I’m a nightmare, I know what you mean by that I can’t wake up from all these scary dreams I have I don’t really care, and I never will That’s the way I am, such a bitter pill I don’t really care, how much silence kills That’s the way I am No, I wasn’t born without a heart I wasn’t always like this, no Watched you break me, no Now you blame me No, I wasn’t born with all these scars And that’s what made me like this, no Can you blame me, no? (No, oh, oh) I wasn’t born like this Hurt people, hurt people I’d rather be heartless (Heartless) Than have my heart in pieces
Through these city nightmares you’d walk with me And we’d talk of it with idealistic assurance That it wouldn’t tear us apart We’d keep our heads above the blackened water But there’s no room for ideals in this mechanical place And you’re gone now Through a grimy window that I can’t keep clean Through billowing smoke that’s swallowed the sun You’re nowhere to be seen Do you think our desires still burn I guess it was desires that tore us apart There has to be passion A passion for living, surviving And that means detachment Every-body has a weapon to fight you with To beat you with when you are down There were too many defence between us Doubting all the time Fearinf all the time Doubting all the time Fearinf all the time That like these urban nightmares We’d blacken each other skies
Every time I close my eyes, it’s like a dark paradise No one compares to you I’m scared that you won’t be waiting on the other side Every time I close my eyes, it’s like a dark paradise No one compares to you I’m scared that you won’t be waiting on the other side All my friends ask me why I stay strong Tell ’em when you find true love, it lives on Ahh That’s why I stay here And there’s no remedy for memory, your face is like a melody It won’t leave my head Your soul is haunting me and telling me that everything is fine But I wish I was dead
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Too bad some people like to sleep Talking the American dream I woke up late at night to see Nightmares on every city street Somethings that made me wanna scream Can’t wake you, make you wanna see Silence is violence and defeat But you just stay quiet in the sheets, quiet in the sheets Traps songs in the frat house Trump sign in the window How can we be free in the future if the kids don’t Conquer the addiction Start to make revisions? Maybe most of all We should learn to fucking listen
I have yet to understand why so many people want to tear each other down. Life is not a competition, no one gets out alive and nothing we acquire in this life is going with us when we leave. So, why would anyone make it their mission to seek and destroy others? What is there to gain in doing that? I mean, I know misery loves company, but why would anyone want to embrace that misery by sharing it with others or causing it? There’s nothing good to gain from that…absolutely nothing. The only thing I can imagine that allows people to behave like this is that they lack that part of the human psyche that most of us possess…that part that seeks happiness for ourselves, as well as other people. When someone lacks that empathy and compassion, they are left with a giant hole. That hole is what religious people like to call evil, but I don’t believe in evil. I believe that people are innately good….unless they are missing that inner light. They are lacking goodness. They might fake it….cuz that’s what sociopaths often do, but deep down…they just don’t have it in them be truly good. I cannot truly imagine what that must be like, but it sounds absolutely horrible. Sadly, its the only thing that makes sense to me as to why people truly want to tear one another down. I would much rather see us all root for each other and watch each other grow.
You never really know where tidbits of inspiration will come from….or wisdom, for that matter. Year ago, I was complaining about days and days of rain. My friend smiled and said, “Rain makes things grow.” I have never forgotten those words or that moment. This morning, I was watching a sitcom and this lady was freaking out because she was worried about this and worried about that. She was taking an inventory of all the things she had lost over the years. Of course, someone told her to look at everything she has to be grateful for. Someone else came along and told her, “Be happy that you have a lot to lose.” This got to me, cuz I took a look around at all that I have and easily it could be lost. I decided to give my gratitude list a make over to include all the things I’d hate to lose and be happy that I have so very much to lose. I think it would do a lot of people some good to look at things this way. So, instead of focusing on the shit that’s gone wrong or the things you’ve already lost…let’s be happy that you have more to lose and work on being grateful for what we still have. ♥
I’ve tasted blood and it is sweet I’ve had the rug pulled beneath my feet I’ve trusted lies and trusted men Broke down and put myself back together again Stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters Collected the pieces and picked out a dagger I’ve pinched my skin in between my two fingers And wished I could cut some parts off with some scissors” Come on, little lady, give us a smile” No, I ain’t got nothin’ to smile about I got no one to smile for, I waited a while for A moment to say I don’t owe you a goddamn thing I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind They talk shit, but I love it every time And I realize I’m no sweet dream, but I’m a hell of a night That I’m no sweet dream, but I’m a hell of a night No, I won’t smile, but I’ll show you my teeth And I’ma let you speak if you just let me breathe I’ve been polite, but won’t be caught dead Lettin’ a man tell me what I should do in my bed Keep my exes in check in my basement ‘Cause kindness is weakness, or worse, you’re complacent I could play nice or I could be a bully I’m tired and angry, but somebody should be
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I take as much as I can get I don’t take any regret I close my eyes to conjure up something But it’s just a faint taste in my mouth I think I’m coming down I think I’m coming down By tomorrow I’ll be leaving By tomorrow I’ll gone If you want to tell me something You had better make it strong
Let me put the water in the bowl For your wounds, babe Let me fill you up with the fingers of love You can’t lose babe When you watch me play, does it feel bad, darlin’ When they choose me? Say again, this place Say again, this place
I broke my neck Dancing to the edge of the world, babe My mouth is wet, don’t you forget it Don’t you lose me Here is your princess And here is the horizon Here is your princess And here is the horizon
I’ve gotta scratch it down, I never could amount That’s it, babe And now the sugar’s run out And I don’t know what to say
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I do my makeup in somebody else’s car We order different drinks at the same bars I know about what you did and I wanna scream the truth She thinks you love the beach, you’re such a damn liar Those great whites, they have big teeth Hope they bite you Thought you said that you would always be in love But you’re not in love no more Did it frighten you How we kissed when we danced on the light up floor? On the light up floorBut I hear sounds in my mind Brand new sounds in my mind But honey I’ll be seein’ you ‘ever I go But honey I’ll be seein’ you down every road I’m waiting for it, that green light, I want it ‘Cause honey I’ll come get my things, but I can’t let go I’m waiting for it, that green light, I want it Oh, I wish I could get my things and just let go I’m waiting for it, that green light, I want it
