To love

You promised the world and I fell for it
I put you first and you adored it
Set fires to my forest
And you let it burn…..

…..And now the chapter is closed and done
To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
And now it’s goodbye, it’s goodbye for us
~ Selena Gomez – Lose You to Love Me

Normally, I don’t write anything in addition to song lyrics, but occasionally a song comes along that hits you so hard in the feels. I didn’t copy the full lyrics, because this is one of those songs that you can clearly understand every word when listening to it.  Most of my friends know how much I adore Selena Gomez, but I’ve never had any special connection to her music. But this song…wow. It just shows how we so often lose ourselves in a relationship…without even realizing it.
With every word, I feel like she crawled into my head…my heart…my soul and captured the very spirit of what I’ve been feeling these last few months regarding the end of my marriage in real life. I can honestly say that I’ve never grieved a relationship the way I’ve grieved this one and I hope I never do again. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever dealt with and if you know me, or read my blog regularly…well, you know it just doesn’t seem like the type of thing that would destroy me. I didn’t think so either.
I’m coming out of the other side now…and I am finally finding myself again…after all these years. I’m not playing victim or pointing fingers. I’m dealing with my life the best way I can right now. That’s more than I can say I was doing a year ago. I am finally able to love me again.

Goodbye, Paul.

bondi cynful GoK

 

hair: Tableau vivant // Holly hair @ Tannenbaum
head: Genus Head – Baby Face
SU!– Face Piercing Set 01
skin:  — PUMEC KATE – #10   @ Kustom9
lipstick: alaskametro<3 “Holly” lipstick @ Uber
Tattoo “Kali Durga”_by GoK

BONDI . Toy Soldier Cap @ Tannenbaum
[CX] Painful Silence
Cynful Fuzzy Cardigan (recently updated to fit Legacy)
[Cynful] Stripper Body Dust
Cynful Pixie Dust
NANIKA – Claudia Garter Black Maitreya

Exposeur – Padded Room (Clean)
***includes poses***

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