I’m so fucking happy all time Also, I’m really good at telling lies My friends they always call me for advice But they don’t know I’ve been crying For the past seven nights This happens every single time I’m drinking Like I can finally hear the thoughts I’m thinking And it’s oh so clear Make a bee line to the bathroom and I look into the mirror saying Fake bitch, fake bitch Running from her problems But she makes it look so good when she ignores them And she puts them on a shelf And she whispers to herself It’s okay, bitch Don’t ever change, bitch La la la la la
Magika – Amy LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5 [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
I’m a nightmare, I know what you mean by that I can’t wake up from all these scary dreams I have I don’t really care, and I never will That’s the way I am, such a bitter pill I don’t really care, how much silence kills That’s the way I am No, I wasn’t born without a heart I wasn’t always like this, no Watched you break me, no Now you blame me No, I wasn’t born with all these scars And that’s what made me like this, no Can you blame me, no? (No, oh, oh) I wasn’t born like this Hurt people, hurt people I’d rather be heartless (Heartless) Than have my heart in pieces
I take as much as I can get I don’t take any regret I close my eyes to conjure up something But it’s just a faint taste in my mouth I think I’m coming down I think I’m coming down By tomorrow I’ll be leaving By tomorrow I’ll gone If you want to tell me something You had better make it strong
I do my makeup in somebody else’s car We order different drinks at the same bars I know about what you did and I wanna scream the truth She thinks you love the beach, you’re such a damn liar Those great whites, they have big teeth Hope they bite you Thought you said that you would always be in love But you’re not in love no more Did it frighten you How we kissed when we danced on the light up floor? On the light up floorBut I hear sounds in my mind Brand new sounds in my mind But honey I’ll be seein’ you ‘ever I go But honey I’ll be seein’ you down every road I’m waiting for it, that green light, I want it ‘Cause honey I’ll come get my things, but I can’t let go I’m waiting for it, that green light, I want it Oh, I wish I could get my things and just let go I’m waiting for it, that green light, I want it
Have you ever just wanted to get in you car and drive with no destination in mind? I have and I’ve done it more than once. Of course, the problem with that is….eventually you have to stop for gas and by that time, you’re God knows where. Fortunately, there’s GPS on most phones these days. If you’re lucky you’ve got cell service wherever you’ve landed and can find your way home. Most of us have responsibilities and loved ones that simply don’t allow us to do such a thing without hurting someone. Annnd, let’s be fair, the whole idea loses it’s appeal if you have to call and explain to someone that you’re trying to run away, but not forever…you’ll be back…eventually… Yeah, that goes over like a ton of bricks. Trust me, I tried that way. You have to explain to someone why you feel the need to do this and by the time you’re done explaining it. Yeah, the whole idea is just ruined. Don’t even get me started on the fact that when this idea strikes, you’re never prepared and packing a bag takes so much away from the spontaneity. I guess as we grow older and…*grumbles*…more mature. Ugh. We tend to realize what a mess can be made from a random road trip to nowhere. When I was younger and didn’t depend quite so much on medications, this was something I’d do. There were no cell phones (yes, I’m that old, fuck off) and by the time you stopped to get gas, you could justify not calling on the lack of working payphones.
hair: DOUX – Sixty Nine hairstyle @ Level head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Emilia @ UBER
AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed (Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88
It’s a celebration Get ready for the holi-holi-holidays Yeah, it’s a celebration So baby, don’t you stop You got that look in your eyes (eyes, eyes) Call me for help, we can vibe (vibe, vibe) Let’s have the time of our lives You can feel it, you can feel it Even if you dance alone You deserve a cheers ‘Cause you been workin’ way too long No more wishin’, baby, listenIt’s a celebration Get ready for the holi-holi-holidays Yeah, it’s a celebration So baby, don’t you stop
hair: TRUTH Brazen head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88 Astara – Kawaii Toasts Earrings
Well, this year isn’t over yet and its just gonna keep dumping on some of us right until the bitter end. I just want to crawl into a hole and hide sometimes. Not just from this year, but from the world in general. There’s just so much happening around me and its a bit overwhelming. The diabetes thing is sooooo hard this late in life. I’m a creature of habit. Granted most of my habits are not good ones. Don’t you judge me! *winks* I guess for once in my life I am making resolutions, but not because I really want to. I have to! Time to work on that vision board, I reckon. *laughs* Y’all forget that I really am a Southern girl at heart. I’m doing my best to not get too stressed over all of this. Lots and lots of people live with diabetes and I will, too! I can do this. I will do this!
hair: Stealthic – Always head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
The moment I saw this sweater, I had to message Annie, “I’m just going to pretend this sweater is named after me!” Annie quickly assured me that it was indeed named after me. I’m honored to have such a beautiful piece named after me. I love how the lines kinda shift around the boobs, like its stretching. It is perfect….the shading, the wrinkles….how the sleeves come down over the wrists as if I’ve been pulling at them and no pokes on the shoulders from being on a hanger in my closet instead of folded on a shelf. *laughs* Seriously, this is one of the most realistic sweaters I’ve seen in SL, like this sweater has been worn….I pushed up the sleeves to do dishes, then I tugged them down over my hands when I took the dog out. For me, this sweater tells a story, To top off the sweater, Katya named a pose set after me! It’s a perfect set of poses for blogging, too. So, I’ll be using them all eventually. For now, I’m just using one of them to pose pretty in front of this scene composed mostly from two of THOR’s lastest gacha sets. I’m not going to pretend that I’m not excited over having such awesome creations named after me. It’s an honor anytime a designer names something after you and I am genuinely chuffed. (Can’t tell I have British friends, can you?)
hair: DOUX – Sixty Nine hairstyle @ Level head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
We are told over and over again as adults to not settle. As a result we create these lists of things we want from our jobs, our lovers, our homes, our children, and so on. We stay so steadfast on the track of not settling that we rarely open our eyes to possibilities along the way, because sometimes our list, our visual picture of what we want is so specific that we develop tunnel vision. It’s easy to forget that what we wanted when we made that list may have changed over time. Just think how many times you got what you thought you wanted and it was a major disappointment. Sometimes the things we want aren’t actually good for us and what we really need is sitting right in front of us the entire time. I just think it’s important that we don’t lock ourselves down to ideas we created long ago that really might not even work with our current lives. Just something to think about as we approach a new year.
hair: DOUX – Sixty Nine hairstyle @ Level head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM @ Kustom9
Ok, I’ve stuffed myself with food the way you stuff a plushie at Build-a-Bear! Now, I’m ready for Christmas. No, I don’t mean the dinner, I mean the decorations. I think the delicious food makes me so complacent that I can embrace my belly and laugh right along with jolly ol’ Santa!!! In fact, I might just waddle around behind him and embrace feeling small in his shadow. *laughs* Seriously though, its always been a tradition at my house to decorate for Christmas the day after Thanksgiving. I’ve never been one to decorate every room in the house. I keep the decor in the living room and dining room, maybe a little ceramic tree in the guest bathroom provided there’s room. Once upon a time, I did the whole yard and lights on the building, but I’m too old and lazy to be climbing on ladders nowadays. Okay, mostly scared and lazy, ok? I’m not the most graceful person on the planet.
