Posted in CandyDoll, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Maitreya, Second Life

This Is It

Parallel love
Innocently vacant
On the edge of breaking
Shouldn’t keep me waiting
Yesterday’s drugs
should never be taken
I fell into rotation
Surrender mistaken
This is it
This is it, love

candydoll truth focus

head: GENUS Project – Baby Face
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Kleo @ Access

TRUTH Vanish
_CandyDoll_ Carina Outfit @ FaMESHed
_CandyDoll_ Carina Heels @ FaMESHed

[ Focus Poses ] 50’s Tbird

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Maitreya, Second Life

Quit Trying

Quit trying to love me
I done told you I’m not the one
Baby please quit trying to love me
You should know you were just some fun
Can’t unlock my heart don’t you even start to try to get in my headIt’s dark and it’s black
I can never get back
To the way I used to love
My heart just ain’t right
But I try with my mind
But I I just can’t be lovedBaby please let’s make this easy
Ain’t too hard to forget about me
And after I’m gone
It’ll be just that easy
To get yourself someone
A little better than me

summer hater

head: GENUS Project – Baby Face
SU!– Piercing Set 01
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Kleo @ Access
Tattoo “Kali Durga”_by GoK

Foxy – Zephyr Hair @ Collabor88
[CX] Summer Hater
KUNGLERS – Inga necklace @ Belle
Lunar – Mimi Crochet Top @ Equal10
Lunar – Mimi Shorts @ Equal10

FOXCITY. On Point Bento Pose Set
[BH9] – Cyber City 2077 @ Anthem

Posted in Chic Moda, Collabor88, Events, Exploration, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Glam Affair, Second Life

My Shirt

I’ve been after Sassy to make me a shirt like this for ages. She finally did it! My very own short tee complete with under boob! She went all out, too. There are seven textures to choose from, three of them are patterns,  and six graphics, including plain. Your graphic choices are kitten (as seen below), Fierce, #blessed, babygirl, virgin, and overdressed. You can grab this awesome shirt over at Belle. I personally recommend the fatpack, I mean, with all these choices how can you possibly resist?

kitten
They called her kitten, though she was as fierce as a leopard.

head: GENUS Project – Baby Face
SU!– Piercing Set 01
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Kleo @ Access
Tattoo “Kali Durga”_by GoK

hair: DOUX – Boyfriend @ Collabor88
[CX] Summer Hater (Group Gift)
amias – NADIA gloves RARE
ChicModa // Sadystika Crop Top @ Belle
Addams // Elizabeth Panties // Black // M // RARE
: CULT : Utilise Garter
=Zenith=Garters socks

GingerFish Poses – Ultraviolence @ Flourish
location: Drune IV:: Aftermath.

Posted in Bueno, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Gos, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

A Cryptic Message

“There might have been a time
I would give myself away
(Ooh) Once upon a time
I didn’t give a damn
But now here we are
So what do you want from me
What do you want from me
Just don’t give up
I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in
I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, what do you want from me
What do you want from me
Yeah, it’s plain to see
that baby you’re beautiful
And there’s nothing wrong with you
It’s me ‘ I’m a freak
but thanks for lovin’ me
‘Cause you’re doing it perfectly
There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn’t even try but I think
you could save my life”

bueno lybra gos

head: GENUS Project – Baby Face
SU!– Piercing Set 01
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Abby @ Belle

DOUX – Artemis hairstyle
BUENO-Cosmos Choker @ Collabor88
LYBRA . NALA SET @ FaMESHed
[Gos] Emelie Sandals @ Uber

FOXCITY. Observe Bento Pose Set

Posted in Collabor88, Dahlia, Death Row Designs, Second Life

You’ve Changed

My friend, Sassy Nitely, posted this as a status on Facebook:

I think it’s funny when people say “you’ve changed”. Isn’t that the point, though? To grow and evolve? We’re not meant to stay the same. Sure, we can stay the same at the core – but our opinions, the stuff we will/won’t put up with, relationships, etc. They all change as we age. When someone says “you’ve changed” just thank them for noticing. There’s nothing wrong with evolving. 

This really made me think and I was grateful that it did. She’s absolutely right. I’ve always hated when people say that people don’t change, because we do. We all do. You can often mark those changes with the various milestones in your life. Everything that happens to us changes us just a little bit. How could you not? I definitely think this is a topic I will be revisiting in the future.

my mudhoney bedroom

Ariskea[Blush] Chair Pillow [Sweety Bloom]

Dahlia – Ariana – Jewelry Display – Pink
Dahlia – Ariana – Mirror – Silver
Dahlia – Lazy Days – Vintage Clock – Silver 04.

DRD – Rustic Bathroom – Sink

Foxwood – Hanging Plants – Small
Foxwood – Hanging Plants – Large

MudHoney Elara Bed @ Collabor88
-MH Elara Mirror
-MH Elara Dresser
-MH Elara Nightstand
-MH Elara Bed Adult
-MH Elara Bed Drapes

MudHoney Liza Heels – Nude
MudHoney Liza Heels – Black
MudHoney Liza Adult Toy Box
MudHoney Liza Bra
MudHoney Liza Panties
MudHoney Liza Painting   **retextured by me**
MudHoney Paxton Succulents
MudHoney Briley Chair – White
MudHoney Heidi Journals
MudHoney Heidi Laptop
MudHoney Jackie Rug

NOMAD // Allergy Medicine

Quasi – Opened Jewelry Box

Serenity Style– Glasbury Wall Lamp

tres blah– Hodgepodge – Tossed Clothes
-tres blah- Workspace – Print and Books
-tres blah- Jolie – Lotions
-tres blah- Jolie – Golden Hand

{what next} Isabelle Cosmetics Decor
{what next} House Plant – Rubber Tree (stand)

Butter Woman Bust White Wood

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Second Life

What I’m dealing with

I’m really not even sure how much I’ve talked about my fibromyalgia. I think I mentioned it a while back and about how someone suggested that I’d become one of those people that post memes about it all the time. I do my best not to whine about it. People ask how I’m doing and I usually say I’m alright. No one really wants to hear about the trials and tribulations of living with this incredibly wretched disease. A lot of people don’t really know what it is and on that note, I took the liberty of grabbing this definition from the Mayo Clinic’s website:
Fibromyalgia is a disorder characterized by widespread musculoskeletal pain accompanied by fatigue, sleep, memory and mood issues. Researchers believe that fibromyalgia amplifies painful sensations by affecting the way your brain processes pain signals. 

That’s putting in the plainest terms possible. It almost sounds like a list of possible side effects from one of those prescription med commercials. To give you a genuine look at what it feels like would almost be impossible. There are good days and bad, but the bad days are so awful that its often too painful to even get out of bed. If you’ve ever had the actual flu (not a bad cold that you called the flu), then you may have experienced a rather small percentage of  fibro like pain. It can be quite similar. Even that is not a fair comparison, because some days it feels like I’ve been in a car wreck and I’m covered in bruises. While other days it feels like every nerve ending I have is on fire.
There are days when I can’t sleep and there are days when that’s all I can do. There are days that I’m extremely motivated and days that I can only describe as mental vacation. It’s like my brain just checks out and I can’t focus to save my life. Then there are the mood swings. I could be in the best of mood and then a wave of pain washes over me out of nowhere. I can’t imagine anyone would handle that particularly well, but when your moods are already questionable it makes matters much worse. As a result of all this, I’ve become much more reclusive than I once was. I tend to isolate which can lead to loneliness, but at least I’m not at risk of lashing out at anyone for no rational reason. Meh, I’m in the middle of a bad wave of pain…spent most of the day in bed…so that’s why I chose to write about it now. I hope it wasn’t too much of a downer. I tried not to make it whiny, but there are times when I just want the world to understand what I’m dealing with here. *shrugs*

morning

head: Catwa Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Gabrielle @ Collabor88

KUNI / Fran
OSMIA – Penny.Velvet Outfit @ Belle

Diversion – Dreamer Poses @ Belle

[Con.] Catia Kitchen – WHITE

dust bunny . coffee machine . color change

[Rezz Room] Grouchy Cat Grumbling @ Equal10

Posted in Apple Fall, Chic Moda, Second Life

Welcome…

So, Miss Sassy Nitely of Chic Moda has been dabbling in home decor. She’s made a few things here and there, but this is by far my favorite so far. The Offensive Doormat comes eight ways: Adios Bitchachos, Beautiful Day, Bye, Hey Y’all – Go Away, Kindly F Off, Shit Show, Shithole, and my personal favorite Welcome MF’s.

welcome mofos

ChicModa Decor // Offensive Doormat // Welcome MF’s

Nutmeg. Garden Getaway Clutter Exclusive
Nutmeg. Lavender secret package Group Gift
Nutmeg. Not too shabby flats, Nude
Nutmeg. Grandma’s Cottage Basket w/Flowers

Apple Fall Milk Urn w/ Wild Geraniums

Posted in Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Maitreya, Narcisse, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Elevate My Spirit

I know I take a lot of photos on the water or in the water with a gorgeous sky behind me. I’ll never get tired of doing that, even if people get tired of looking at it. I love the water in both worlds. I feel so at peace whenever all the elements come together. The earth beneath my feet, the water caressing my skin, the wind blowing through my hair, and the sun warming my flesh. All of these elements combined elevate my spirit like nothing else in the world. I realize that those elements are merely pixelated in Second Life, but if I concentrate I can smell and even taste the sea air. The sounds are there if I simply turn them on. Considering where I live in the real world, this is the easiest way for me to experience this on a regular basis. I’m curious if other residents have a place like this that can be replicated in Second Life. I’m sure I’m not alone, but I wonder what sorts of places bring others the same comfort and why.

beauty on the beach

head: GENUS Project – Baby Face
SU!– Piercing Set 01
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Abby @ Belle

DOUX – Selena hairstyle @ Uber
Tattoo “Hokusai Dream(Anastasis)”_by GoK
Narcisse– Paula Beach Cover @ Belle

pose by Ana Poses

Posted in CandyDoll, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Lamb, Maitreya, Second Life

Coffee is Life

They say breakfast is the most important meal of the day. I actually know why they say this. It has to do with getting your motor running…your metabolism, actually. The longer you go without food, the slower your metabolism gets. Blah blah blah. You wanna know what’s the most important thing for me in the mornings? COFFEE! That little cup of delicious caffeine is what stands between me and prison. Don’t be surprised if you see more of these coffee drinking poses from Diversion in my posts, because coffee is life!

breakfast

head: GENUS Project – Baby Face
SU!– Piercing Set 01
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Abby @ Belle

Lamb. Miami @ Collabor88
Tattoo “Hokusai Dream(Anastasis)”_by GoK
Ascendant – Spiked Nails
_CandyDoll_ Kasey Top @ LeveL
_CandyDoll_ Kasey Pants @ LeveL

Diversion – Dreamer Poses @ Belle

Dots – Dahlia Bottle @ Belle

DISORDERLY. / Cherry Sweet / Cherry Crisp @ Belle
DISORDERLY. / Cherry Sweet / Cherry Parfait @ Belle

Nutmeg. Midsummer Brunch Bread Basket @ Belle
Nutmeg. Midsummer Brunch Cherry Box @ Belle
Nutmeg. Midsummer Brunch Eggs & Milk v2 @ Belle

dust bunny . coffee machine . color change

Posted in Apple Fall, Events, FaMESHed, Fancy Decor, Second Life

Chicken Salad

As shocking as this might be, I have another topic that has nothing to do with the photo.  Let me explain…*laughs*…so I was watching some Netflix and eating a chicken salad sandwich. This was no ordinary  chicken salad sandwich. This was a chicken salad made with poppy-seed dressing, dried cranberries, and pecans on a light flaky croissant. The lights are on, so I can clearly see the red of the cranberries, but one of them was long and made me look a little closer. Whew, that was indeed a cranberry. However, it made me wonder. Raisins and other small dried fruits always look kinda questionable when mixed in with other food…at least to me. I can’t help the way my mind thinks, OK? So, I’m looking at the contents of my sandwich and it hits me, “How do we know that every one of these dried cranberries is a cranberry? What about the poppy-seeds?” I mean,seriously, they could slip roaches into this salad and how many of us would know? Those poppy seeds could be roach eggs! For those of you that don’t eat processed foods, I commend you. You probably never question what you’re eating. I’m starting to wonder if its not time for me to reign it in a bit, myself. I mean…ew! Just ew!

peaches foxwood and more

.peaches. Skyrne Palette Set @ FaMESHed
-.peaches. Skyrne Palette Set – Chair
-.peaches. Skyrne Palette Set – Couch

.peaches. The Queen’s Peace – Incense

Mithral * Vertical Wall Pipe Hanger
Mithral * Hanging Propagation Set

220ML – Bolanos Tequila @ Kinky

ACORN Book 3 Stack -Turtle

Apple Fall Althea Rug – Antique Light

Con & Dust Bunny . Gracie Living Room – Bag Clutter
dust bunny . darling string light tapestry
dust bunny . storybook living . old backpack
dust bunny . storybook living . researcher’s journal

Elm. Aries Moon Decor (Gold)
Elm. Clarissa Curtain
Elm. Indie Summer Guitar [Wood]

13 Fancy Decor: Napkins

Foxwood – Hanging Plants – Small
Foxwood – Hallway – Wall
Foxwood – Hanging Plants – Large
Foxwood ~ Delilah ~ Spaniel Resting (animated)
Foxwood – Lilly – Puppy Basket