I’ve talked about how I protect my heart by choosing the people I know will break my heart, because I know what to expect. Here’s the thing though. It almost sounds like I don’t love these people, but I do. I just have serious trust issues. I don’t even trust my own mother and I know that no one on this planet loves me more than she does. It’s better when they leave me in the end, because I know what a mess I am. I know that I’m impossible to completely love. I don’t say that for pity or for people to argue with me. I know its an automatic inclination for people to say, “Oh, Sady, that’s not true.” Here’s the thing. It IS true. None of you really know me. You only know bits and pieces. I think its not so hard for my friends to love me, because our time together is limited. Plus, I am pretty awesome, I’ll admit that. However, romantic love? I’m not so sure that’s really in the cards for me. I let myself believe it from time to time, but I know in the end they all leave….even the good ones. So, it is from experience that I protect my heart by keeping it stone cold. I’m truly happy when someone I love finds happiness, even when its not with me, as much as it hurts. Please don’t make that face of pity or sadness, I’ll be fine. This is my life and I know it well. I’m not an unhappy person. I accept my fate and I make the most of it.
hair: :::Phoenix::: Kathleen Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kinky)
[Cynful] Alvena’s Leather Strap Dress (*new* @ Fetish Fair)
pose: KlubWerK.poses – Madison set