Posted in Events, Fancy Decor, Home Decor, Second Life, shopping

My Office

office

I have this weird thing to admit. *inhales* I have this thing about office furniture, equipment, and supplies. I always have. As long as I can remember. I remember at one point as a child turning my walk-in closet into an office. I had a lamp, desk, and chair in there. I would sit in my closet for hours writing and drawing. It was a safe place away from my parents and for some reason made me feel more important.
So, it should come as no surprise that whenever I’m setting up a new home in SL, I always want an office space. Somewhere I can sit while working on blogs, scrolling through Facebook, making my avatar simulate the real me…complete with an ashtray and generally a bit of a mess. Josh and I just moved…again…and as I was setting up the house, I knew immediately that I had a new office look. Until now, I have used the same set up for the past year or two, but now thanks the Fancy Decor’s Dover set at the Arcade…I have a brand new office and I absolutely love it. I know I will be spending a lot of time in there surrounded by beautiful things and with a gorgeous view of the beach right outside the window.

office

scene:
not so bad . NEW YORK gacha . art work . edition 3
12 Fancy Decor: Dover Rug (*new* @ Arcade)
i’m busy (cat) by May’s Soul
03 Fancy Decor: Dover Desk (*new* @ Arcade)
10 Fancy Decor: Dover Desk Lamp (*new* @ Arcade)
13 Fancy Decor: Cube Sculpture (*new* @ Arcade)
01 Fancy Decor: Designer Computer RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
[Bad Unicorn x Birch] Mary Janes ‘Ashtray’
{Petite Maison} Work Pretty Royal Pencils: Turquoise
07 Fancy Decor: Document Tray (*new* @ Arcade)
tres blah– Golden Cage – Tablet
[Bad Unicorn x Birch] Mary Janes ‘Noel’s Cookies’
02 Fancy Decor: Dover Desk Chair RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
dust bunny . areca palm plant
05 Fancy Decor: Dover Shelf (*new* @ Arcade)
*HEXtraordinary* Flying Monkey Incense Burner – Silver
**Flowers in Glass**
tres blah– Eclectic Collection – Charmed Books
09 Fancy Decor: Worlidge Box (white)
14 Fancy Decor: Ramses Bookends
Fancy Decor: Modern Books (silver)
18 Fancy Decor: Pyramid Obelisk (white)
07 Fancy Decor: Brass & Statuette
.10 [ kunst ] – Magazines
06 Fancy Decor: Dover Console (*new* @ Arcade)
Second Spaces – Cluttered House – charging station
16 Fancy Decor: Decorative Orb
08 Fancy Decor: Dover Lamp (*new* @ Arcade)
11 Fancy Decor: Art Group (*new* @ Arcade)
04 Fancy Decor: Dover Shelf with Cabinet (*new* @ Arcade)
14 Fancy Decor: Books and Trinkets (*new* @ Arcade)
Fancy Decor: Geode Bookends
09 Fancy Decor: Whale Tail Book Stack (*new* @ Arcade)
.09 [ kunst ] – Books
Fancy Decor: Potted Succulent
Fancy Decor: Sphere Art Sculpture (silver)
dust bunny . potted rubber tree
dust bunny . pink medinilla plant

Posted in Apple Fall, Death Row Designs, Events, Lapointe & Bastchild, RedMint, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Mary, Mary, Quite Contrary

Mary Mary

When I was in the first grade, I wanted my name to be Mary so I changed it…without telling anyone. If I did tell them, they dismissed it as childish banter and went on about their day forgetting all about it. I had all my friends calling me Mary at school and at home, but adults didn’t seem to notice, because in my warped little mind I still answered to my birth name. Anyway, where was I….oh yeah, so six year old me changed her name to Mary, even wrote my name on my homework that way. No one said anything, so I kept on doing it thinking the deed was done. I was happy. My new name was Mary and when I grew up I would move to New York City and throw my hat into the air. (Some of you will get that.)
One day, my parents were called in for teacher-parent meeting. The teacher insisted I had not turned in any of my assignments for over two weeks. My parents defended me. They knew I had done my homework, because they watched me sit at the foot of their bed while we all watched TV every night. So, they call me in the room and ask me where my work was. Naturally, I told them I turned it in. The teacher was so confused. She pulled out a stack of papers and asked me to find my work. I went right to my page and pulled it out. As I handed it to the teacher, my parents smiled quite smugly if I remember correctly. Afterall, their child was brilliant and they were right. The teacher looked at the paper, pulled our her role book, scanned the list of names saw that the last names matched but not the first. When she showed it to my parents, they were confused. So, I had to explain to the stupid adults that I had changed my name. Imagine my surprise when they told me I couldn’t just change my name any ole time I wanted. Hmmpf.

Mary Mary

wearing:
hair: (r)M Hair, No.36’16
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
*AvaWay* Jasmine_Bracelet & Ring
L&B Swear Lisette Bralette (*new* @ Uber)
[Azuchi] Hamptons Shorts White
REIGN.- Espadrille Flats

pose by Foxcity

scene:
MINIMAL – Underground Background -1-
DRD Gardenhouse gardentools 2
07. Garbaggio // Repurposed Planter
06. Garbaggio // Plant Pot 06 RARE
Apple Fall Potting Shelf

Posted in Artisan Fantasy, Events, Fashion, Gingerfish Poses, Home Decor, Second Life, shopping, The Annex

Not So Enchanted

aziza

While this post is showcasing items from the latest round of Enchantment, my life atm is anything but enchanted. Its only Tuesday and this is a crazy week. Far too much adulting going on for me! Mom is out of town until Saturday. The husband is sick as a dog, but refuses to stay home from work and rest. I have a repair guy scheduled to come out and fix our oven on Thursday, so no baking this week. I know! No pizza!!! *cries* Oh but to top all of this off, my bathtub faucet has decided to quit on me so precious water is being wasted! So, yesterday morning after wrestling with our budget to see if we could afford it, I called the plumber. He came out last night, gave me an estimate that was better than I expected, and promised to come back today. That means I gotta put on a bra AND pants two days in a row!?!?! WTF!!! Oh and that’s just the RL stuff!
Its the end of the month, so I need to have my derriere in SL these last few days as I’m one of the Liaisons for FaMESHed. Those that have worked behind the scenes at an event know how stressful it can be during set up. I’m fortunate to work with an amazing team and Elvi, the FaMESHed Queen, is also a bit (holds her hands way far apart) OCD, so its quite organized. Aside from that, I’m making sure I met all my blogging requirements for the month, filing those reports and following up with bloggers that I manage.

Real quick I want to touch on the items in the photo, most of the stuff you see is at Enchantment, but I believe that’s shutting down on the 31st, so you’ll either want to hurry over or wait for stuff to find its way to the mainstore. However, this round was certainly one of my favorites so I had to show off some of the goodies and luckily for me, my dear friend, Tracy Redangel, just did a mainstore release of Groove Baby poses. This one just fit perfectly in my opinion. So, happy shopping, and send hair, because I’m pretty sure I’ll be bald by Saturday, if not the end of the day.

aziza

wearing:
hair: +Spellbound+ Shahrazad (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body

*AvaWay* Jasmine_Bracelet & Ring (*new* @ Enchantment)
The Annex – Noor (*new* @ Enchantment)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Groove Baby set

scene:
*AF* Aziza Collection (*new* @ Enchantment)

Posted in Bueno, Events, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Home Decor, Jian, N21, Second Life, Seven Emporium, shopping

Obstacles

obstacles

I’ve heard many times that the state of one’s bedroom is a direct reflection of their state of mind. *looks around in RL* Well, I’m screwed! My room is not so big, but I’ve managed to squeeze quite a lot of furniture and stuff in here. Its like an obstacle course. Well, that proves kinda true, doesn’t it? My mind is definitely an obstacle course. Its not my fault! There are squirrels EVERYWHERE!!! Not to mention shinies and I must have them all!!!
Screw the decor, that crystal skull looks perfectly normal next to the porcelain grasshopper! Yes, my TrueBlood DVD set does look awesome next to my Kim Addonizio books! Yes, I have cleaning products tucked into the wicker basket on the bottom shelf, ignore the dust, please.
Whether they’re obstacles in our rooms, on the road, or in our heads, we all encounter them sooner or later. Sometimes the way we maneuver them can alter our course so much that it changes our destination. The point remains, we will all face obstacles in our life, but by giving up we become our biggest obstacles yet.

A lot of people give up just before they’re about to make it. You know you never know when that next obstacle is going to be the last one. Chuck Norris

Yes I did quote Chuck Norris. *laughs*

obstacles

wearing:
hair: #Foxy – Babygirl Hair (*new* @N21)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
CATWA Catya BubbleGum
Blueberry – Tinker Tops
–Blueberry – Tinker Set – Long Sleeve Top
–Blueberry – Tinker Set – Panties
Blueberry – Tinker Set
–Blueberry – Tinker Set – Short Legwarmers
–Blueberry – Tinker Set – Sneakers

Poses by Foxcity (shocking, I know)

scene:
BUENO-Bike -Pink
!gO! SteamTeddy +Giddy+
7 – Roller Rink Boot Sign
REIGN.- DERBY SKATES BAG- #13
Anachron – Derby Doll Rollerskates – Cherry Bomb
Silence. – Heart with Arrow
JIAN Hamster Habitat
JIAN Hamster Ball Wanderer
tres blah– Eclectic Collection – Hot Lips Phone (Pink)
:CP: Herman Planter White
tres blah– Pampered – Bouquet
dust bunny . bunny alarm clock . pink
BUENO– Laptop Blessed
+Half-Deer+ Fast Food Clutter – Soda Drink (Pink)
7 – David’s Dream
Fancy Decor: Capsule Lights (rose) (*new* @ Blush)
*katat0nik* (pink / RT) Old Boot
+Half-Deer+ Carefree Bikini Clutter – ALL – Floor Bra
*katat0nik* (pink / LT) Old Boot
BUENO-Big Sur Chair
+Half-Deer+ Carefree Bikini Clutter – ALL – Offside Thong
+Half-Deer+ Favorite Sweater Clutter – ALL – Draped Over
2PM. Bunny muff / pink

Posted in Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Mina Hair, N21, Phedora, Pretty Mess, Second Life, Seven Emporium, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Night Air

There’s just something magical about night air, particularly around 9pm. The dark sky, the shadows, the temperature is dropping, and a perfect night would have a nice cool breeze. I can only assume that my fondness for this time of night has to do with my memories of working at the mall in my very reckless 20s. The mall closed at 9pm sharp and unless you worked in one of the restaurants or major department stores, you were out of there no later than 9:15pm. There’s a sense of community among mall employees. We’ve all dealt with the screaming kids, the obnoxious tweens, the confused parents, and lost elderly. We all worked in retail. It’s only 9:15pm…the night is young…we would hang out in the parking lot, smoke cigarettes, and make plans on where to meet up in an hour or two. The party would soon start.
Even now all these years later, I still feel that sense of freedom if I just so happen to be outside around that time of night and just the right breeze blows over me. It’s funny, its not something I’d thought I’d remember or reminisce about someday.

take a break

wearing:
hair: MINA – Lily (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: *Moon Tattoo* HENNA BIG

.random.Matter. – Taeyeon Earrings – Onyx (*new* @ N21)
[ kunst ] – Cigarette & holder
[FORMANAILS] NAILS – SKULL – BENTO – MAITREYA

Pretty Mess – Brittney Tank (*new* @ Uber)
BlueberryLuxe Box August – Skirt
Phedora ~ Crysta Boots ~ Maitreya Exclu. ~ 28 C v2 (*new* @ N21)

pose by LePoppycock
ninety – Garage cute Sweet places #12 (*new* @ Kustom9)
7 – Fresh Donuts

Posted in Events, Fashion, Kustom9, ON9, Phedora, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes, shopping, {le fil casse}

Do Not Be Afraid

“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.”
― Plato

Wow, it has been quite a while since I started post with a quote. Of course, one is never quite sure what they will find when they go to read my blog. Perhaps a song, a story, a poem, a rant, or like today… some thoughts with a hopefully a sprinkle of wisdom. This particular quote hits home, because I look back at my life and see exactly where fear of success derailed my life over and over again. Failure? Nah, I’m good at that. My entire childhood was an education on how I would never be good enough for more than pleasing a man. My mother taught me to surrender to a man’s will. She was old fashioned and believed in standing by even the most monstrous of men. She preferred the comfort of denial that lies created for her. Looking back, I can see so clearly that she’s never been a fan of truth. Even the simplest of stories are exaggerated for no other reason that her apparent allergy to honesty. Don’t get me wrong, I love her and I’d be lost without her, but that doesn’t make her perfect.  My father on the other hand, perversely manipulative and abusive in every sense of the word. Though he told me repeatedly I’d be a whore and a slut in high school, I rarely dated at all and did not lose my virginity until I was 19. Years later when I proudly told him that he was wrong and how I had waited, he smirked and said that was his plan all along. For he knew I was defiant by nature and would prove him wrong. I know now, that was simply more of his manipulation. I think fewer things brought him more joy than messing with my head.

You may be wondering, what all of this has to do with the quote. It’s simple really. If we are taught to fear everything…if we are sheltered from the truth…fear will easily control our life and limit us in ways we never imagined until it is genuinely too late. Living behind a closed door or in the shadows can be so comforting. We cannot get burned by a light we never see, but the truth is in the light. Until we release ourselves from the shadows of fears, both real and imagined, we can never be free. For it is the truth that sets us free and that truth does not hide in the dark, it is us that choose to stay in the dark.

I have often said that I would rather be hurt by the truth than comforted with a lie. The older I get the more I stand by that statement. Do not be afraid of the light just because you outgrew your fear of the dark.

behind the door

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Sherazade Hair (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

{le fil casse}  Madison Dress (*new* @ Whimsical)
Phedora ~Zaidee Platforms (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose: FOXCITY. Cute But Psycho Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)
**slightly edited with AnyPose
taikou / dusk backdrop with materials (*new* @ Kustom9)

Posted in Cynful, E.A.Studio, Fashion, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Love Me

How could this be anything but a music post? The minute I saw this gorgeous Neveah jumpsuit from Cynful I knew exactly how I wanted to photograph it. It screams “love me” doesn’t it? This led me to an earworm….so here you go…link & lyrics…details below the picture. Have a good one♥

Lovepool by The Cardigans

Dear, I fear we’re facing a problem
You love me no longer, I know
And maybe there is nothing that I can do
To make you do
Mama tells me I shouldn’t bother
That I ought to stick to another man
A man that surely deserves me
But I think you do!
So I cry, I pray and I beg
Love me love me
Say that you love me
Fool me fool me
Go on and fool me
Love me love me
Pretend that you love me
Leave me leave me
Just say that you need me
So I cry, and I beg for you to
Love me love me
Say that you love me
Leave me leave me
Just say that you need me
I can’t care ’bout anything but you
Lately I have desperately pondered,
Spent my nights awake and I wonder
What I could have done in another way
To make you stay
Reason will not lead to solution
I will end up lost in confusion
I don’t care if you really care
As long as you don’t go

love me

wearing:
hair: .LeLutka.HF03 hair
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1

Astralia – Wisdom angel bracelets Black
.:E.A.Studio:. BOX Moray Nails -Gloves-Ring Set

[Cynful] Neveah Jumpsuit
KC– IMPERO BOOTS

pose by Foxcity (edited with Anypose)
scene:
Pseudo– Movie theather Scene
Quasi – Love Me Neon Sign

Posted in Events, Fashion, N21, Pretty Mess, Second Life, Self Reflection, shopping

Just Be

Yesterday was a bad day. Nothing in particular happened, it was just one of those days where I felt like I had no people skills. My mind was cloudy. I hard a really hard time just thinking about anything that wasn’t laid out in front of me in black and white. I wanted to stay in bed more than anything. To hide under the covers from the world. I did not care about the eclipse, but felt like I should. I just didn’t.
I’m quite fortunate that Josh understands me better than most and understood that I just needed to be. Simply be. We watched some Netflix together, a comedy and we laughed. We didn’t talk much, but we shared time together and he let me be myself.  A few of my friends understood, Rebel even suggested it might be hormones at that’s certainly a possibility. She sent me the link to one of my favorite bad mood songs and that made me grin. I think only three people were aware of how I was feeling and all three were very compassionate.
It wasn’t one of those situations that could be fixed and they knew that. They knew I simply needed to just be. I suppose that might not make sense to some, but for I do believe we all have days like that. We just wake up on the wrong side of the proverbial bed and want more than anything to lash out or be left alone. I knew if I was forced to interact with too many people yesterday I would end up saying or doing something I’d later regret. I went to bed quite early, which led me to wake up too soon. I lied there in my bed thinking how I could make sure today would be different and I just decided that it will be. I cannot suffer another day like yesterday. It felt ridiculous to be so seemingly angry for no apparent reason. Today, I will have a good day if it kills me. *thinks for a minute and grins* Or perhaps kills someone else. *smirks*

Free of Resentment

wearing:
hair: tram G0728 hair / FATPACK+HeadbandHUD UltraRARE (*new* @ PocketGacha)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
tattoo: *Moon Tattoo* LARGE LOTUS

-SU!- Bento Piercing Set 03
EarthStones Tania Belly Ring

Pretty Mess – qt bb Sweater  (*new* @ N21)
.::Dead Dollz::. Erzbetha Skirt (*new* @ N21)

pose by Foxcity

Posted in Cheeky Ink, Events, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Lybra, Mina Hair, shoes, shopping, ThereAfter

Past Present Future

Sometimes when I’m driving on the interstate to get from one side of town to the other, I think about how the roads in my town were when I was a kid. There was no interstate going through our town then, a couple of highways, but that’s it. I think how spaced aged it kinda looks and I wonder what our ancestors would think of it. Thinking back to the horse and buggy days, before cars and paved roads were even a thing.
I think about how much things have changed simply in my lifetime, much less my mother’s, and then the scariest of them all…how things will change over the course of our children’s lives. I always thought the future would be more streamlined and cleaner. Nicer somehow, but it seems all the hate and dirty parts of the world have simply been more exposed.
I wonder what how you imagine the future. I wonder how children of today imagine the future. I wonder how our parents imagined the future. Share your thoughts with me, I’d really like to know.

Past Present Future

wearing:
hair: MINA – Myla (*new* @ ThereAfter)
hairbase: MINA hairbase HUD – Myla – Catwa
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
tattoo: (( Cheeky Ink )) Grease Tattoo
outfit: LYBRA  . Raven (*new* @ ThereAfter)
boots: LYBRA  . Raven Boots  (*new* @ ThereAfter)

pose by Foxcity (Show Off Set)
Foxcity. KPOP STAR – RARE1 – White Wolf (*new* @ PocketGacha)
Fancy Decor: Capsule Light (white) (*new* @ Blush)
Fancy Decor: Capsule Light (silver) (*new* @ Blush)

Posted in CandyDoll, Events, Fashion, Lybra, Second Life, shoes, shopping

F*ck Yeah

Some people say I cuss too much and that cussing shows a lack of a better vocabulary or that it’s a lazy way of expressing yourself. I say, “Fuck off!” I like cussing. I especially like the fact that so many people allow a word to offend them.  A word! Not a racial slur, not a hate filled word, just a word…that is one of the most versatile words in the ever so eloquent English language. Yes, it is a legitimate word. It has earned its place in the dictionary with all sorts of examples and you can even find its origin if you look. Seriously, Google your favorite online dictionary, it’s in there!
I’m an adult, I cuss. I’m a responsible adult that knows there’s a time and place for everything. So, no, I’m not going to scream FUUUCKKK when I stub my toe in the middle of a mall, but when I’m talking to my dog in my yard I will certainly encourage her to hurry the fuck up. *laughs* So, have a good fucking day! (You can take that whichever way you like.)

fuck yeah

wearing:
hair: *Besom Hair~ Pixie *Blondes* #6 (*new* @ PocketGacha)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

[ kunst ] – Vintage Cigarette Holder
*T.Whore* – Sexy Fur Stole Black MESH (store closed)
LYBRA . REESE BLOGGERS (*new* @ ROMP)
_CandyDoll_ Raku Heels (*new* @ REWIND)

pose by Foxcity
Pseudo– F-Yeah Room Scene