Posted in Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Second Life, shopping

Don’t Be Afraid of the Dark

Most of my friends will be quick to tell you that I have a very twisted sense of humor and a fit of giggles is often followed by extreme coughing as I often laugh so hard that I forget to breathe…and yes, on a few occasions I’ve passed out from laughing too hard.

muertos3I recently got quite tickled over phrases that can and often do sound dirtier in my head than they’re originally intended. One example is, “Things go bump in the night.” Even now I have the stupid little grin on my face, because all I can think is, “They do if you’re lucky!” As I was taking these pictures with the adorable little “dia de los muertos” pillow in the background I kept thinking about silly crass remarks like, “Killed it!” Which led to a series of much more disturbing thoughts that I won’t even begin to share.
*sneezes in Nish’ direction*            Oh! Excuse me!

This is one of the things I actually like about myself and I don’t think we acknowledge our good traits enough. Sure, we’ll put ourselves down and some of us can even accept a compliment, others not even that. How are we supposed to convince other people that we admire their qualities if we can’t even acknowledge our own? I don’t mean go bragging about something you can do. I mean personality traits. I have a wicked sense of humor and I enjoy it. While I know its not for everyone and is often ill-timed, I happen to think I’m pretty darn funny….most of the time. I’m no comedian, but I sure amuse myself and that counts for something, right? I realize there’s a fine line here. Some will go about telling the world how nice they are and how generous they are, but honestly…that’s not at all what I mean.  I’m thinking more along the lines of traits you essentially live with. How you are when you’re all alone with yourself. Are you kind to yourself? Do you make yourself laugh? Can you love yourself? (with the Hitachi, Nikole!) Have you pampered yourself lately? Why wait for the kindness, humor, love, and attention from someone else? Show yourself a good time!

muertosAnd I can’t even get through all that positive affirmation stuff without the dirty thoughts and yes, I’m quite sure it has nothing to do with my booty being on display. Okay, fair enough, the pictures probably don’t help, but hey, you’re still reading!
Yeah, so love yourself however you see fit, but do love yourself, even the dark and twisted parts of yourself. Cuz I’ve got to somehow tie this all back to the title I gave this post and really don’t want to change…so appreciate your weirdness and don’t be afraid of the dark.

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I should really try to get more sleep before writing this stuff, huh? Get the lights will ya? Thanks….zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz…oh…*snorts*…deets….below…zzzzzzz.

wearing:
TRUTH HAIR Debra –  variety
CATWA HEAD Gwen
IKON Hope Eyes – Ice
MG – Necklace – Raisa
Slink Physique Mesh Body Hourglass
[HoR] Rule Bodysuit (*new* @ Swank)
Blueberry – Blaire Skirt  (*new* @ Collabor88)
REIGN.– CLASSIC JANE HEELS AND STOCKINGS (*new* @ Collabor88)

scene:
:CP: Waltzer Chair Muertos (*new* @ TMD)
Maxi Gossamer – H&G – Curtains (*new* @ FaMESHed)
poses by Bauhaus Movement

Posted in Exploration, Fashion, Second Life, Self Reflection, shopping

Almost Wasn’t

At one point earlier this year, I was in a very dark place and if not for a few small miracles and the support of my amazing friends…well, I’m not proud to say it, but I was on the verge of giving up…the ultimate surrender. I went from one dark period of my life into a completely destructive period of my life. My friends watched helplessly, doing their best to support me, encourage me, and keep an eye on me. I know that my friend Tracy worried endlessly. Others were at a complete loss as to what to do with me. I pushed people away and withdrew into the darkest recesses of my mind. I did things I’m not proud of and I did things that were not only mentally unhealthy, but physically dangerous.
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I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately, because I recently survived the anniversary of the event that sent me into that downward spiral. I’m approaching a few more anniversaries in the upcoming months and I’m being flooded with some very dark memories. I’m actually hoping for some seriously cold weather this year. There’s something so therapeutic about long walks on a cold night with music blaring in my ears, even if I’m crying or wanting to scream.
But once again, I find myself extremely grateful for the amazing friends I have in Second Life, because despite the distance between us in the real world, they are favorite people and quite honestly, my lifeline. So, with my birthday being so amazing, I’m looking forward to sharing the holidays with them this year and perhaps this year they won’t seem quite so dark. I will not mourn the loss of this past years, nor will I mourn the darkness that consumed me. Instead, I shall embrace the light and dance in it. I hope you can all do the same. ♥
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So, about this stuff…as always I’m an event addict and the latest round of TLC has really got some amazing finds….everything but the shoes and the claws in this look is from TLC. You rarely see me do that, because I try to mix and match from multiple events…but as soon as I saw this gorgeous hat, the hair, the necklace, the dress….well, I knew I had the perfect shoes already…and how could I resist? I couldn’t…you’re welcome. *winks*

wearing:
AZOURY – Shinobi Headwear (*NEW* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
hair: NO.MATCH_NO.DARKNESS.  (*NEW* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
EarthStones Spider Cascade Necklace (*NEW* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
:Diamante: Claws
!:Lybra:! The Widow Black (*NEW* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
LRD Pumps Freedom (*NEW* @ Pretty Things)

location: Whole Wheat

Posted in Fashion, Home Decor, Landscaping, Second Life, shopping

Falling for Fall

I’m hard pressed to pick “favorites” of anything and its those types of questions that always make the me facepalm in my head. What’s your favorite color? Well, seriously it depends on what its being applied to…generally speaking I want to say black. Although, technically black is not a color. (Something drummed into my head by art teachers over the years.) If someone asks me what my favorite food is…just forget it. I can’t even! However, ask me my favorite season and without hesitation my answer will be Fall/Autumn! Favorite month? October! Why is this one so easy? Well, its simple. My birthday AND Halloween are both in October. Those just so happen to be my favorite holidays, too! Yes, my birthday is a holiday, thank you very much! Don’t hate! Celebrate, because tis the season!
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Despite this being my favorite season, I am NOT a pumpkin spice addict. I like pumpkin pie and my mom’s pumpkin roll(its like a jelly roll or yule log, sorta…its to die for!). That’s about it. Sure, I admit it. I’ll try the other stuff that’s pumpkin flavored and for the record..somethings do NOT belong in my coffee and pumpkin is one of those things…BLECH! I’m thinking I might like that Rumchata drink everyone is talking about…I’ll get back to you on that…then again, it has Rumchata in it..that’s enough to hook me.
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Naturally I went completely bonkers when I saw the pumpkin patch set from Fancy Decor, top that off with the broken wagon, and hay bales…omgaw..I am in autumn heaven. I couldn’t stop with just one picture and you can be sure you’ll see these gorgeous pumpkins again and again this season!

credits:
MINA – Therese – Black
CATWA HEAD Dyana
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Prodigy Ink–7P-Paradise Tattoo
imbue. oversize knit – maitreya – dusty brown
fri.day – Lovey.Stockings
fri. – Ingrid.Boots (Chocolate)

Fancy Decor: Harvest Cart (*new* @ The Pumpkin Patch at Fancy Decor)
Fancy Decor: Belted Hay (*new* @ The Pumpkin Patch at Fancy Decor)
TLG – Scarecrow Sam
Apple Fall Coffee & Muffin
Fancy Decor: Pumpkins A-E (all colors) (*new* @ The Pumpkin Patch at Fancy Decor)
=EliBaily= Ivy
Apple Fall Cotton Cluster
JIAN Kitten Collection :: *FaMESHED Bonus* Sitting Kitten
[we’re CLOSED] grass field dry
[ keke ] willow leaves for ground – maxi
Fancy Decor: Broken Wagon (*new* @ Salem)