I posted a meme yesterday that read, “Do you ever have one of those days, where you just want to get drunk, go bat shit crazy and set the world on fire?” Well, yesterday was that day for me. I’m already bat shit crazy, but I drank an entire bottle of wine on an empty stomach. As I suffered through one of the longest and hardest anxiety attacks I’ve had in quite a while, I fantasized about setting the world on fire, stabbing a few people while I watched them bleed out slowly, finding the Louise to my inner Thelma and going out in a blaze of glory. Instead I fell asleep with a cigarette in my hand while watching women in prison make their life look a lot better than men’s prison.
This morning, I find myself blasting In This Moment and remembering why I love this band so much. Recognizing so much of myself in their lyrics. So, here it is…are you sick like me?
To need control of you?
Is it sick to make
You beg the way I do?
To want you crawling on your knees?
Is it sick to say
I want you biting down on me
As I tear you to pieces?
Am I beautiful?
Even at my ugliest, you always say
I’m beautiful
As you tear me to pieces
You are beautiful
Even at your ugliest, I always say
To feed the animal in you?
Is it sick to say
I tease the hunter like I do?
Is it sick of me
To watch the wicked way you thrill?
Is it sick to say
I live to break your will
As I tear you to pieces?
Am I beautiful?
Even at my ugliest, you always say
I’m beautiful
As you tear me to pieces
You are beautiful
Even at your ugliest, I always say
As I tear you to pieces?
I am beautiful
Even at my ugliest, you always say
I’m beautiful
As I tear you to pieces
Am I beautiful
Even at my ugliest, you always say
As I tear you to pieces?
You are beautiful
Even at you ugliest, I always say
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