Posted in Events, Exploration, Fashion, Kustom9, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes

Family Ties

“The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of respect and joy in each other’s life.” ~Richard Bach
I haven’t started a blog with a quote that wasn’t a song lyric in a while, but this topic has been on my mind for some time now. Father’s Day occurred only two days ago and as I scrolled through Facebook I saw message after message about people’s fathers. Some were well wishes, some shared memories of fathers past, and then there were people like me that avoided the subject altogether. I can’t know why others avoided the subject, but I know why I did. I even had to tell Skype (yes, outloud) to stfu. Skype had a message that said, “Fathers are people, too!” My response was, “Not all of them! Some of them are monsters!” I don’t think its a secret that I’m another girl on the grid with daddy issues. Given how common abusive fathers seem to be, we’re merely statistics.
However, I’m not going to waste this post or your time bitching about my father. Instead, I want to embrace the blessing of family bonding with people I’ve never even met face to face. Like many other people in Second Life, I am part of a family. I don’t always feel like part of the family, as most of them really don’t talk to me much and to be fair, its not like I go out of my way to hunt them down and pursue conversations either. Yet, I do feel like a few of them would truly be there if I needed them.
I think the truest “family” I have on the grid would probably be the cunts. Now, hold on, don’t get your britches twisted, we call ourselves the Cunt Cult and we’re a group of besties. At the core there’s four of us, there’s a fifth one, but she’s off living the real life. (She fell in love! SQUEEEE!) Kess, Tracy, Grace, and I have built a bond unlike that I’ve ever known before. We’re not a clique. We don’t go around doing the whole mean girls thing, dressing alike, following a leader. Although, if we did, Kess would be it…she’s bossy like that. *laughs* My point is…while some of us don’t have traditional families in real life or even partake in family groups on the grid, we have each other. We have that bond between friends that is as strong, if not stronger, than any family ties I’ve ever known. For that, I am grateful.
I have so many circles of wonderful friends inworld that I am so grateful for and I love them each dearly. Though we may not speak every day and some not even every week, we are there for one another when it counts. I’m also grateful for my fur babies in real life, because they are just as much a part of my family as my mother or my husband. Even though they can’t make me coffee in the morning.
So, whatever kind of family ties you have, hold them close, hold them dear to you heart, and don’t wait for some “holiday” to celebrate them. Tell them today that you love them, because none of us are guaranteed a tomorrow.

family

wearing: 
hair
:  Lamb. Home (June Luxe Box)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Arcade)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
UC_Jane_Fringe_mini_dress_slate (*new* @ Kustom9)
#EMPIRE – Wandflower (June VIP Group Gift)

pose by Double Take
location: The Mill 

Posted in Events, Fashion, Gingerfish Poses, Kustom9, Phedora, Second Life, shopping

#SadyOnMyAss

A few months ago I was over the moon, a little confused, and a teensy bit overwhelmed as I was accepted to blog for Phedora. After my first full month of blogging for them, I won blogger of the month! I couldn’t believe it! This came with a monetary prize, as well as them using one of my pics for their flickr cover and I think their Facebook cover, too. I can’t remember about the last one to be sure. However, one of the other prizes was having a design named after me. I was over the moon. There were going to be shoes named Sady!?!?! A couple of months went by and I saw nothing. I had forgotten all about it until one day, Niki Demonix (wife of Lucifer…seriously) was winding the Phedora VIPs up about the WIP and what was coming to Kustom9, I jokingly asked if it was something fabulous named after me. Imagine my surprise when Niki sends me an IM with a gyazo showing me the edit box on a WIP that read Sadystika panties!!!!! WHAT?!?! Yes!
As crazy excited as I was to hear about this, she then begins a campaign with a hashtag: #sadyonmyass

So, if you’re scrolling through Facebook and noticing that hashtag, you can blame Niki. *laughs* I am finding it rather amusing and I do hope you’ll love the set as much as I do. Feel free to use the hashtag or not, but make sure you check it out, because this set is gorgeous!

Around the same time that this set came out, my best friend, Tracy Weston of GingerFish poses, released her top secret collaboration project for eBento. Its an astounding build called Red Light Queen. Its so big in face, that in order to show you the panties I could really only show you one of the poses inside one of the doors. She does have a full scale demo at the event, so if you love photography…if you love naughty pictures…this is a must have set. You will see it again on my blog, of that you can be sure!

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wearing: 
hair
:  TETRA – Pineapple Hair (FLF June 16, 2017)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Arcade)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

Phedora ~ Sadystika Set  (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose & scene: GingerFish Poses – Red Light Queen (*new* @ eBENTO)

Posted in Events, Fashion, fri.day, Pale Girl Productions, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

The Ugliest Thing I Could Find

So, the tie dye pattern on this Migle dress from United Colors reminded me of one of my favorite shirts when I was about 18. There’s actually a funny story about that shirt. My parents got divorced when I was 15, for the first year my mom cried almost every night. After that she went a little wild. She was going on trips quite regularly, but being the awesome mom that she was, she would always bring me a present. Being the mom with awful taste meant I wasn’t going to like it if it was clothing. Then lo and behold she returned from a trip with the most awesome looking black and white tie dyed shirt I had ever seen. It wasn’t even a tee shirt, it was like a wicked blouse! I was so shocked and happy. As I’m standing there hugging the shirt, then holding it up, then ripping off my current shirt to try it on, my mom is standing there laughing so hard she has tears running down her face. Naturally, I had to know what was so damn funny, right?
She wiped the tears from her face and asked if I really liked the shirt. I nodded profusely, “Yes! I love it, Momma! Thank you. I can’t believe you picked this out, though.”
She laughed again for a minute then said, “Well, you never like anything I pick out, so I just looked around the shop for the ugliest thing I could find. You’re welcome.”
Damn woman. We still have opposing taste in most things, but she’s gotten a lot better at picking out gifts over the years. *laughs* Even if she thinks they’re ugly.

shade

 

wearing: 
hair
Tableau Vivant \\ Caprice hair (*new* @ SL14)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: .::Nanika::. Scarlet tattoo Black

UC_Migle_dress (*new* @ SouledOut)
fri. – Dora Sandals (*new* @ Uber)

pose by an lar [poses] The Betty Series (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

location…well, I can’t tell you that, it was at a friend’s beach…sorry, not sorry

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, fri.day, Pale Girl Productions, Scandalize, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes, shopping

Lost on the Dock

When I shot this photo my main objective was to show off some more of the amazing creations you’ll find at the Vintage Fair and various other events across the grid. Okay, done. Then I though about what to write and I spent over an hour on YouTube looking for the perfect song, but nothing quite resonated with the photo. So, I decided to just ramble. Yep, That’s right…I’m going to ramble on about absolutely nothing. How long will you read these words about me writing about nothing? *laughs* I can’t imagine you’ll last too long, unless you a glutton for meaningless words. My mind is just all over the place this morning and I can’t even settle on a topic. Its Friday and I have so much to do in both world that my my is just spinning with ideas, but none of them will land…so, that’s all. Yep, I’m all out of deep thoughts this morning. Hell, I can barely get a regular thought to sit still and there’s no time for a nap today. I wish you all a fantastic weekend though. ♥

dock of the bay

wearing: 
hair
[e] Mabel (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: .::Nanika::. Spring is coming White

MANIK QUEEN – Betty Babes Glasses – Plain (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
Cae :: Sydney :: Earrings (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Cae :: Sydney :: Bracelets (*new* @ FaMESHed)
#187# Summer Beach Bag – Marine
JIAN Countryside Collies :: Companion Pup Sable

Scandalize. Sandra. (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
fri. – Nellie Sandals (*new* @ Arcade)

BOAT: BBX – Mary

[pose was sort of a combination of the hold pose in the bag and my ao, just captured it at the right moment (after about 20 shots)…the location is a friend’s house, but the boat was on loan from another friend]

Posted in Bueno, Events, Kustom9, Second Life, shopping, {le fil casse}

Most Girls

“You know some days you feel so good in your own skin
But it’s okay if you wanna change the body that you came in
‘Cause you look greatest when you feel like a damn queen
We’re all just playing a game in a way, trying to win at life”
Hailee Steinfeld – Most Girls

If you’re a girl, you’ve had to have heard it at least once in your life, “You’re not like most girls.” Of course, I’m not. We’re all different. There are some common factors though and I think that proves true in Second Life more than anywhere else, because in SL most girls want their avatar to be the epitome of beauty as they see it. Oh sure, there are lots of us looking around at other girls in SL thinking, “WTF?” Truth be told, they either love the way they look or they’re simply having fun with their avatar and probably change their avatars regularly. Even if we think an avatar is outdated with bling and/or flexi hair/clothes…a system body/head…perhaps those girls simply don’t like the look of mesh or maybe their computers can’t handle it. Its not for me to say and sure, I’m guilty of giggling with my friends about other avatars, but at the end of the day…who is to say they’re not giggling at us? I’m not trying to make anyone feel guilty for the giggles, so long as those giggles and remarks are kept among friends. I’m not even saying that I won’t do it anymore, because I know I will. What I am saying is that we all have something about our avatars that someone else doesn’t like, but so long as we’re happy with ourselves…our avatars…our representations in a virtual world…THAT is what matters the most, isn’t it? So, if you have a tall thin avatar that resembles an anorexic runway model in the real world, but you love it…good for you and don’t you let anyone change your mind about that. If you have the enormous boobs and butt with the itty bitty waist, but you love it…good. There’s enough body shaming in the real world. Don’t you dare let anyone tell you that your avatar isn’t right, if YOU love it. Now, if you don’t love it…might I suggest you peruse some blogs and create a look you will love? *grins* Oh, just go enjoy the song, do some shopping, and laugh…it is Friday after all…hell, have a drink or five. Live your life and stop worrying about what most girls and doing and be you. ♥

most girls

wearing:
hair
TRUTH / Rumor
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: .::Nanika::. Alexandra tattoo Black Maitreya
skirt{le fil casse} Lilith Skirt (*new* @ Somber)

pose by Foxcity (Cutiepie set)
BUENO-Onyx Hall (*new* @ Kustom9)

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Pale Girl Productions, Phedora, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes, shopping

My Ride

“Oh, oh
I’m falling so I’m taking my time on my ride
Oh, I’m falling so I’m taking my time on my ride
Taking my time on my ride”
Twenty One Pilots-Ride

So, this song started on repeat in my head the minute I started taking this picture and at first I was like, ok, I’ll give them the lyrics and let it go. Then I listened a few more times. Then I read the lyrics without the music, because I love poetry and I recognized the true depth of the song. While its the chorus that usually sticks with us and plants some lovely ear worms, the meat of this song comes in the too quick to keep up in a sing along portion. Give it a read, think it over, then meet me after the row of stars.

 

“I’d die for you
That’s easy to say
We have a list of people that we would take
A bullet for them
A bullet for you
A bullet for everybody in this room
But I don’t see to see many bullets coming through
See many bullets coming through
Metaphorically I’m the man
But literally I don’t know what I’d do
I’d live for you
And that’s hard to do
Even harder to say
When you know it’s not true
Even harder to write
When you know that tonight
There are people back home which are talking to you
But then you ignore them still
All these questions they’re forming like
Who would you live for?
Who would you die for?
And would you ever kill?”

✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪

I hope you have thought it over to yourself, before just skipping to this part. Either way, here’s what I’ve got to say about it…if you’re interested. It’s okay if you’re not, you can scroll on down to the credits. I’ll never know and even if you told me, I’m not going to get butthurt over it. Now that I’ve stalled you enough to make you think one way or the other…let’s jump on down that rabbit hole, shall we?

The whole “die for you” and “take a bullet for you” thing. I can’t know if you’ve ever said it, but I sure have. I can’t know if you have taken a bullet for someone or not, but I haven’t. I have, however, had a gun pulled on me and was more than willing to take that bullet. Being a female, I didn’t have to take the bullet afterall, I just had to take something else while the gun was held to my head. I can say without hesitation that I would be willing to take a bullet for a number of people, but that’s because I’m not afraid to die. I also know that a bullet does not always bring death. So, that answers the next question, as to who I’d die for, because I’d die for quite a number of people if it meant they could keep on living. It’s those same people that I live for, because truth be told if it were just up to me I would have been gone well over a year ago.  I didn’t choose to live for myself. I chose not to bring sorrow and suffering to those I love. Last question, would I ever kill? Yes. If I felt I had no other choice, most definitely. Oddly enough, all of these questions are things I’ve thought about in the past, but I never considered how deeply this song would make think about my past, my present, or my future. Ironically the song points out that the singer has been thinking too much. In turn, the song has caused me to think quite a lot.
After all that heavy thinking, I think I’ll just relax and enjoy what’s left of my ride. Here’s hoping that you can make the most of yours and enjoy it, because as many of us have realized this last week…the ride isn’t as long as we sometimes think it is…*lifts her coffee to the sky*…let’s try to enjoy the ride today as long as it last.

my ride

wearing:
hair
[RA] Marina Hair
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

EF: Summersong Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
*Just BECAUSE* Eva Dress
[VALE KOER] GARTER SOCKS
Phedora ~ Lupe Sneakers (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

pose: [ Focus Poses ] 50’s Tbird (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
backdrop: [Bad Unicorn] ‘The Docks’ Backdrop

 

 

Posted in E.A.Studio, Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Pale Girl Productions, Phedora, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes, shopping

End of the Day

You know how at the end of the day, we shed our clothes, we wash our faces, and brush our teeth? Some of us shower or bathe before bed, too? Then the minute we lay down the events of the day start swirling about in our heads. No, not you, Troy, I know you are one of the few that can just decide to go to sleep and be out like a light the minute your head hits the pillow. Just shut the hell up, not talking to you or any of the people like you! #hatechuall I’m talking to the people like me…the ones that don’t go straight to sleep. Those of you that actually have to wait for sleep to arrive. Mind you, I’m not really hating on those that have Troy’s ability to just sleep. I’m actually quite jealous. However, since I’ve never in my life known what that’s like so for me, its a waiting game. Don’t really want to talk so much about that right now though. *swats Troy* Stop distracting me, will ya?
Ok, so end of the day…you shed your clothes and dirt, right? Yeah, that’s where I was…and then you lay down…yeah…and the day comes back swirling around in your head…now where was I going with that? I think I was going to talk about how we should wash away all the negative thoughts about the day by focusing on the positive things that happened. By remembering how loved we are by those that we have no doubt love us. To remember the ones we love and to really focus on the best parts of the day. Yeah, that’s where I was going with that. I know a lot of people do meditations in the morning or read a positive quote for the day, to try and get the day started on a good note, but why not do the same at night to insure a restful more peaceful sleep. Its something I’ve been trying lately and it seems to be making a difference. So, for those of you like me that have trouble falling asleep at night…give it a try…it can’t hurt, right?

end of the day

wearing:
.:E.A.Studio:. BOX Bashim Bracialets (*new* @ Tres Chic)
!APHORISM! Maya Tank & Panties
Phedora ~ Sugar Flip Flops (June Cutie Loot)

pose by BellePoses – Hello Sailor set (*new* @Vintage Fair)

scene:
18.erratic / lsm – clothing clutter – woman
DRD – Rustic Bathroom – Towel Rack
NOMAD // Improvised // Laundry Basket and Soap
DRD – Rustic Bathroom – Bathtub
+Half-Deer+ Spilled Liquid – Large Puddle – Water Set

Posted in Events, Fashion, Phedora, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes, shopping

These Chains

“Even in these chains, you can’t stop me.
Even in these chains, you can’t stop me!”
In This Moment Big Bad Wolf

The song I quoted above is one of my all time favorite songs and the moment I heard it I recognized the struggle with myself in the lyrics. I often find myself wrapped in the chains of circumstances. Too many times those chains of my own. The fight that goes on in my head with myself is a constant one. Perhaps the voice inside me that belittles me at every turn, the one that abuses me mentally and emotionally, the one that urges me towards death and poor choices…perhaps that’s the part of me that was trained to believe I was nothing but entertainment by my father. Perhaps not. Its quite possible that we all have an inner voice that criticizes our every move. That voice of doubt…of worthlessness…our own worst critic….maybe we all have that voice.
I can’t know how loud other people’s ugly little voices yell or scream, but I know that mine can be deafening. However, I can yell back at them just as loud…at times. The last year and a half have lent so much strength to that hateful voice that I’ve had to lean on friends and medications to keep my head afloat. I teetered on a very fine line between life and death, but now? Now, I am fighting back. I’m standing up and I’m breaking those chains, because I will not be my worst enemy anymore. To that awful voice inside my head, I scream, “Even in these chains, you can’t stop me!”

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hairTableau Vivant \\ Summer Hairplay – Coromuel (*new* @ Arcade)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

[CX] Qilin Horns (Silver)
**RE** Cora Arms Harness 1.2
E.V.E Shroud of Chains {Black} Cape
Phedora Belladona ~ Amoret addon Maitreya nyx (*new* @ Arcade)
Phedora Belladona ~ Amoret Maitreya nyx (*new* @ Arcade)
{Luxuria} Baby Girl Stockings (FLF 6/9/17)
Phedora Belladona ~ Edith platforms Maitreya Nyx (*new* @ Arcade)

background made using a spiked box from The Weekend Ruiner
and uK – Mystic Dew Drops Ani Silver

pose created with AnyPose

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Pale Girl Productions, Pretty Mess, Second Life, shopping

Cherry Bomb

“Hello, dad. Hello, mom.
I’m your ch-ch-ch-cherry bomb!
Hello world! I’m your wild girl.
I’m your ch-ch-ch-cherry bomb!”
The Runaways – Cherry Bomb

I don’t have the mindset to write anything especially deep or meaningful for this post. Oh sure, I thought of analogies about how life’s not a bowl of cherries. Instead, I just have a bunch of random stuff floating about my head as I think about cherries like how I just love cherries. I love cherry designs, cherry lips, and cherry flavored candy. I chose the song Cherry Bomb to quote from for a few reasons. I used Cherry Bomb as a display name for about a year a while back and loved it. I also loved the move about the band. Doing a bit of a retro look with cherries everywhere, it just seemed the natural thing to do.
As I sit here thinking about cherries, I’m reminded of the cherry eating scene from the movie Witches of Eastwick and how they made that one lady throw up cherry pits during church. Don’t yell at me about spoilers, either, cuz if you haven’t seen that movie by now…well…just shame on you. *laughs*
The outfit is from Pretty Mess and can be obtained at the current round of Collabor88, the subtle tattoo and adorable hair are currently at Vintage Fair. I just love how many gorgeous vintage designs can be found all across the grid at the moment. If you love dressing up and playing with the styles of yesteryears, there’s no better time to shop than now.

cherry

hairno.match_ ~ NO_SECRET ~ (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo:  Stardust – Victoria – Black & Red Tattoo (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

Pretty Mess – Donna (*new* @ Collabor88)
pose by Del May

Posted in Events, Exploration, Pale Girl Productions, Second Life, Self Reflection, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

Just Breathe

“Wish I was small
In sunny days
A summer light breeze
Could lead me further”
The White Birch ~ Breathe

Sometimes life delivers me some rather low and sudden blows. Its times like these that I want to either curl up in a ball in the comfort of my bed, wrapped in the familiarity of my blankets, pillows, and dreamless slumber…or I want to run as far from the world as possible…to the edge of nowhere and just feel the comfort of the sun on my skin…a warm breeze caressing my flesh. As beautiful and wonderful as the world of Second Life can be, sometimes even here there is no solace from the harsh dark clouds hovering over me in the real world. Despite the fact that logic tell me, “this is temporary” and “this too shall pass.” Sometimes I cannot help but be swallowed up by the overwhelming desperation swirling like the madness of a tornado in my mind. Try as I may, I cannot always beat my demons with the rational of optimism and logic. Some days its all I can do to just breathe.

kaithleen

hair:  Tableau Vivant \\ Summer Hairplay – Sundowner (*new* @ Arcade)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
eyesCATWA Mesh Eyes Pack
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: Vintage Flowers – White Tattoo [CAROL G] (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

EarthStones Crystal Rain Earrings – Aqua
EarthStones Crystal Rain Double Necklace – Aqua
EarthStones Crystal Rain Long Necklace – Aqua
Kaithleen’s Vintage Summer Dress (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)

pose by oOo Studio
location: Black Kite