Posted in Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Lybra

But it wasn’t the cure

Drive through the street with your eyes closed
Trip on the stick where the wind blows
So out of reach but it looks close
Don’t assume what you don’t
Know
You act real hot but you’re still cold
You wanna be rich with a Lambo
So out of reach but it looks so close
Red light but you still go
You can walk around the entire world
But you still end up with what you started with first
Spit out money and you offer out lures
Get the girl but it wasn’t the cure

But it wasn’t the cure

hairbase: Tableau Vivant – leLutka EvoX Hairbase 09 @ C88
hair: Tableau Vivant – Blush Add-on @ Kinky
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88

NaaNaa’s Sama Necklace @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
LOTUS. Chrome Nails 01 @ Access
Apl.Blossom Sarah @ Cake Day
boots: TANIA SOLID COLLECTION :: LYBRA :: @ C88

MOVEMENT – Toiletry bag for Her – 2
MVT – That’s my bag – Black

pose: FOXCITY. Lux Travel (Classic)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – ClubBLACK

Posted in Collabor88, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka

Doing my best

I have been sick af the last couple of days. A lot of my symptoms could easily be stress related…like IBD & Fibromyalgia. Both have been flaring up, which in turns affects other issues, like back pain and headaches. However, I’ve spent a good amount of time in bed, mostly because I have no choice, and I’m trying very hard to reduce my stress. Honestly, I don’t feel that stressed. I know I have a lot on my plate, but I don’t feel stressed. I feel like I have things under control. So, I’m not sure what’s going on. Perhaps it’s something else entirely. Perhaps it’s some sense of impending doom lingering in the back of my mind somewhere, because I still struggle with the concept of being content, happy, and actually loving myself. Thanks to not having insurance and living in the great U.S. of A…I’m just going to need to suffer through whatever it is. In the meantime, I’ll be doing my best to carry on.

Doing my best

hair: DOUX – Chi hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88

NaaNaa’s Sama Necklace @ FaMESHed
e.marie // Erika Bracelet
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
LOTUS. Chrome Nails 01 @ Access
Seniha. Kim Top @ FaMESHed
Seniha. Kim Joggers @ FaMESHed

[Rezz Room] Cat Bengal Adult Animesh @ Equal10

pose: FOXCITY. Hanging Lounger

Posted in Collabor88, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, poses

True love finally happens when you by yourself

‘Cause I’m my own soulmate (Yeah, yeah)
I know how to love me (Love me)
I know that I’m always gonna hold me down
Yeah, I’m my own soulmate (Yeah, yeah)
No, I’m never lonely (Lonely)
I know I’m a queen but I don’t need no crown
Look up in the mirror like damn she the one
One, one, one, one, one, one (The one)
Like damn she the one
One, one, one (The one)
That bitch in the mirror like yeah, I’m in love
Love, love, love, love, love, love (In love)
Like yeah, I’m in love
Love, love, love (In love)
Look up in the mirror like damn she the one
And she never tell me to exercise
We always get extra fries
And you know the sex is fire
And I gotta testify
I get flowers every Sunday
I’mma marry me one day
True love ain’t something you can buy yourself
True love finally happens when you by yourself
So if you by yourself, then go and buy yourself
Another round from the bottle on the higher shelf

**special thanks to my wifey, Ghoulie Waffles, for introducing me to this song**

https://www.flickr.com/photos/sadystikasabretooth/51173877361/in/dateposted/

hair: DOUX – Dana hairstyle @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88
tattoo: Ladybird. // Tavi @ Equal10

NaaNaa’s Sama Necklace @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
LOTUS. Wings Nails 11 (Legacy) RARE @ Equal10
:::ChicChica::: Wine glass @ C88
Lunar – Nite @ Equal10
** Bralette, garters, panties, & robe**

pose: Lyrium. Get Glam – Make-Up Set @ Equal10

Decor: ..::THOR::.. Lazy Days Gacha Set @ Anthem

Posted in Bueno, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka

even if our dreams never came true

Writing when I’m content or happy has always been a struggle for me. I used to write poetry daily. It’s as if the concept of being content or happy is so foreign to me that I can’t properly describe it. I think that’s a common thread amongst artists. The songs that move us the most are the sad songs. The art that moves us the most, tend to be that that makes us uncomfortable or stirs a strong emotion from within. What is stronger than pain? So, here I am trying to find the words to express that I’m in a pretty good place at the moment. Perhaps the biggest part of that is my perception, but whatever it is…I don’t want to only write about the bad times and bad feels anymore. The world doesn’t need more pain or misery, we all need to know there is goodness out there and how to achieve it, even if our dreams never came true.

even if our dreams never came true

hair: tram K0425 hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88
tattoo: Ladybird. // Tavi @ Equal10

NaaNaa’s Sama Necklace @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
LOTUS. Wings Nails 11 (Legacy) RARE @ Equal10
Tentacio Funny life Planning life pink
Tentacio Funny life Mom call me
BUENO-Geena Tops @ C88

Decor: KraftWork + Pitaya .Blume. Gacha @ Epiphany

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, unKindness, [BREATHE], {le fil casse}

We’re made of flesh, circuit and bone

Neon lights glisten off the streets
The moonlight swallowed up by breathing electricity
Salvation hovers in the sky
Dream of a life inside while we escape just to survive
Let go, take flight
Dreams begin to reignite
So clear, so bright
We’re glowing in the dead of night
Plug in, online
The data stream linking our minds
Circuits entwined
We’ll dream of Neo-Tokyo tonight
We’re made of flesh, circuit and bone
The only world we’ve known, these empty streets we walk alone
Salvation blocking out the Sun
Beneath its shadow cast I dream with my Aphelion

hair: Tableau Vivant \ Hitaisho @ Neo Japan
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]

Ghoul – Aina Cyber Shrug
{le fil casse} Axiom Dragon Spine @ Kinky
[Neurolab Inc.] Sensiva Pussy Guard
[BREATHE]-Mizusu Heels @ FaMESHed

pose: Diversion – Come Back – Pose Set

KraftWork Cyber Pod Unit . Blue Neon

outside: [BH9] – Cyber City 2077 V1

uk – Lady Boss Conference Laptop
(I added a different picture)

andika[cyber sweets]B/Dispenser/2Li

[Rezz Room] CYBER GREYHOUND ANIMESH

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, [BREATHE]

Is that what our dreams have become?

And how far is halfway there?
I didn’t see you on the trail
Did almost become good enough?
Should a good life be so hard won?
Is that what our dreams have become?
Sometimes when you’re shooting an arrow
It can fly across the sky so proud
I would go all the way to the sun
If I didn’t have to come back down

Is that what our dreams have become?

hair: TRUTH Flirt
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]

(Yummy) The Dreamers Necklace
hive // pink drink on the go . kitty . right hold
LaGyo_Suprema Phone
Seniha. Astrid Set @ FaMESHed
***top & skirt***
[BREATHE]-Mitsuho Heels @ Kinky

pose too altered to credit

[777] Stevie @ Pretty Fair

Posted in DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Home Decor, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shoes, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative, Tres Chic, Uber SL, [BREATHE]

I feel right at home

I’ve been havin’ dreams
Jumpin’ on a trampoline
Flippin’ in the air
I never land, just float there
As I’m looking up
Suddenly the sky erupts
Flames alight the trees
Spread to fallin’ leaves
Now they’re right upon me
Wait if I’m on fire
How am I so deep in love?
When I dream of dying
I never feel so loved
I’ve been having dreams
Splashin’ in a summer stream
Trip and I fall in
I wanted it to happen
My body turns to ice
Crushin’ weight of paradise
Solid block of gold
Lying in the cold
I feel right at home

I feel right at home

hair: DOUX – Indigo hairstyle @ TresChic
head: LeLUTKA Ceylon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]
[Glam Affair ] Rika Freckles (A) 50%

(Yummy) Layered Crystal Necklace
(Yummy) Aaliyah Ring Collection
JustBECAUSE DeeDee Top @ Uber
JustBECAUSE Cassie Pants @ FaMESHed
[BREATHE]-Miroki Heels @ Kinky

pose: Ana Poses – Amata @ Shiny Shabby

backdrop: MINIMAL – Spell Corner

Potted Wall Hanger by Galland Homes (Group Gift)

[InsurreKtion] Spring Cleaning Sale Set @ TLC
-[IK] Spring Cleaning Sale – Blackboard
-[IK] Spring Cleaning Sale – Enamelware junk
-[IK] Spring Cleaning Sale – Console
-[IK] Spring Cleaning Sale – Demijohns
-[IK] Spring Cleaning Sale – Chair
-[IK] Spring Cleaning Sale – Urn
-[IK] Spring Cleaning Sale – Urn with antlers
-[IK] Spring Cleaning Sale – Antlers
-[IK] Spring Cleaning Sale – Rugs
-[IK] Spring Cleaning Sale – Stool
-[IK] Spring Cleaning Sale – Ladder

Nutmeg. Grandma’s Cottage Bench Light
Nutmeg. Grandma’s Cottage Basket w/Flowers

dust bunny . fresh fruit stand . cash box

Posted in Apple Fall, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, shopping, skin, Uber SL

You keep yours, I’ll keep mine

I will never know if you love me
Or my company, but I don’t mind
‘Cause I ain’t tryna be the one
Been through this a thousand times
I don’t need to take your heart
You keep yours, I’ll keep mine
All I really know is when I’m lonely
I hate that I’m lonely
And that’s why I let you in
And maybe in another life
We fight all day, kiss all night
But I don’t wanna break your heart
You keep yours, I’ll keep mine
I know
We know better, so we’d both better go
I don’t need a reason
To keep on dreamin’
That we don’t lose, yeah, what’s the use?
I don’t need a reason
To keep on dreamin’, oh
That we can win at anything at all

You keep yours, I'll keep mine

hair: Tableau Vivant \ Luly @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0 @ Skin Fair
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Nina Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ UBER

[Glam Affair ] Nina Freckles (B) 50%
[Glam Affair ] Nina – Blush (A) 50%
[Glam Affair ] Nina – Lips Gloss (A)

(Yummy) Aaliyah Ring Collection
Just BECAUSE Calla Tank Top @ FaMESHed
Eliavah ~ Lucia’s Panties

pose: Diversion – Coffee To Go – Pose Set
backdrop: Serenity Style– The Lost Corner Backdrop @ Equal10

KraftWork Pastel Candles @ N21
Apple Fall Bohemian Coffee Press

Ariskea[Marguerite] Pitcher Flowers – Pale
tarte. garden birdcage (ivory) – w stand @ C88

Posted in Animals, Apple Fall, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, shopping, skin, tattoo

Sunshine

“And so with the sunshine and the great bursts of leaves growing on the trees, just as things grow in fast movies, I had that familiar conviction that life was beginning over again with the summer.”
― F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

Sunshine

hair: DOUX – Silent hairstyle @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC — NASTENA @ Arcade
tattoo: *Bolson / Tattoo – Antheia @ Anthem

TRIGGERED – Moon Craft Earrings
-SU!- Poison Sunglasses V.2
(Yummy) Aaliyah Ring Collection @ Uber
Seniha. Darsha Set @ FaMESHed
(Tunica, Belt, & Shorts)

[Rezz Room] Pug Adult Animesh

pose: Lyrium. Camera Ready Pose & Prop Set @ Equal10

Fancy Decor + KraftWork Voda Pool @ Arcade
-1. Fancy Decor + KraftWork Voda Pool RARE LI:6
-12. Fancy Decor + KraftWork Voda Pool Clutter LI:3
-13. Fancy Decor + KraftWork Voda Privacy Screen LI:3
-14. Fancy Decor + KraftWork Voda Sofa LI:7
-15 . Fancy Decor + KraftWork Voda Armchair LI:3
-16. Fancy Decor + KraftWork Voda CoffeeTable LI:1
-17. Fancy Decor + KraftWork Voda Side Table LI:1
-18. Fancy Decor + KraftWork Voda Orchid Arrangement LI:2
-4. Fancy Decor + KraftWork Voda Gazebo RARE LI:48
-6. Fancy Decor + KraftWork Voda Fireplace LI:13
-8. Fancy Decor + KraftWork Voda Hanging Lantern LI:3

Apple Fall Lemonade LI:1
Apple Fall Lemonade Pitcher LI:2

Ariskea[Mocorra] stone path LI:3

Dahlia – Flamingo Float LI:3

MINIMAL – Plant Collection Gacha @ Arcade
MINIMAL – Plant Collection Gacha #02 LI:1
MINIMAL – Plant Collection Gacha #04 LI:1
MINIMAL – Plant Collection Gacha #05 LI:1
MINIMAL – Plant Collection Gacha #10 LI:2
MINIMAL – Plant Collection Gacha #11 LI:8
MINIMAL – Plant Collection Gacha #12 LI:8

Pixel Mode – Anahata – Magazine Clutter LI:3 (no longer available)

Posted in Apple Fall, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes, shopping, skin, Uber SL, vinyl, [BREATHE]

a beautiful conversation about life

I was hanging out with some of my favorite people last night and one of them made a comment about “lazy homeless” people. I quickly jumped on the defensive. As I have been homeless on a number of occasions in my 20s and there was nothing lazy about my situation. Of course, I encountered loads of other homeless people during those times. I had to explain that while there are some people that simply don’t want to be responsible members of society. However, the bulk of the homeless people I encountered were anything but lazy. As being homeless is not an easy way to live. People that live in shelters must abide by an excess of rules put in place to keep things as orderly as possible. There are curfews and requirements one must continuously make to continue their stay and many shelters have limitations on how long people can reside there. I don’t have specific numbers, but I’d dare say that the majority of homeless people have not chosen that lifestyle as their preferred method of existence. Plus there are far more living without shelter. That is NOT an easy way to live. Its beyond dangerous. Once a person is homeless, it is safe to say that getting back on your feet is ridiculously hard. As I pointed out to my friend, what is the first thing you do the morning of a job interview? Shower, right? If you have no home, you have no shower and probably don’t have much in the way of a clean nice outfit to wear.
Anyway, the point is, don’t be so quick to judge people in situations you can’t begin to understand. Turns out that one of the other people there had also experienced homelessness and was glad that I spoke up. Meanwhile, our uninformed friend was enlightened and apologized. I didn’t find the apology necessary, but it was appreciated. I was especially glad that we were all able to have such a beautiful conversation about life without hate or disgust. I won’t name them, because too many private matters were discussed and only my part of the story is mine to tell. I suspect they might read this and because they might I want to give them to know something. I love you and I’m so grateful for your friendship. I look forward to getting to know you even better in the years to come. ♥

Clearly that has nothing to do with the photo. So, I’d like to add that if you have not gotten the Spring Decocrate, this set from Serenity Style is worth getting it, just for this set. Even if you didn’t pre order it, its worth the price. Go grab yours. I have to pay full price, too, cuz I forgot to pre order…lol. You’ll also notice I’m wearing the new Lost Girl dress from Vinyl. This is the first dress Vinyl has released in ages and its so cute! AND it goes perfectly with these new wedges that Breathe released at the Arcade! So get out your wallets, its time to go shopping!!

a beautiful conversation about life

hair: DOUX – Lucy hairstyle @ LEVEL
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC — SARAH @ Kustom9
tattoo: *Bolson / Tattoo – Antheia @ Anthem

VINYL – Lost Girl Dress @ Uber
[BREATHE]-Mizuko Wedges @ Arcade

pose: Ana Poses – Saturday Night 8 @ Arcade

Scarlet Creative Charlotte’s Corner House Boat or Cabin

outside: Serenity Style– Eggs Farm Backdrop @ Uber Hometown

Serenity Style-Spring Colors Breakfast Set for Decocrate Spring
-Serenity Style- Spring Colors Breakfast Table
-Serenity Style- Spring Colors Breakfast Tray [LINKED]
-Serenity Style- Spring Colors Breakfast Chairs (blue, pink, yellow, & green)

Serenity Style– Vintage Treasures – Doors
Serenity Style- Vintage Treasures – Bookshelf

..::THOR::.. Think Green Gacha Set @ Arcade
-..::THOR::.. Hanging Crate
-..::THOR::.. Organic Hanging Tote
-..::THOR::.. Vintage Table Fan – Mint
-..::THOR::.. Greenhouse Stool – Cream
-..::THOR::.. Owl & Books
-..::THOR::.. Vintage Watering Can – Mint

  1. Apple Fall Blanket Curio
    Apple Fall Books – Arrangement 7
    Apple Fall Books – Arrangement 8
    Apple Fall Books – Arrangement 10
    West Village Sculpted Turtle – Verdigris

Di’Cor Snail Figurine @ FaMESHed

dust bunny . quirky planters 2 . kitty planter
dust bunny . quirky planters 3 . rainbow planter

Ariskea[Marguerite] Pitcher Flowers – Pale @ Anthem

[Fetch] Spring Treats – Bun Mug RARE @ Arcade

MADRAS Ooty Turtle Tea Pot Seafoam

CHEZ MOI Sleepy Kitty @ Arcade
CHEZ MOI Plant Vase 1,2, & 3 @ Arcade

The Loft & ARIA – Branwyn Rug

tarte. hanging trailing jade plant

{vespertine} hanging succulents. – string of pearls