I’m actually not going to cop out with a song and lyrics, which is what I often feel like I’m doing. Although several people have told me that they don’t see it that way and I’m glad. Deep down, I just feel like I’m not being true to my blog when I simply link a song and share the lyrics. While this post is linked to Miley Cyrus’ Giving You Up, the video I’ve linked provides the lyrics. So, if you’re interested, they are there. Not every line fits how I’m feeling, but a good bit of it does.
I’m not going into great detail, but I don’t think its much of a secret that I’m nursing a broken heart. I had 368 days of bliss with Josh and then it ended. Just like that. There was no fight. There was no real discussion, it was just a very sudden realization that this was the end. His RL had to come first and I want nothing more than for him to be happy there, especially knowing we never stood a chance of being together in RL. He gave me his avatars, so now I have malts (male alts, for those that aren’t familiar with the term) and eventually I’ll use them for photos. I have no intentions of being a man in SL. Though it might be interesting. *eyes Tracy & grins momentarily*
The truth of the matter is that we are trying to stay friends, but its very hard and what worked to help me heal the last time I had a heartache like this will not work this time. Too many bridges have been burned and too many paths have been blocked. It’s been so long since I’ve been completely on my own in SL that I almost feel lost. Fortunately, I do have a network of amazing friends that are more than willing to try and pull me from my funk. However, the wound is still very fresh and there are times, particularly when I’m alone that it hurts like the day it ended. While I have every intention of remaining his friend…I think that until I heal, I may have distance myself from him and that hurts all the more.
hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Veronika hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ “Merrylu” Mixedtype (*new* @ Uber)
Izzie’s – CATWA Tears Applier and CATWA TEARS
BUENO-Half Hoodie -NoFksGvn (*new* @ Kustom9)
LYBRA . PJ (*new* @ TLC)
pose: Foxcity Surface set