possible. There are curfews and requirements one must continuously make to continue their stay and many shelters have limitations on how long people can reside there. I don’t have specific numbers, but I’d dare say that the majority of homeless people have not chosen that lifestyle as their preferred method of existence. Plus there are far more living without shelter. That is NOT an easy way to live. Its beyond dangerous. Once a person is homeless, it is safe to say that getting back on your feet is ridiculously hard. As I pointed out to my friend, what is the first thing you do the morning of a job interview? Shower, right? If you have no home, you have no shower and probably don’t have much in the way of a clean nice outfit to wear. Anyway, the point is, don’t be so quick to judge people in situations you can’t begin to understand. Turns out that one of the other people there had also experienced homelessness and was glad that I spoke up. Meanwhile, our uninformed friend was enlightened and apologized. I didn’t find the apology necessary, but it was appreciated. I was especially glad that we were all able to have such a beautiful conversation about life without hate or disgust. I won’t name them, because too many private matters were discussed and only my part of the story is mine to tell. I suspect they might read this and because they might I want to give them to know something. I love you and I’m so grateful for your friendship. I look forward to getting to know you even better in the years to come. ♥
Clearly that has nothing to do with the photo. So, I’d like to add that if you have not gotten the Spring Decocrate, this set from Serenity Style is worth getting it, just for this set. Even if you didn’t pre order it, its worth the price. Go grab yours. I have to pay full price, too, cuz I forgot to pre order…lol. You’ll also notice I’m wearing the new Lost Girl dress from Vinyl. This is the first dress Vinyl has released in ages and its so cute! AND it goes perfectly with these new wedges that Breathe released at the Arcade! So get out your wallets, its time to go shopping!!
hair: DOUX – Lucy hairstyle @ LEVEL head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: PUMEC — SARAH @ Kustom9 tattoo: *Bolson / Tattoo – Antheia @ Anthem
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