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Stone Cold

I’ve talked about how I protect my heart by choosing the people I know will break my heart, because I know what to expect. Here’s the thing though. It almost sounds like I don’t love these people, but I do. I just have serious trust issues. I don’t even trust my own mother and I know that no one on this planet loves me more than she does. It’s better when they leave me in the end, because I know what a mess I am. I know that I’m impossible to completely love. I don’t say that for pity or for people to argue with me. I know its an automatic inclination for people to say, “Oh, Sady, that’s not true.” Here’s the thing. It IS true. None of you really know me. You only know bits and pieces. I think its not so hard for my friends to love me, because our time together is limited. Plus, I am pretty awesome, I’ll admit that. However, romantic love? I’m not so sure that’s really in the cards for me. I let myself believe it from time to time, but I know in the end they all leave….even the good ones. So, it is from experience that I protect my heart by keeping it stone cold. I’m truly happy when someone I love finds happiness, even when its not with me, as much as it hurts. Please don’t make that face of pity or sadness, I’ll be fine. This is my life and I know it well. I’m not an unhappy person. I accept my fate and I make the most of it.

stone cold
Stone cold, baby
God knows I tried to feel
Happy for you
Know that I am, even if I
Can’t understand, I’ll take the pain
Give me the truth, me and my heart
We’ll make it through
If happy is her, I’m happy for you

wearing:
hair:  :::Phoenix::: Kathleen Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kinky)
[Cynful] Alvena’s Leather Strap Dress (*new* @ Fetish Fair)

pose: KlubWerK.poses – Madison set

One thought on “Stone Cold

  1. I know how you feel. Weirdly I came to this feeling a few years ago so you are not alone in that feeling. Mine is a getting older thing where I feel I’m losing that shelf date . In fact I’ve expired it seems. I’ve never had a partner for a long time in my life other than my ex husband who is happy with someone else now. I’m happy for him but at times I wonder what if .
    I gave up on taking dating seriously and every now and then look at those apps and then despair because I attract the toothless and hapless twits. The man of my dreams doesn’t exist any more. Well Jackson be he but he is not a reality for me. So yep I know how you feel.
    But I’m going to say it anyhow. You are way younger than me and seriously don’t shut off. It will come and even if it’s 1 month , 2 years or ten years of a relationship I truly believe cherish those as well because they’re just as wonderful as the for Evers. Just a little shorter 😊
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