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What I Want

I attached a song to this post, because it has this crazy beat and uses one of my tag lines repeatedly, “I do what I want!” I really do what I want for the most part. Sure, there are limitations on what I can do because of money or whatever, but if it’s within my power, yeah, I really do what I want. I’ve finally figured out that relationships are not for me. It’s not that I don’t believe in love. I do. I just feel like I’ve had more than my share and now its time for me to let go of any fairy tale ideas I might have once had. I’m not pointing fingers at my ex-lovers, by any means. I just know that I’m a picky little bitch and I’m just done with committing myself to people romantically.
You see, I have a tendency to try and people please. A couple of years ago, I got in a relationship with an ex, just so a close friend of mine would no longer see me as a threat. However, recently it has occurred to me, that if someone finds me to be a threat to them in some way…that is THEIR problem, not mine. I’ve never stepped on the toes of my friends, not intentionally anyway. And I can assure you, the minute I knew I was even close to stepping on toes, I backed off. I’m not the kind of friend that stabs my friends in the back. Ever since my return to SL in 2014, I’ve been accused of things I’ve not done…simply because I made friends with the wrong person at the wrong time…or worse yet, they heard a rumor that was started by a small group of silly girls and assumed it was true without ever getting to know me. Now, I’m done bending over backwards trying to prove the rumors wrong. I’m not tip toeing around invisible glass to avoid upsetting anyone’s fragile ego, especially in the name of friendship. The way I see it, if you think I’m such a horrible person why bother trying to be my friend at all? Why bother pretending?
Clearly, they don’t know me at all and should probably find friends they CAN trust, even though I suspect that’s not entirely possible, since I’ve done nothing to lose said trust to begin with. Meh, I got my feelings hurt for a minute and now I’m rambling, but here’s the deal: Look closely at the menu, do the pictures EVER look the like the food you actually get served? Nah, they don’t. While you all sort out who you trust and who you don’t? I’ll be over here doing what I want and one thing I don’t want is people that call me a friend but make judgments and talk shit behind my back, rather than dealing with their own problems.


hair:  Wasabi // Hibiki Mesh Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily (*new* @ Kustom9)
EF: POP Earrings (*new* for Go by FaMESHed)
{le fil casse} Cindy Dress (*new* @ REWIND)
Eudora3D Marina Wedges&Stockings (*new* for Go by FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY. Bento Sits VOL1 set
Astralia – Vintage backgrounds (Fast Food)

2 thoughts on “What I Want

  1. Good for you and it just proves why my circle of “friends” is very very small because I will not nor should you ever think you have to defend yourself around people that are to be considered your friend ~ bravo ~ great post as I am coming to recognize ~ hugzz ♥

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