Welp. Everyone around me seems to be changing. Some for the better, some for worse. As we wrap up another year, I’ve decided that in order to obtain the things I do want in my life (what’s left of it) that I need to make room, but letting go of the things that are not working out. I’m good at letting things go…including people. I was an Army brat and we moved constantly when I was a kid. So, walking away and not looking back for anything more than a reminiscent glance is simple enough. I’ll admit that the longer something or someone has been a part of my life, the harder it is to let go, but in time…I’ll be fine…no matter who, what, where, or why. I’ve survived way too much crap in this life to be held back by people that aren’t worth my time. And things? Well, they are just things, aren’t they?
As the end of this year inches closer and closer, I’m taking a good hard look at what I’ve been doing with my life as of late. It’s time to clean house…both worlds. I’m making changes and these changes are for ME…no one else. I’ve spent the last few years bending over backwards and tip toeing around broken glass to avoid hurting people I love, but have they done the same in return? In most cases, I’m afraid not. Don’t worry about Sady, she’ll be fine. Yes, I will be fine, but I won’t be around as a doormat, punching bag, fall back plan, dirty secret, or second choice anymore.
It took me way too long to get here and I’m not turning back now. I appreciate the roles everyone have played in my life over time and I am so grateful for the lessons, but I’m done. I’m putting my proverbial foot down. I’m establishing boundaries and for those that can’t respect them…welp. RIP. Its time for me to filter out some of the toxic people, behaviors, habits, excuses, etc. So, here’s looking at you 2019, cuz 2020 will be better or I will die trying. It is just that simple.
pose: T E M P L A R #5 @ SOS
location: Snow falls