Posted in Catwa, Chic Moda, E.A.Studio, Events, Exploration, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Here I Am

I say it all the time, “I’m not perfect.” I’d had to think what it would be like to be perfect. Thank goodness perfection is impossible, because as Dita Von Teese says, “You can be the ripest, juiciest peach in the world, and there’s still going to be somebody who hates peaches.” Imagine the bulls-eye that would be on your back if the world perceived you as perfect. Here’s the thing though, each of us is actually perfect in our own way. It is our unique qualities that make us who we are and it took every step of our lives to be who we are today. The person we are today, this moment in time, is exactly who we are supposed to be.
It may not always seem like it, because perhaps we had bigger dreams once upon a time. I know I did. None of the shit that’s happened to me along the way was ever part of my plan…with a few rare exceptions and even those didn’t end how I hoped they would. I apologize for mistakes I’ve made that hurt others, but I am not ashamed of who I once was or who I am today. I refuse to filled with shame. I have enough demons running about my head without adding shame. The longer we live, the more mistakes we make, the more people we meet. The more people we know, the more people will love us and the more people will hate us. We cannot control others, we can only control ourselves.
Today, I’m saying, “Here I am,” take it or leave it. Love me or leave me, the choice is yours. I can no longer worry about the players and haters, my plate is too full to take on all of that. I’m going to work on keeping my side of the street clean, my yard kept, and my life. If your plate is so empty that you feel the need to take on the problems and judgments of others, I’d like to suggest you put that energy into helping someone less fortunate rather than wasting all that precious energy on negativity. In the end, the only thing that will really make you feel better is doing the right thing.

the red elf
I’m unashamed of my mistakes 
I walked the path I had to take 
It’s made me who I am today 

wearing:
hair: Navy+Copper – Mousse (*new* @ Vanity)
hairbase: Just Magnetized – Special Hairbase set 05 for CATWA
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: .:E.A:.Studio BOX Ears Dairon (*new* @ Vanity)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Viktoria Applier
tattoo: DAPPA – Devour Tattoo. (*new* @ Vanity)
[BODY FACTORY] – Blade Sword (Red)
**RE** Jade Harness (*new* @ FaMESHed)
ChicModa // Isabella Slip Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Eudora3D Wanda Stillettos&Stockings  (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: Bauhaus Movement – Let The Beat Drop  (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
location: The Apothecary

Posted in E.A.Studio, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Klubwerk.poses, Second Life, shopping

I’ll Do What I Please

I say this all the time, “I do what I want.” To be fair, I usually do just that. I’m an only child and despite the abuse, I was pretty spoiled. Over the years, I have grown up, but because I never had children I didn’t mature the way most people my age have matured. So, to sum it up I’m a brat! I know, that’s coming as quite a shock to many of you. *laughs*

I’m having a pretty crappy day, so that’s all I got for now. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend and happy shopping♥

Bread
And I’ll do what I want
I’ll do what I please
I’ll do it again till I’ve got what I need

Cruel is wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Haunting
hairbase: Stealthic – Male Hairbase
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
beard: Volkstone Toni Facial Hair
ears: .:E.A.Studio:. Box Ears Falling Star
body: [SIGNATURE] Geralt – Mesh Body  *NEW*
skin: STRAY DOG – SHANE – CATWA
tattoo: [ATI] Nightmare…

Sady is wearing:
hair:  RAMA.SALON – Chloe Hair ‘EXCLUSIVE’ (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
EF: Springleaf Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
**RE** Simina Bracelets (*new* @ FaMESHed)
toksik – Slumber Crop Top (*new* @ FaMESHed)
toksik – Slumber Shorts (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: KlubWerK.poses -i know you —
VIXX- Mesh backdrop – She

 

Posted in Death Row Designs, E.A.Studio, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, unKindness, [ATI] Addicted to Ink, {le fil casse}

Ride or Die

This month my blog celebrates it 2yr anniversary and I can’t thank YOU the readers enough for your support. It continues to amaze me that anyone takes the time to read my words, look at my pictures, or comment. I am so humbled by it all. More than anything I’m grateful to my Ride or Die girls or as I usually refer to them, my cunts.
A strange twist of fate, some rock music, and a barn brought us together in the most unexpected ways, but the formula works. Four of the five of us have been inseparable. Let me explain the mega-important role that each of these girls plays in our little Cunt Cult (that’s what we call ourself and Tracy even made us a logo! No, you can’t join. #sorrynotsorry) We are not the mean girls, but we’ve tried bringing people into our group in the past. It has always backfired and when the cunts turn on you, well, its not pretty.
We do not have a leader, but I suppose some would assume its Kess or me. No, but believe or not, Kess is often our sound of reason. The one that grounds us in reality, points out the reasons one of our latest and greatest ideas is a BAD idea. For those of you that know Kess, please stop laughing. She’s really far smarter than people give her credit for….no, wait, that’s Tracy. Everyone knows that Kess, while being a daft bint, is an amazing and incredible woman that sets a fairly good example for the rest of us. She tends to give us that kick in the ass when we need it. While she’s all of that and a bag of chips….we don’t listen to her for romantic advice, cuz when it comes to men….well, I think she’s finally got a good one, but good lord. She has gone through enough toads, that’s for sure. Its about high time she found some happiness.
Then there’s Tracy….and Rom. Rom is an honorary member, because he’s sorta of been along for the ride with us since the very beginning. Sadly, this post isn’t about Rom, but if you love some artistic photography, please check out Rom’s flickr. Now, back to Tracy, she’s the owner of GingerFish poses. I’m sure you’re all familiar with her store. If not, you should be. She was one of the first pose makes to do bento poses. Her prices are great and she’s an amazing individual. She’s probably the smartest of all the cunts, but you’d never know it to talk to her. *giggles* She’s a crazy ginger that eats the souls of children for breakfast. *grins*
Then there’s Grace! This girl is like my twin. We agree on almost everything, except her choice in men. Tally? Really? *bursts into giggles* Grace and I go back and forth picking at one another. She never judges me ever. No matter what stupid shit I do, she’s probably done the same or something close. If these cunts were angels and demons on my shoulder, Grace would definitely be wearing red…with cow print. I don’t even know how to explain Grace….she’s Irish…wait, North Ireland Irish (that seems to make a difference). Between her shitty internet service and her crazy accent, she can be difficult to understand on voice. However, I love this woman like no one’s business….she’s my twinkie♥There’s another cunt, Ava, but she’s off in the real world being all in love & pregnant. I love her, but I honestly didn’t get to know her that well before she left us for that other platform called Real Life. I love them more than words can express and I refuse to even think of my life without them. They all have Flickrs, so click their names where highlighted to check them out, if you’d like.
These are the first circle of my Ride or Die bitches. I have a 2nd circle and they are the MF’n bomb. Perhaps I’ll talk about them another time, but they are not bloggers and kinda prefer to keep their lives a bit more private.

Ride or Die
I’ll never let you down, I can’t let you down
Because when I couldn’t get my feet on the ground
You’d do anything to help me out
You never let me down
What goes around comes around
I’m just sitting here on my front porch singing
This one’s for my ride or die

Sady is wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant \\ Peggy hair  (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
holding: DRD – Scrappy Helmet – White Check – Loaded (*new* @ Uber)
{le fil casse} Donna Dress (*new* @ Uber)
#EMPIRE – Coreopsis

her pose: Animosity – Cruisin’ set (*new* @ MOM)

Cruel is wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Haunting
hairbase: Stealthic – Male Hairbase
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
beard: Volkstone Toni Facial Hair
ears: .:E.A.Studio:. Box Ears Falling Star
body: [SIGNATURE] Geralt – Mesh Body  *NEW*
skin: STRAY DOG – SHANE – CATWA
tattoo: [ATI] Nightmare…
holding: DRD – Scrappy Helmet – Rusted Black (*new* @ Uber)
5.::GB:: Color denib pants / Black

his pose:  PM . Bronx (*new* @ MOM)

Scene:
uK – Modern Serenity Home (*new* Feb Builder’s Box)
:Fanatik Architecture: Roads of LISBON
DRD – Scrappy Scooter – White Check (*new* @ Uber)
DRD – Scrappy Scooter – Rusted Black – Loaded (*new* @ Uber)

Posted in Catwa, Cynful, E.A.Studio, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, N21, pr!tty, Second Life

Ready or Not

So, it’s been a few years since I started a year single and I have to say that its definitely been interesting. I’ve had a variety of people approach me. I’ve gotten to the point where I just ask them some basic questions so I know where to file these people. Let’s face it, first impressions are a bitch. It’s actually really strange, because I’m quickly figuring out that I don’t have time for a relationship. I’ve met guys that can’t carry a conversation to save their lives. I’ve met guys that are far far far too young for me. I’m sorry, but age is more than a number and I know that to be true from my own experiences. I’ve met guys that tell me straight out, they want a fuck buddy or booty call. *laughs* While I appreciate them cutting to the chase with me, it tends to make me giggle. I have two mottos:

1. I do what I want.
2. So goes life.

So, ready or not, I’m hitting the grid with no agendas. I love talking to new people, but I don’t necessarily mesh with everyone. You just might run into bouncing around the grid from time to time, don’t be afraid to say hi….I only murder innocent people. And no, I’m not gonna fuck you just cuz you got cute pixels, but I might take your picture. *winks*

Waddle

Ready or not, here I come, you can’t hide
Gonna find you and take it slowly
You can’t run away
From these styles I got, oh baby, hey baby
Cause I got a lot, oh yeah
And anywhere you go
My whole crew’s gonna know baby, hey baby

wearing:
hair:  pr!tty – Demy
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
OLQINU : visual mask <thug>  (Feb PocketGacha)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Saska
Moon Elixir – Coven – 6 – Maitreya – Arm Wraps – Charcoal
.:E.A.Studio:.Obsess Claw Maitreya
[Cynful] Dream Babe Bodysuit (*new* Mainstore)

pose: FOXCITY. Breather VOL1 Animated Pose Set (*new* @ N21)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Urban Jungle (*new* @ N21)

Posted in Catwa, E.A.Studio, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, REWIND, Second Life, shopping, United Colors

How Bad

I recently saw a meme that read, “Show me how bad you want it” and I thought to myself. Exactly how do you show how bad you want IT. Shouldn’t a grope be sufficient? The P.O.T.U.S. has stated that its ok to just grab a woman by her pussy. Now surely in doing that, he’s performing some sort of mating ritual. I assume, he’s not greeting Rosie O’Donnell or someone’s 90yr old grandmother like that. So, clearly the grabbing of one’s pussy is a signal of some sort. Probably something crass like, “I want some of that!” However, surely if a girl walks up to a man and cups his balls over his pants he is almost certain at that moment that she wants it. Should she drop to her knees in the middle of the lobby, open her mouth and beg to suck his dick in front of the entire world to show how BAD she wants it? Or should she just conveniently forget to wear panties with that very short skirt…that for some reason whenever she wears it, people drop things at her feet constantly? How does one express that they feel like a cat in heat and just want to fuck? Why is that so bad anyway?  I tell you what….I’ll show you how bad I want it when you show me how bad I need it.

rainbows

wearing:
hair:  RAMA.SALON – Jennie Hair (*new* @ REWIND)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Saska (Catwa Applier) honey (*new* @ REWIND)
=Zenith=Leather Belt Gloves
.:E.A.Studio:.Obsess Claw
UC_Nina_panties (*new* @ FetishFair)
UC_Nina_skirt (*new* @ FetishFair)

pose: FOXCITY. Beach Bunny Bento Set

 

Posted in Bueno, Catwa, Death Row Designs, E.A.Studio, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Home Decor, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Hell to Pay

So, when you have gorgeous friends and you’re a blogger, you tend to want to  show them off. For this post, my friend, Dusty was kind enough to sit pensively on this loveseat while I talked his ear off and shot pictures.  He’s quite the photographer himself, so click his name and check him out. Wishing you all a great weekend. ♥

Bartholomew The Silent Comedy

Oh my god please help me knee deep in the river trying to get clean
He says wash your hands get out the stains
But you best believe boy there’s hell to pay yeah you best believe boy there’s hell to pay
Come on

Oh my God please help me waist deep in the river can you hear my plea
He says son you come like a begger in the streets
You might make it boy but by the skin of your teeth
You might make it boy but by the skin of your teeth, sayin’

I rambled with the worst of them
Fell in love with a harlequin
Saw the darkest hearts of men
And I saw myself staring back again and I saw myself staring back again

Oh my God please help me neck deep in the river screaming for relief!
He says it’s mine to give but it’s yours to choose
You gonna sink or swim you gonna learn the truth no matter what you do your gonna learn the truth saying

Ate the bread that once was stones
Fell from a cliff never broke a bone
Bowed down to get the kings overthrown
Now I’m all alone and the fires grows and I’m all alone and the fires grows

Swing sweet charity take what’s left of me
A new beginning or is this the end
Swing sweet Seraphim take me back again or watch me make the messes of men

Best You Believe
But you best believe, boy, there’s hell to pay.

Ðυѕтч MF’и Wαѕρ is wearing:
hair: VoltHair. Bruno Hair
hair: CATWA HEAD Daniel
body: [Signature] Gianni – Body
.:E.A.Studio:. Ears Dragon Knight
[ kunst ] – Stern necklace
Legal Insanity  – Owen skinny jeans (*new* @ FaMESHed)
*X*plosion Smasher Boots

pose: Foxcity. Mens – Solitude Pack

scene:
BUENO-Mulder Loft Building-Regular (*new* @ Uber)
BUENO-LoveHateLove Seat-Red Velvet (*new* @ ROMP)
DRD – Series 01 – Fireplace – Light (Feb Shadow Box)
DRD – Series 01 – Smoking Table – Light (Feb Shadow Box)

Posted in Bueno, Cynful, E.A.Studio, Events, Fashion, Gos, Second Life, shoes, shopping

More Love for Devil

I have been so touched by the outpouring of support shown for this event from both the designers and the shoppers. I know that Andrea is beside herself and feeling the love. I don’t think she realizes how many lives she touches with her consistently positive attitude and her memes on Facebook about loving yourself and one another. So, this is another post dedicated to her and the event designed to raise money for her plight.

I love you, Andrea and you simply have no idea how many strangers love you, too. ♥ Oh and I had to do a sexy post, cuz I know how much you love those. *grins*

I Slay U Slay

hair: .Entwined. Ellira (For the Love of the Devil)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
ears: .:E.A:.Studio Ears Elf Dior
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
[Cynful] Love the Devil Necklace (For the Love of the Devil)
[Cynful] Coax Lingerie – Fae Pink  (For the Love of the Devil)
[Gos] Boutique – Ariana Thigh High Boots – Cynful Collection (For the Love of the Devil)

pose: FOXCITY. Stairs (Sitting) Bento Pose Set
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – A Fool’s Paradise – Blue (For the Love of the Devil)
BUENO-ISlayNeon sign-Aqua (For the Love of the Devil)

Posted in E.A.Studio, Events, Fashion, Phedora, Scandalize, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Great Team

They say you should find someone that makes you a better person. Someone that makes you push yourself to be your best. Someone that believes in you, compliments you and your life. Someone that you do the same for, as well. Afterall, its a two way street, right?

I’m not sure I’ve EVER known that kind of relationship. I’ve either been with people that completely agreed with everything I said or wanted and simply let me have my way. OR I’ve been with assholes that made me think their constant destructive criticisms were actually constructive. Well, until now…I really hope that I encourage Josh the way he does me, though I’m honestly not sure. Of course, I’d like to think so, but I know I tend to be a bit self-centered and easily distracted. I’ve got a thousand legitimate excuses for being the way I am, but that’s not what I’m talking about right now. Right now, I’m gushing about Josh again. Yeah, I know…the love cynic has turned into a pile of mush. *swoons*
Much like a musical instrument added to a beautiful voice, Josh and I make a great team. At least I think so…and I know at least a half dozen others who would agree. You see, I used to think that Josh was always biased about my photos, because he would always tell me my photos were amazing. I still think he’s biased, mind you. I know my photos are not AMAZING, but I do believe I take some shots that are pretty damn awesome. This may or may not be one of them, but I know its better than my original shot which featured both the dress and the shoes in black. Josh pointed out that the details of both were sort of blending with the piano. I took a second look at the picture and he was right. So, I tried a few colors as he watched and grinned like the cheshire cat and waalaaa…here’s the improved photo.
This is also an important lesson for all you shoppers that debate on whether or not to buy the fatpack. You show up wearing the perfect dress, but someone else is wearing the exact same dress? Change the color and a few accessories and BOOM, you look fab AND different. Plus, if you’re like me and always taking photos, you can set the color for the scene. See? So tell those that love to spoil you that you’re a fatpacker. They’ll love you for it and probably buy you one or two or four…*winks*

great team

Sady is wearing:
hair: Magika – 01 – Talk Like That
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Scandalize. Kaylas. (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
Phedora ~ Alessia Heels (*new* @ Uber)

pose by Di’s Opera

Josh is wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Hysteria
hairbase: [Hipster Style] Rhys Hairbase BROWN
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
ears: .:E.A.Studio:.  Ears Falling Star
beard: VYC – Neat Scruff Beard HD *GIFT*
body: Slink Physique Male Mesh Body
piercing: 3.::GB:: Lip piercing (Catwa Daniel) Black (Studded)
::GB::slim pants suit Vr.2 / Black
::GB::Bai color WT / Black

pose in the piano

1 Prim Divine Piano
Trompe Loeil – Amelie Pavillion Elevated {A} V1.1

Posted in Artisan Fantasy, Bound Box, CandyDoll, Drunk Panda, E.A.Studio, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, N21, Narcisse, Phoenix, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Let’s Go Play

“Let’s go play,” he said as he led her to the car.
“Oooh where are we going?” she asked, as she was always so curious.
He smirked, then blindfolded her and growled, “It’s a surprise, Kitten.”

When they arrived, he led her gently through what sounded like very heavy doors. She could hear ethereal music playing and delicious noises. She bit down on her bottom lip wondering where on earth he’d taken her. As he removed the blindfold and her eyes adjusted to the dim lighting, her face beamed with a smile as she pounced on him and whispered in his ear, “Oh yes, Daddy, let’s play!”

when Daddy takes you the club

Josh is wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Hysteria
hairbase: [Hipster Style] Rhys Hairbase BROWN
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
ears: .:E.A.Studio:.  Ears Falling Star
beard: VYC – Neat Scruff Beard HD *GIFT*
body: Slink Physique Male Mesh Body
-VA-M-VISTA BENTO PROHAND SLINK MALE
piercing: 3.::GB:: Lip piercing (Catwa Daniel) Black (Studded)
DAPPA  – Sorcery Tattoo
[ kunst ] – Devon bracelet
RIOT  / Andrew Tank Top – Prussian
ED. Unknown Pant Black

Sady is wearing:
hair: :::Phoenix::: Carrie Hair (*new* @ September FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
[Atomic] Kitten Collar
Narcisse– Victoria 2in1 Bodysuit
_CandyDoll_ Fate Boots

pose: Drunk Panda-AlwaysHere (*new* @ Limit8)
scene:
anxiety %equinox (*new* @ N21)
*AF* Capturado Cross Blk 1
*AF* Capturado Utility Shelf
tease me – 2 color – red (Bound Box Update Group Gift!)

Posted in Collabor88, Drunk Panda, E.A.Studio, Events, Fashion, Second Life

Hold My Hand

When I saw this pose by Drunk Panda, I knew exactly what I wanted to do and the perfect way to dedicate another post to Josh, because I’m not the best at showing him how much he means to me. He’s always posting these romantic and sexy memes to my page on FB. Sometimes I can’t fight my sarcastic nature and I crack jokes, because the truth is…I’m not used to being loved like this and I never want it to end. I’ve honestly never felt what I feel with him and while I know that nothing last forever…I want this for as long as it can possibly last. I love you, Josh. This song is for you.

Hold My Hand cover (originally by Jess Glynne)

Standing in a crowded room, and I can’t see your face
Put your arms around me, tell me everything’s OK
In my mind, I’m running round a cold and empty space
Just put your arms around me, tell me everything’s OK

Break my bones but you won’t see me fall, oh
The rising tide will rise against them all, oh

Darling, hold my hand
Oh, won’t you hold my hand?
Cause I don’t wanna walk on my own anymore
Won’t you understand? Cause I don’t wanna walk alone
I’m ready for this, there’s no denying
I’m ready for this, you stop me falling
I’m ready for this, I need you all in
I’m ready for this, so darling, hold my hand

Soul is like a melting pot when you’re not next to me
Tell me that you’ve got me and you’re never gonna leave
Tryna find a moment where I can find release
Please tell me that you’ve got me and you’re never gonna leave

Break my bones but you won’t see me fall, oh
The rising tide will rise against them all, oh

Darling, hold my hand
Oh, won’t you hold my hand?
Cause I don’t wanna walk on my own anymore
Won’t you understand? Cause I don’t wanna walk alone
I’m ready for this, there’s no denying
I’m ready for this, you stop me falling
I’m ready for this, I need you all in
I’m ready for this, so darling, hold my hand

Don’t wanna know
That feeling when I’m all alone
So please don’t make me wait, cause I don’t wanna break
No, I don’t wanna fall
When you’re next to me
Can tell I’m not afraid to be
That you don’t make me wait, and never let me break
You never let me fall

Darling, hold my hand
Oh, won’t you hold my hand?
Cause I don’t wanna walk on my own anymore
Won’t you understand? Cause I don’t wanna walk alone
I’m ready for this, there’s no denying
I’m ready for this, you stop me falling
I’m ready for this, I need you all in
I’m ready for this, so darling, hold my hand

forever

Josh is wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Hysteria
hairbase: [Hipster Style] Rhys Hairbase BROWN
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
ears: .:E.A.Studio:.  Ears Falling Star
beard: VYC – Neat Scruff Beard HD *GIFT*
body: Slink Physique Male Mesh Body
-VA-M-VISTA BENTO PROHAND SLINK MALE
piercing: 3.::GB:: Lip piercing (Catwa Daniel) Black (Studded)
BlankLine MountainPullover
::GB::Straight RollUp Jeans

Sady is wearing:
hair: TRUTH / Athena (September VIP gift)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
erratic / laura – sweater (*new* @C88)
Blueberry – DWL Jeans – Capri Jeans

pose: Drunk Panda-HoldMyHandForever (*new* @ Limit8)