Posted in Bueno, Collabor88, Cosmopolitan, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

What’s left to prove?

Only give me love when I’m giving it back
But you say you’ll never be my friend
Always on the train, never on the track
So I’m jumping before the crash
And I know you’re just trying to scare me
But you lost all of your effect
You can bark like a dog, baring your teeth
But I’m never going back again
No, I’m never going back again
Babe, it’s true
I’m in love with what we were
But not with you
What’s left to prove?
Tried so many damn times to cut you loose
Now I’m way too far away to be hurt by you
~ Donna Missal – Hurt By You

hair: Exile – Soleil @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

[Heaux] Chilled Eyes
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA DIRTY BABE COLLECTION #3 @ Cosmopolitan
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA DIRTY BABE COLLECTION #8 @ Cosmopolitan

BUENO-Bella Necklace @ Kustom9
VOBE – Debbie Earrings

Posted in breathe, Collabor88, Cosmopolitan, crate, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, shoes, shopping, skin, Uber SL, unKindness

Invisible

I don’t wanna talk about it, there isn’t much to say
I don’t have an excuse to why I won’t come to your party
And I don’t want my picture taken, I’d hate it anyway
No, I don’t wanna spoil your night, just go have fun without meI’m pushing food around my plate
‘Cause my father said I’m overweight
Well, maybe he’d feel better
If I just disappeared altogether and I
Got so good at faking smiles
I can do it for a little while
Just don’t ask me if I’m okay
‘Cause I’m not okay, noIt’s hard to show you something invisible
No tears, no scars, no bruises, It’s not physical
It’s covered up and hidden tight
Beneath the skin, inside the mind
You wouldn’t even notice, you wouldn’t even know
Invisible, invisible, invisible
~ Grace Davies – Invisible

WEARING:
hair: MIWAS  – Hair #Maria
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

e.marie // Kandi Puff Earrings
dress: Blossom&Seeds Narda @ Cosmopolitan
shoes: [BREATHE]-Miyuwa Heels @ C88

[Rezz Room] Dachshund Adult Animesh @ Equal10
[Rezz Room] Dachshund Puppy Animesh @ Equal10

Lyrium. Yuna Idle Stands Breathing Poses @ Equal10

SCENE:
Campito – Good Times – The Bearded Guy

crate Patio Plant Cart Set @ Equal10
crate Patio Plant Cart – Beige Green
crate Patio Plant Cart – Box Plants
crate Patio Plant Cart – Hat & Throw
crate Patio Plant Cart – Pot & Cloth
crate Patio Plant Cart – Egg Head Pearl Plant
crate Patio Plant Cart – Bonsai Palm

crate Cabo Bar Set @ Anthem
crate Cabo Bar
crate Cabo Bar Citrus Basket
crate Cabo Bar Mint Plant
crate Cabo Bar Pom Pom Garland
crate Cabo Bar Citrus Sangria Dispenser

andika[End of summer sweets]A/dispenser @ Equal10

Ariskea [Sunrise] Succulent Ceramic hangers

Mithral * Mojito Syngonium @ Equal10
Mithral * Albo Syngonium @ Equal10

dust bunny . paradise plants . @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . fan palm
dust bunny . paradise plants . pineapple plant
dust bunny . paradise plants . monstera tree . with lights

uK – Infinity Fountain Ivory @ Uber

7 – Cat Burglar Painting

Posted in Cosmopolitan, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Home Decor, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

Dip my toe

I don’t have a lot to say, because I’m disappointed in people again. It never fails to surprise me how some people can be so low down and dirty. Every time I try to dip my toe into being social again, I remember why I keep to myself. So, rather than rant on about lies and pain and all the other garbage I’m feeling right now. I know this is just part of life and I’ll be okay. I’m just in the middle of a bunch of disappointment at the moment. So, for now, I’m going to keep this short and wish you all a great month. ♥

blossom rezz room

hair: DOUX – Angelica hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: DeeTaleZ *SKINS* for LELUTKA HEADS (EVO.) – Flora

 CHAIN – Tina Necklace Set @ Anthem
Blossom&Seeds Becca Bikini @ Cosmopolitan
.::Supernatural::. Naya II Anklet

pose: FOXCITY. Spot On Bento Pose Set

scene:
[Rezz Room] Little Punkie Animesh (Companion) @ Anthem

~BAZAR~ Ibiza Lounge set @ Anthem
~ Ibiza Lounger
~ Ibiza Slippers
~ Ibiza Towel 02
~ Ibiza Sunglasses
~ Ibiza Crates
~ Ibiza Beach bag 02

Posted in accessories, Catwa, Cosmopolitan, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

M.I.A

Let’s make a quick getaway
This party’s shit anyway
Or we could go M.I.A
Tell me, tell me what you say
‘Cause I, I’ve been bored out of my mind
Sitting here all night
And you know I got my eye on you
No lie, no lie
I’ve been vibin’ to you all of this time
Don’t say goodbye
We out here, so you know
You and I could be somewhere catching waves
I say, “Hi”, now let’s go M.I.A
~ Cher Lloyd – M.I.A.

Loving Life
Sady:
hair: DOUX – Bianca hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: DeeTaleZ *SKINS* for LELUTKA HEADS (EVO.) – Flora

ears: ^^Swallow^^ Persia Ears @ Kustom9
-SU!- Almond Nails
Little Fox – Summer babe Collection – Bikini @ Cosmopolitan

Precious:
hair: OPALE . Darina Hair
head: Catwa Catya
body: Legacy
skin: DeeTalez

Kibitz – Tricia’s bracelet
Little Fox – Summer babe Collection – Bikini @ Cosmopolitan

pose: [ west end ] Bento Poses – XOXO – Friends @ Cosmopolitan

Posted in accessories, Collabor88, Cosmetics, Cosmopolitan, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, tattoo, The Liaison Collaborative

my blood couldn’t keep you

I’m sorry but your story isn’t adding up
Think your religion is a lie to keep my mouth shut
So I won’t testify the crimes you’re keeping score of
Why don’t you throw me to the wolves I thought you were one

You were standing there like an angry god
Counting out my sins just to cross them off
Saying that my tongue was too loud to trust
And that my blood couldn’t keep you

My dear, you’re not so innocent
You’re fooling Heaven’s gates
So you won’t have to change
You’re no saint, you’re no savior

Your revelations don’t look nothing like the pictures
You read between the lines and don’t stick to the scriptures
You only follow rules if others follow with you
That doesn’t sound so holy only playing victim
~ Echos – Saints

doux ga idtty rd

hair: DOUX – Alaska hairstyle @ LeVeL
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes:  .euphoric ~Kitty Eyes Applier ~[LeLutka] @ Cosmopolitan
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mara Skin [ Lelutka ] @ C88

lashes: MICHAN – Lilith Lashes Fatpack [Lel EVO] @ TLC
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA SWEET TEMPTATION COLLECTION #2 @ Kinky
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA SWEET TEMPTATION COLLECTION #7 @ Kinky

Apocalyptic – Awakening the eye black @ Belle
(Yummy) Cleopatra Nose Ring – Silver
[ rD ] – Antares Necklace @ FaMESHed

Posted in Cosmopolitan, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative

I’d like to tell you

I’d like to tell you that my sky’s not blue, it’s violent rain
And in my world, the people on the street don’t know my name
In my world, I’m seven feet tall
And the boys always call, and the girls do too
Because in my world, I’m constantly, constantly havin’ a breakthrough (Hmm)
Or a breakdown, or a blackout
Would you make out with me underneath the shelter of the balcony?

‘Cause I don’t need anyone
I don’t need anyone
I just need everyone and then some
~ Halsey – Clementine

doux bs lp zk

hair: DOUX – Alana hairstyle @ Dubai
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes:  [Heaux] Piper Eyes @ Anthem
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair]  LIllian Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Uber

-:zk:- Little Liars Sunglasses @ TLC
Rebel Gal – Charm Necklace
Blossom&Seeds Charlie @ Cosmopolitan

pose: Le Poppycock *Watercolours* @ TLC
**includes boom box & cigarette**

 

Posted in Blueberry, Cosmopolitan, DOUX, Events, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

gone in an instant

I have found that whenever you look outside yourself for something or someone to make you happy, you are simply looking in the wrong place. Happiness definitely comes from within and you have to truly want it in order to achieve it. To truly want something, you have to be willing to work for it. Too many people with mental illnesses refuse to accept that and it breaks my heart. I’ve been there and I know its not an easy path. By no means am I cured. I still suffer from mental illness, but I am getting help and it is working. It works, because I’m following suggestions and taking advice that I don’t always like. I know its working, because I feel better more often than I don’t. I no longer sit and wallow in self pity or self loathing. I no longer envy what other people have, because I have beyond what I absolutely need in this life. I’m not looking at what I don’t have. Instead, I’m counting my blessings for everything I do have and I’m appreciating it all a bit more. I know it could all be gone in an instant. I don’t want to wait until its gone to enjoy it or appreciate the blessing bestowed upon me.

doux idtty bb sc

hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes:  [Heaux] Piper Eyes @ Anthem
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair]  LIllian Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Uber

lashes: MICHAN – Lilith Lashes Fatpack [Lel EVO] @ TLC
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA PLAY COOL COLLECTION #3 @ Cosmopolitan (closes July 12)
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA PLAY COOL COLLECTION #9  @ Cosmopolitan (closes July 12)

Rebel Gal – Charm Necklace
Blueberry – Authentic – Crop Top

pose: – space cadet  – pack 9 @ Harajuku (closes July 10)

Posted in Cosmopolitan, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Leaving Me Alone is a Bad Idea

I don’t feel like this is rocket science, but apparently too many people don’t get it. So, here’s a little tip…if the person you are dating is upset/stressed/depressed/going through a rough time, going radio silent is NOT a good move. Unless they have specifically requested to be left alone…going away and not speaking to them is going to make things worse. Since, so few people seem to understand that, I just thought I’d put it out there.
This next part is just for me, or about me, I can’t speak for how others fully react to being pretty much abandoned while clearly needing the support of the one that supposedly loves them. For me, if  you walk away from me when times are hard, then you’ve just told me that I’m an option. You’ve told me that I’m not worth the effort of an actual conversation. Even if all you do is wrap your arms around me and tell me its going to be okay, the proceed to listen…THAT is far better that throwing up your hands and walking away. Once you make me feel like I’m not worth your time and effort, I’m done. I will not stick around to feel that way again and again. I know there are women out there on the grid that will wait for someone that doesn’t have the decency to send a message and tell them what’s going on. I will never understand that, but hey, to each their own. I’m not the one. I can feel like shit without your help. So, when you throw me to the wolves when I’m down and out, I will learn to stand on my own. I’m a fighter. That’s what I do. Ah, but here’s the rub….if I have to do this all by myself…wtf do I need you for? Nothing…which is what you left me with when you gave me that ever so fucking mature silent treatment.
Here’s the thing, if I’m an option to you, go away. When I let you into my heart, I mean it, so if you’re going to treat me like a pawn in your little love game….go find some thirsty bitch that’s going to take all that crap. I’m not her. In my opinion, none of us should allow anyone to treat us that way, but what do I know? I’d rather be alone than be treated poorly. I guess the point I’m making is that if you care about me don’t leave me alone and expect me to just be okay when you finally decide to man up and come back. I won’t be waiting.

tableau lyrium

hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Editorial hair – Ponytail [RARE] @ Arcade
head: LeLUTKA Erin Head
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Maya (LeLutkaEVO) @ Uber

eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA STUPID LOVE COLLECTION #3 @ Cosmopolitan
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA STUPID LOVE COLLECTION #7 @ Cosmopolitan

pose & background: Lyrium. Seashore Scene and Pose Series @ Pose Fair Market

Posted in Cosmopolitan, Legacy, Lelutka, N21, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL, vinyl

Something’s Gotta Happen

For our only hope is falling in love
With who we are
And what we wanna do
Is it gonna be you,
Is it gonna be me
Well something’s gotta happen
Or we’ll be on our knees
On our knees
For our only hope is falling in love
With who we are
And what we wanna do
Is it gonna be you,
Is it gonna be me
Well something’s gotta happen
Or we’ll be on our knees
On our knees
Feel it in your bones
The need for something more
The more and more you wait
It’s burning you
Feel it in your bones
The need for something more
~ Konoba – On Our Knees
idtty vinyl

hair: tram J0513b hair @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Erin Head
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Maya (LeLutkaEVO) @ Uber

eyes: [Heaux] Poppy Eyes @ N21

eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA STUPID LOVE COLLECTION #3 @ Cosmopolitan
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA STUPID LOVE COLLECTION #7 @ Cosmopolitan

VINYL – Bones Hoodie @ Kinky

 

Posted in Cosmopolitan, DOUX, Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Tres Chic

Light of your soul

“Don’t ever let the light of your soul dim, even if the world seems black and white.”
― Tilicia Haridat

bs rd ss & more

hair:  DOUX – Cotton hairstyle @ TresChic
head: Genus Head – Baby Face
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.1)
skin:  [Glam Affair] Amelie Applier [ Genus ] @ Kustom9

[ rD ] Nanaya Earrings
[ rD ] Nanaya Choker Necklace
[ rD ] – Nanaya Bracelets
B&S Canada. @ Cosmopolitan
Pure Poison – Lidia Boots

pose: Diversion – Goodbye Autumn
Serenity Style– Mystic Winter Forest Backdrop