So, I don’t write about everything I’m going through, but I do write about a fair bit. Some things are too personal…yes, even I have boundaries. *laughs* I draw my inspiration for words, photos, layouts….from a variety of places. Often it is just a violent mixture of the madness swirling about in my mind, but when my fingers meet the keys and I’m staring at this blank page…somehow I usually find a way to let something out. You see, blogging isn’t a JOB for me. Its a way of life. I’m honored that you’re interested enough to read any of it ever, but I really don’t write for YOU….I write for ME….and I am very well known for having full on arguments out loud with myself.
If all of my sponsors pulled away from me and I was suddenly dismissed from all of my blog manager jobs….none of that would stop me. Actually, my photos would probably take a seriously artistic turn around the corner. I was recently told that I need to be more professional in Second Life. Fuck that. I’m not here to be fake. This is the one place I can be completely free to be me….on every level. I don’t care for your judgement. I was told not to be friends with my bloggers. I’ve been told I’m too mean. I’m too picky. I’m too soft. I’m too nice. I try too hard. I don’t try hard enough. Here’s the thing though…I’m not here to please anyone but me. Call it selfish, fuck you….what are YOU here for? You here to help humanity? No, you’re not. You might do some good while you’re here, but lets face it…we all found our way to broken toys and those of us that actually live here? We know.
So, if you don’t like me, that’s ok…I don’t always like me either. You think I got issues? No, Baby, I got motherfucking subscriptions and my father owns the publication. *gasps* Yeah, I said it….this is MY therapy session and if you don’t like it….uhm….part of me wants to apologize, but how can I be sorry for being me. I got enough people that love me to know, I’m not that bad…but hey, s’ok…I don’t gotta make you happy. That’s your job, isn’t it? I’ll be over here taking care of mine…maybe our worlds will collide…maybe they’ll mingle and make music. For now, this is the end of this therapy session.
hair: pr!tty – Bellena (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier
[Z O O M] Clymena Glasses (*new* @ FaMESHed)
(Yummy) Bohemia Ring Set
[Cynful] Lioness 2in1 Top (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Legal Insanity – Myra flared black pants