I never miss a beat I’m lightning on my feet And that’s what they don’t see, mm, mm That’s what they don’t see, mm, mm I’m dancing on my own (Dancing on my own) I make the moves up as I go (Moves up as I go) And that’s what they don’t know, mm, mm That’s what they don’t know, mm, mm But I keep cruising Can’t stop, won’t stop grooving It’s like I got this music in my mind Saying it’s gonna be alright’ Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate Baby, I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake I shake it off, I shake it off (Whoo-hoo-hoo)
hair: DOUX – Vanilla hairstyle @ Uber head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: PUMEC — SARAH @ Kustom9
Ok, so this is a bit off and has absolutely nothing to do with the photo, but since I am prone to sharing my real life or lackthereof here, I figure I might as well share this, too. However, this could be a trigger for some. If you are easily triggered by suicide topics, please have someone else read it first to determine whether or not you should. I’m doing this for me. These are my reasons: 1. to hold myself accountable 2. cuz I think the convo is cute 3. cuz it shows how quickly my state of mind changes So, what I’m going to do is just copy a conversation between myself and my wifey, Ghoulina Waffles, cuz it pretty much sums things up. Please don’t go nuts and call for welfare checks, I’m fine and I have an appt with my therapist in the morning.
9:24am Ghoulie: Hope your stint at XXXXXX went okay Sady: girl, I couldn’t sleep before my shift I just laid in bed for hours contemplating suicide then after my shift, I passed the fuck out and had a nightmare about a failed suicide attempt Ghoulie: Jesus wammen Sady: was a rad attempt fail tho rofl Ghoulie: you are not allowed to think of suicide when your wifey is this pretty https://flic.kr/p/2kENqCT oh? how’s that? Sady: oooh, I tried to race my car into a busy intersection, but ended up launching my car over it instead, but also flipping it mid way so I was over the intersection upside down screaming “fuck yeah” out the window before turning right side up and crashing into a building but in my dream, my car was so sturdy it protected me, so I just had a concussion some scratches and bruises and a bunch of teenagers decided I was a worthy cause and all came to visit me and then it was kinda over and a giant storm came and mom was passed out on the couch so I sat and watched this amazing storm outside when it was over we went to target to buy candy lmao Ghoulie: WTF, so, you had an action film for a suicide attempt Sady: ooh and at the store there were all these candy bar flavored pop tart bites….they were new and I was mad that they didn’t have a grab bag with all the flavors especially since I didn’t want a whole bag of milky way pop tarts lmao Ghoulie: I like you, but you’re crazy (said with a gif) Sady: note to self, do not use car in suicide attempt, cuz if it fails, you only killed your car Ghoulie: No suicide attempts, okay? Sady: we’ll see Ghoulie: your body is already like evil hands rubbing together “Teeheehee we got this” Sady: RIGHT??? Ghoulie: it’s like surprise suicide, you just can’t plan it Sady: pretty much…lol
….then we trailed off to discuss our new Linden Labs stilt homes and other things
Again, I repeat, I’m fine now. I was just talking to one of my closest friends. She gets me on a level that most don’t and she knows when to take me seriously, when to worry, etc. She’s not worried and you shouldn’t be either. This is not a cry for help, but just a glimpse into my BPD brain. As my friend, Tracy Redangel, once said, “Depression lies.” I know this and I would not act on a suicidal impulse. Trust that I know myself far better than most and I will be discussing my thoughts with my new therapist tomorrow morning. Meanwhile, I have too much work to do and too many people counting on me to just up and dip out! I PROMISE.
hair: [monso] Mabel Hair @ C88 head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5 eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: PUMEC – Lillian
[ rD ] – Rayna Cuff & Earrings @ TLC Rainbow Sundae Callie Bracelet @ TLC MY BAGS by Mila Blauvelt My Naughty RED hive // cold brew coffee to go . Apl.Blossom Genesis @ TLC
I was hanging out with my amazing friends, Maria & Jason, when I got my hands on these gorgeous new sphynx cats from Rezz Room. I was squealing with delight, because…well…CATS! Jason started laughing and then predicted that I would be doing a post with a lot of cats. Started calling me the cat lady. So, in order to prove him wrong, I limited myself to only three. See? I have some self control, Jason! *laughs*
I am so very blessed to have these two amazing people in my life. So, I want to make sure they know how much I appreciate them both. ♥
hair: Tableau Vivant // Vale hair @ Kustom9 head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5 eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: PUMEC – Lillian
(Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88 Seniha. Jackie Set @ Access Seniha. Jackie Sweater Seniha. Jackie Top Seniha. Jackie Pants friday – Esme Sneakers @ C88
I am so impulsive to a fault I want the opposite of what I got The second I get bored, I switch it up Makin’ bad decisions, based on temporary thoughts I know they say there’s greener grass For me it’s never about that The second I get bored, I switch it up Makin’ bad decisions, based on temporary thoughts My favorite hobby, self-sabotage Can’t never seem to make my mind up Change my opinion more than my socks Let me tell you about the time I took my friend out the friend zone ‘Cause I felt so sad, sleepin’ alone Then I put him right back, just like that ‘Cause I missed bein’ by myself
hair: Stealthic – Searching @ Access head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: PUMEC – Lillian *NEW*
Orsini Jewelry CAMILLE Set Jewely @ Access (Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88 Cynful Amour Babydoll @ Equal10
All day starin’ at the ceilin’ makin’ Friends with shadows on my wall All night hearing voices tellin’ me That I should get some sleep Because tomorrow might be good for somethin’ Hold on, feelin’ like I’m headed for a breakdown And I don’t know why But I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell I know, right now you can’t tell But stay a while and maybe then you’ll see A different side of me I’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired I know, right now you don’t care But soon enough you’re gonna think of me And how I used to be, me I’m talkin’ to myself in public, dodging glances on the train And I know, I know they’ve all been talkin’ about me I can hear them whisper, and it makes me think There must be somethin’ wrong with me Out of all the hours thinkin’, somehow I’ve lost my mind
I’ll take it nice and slow Feeling good on my own without you, yeah Got me speaking in tongues The beautiful, it comes without you, yeah I’m gonna put my body first And love me so hard ’til it hurts I know how to scream out the words Scream the words I love me! Gonna love myself, no, I don’t need anybody else
Years ago, many many years ago, back in my very young, wild and single days, I used to love going to the laundromat with my roommate. We’d make a day of it and we always had so much fun. We were a wild pair. We’d drag all our laundry down the local laundromat, grab a couple of Diet Pepsis and get to work. The best part was waiting on the clothes to dry. We’d sit on the counter and chat. Sometimes we’d even have a bit of a picnic. There was a sandwich shop right around the corner, so if it was one those big laundry days, we’d grab some lunch for our countertop picnic.
It’s funny how you can have such fond memories of something that just felt like a necessity at the time. It certainly feels like a lifetime ago. Well, it might be someone’s lifetime ago, considering I was around 21 at the time. *laughs* Now, I can’t even remember the last time I went to a laundromat. My anxiety keeps me in the house as much as possible and lucky for me, I have a washer & dryer in my kitchen!
I am walking proof that blogging works. Just yesterday, I acquired some cute new purses, because I saw one of them on a blog post. I also discovered a new pose store. I mean, I dunno how new they are to the grid, but they’re new to me and that’s always exciting to me as a photographer. These pants I’m wearing were an item I saw at an event, but after I saw them in a blog post, I decided I had to have them. I have loved the backdrops from Paleto for a while, but after seeing one I didn’t have in a blog post…I went to their store. There I discovered that they had five backdrops on sale, all for less than L$100! I had to scoop them up! I can only hope that my blog inspires people to buy a few things from time to time as well.
hair: Wasabi // Asia Hair head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: [theSkinnery] Monica (LeLutkaEVO)
Shopping in SL is clearly much different from shopping in RL, but I do my best to mix and match pieces from various brands to create a look that isn’t quite so cookie cutter. While there’s absolutely nothing wrong with creating a look based on an entire outfit presented by the designer. Sometimes I really like going through different pieces much like I do in RL. Luckily, I can do this in SL without making quite the same mess. *laughs* You should’ve seen my bedroom back in the day. I mean, you wouldn’t see the floor. I was quite messy, but I knew where the clean clothes were vs the dirty clothes!
N-E-WAY! I fell in love with this new suede and lace skirt from Gaia, but I wasn’t ready for the adorable camisole top that matched it. Of course, I got it. I’m saving that for another look, ok? Lucky for me, Breathe just released these amazing suede boots that really helped me achieve a warm cozy outfit with the perfect pinch of pink!
For the scene, I did something I thought was cute. I took these posters I had from ionic and added my own textures. Well, technically they belong to Lucky Conundrum, as he created them for Burrow Company. I just thought it would be neat if the posters actually advertised something inworld. So, a shoutout and a big thank you to Lucky for allowing me to use his posters for my scene. ♥
Brand new goods! That’s right, Stealthic has released a brand new hair at Anthem, clearly inspired by Anya Taylor-Joy‘s character, Beth Harmon, from the recent hit The Queen’s Gambit. I loved the story and highly recommend it to anyone looking for something to binge on Netflix. Naturally, Hunter does not disappoint with a fun new short hairstyle. I am already obsessed with Gambit.
Ahh, but Hunter isn’t the only one feeding my inner fashion junkie. Cynful has designed the Mile High Jumpsuit for the upcoming round of Collabor88 and it is fabulous! Now, anyone that reads me regularly knows that my favorite color for fashion is FATPACK! Plus, I’m a very lucky blogger that’s been on the Cynful team since….*thinks for a minute*…2016! Now, I just won’t say much if I don’t have good things to say, but this jumpsuit? OMG, I’m not going to want to stop talking about it nor will I want to take it off anytime soon. This is truly one of the sexiest things I’ve seen in the grid in quite a while. It’s not super revealing, but there are no curves hidden in this sexy number. The hud comes with an option for flat or high feet, too. It is a bit tricky finding the right shoes to fit under the perfectly flared, unzipped cut, but I am sure you all can find something. I’ve paired a sleek minimal pair of N-Core’s Elvira Heels with mine. I went with a taupe natural color, cuz let’s face it….in this outfit no one is looking at your shoes. Yet, you don’t want something sticking through the back of the shoe either, so chunky pumps are out!
I’ll put it this way. A male friend of mine sent a message to Cynthia of Cynful to thank her for this sexy jumpsuit on behalf of men across the grid. So, if nothing else, you’ll want to hit up Collabor88 for this jumpsuit ASAP.
hair: Stealthic – Gambit @ Anthem head: LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: #3 — PUMEC – NADYA – JANUARY — LELUTKA x BOM @ Epiphany tattoo: Lilithe’// Scylla Tattoo
RichB. Skully Arm Band RichB. Halo Cuffs Cynful Mile High Jumpsuit @ C88 N-core ELVIRA heels