Posted in Animals, Bad Unicorn, Bueno, Collabor88, Cynful, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, [BREATHE]

But I keep cruising

I never miss a beat
I’m lightning on my feet
And that’s what they don’t see, mm, mm
That’s what they don’t see, mm, mm
I’m dancing on my own (Dancing on my own)
I make the moves up as I go (Moves up as I go)
And that’s what they don’t know, mm, mm
That’s what they don’t know, mm, mm
But I keep cruising
Can’t stop, won’t stop grooving
It’s like I got this music in my mind
Saying it’s gonna be alright’
Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play
And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate
Baby, I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off (Whoo-hoo-hoo)

But I keep cruising

hair: DOUX – Vanilla hairstyle @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC — SARAH @ Kustom9

#3 CHAIN – Olivia Necklace – Silver
Cynful Sky Shimmer Dress @ C88
[BREATHE]-Sasuki Heels @ Kinky

backdrop: MINIMAL – Red Rocks Scene

[Rezz Room] American Bully Adult Animesh
[Rezz Room] Rottweiler Adult Animesh

BUENO -4×4- Barbie Group Gift
[Bueno x Bad Unicorn] Rose Gold – Unicooler @ TMD
BUENO-Bai Luggage-Suitcase-Pink
BUENO-Bai Luggage-Duffle Bag-Pink

Tentacio – explore the world

dust bunny . bon voyage . suitcase . pink

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative

a glimpse into my BPD brain

Ok, so this is a bit off and has absolutely nothing to do with the photo, but since I am prone to sharing my real life or lackthereof here, I figure I might as well share this, too. However, this could be a trigger for some. If you are easily triggered by suicide topics, please have someone else read it first to determine whether or not you should. I’m doing this for me. These are my reasons: 1. to hold myself accountable 2. cuz I think the convo is cute 3. cuz it shows how quickly my state of mind changes
So, what I’m going to do is just copy a conversation between myself and my wifey, Ghoulina Waffles, cuz it pretty much sums things up. Please don’t go nuts and call for welfare checks, I’m fine and I have an appt with my therapist in the morning.

9:24am
Ghoulie: Hope your stint at XXXXXX went okay
Sady: girl, I couldn’t sleep before my shift
I just laid in bed for hours contemplating suicide
then after my shift, I passed the fuck out
and had a nightmare about a failed suicide attempt
Ghoulie: Jesus wammen
Sady: was a rad attempt fail tho
rofl
Ghoulie: you are not allowed to think of suicide when your wifey is this pretty https://flic.kr/p/2kENqCT
oh?
how’s that?
Sady: oooh, I tried to race my car into a busy intersection, but ended up launching my car over it instead, but also flipping it mid way so I was over the intersection upside down screaming “fuck yeah” out the window before turning right side up and crashing into a building
but in my dream, my car was so sturdy it protected me, so I just had a concussion some scratches and bruises
and a bunch of teenagers decided I was a worthy cause and all came to visit me
and then it was kinda over and a giant storm came and mom was passed out on the couch so I sat and watched this amazing storm outside
when it was over we went to target to buy candy
lmao
Ghoulie: WTF, so, you had an action film for a suicide attempt
Sady: ooh and at the store there were all these candy bar flavored pop tart bites….they were new and I was mad that they didn’t have a grab bag with all the flavors
especially since I didn’t want a whole bag of milky way pop tarts
lmao
Ghoulie: I like you, but you’re crazy (said with a gif)
Sady: note to self, do not use car in suicide attempt, cuz if it fails, you only killed your car
Ghoulie: No suicide attempts, okay?
Sady: we’ll see
Ghoulie: your body is already like evil hands rubbing together “Teeheehee we got this”
Sady: RIGHT???
Ghoulie: it’s like surprise suicide, you just can’t plan it
Sady: pretty much…lol

….then we trailed off to discuss our new Linden Labs stilt homes and other things

Again, I repeat, I’m fine now. I was just talking to one of my closest friends. She gets me on a level that most don’t and she knows when to take me seriously, when to worry, etc. She’s not worried and you shouldn’t be either. This is not a cry for help, but just a glimpse into my BPD brain. As my friend, Tracy Redangel, once said, “Depression lies.” I know this and I would not act on a suicidal impulse. Trust that I know myself far better than most and I will be discussing my thoughts with my new therapist tomorrow morning. Meanwhile, I have too much work to do and too many people counting on me to just up and dip out! I PROMISE.

a glimpse into my BPD brain

hair: [monso] Mabel Hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

[ rD ] – Rayna Cuff & Earrings @ TLC
Rainbow Sundae Callie Bracelet @ TLC
MY BAGS by Mila Blauvelt My Naughty RED
hive // cold brew coffee to go .
Apl.Blossom Genesis @ TLC

pose: an lar [poses] The Sandra Series @ TLC

TROPIX // Time Music BackDrop 01 @ Access

Posted in Animals, Apple Fall, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, fri.day, Home Decor, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

It’s not THAT many cats, Jason

I was hanging out with my amazing friends, Maria & Jason, when I got my hands on these gorgeous new sphynx cats from Rezz Room. I was squealing with delight, because…well…CATS! Jason started laughing and then predicted that I would be doing a post with a lot of cats. Started calling me the cat lady. So, in order to prove him wrong, I limited myself to only three. See? I have some self control, Jason! *laughs*

I am so very blessed to have these two amazing people in my life. So, I want to make sure they know how much I appreciate them both. ♥

It’s not THAT many cats, Jason

hair: Tableau Vivant // Vale hair @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

(Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88
Seniha. Jackie Set @ Access
Seniha. Jackie Sweater
Seniha. Jackie Top
Seniha. Jackie Pants

friday – Esme Sneakers @ C88

[Rezz Room] Box Sphynx Cat Animesh @ Man Cave

pose: GP Smoke 13

MINIMAL – Natural Nude Backdrop III Curtains @ Kustom9

Concept} 07.Bring. Sofa Adult. RARE @ Kustom9

Pitaya – Cushion Collection Part I WHITE @ TLC
Pitaya – Cushion Collection Part I MUSTARD @ TLC
Pitaya – Cushion Collection Part I GREEN @ TLC

Ariskea [Belle] Forever Roses [Peach] @ TLC

Soul2Soul. Moritz Bronze Sculpture @ TLC
Soul2Soul. Moritz Books @ TLC
Soul2Soul. Moritz Coffee Table -Fatpack @ TLC
Soul2Soul. Moritz Bronze Wall Art (Bonus) @ TLC

Apple Fall Chamise Occasional Table – Aged Oak
Apple Fall Pampas Grass
Apple Fall Bohemian Coffee Press (Group Gift)
Apple Fall Latte Decor (Group Gift)

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative

Makin’ bad decisions

I am so impulsive to a fault
I want the opposite of what I got
The second I get bored, I switch it up
Makin’ bad decisions, based on temporary thoughts
I know they say there’s greener grass
For me it’s never about that
The second I get bored, I switch it up
Makin’ bad decisions, based on temporary thoughts
My favorite hobby, self-sabotage
Can’t never seem to make my mind up
Change my opinion more than my socks
Let me tell you about the time I took my friend out the friend zone
‘Cause I felt so sad, sleepin’ alone
Then I put him right back, just like that
‘Cause I missed bein’ by myself

Makin' bad decisions

hair: Stealthic – Searching @ Access
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian *NEW*

Orsini Jewelry CAMILLE Set Jewely @ Access
(Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88
Cynful Amour Babydoll @ Equal10

pose: :LW: Bento Poses – Breakfast in Bed, mirror

KraftWork French Wall Panels @ The Liaison Collaborative
KraftWork Canopy Linen Bed
KraftWork Breakfast in Bed . Rustic
KraftWork Montmartre Dining Set . Candle Short

Atelier Burgundy + KraftWork Tate Set . Wide Square Rug

Fancy Decor: Fuck Throw Pillow

MudHoney Liza Adult Toy Box

[Rezz Room] Bengal Cat Sleep

floorplan hanging candle v1 / silver

dust bunny . potted rubber tree

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, fri.day, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka

There must be somethin’ wrong with me

All day starin’ at the ceilin’ makin’
Friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices tellin’ me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for somethin’
Hold on, feelin’ like I’m headed for a breakdown
And I don’t know why
But I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know, right now you can’t tell
But stay a while and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired
I know, right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me
And how I used to be, me
I’m talkin’ to myself in public, dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they’ve all been talkin’ about me
I can hear them whisper, and it makes me think
There must be somethin’ wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinkin’,
somehow I’ve lost my mind

There must be somethin' wrong with me

hair: Stealthic – Searching @ Access
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Zora @ C88

earrings: #MG – Kaleidoscope – #03
(Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88
Seniha. Loana Set @ Equal10
friday – Esme Sneakers @ C88

pose: Diversion – Wine O’Clock Poses

backdrop: .PALETO.Backdrop:.wild night @ Equal10

No59 F-class Coffee machine @ Equal10

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, shopping

I know how to scream out the words

I’ll take it nice and slow
Feeling good on my own without you, yeah
Got me speaking in tongues
The beautiful, it comes without you, yeah
I’m gonna put my body first
And love me so hard ’til it hurts
I know how to scream out the words
Scream the words
I love me!
Gonna love myself, no, I don’t need anybody else

I know how to scream out the words

hair: Tableau Vivant // Jinny hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Zora @ C88

MG – Earrings – Celeste’s Sparkly Heart @ C88
MG – Necklace – Barcelona Boho
(Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88
Seniha. Patrice @ Orly

pose: Lyrium. Mell Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Access

backdrop: K&S – // Secret Garden. Backdrop @ Access

Serenity Style– Elisabeth spring bicycle @ Equal10

Posted in Collabor88, DOUX, Events, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

The Laundromat

Years ago, many many years ago, back in my very young, wild and single days, I used to love going to the laundromat with my roommate. We’d make a day of it and we always had so much fun. We were a wild pair. We’d drag all our laundry down the local laundromat, grab a couple of Diet Pepsis and get to work. The best part was waiting on the clothes to dry. We’d sit on the counter and chat. Sometimes we’d even have a bit of a picnic. There was a sandwich shop right around the corner, so if it was one those big laundry days, we’d grab some lunch for our countertop picnic.

It’s funny how you can have such fond memories of something that just felt like a necessity at the time. It certainly feels like a lifetime ago. Well, it might be someone’s lifetime ago, considering I was around 21 at the time. *laughs* Now, I can’t even remember the last time I went to a laundromat. My anxiety keeps me in the house as much as possible and lucky for me, I have a washer & dryer in my kitchen!

The Laundromat

hair: DOUX – Peach hairstyle @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: [theSkinnery] Monica (LeLutkaEVO)

(Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88
Lunar – Fany @ Equal10
Lunar – Fany Hoodie
Lunar – Fany Top
Lunar – Fany Shorts
Lunar – Fany Fanny Pack
Lunar – Fany Shoes

pose: Lyrium. Kess Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Pose Event

backdrop: MINIMAL – February Group Gift 2020

+Half-Deer+ Neatly Folded Blankets – Pink Floral
+Half-Deer+ Lingerie Clutter – Red – Hanging (Panties)

:FANATIK HOME: Real Folded Sweater Blue
:FANATIK HOME: Real Folded Pants White

MH Laundry Slip Ledge
MH Laundry Bra Ledge
MH Laundry Panties Ledge
MH Laundry White Shirt Floor

KOPFKINO – Washing Day – Detergent – Common

BackBone Laundry Basket – Blanket – Black

BALACLAVA!! Laundry Cart (Clean)

Posted in Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, [BREATHE]

Blogging works!

I am walking proof that blogging works. Just yesterday, I acquired some cute new purses, because I saw one of them on a blog post. I also discovered a new pose store. I mean, I dunno how new they are to the grid, but they’re new to me and that’s always exciting to me as a photographer. These pants I’m wearing were an item I saw at an event, but after I saw them in a blog post, I decided I had to have them. I have loved the backdrops from Paleto for a while, but after seeing one I didn’t have in a blog post…I went to their store. There I discovered that they had five backdrops on sale, all for less than L$100! I had to scoop them up! I can only hope that my blog inspires people to buy a few things from time to time as well.

Blogging works!

hair: Wasabi // Asia Hair
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: [theSkinnery] Monica (LeLutkaEVO)

MG – Earrings – Celeste’s Sparkly Heart @ C88
(Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88
-Pixicat- Nadia Sweater @ FaMESHed
-Pixicat- Oakley Tights
[BREATHE]-Mioto_Wedges @ FaMESHed

pose: Gravity Poses – Smoke 2

backdrop: .PALETO.Backdrop:. CITY -X23

.UNTITLED. cardboard 001

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Legacy, Lelutka, [BREATHE]

Fantastic Finds

Shopping in SL is clearly much different from shopping in RL, but I do my best to mix and match pieces from various brands to create a look that isn’t quite so cookie cutter. While there’s absolutely nothing wrong with creating a look based on an entire outfit presented by the designer. Sometimes I really like going through different pieces much like I do in RL. Luckily, I can do this in SL without making quite the same mess. *laughs* You should’ve seen my bedroom back in the day. I mean, you wouldn’t see the floor. I was quite messy, but I knew where the clean clothes were vs the dirty clothes!

N-E-WAY! I fell in love with this new suede and lace skirt from Gaia, but I wasn’t ready for the adorable camisole top that matched it. Of course, I got it. I’m saving that for another look, ok? Lucky for me, Breathe just released these amazing suede boots that really helped me achieve a warm cozy outfit with the perfect pinch of pink!

For the scene, I did something I thought was cute. I took these posters I had from ionic and added my own textures. Well, technically they belong to Lucky Conundrum, as he created them for Burrow Company. I just thought it would be neat if the posters actually advertised something inworld. So, a shoutout and a big thank you to Lucky for allowing me to use his posters for my scene. ♥

Fantastic Finds

hair: [monso] Mabel Hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: [theSkinnery] Monica (LeLutkaEVO)

MG – Earrings – Celeste’s Sparkly Heart @ C88
(Yummy) Poppet Ring Collection @ C88
[Z O O M] Secret Heart Handbag
Just BECAUSE Trixie Sweater
Gaia – kaja skirt @ C88
[BREATHE]-Ririse Heels @ C88

pose: FOXCITY. Stairs (Standing) Bento Pose Set

backdrop: .PALETO. Backdrop:. P25

Compulsion Plant 13

(Milk Motion) wet floor sign

+Half-Deer+ Spilled Liquid

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka

Feeding my inner fashion junkie

Brand new goods! That’s right, Stealthic has released a brand new hair at Anthem, clearly inspired by Anya Taylor-Joy‘s character, Beth Harmon, from the recent hit The Queen’s Gambit. I loved the story and highly recommend it to anyone looking for something to binge on Netflix. Naturally, Hunter does not disappoint with a fun new short hairstyle. I am already obsessed with Gambit.

Ahh, but Hunter isn’t the only one feeding my inner fashion junkie. Cynful has designed the Mile High Jumpsuit for the upcoming round of Collabor88 and it is fabulous! Now, anyone that reads me regularly knows that my favorite color for fashion is FATPACK! Plus, I’m a very lucky blogger that’s been on the Cynful team since….*thinks for a minute*…2016! Now, I just won’t say much if I don’t have good things to say, but this jumpsuit? OMG, I’m not going to want to stop talking about it nor will I want to take it off anytime soon. This is truly one of the sexiest things I’ve seen in the grid in quite a while. It’s not super revealing, but there are no curves hidden in this sexy number. The hud comes with an option for flat or high feet, too.
It is a bit tricky finding the right shoes to fit under the perfectly flared, unzipped cut, but I am sure you all can find something. I’ve paired a sleek minimal pair of N-Core’s Elvira Heels with mine. I went with a taupe natural color, cuz let’s face it….in this outfit no one is looking at your shoes. Yet, you don’t want something sticking through the back of the shoe either, so chunky pumps are out!

I’ll put it this way. A male friend of mine sent a message to Cynthia of Cynful to thank her for this sexy jumpsuit on behalf of men across the grid. So, if nothing else, you’ll want to hit up Collabor88 for this jumpsuit ASAP.

Feeding my inner fashion junkie

hair: Stealthic – Gambit @ Anthem
head: LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: #3 — PUMEC – NADYA – JANUARY — LELUTKA x BOM @ Epiphany
tattoo: Lilithe’// Scylla Tattoo

RichB. Skully Arm Band
RichB. Halo Cuffs
Cynful Mile High Jumpsuit @ C88
N-core ELVIRA heels

pose: FOXCITY. Baby Bento Pose Set

.PALETO. Backdrop:. Oakland City